It's not goodbye~Laura Pausini

Suddenly I have this thoughts.....

Finally...on 27th May 2010 at 7.15pm my lovely wan did past away...It was such a sad day for my beloved baba,since he was just on the way back to KL from Penang and suddenly he got call from his sister saying that his mother had just past away...Ooo...I feel you baba...I don't really think I could live at the thought of losing my own mother...Yes..we did fight sometimes but my mum is everything to me..(Even if she force me to marry that 'previous guy' ..yes..I will do it for you mama)Do I sound so obedient??So not Fatihah.....

But..when I do think back, yes...currently I don't really care with whom I will end up marrying with...why??Because seriously, I don't believe in LOVE anymore. Call me crazy, call me blind, call me stupid and please call me anything and yes..I have turn into this heartless little girl with no feelings towards anyone..by anyone I mean a guy. It is true I am attached with that particular someone, but I don't count on him to give me the "so called love" that he promised because I know he did something (let me say, he did a thing which I don't think a normal women would accept). Should I count on someone who did "that"??I don't think so...Well..being me, I am a complicated person who love to be in complicated situation so basically, yes..I do stick with him since he does make me happy and he does treat me well so I guess I should be with him..for now laa...

Once upon time ago, I thought life was simple...who knows...the more older we get, the more hard the life is...that is why, when they say, Life is complicated...please tell me people...what life is not complicated??even if you are a cat, your life will be complicated as well...
Talking about life will never come to an end. Since we all have life to live on, I guess the best way to have a good life is just keep on living with it, no matter how hard life is,just remember that other people might face a more complicated life than we are. As long as we have a good health and people who always around us & love us..we should cherish every moment that we had and might have in near future....

Dear me,

Life is hard..Love is hurt..because it is complicated and it hurt you that is why you chose to be in this life...so please..be strong okay~

you

Dear You,

I do care...but I pretend not to...

Dear You,

I am ego..because of you...

Dear You,

Maybe tomorrow I will start to talk to you again..


Thank you...

I share it with her~

My life is complicated but I don't really share it with everyone. Why??Because, not everyone can actually understand me...Yes..call me crazy..but I love being in complicated situation...Why??Because, life is not about being perfect sometimes the imperfect make your life colourful..

I know..I don't really love to talk about my private life nowadays..Why??Because, people don't actually listen but they judge other people as well...

But I do share things with this girl..Why??Because she don't judge but she actually listen..

Thanks babe~

thanks for being a good listener!!

We eat & eat & eat.....

A day where we spent time together..updating all new stories...especially on our beloved Fidal..who is going to get engage within a week!!Congrats to our beloved Fidal...wow...never thought you were going to be the 1st one among us...huu~

-wif Fidal (a tunang org to be)-

I was accidently bought a new shirt..damn!!


It was a day where we ate a lot...and for the first time in my life..I do spent a lot on foods...nice~

We ate at Sushi King then Tony's Roma and having our tea time at DELICIOUS~(WOW..org kaya makan...)

- Us @ DELICIOUS -

p/s: Looking forward to see them........

I Pretend

Pretend to be okay..


Pretend to be cool..


Pretend to be understanding


But seriously, I am not okay, I am not cool, I am not a very understanding person....


I try to..but I can't...I can't pretend anymore..It's killing me softly bee~

Ooo..dear Heart...keras please...please make my heart stone for bee...


p/s: Looking forward to see Mady...;))

Tired!!

I am tired of feeling this way.....


I am tired to try......


I am tired to care.....


I am tired to live in a lie.....


I am tired of pretending......


The truth is..I am tired + tired + tired....


-To be continued...........

Keep on Judging & talking

People love to talk...so keep on talking people......

People love to judge..eventhough they don't even have a clue....so please..keep on judging people....


Dear people,

I am not mad...I don't hate you people...I know..you guys are too concern about me I guess..that's why you people talking/judging me right??

So..please...go ahead talking/judging..I am being me as always...but Just so you people know...people around you are actually talking about you too..so before you start talking/judging other people..look around you...are you sure that they are not talking/judging you??

Think people!!

Kenapa??

Kenapa perlu ada rasa jealous??


Kenapa perlu ada rasa sakit hati??


Kenapa perlu marah??


Kenapa & kenapa & kenapa.....

saya sepatut buat bodoh sahaja...hati oh hati..keras please....

Love you mama..Happy mothers day!!

For u mama....lots of hugs & kisses!!

I am here because of you

Out of the blue......Suddenly....

Suddenly...I felt so alone...eventho yes...I do have Jejaka PCSB...but things are too complicated between us...sigh~


Suddenly I was thinking about you En Chocolate...and yes...sad to say...I've been dreaming of you last nite eventho I was suppose to dream of Jejaka PCSB....


Suddenly I miss you En Chocolate....I know I shudnt feel this way..but what to do..feeling is something that we have no control...it happen..that's why people say..LOVE happens~


Okay2...focus2...tamau emotional...maybe I shud call Jejaka PCSB to take my mind of En Chocolate......


Okay nite...


p/s: will always miss you En chocolate..but we were never meant to be together~

I promise I won't ignore you..

From now on..I promise...I won't ignore you.....

No matter what..no matter how...okay..I will be there for you...(until when??)

I know...it is tough for me...but what shud I do??The more I stay away...the more close you came to me..So I guess...it won't do any good for us..I shud just let you in my life...sigh~

Always telling myself that I won't fall for you..but I'm afraid...lama-lama I will fall for you kot...but I tamau....I know..it won't do me any good if I'm with you....please2...hati keras...feeling2 go away~

Both of us are way to far of being just friend...betul tak??sigh~

Okay....just let it happen.....

Dulu & Now

Dulu.....

I use to say....'Owhh...I won't compete on guy'....

Now....

I'm proud to say...unfortunately I have to compete with her and her and her....to get his attention...sigh~


Seriously not happy with it....I rather compete in term of works or studies..but please people...I am not going to compete on guys!!!!!Gila sadis........

Yes..I'm not ready to compete...even sampai bila2 pun..yes..I won't compete....To you girls...please....take him...take him away from me...And you cik perempuan, you don't have to perli2 me....I know you feel so tergugats...so please save all your worries...he is all yours..


Thank you very much....


p/s: Owhhh...he just text me...what am I suppose to do cik perempuan??your so called Bf were looking for me..Why huh??Please take a good care of your So called Bf okay....wink**