Don't let me go..............

Some things we don't talk about
Rather do without and just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of, together all the while

You can never say never
While we don't know when
But time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

Picture, you're the queen of everything
Far as the eye can see under your command
I will be your guardian when all is crumbling
I'll steady your hand

You can never say never
While we don't know when
But time, time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

We're pulling apart and coming
Together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together
Pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

It is funny..............

It is funny…bila you don’t even know who the person is..you don’t even know how he looks like..and you never know about his existence but all of sudden, he became such an important person in your life…
It is funny kan??It is weird as well…Is this a coincidence??Is this what we called a fate?Is this what it is meant to be??

I think the answer is all of the above kot…betul x??

Who is he actually??

He is someone I never thought I would fall into..

He is actually a rebound guy..(ya..typical me..I need a new guy to forget the other guy..sigh~)
He is a person I shouldn’t be involve with at the 1st place..(I’m sorry that I did..)

He is a bad boy whom I know are going to break my heart…

He is someone who clearly has a girlfriend….

He is the 2nd guy who actually get into me..

Yes..kasihan Fatihah…and padan muka to you as well Fatihah..you are the one to be blame kot..you yg mulakan dulu….

It is funny kan…a person you want the most is sum1 you can’t have..I guess this is the reason why I don’t believe that I should be in love to be in a relationship with a guy..It’s true..a relationship need love..and love itu boleh berkembang kot..secara naturally…I don’t have to be so in love with a guy to start a relationship with..as long as he makes me happy..he can take a good care of me..it is enough for me..later on..I will definitely learn how to love him..seriously, it is not hard for me to be in love with a guy pun…betul ok..mak tak tipu nyah~

It is funny…despite all the bad things/hurtful stuff he did to me…I still accept him…I still can’t get over him…well itu la CINTA kan??

It is funny…no matter how hurt I am…still I did answer all his calls and reply all his texts…why?sebab CINTA laaa…..

It is funny..when you are actually realized all these things…but you still can’t get yourself out of this mess…kenapa??CINTA punya pasal laaa….

It is funny..when you tell the whole world how hurt you are..but still you are doing that same mistakes over and over again…..

So..when are you going to stop??Sumpah..I have no idea…I am badly hurt..but I guess..I love to be hurt rather than feel nothing at all…Sumpah…I want it to stop…but I don’t have the guts to do so….

Dear you,

It is hurt to be your No.2…but I can’t lose you..not now…not just yet…
No worries..I won’t ask you for anything.not now..not in any near future…
It is not funny now..when I’m actually missing you and knowing that I can’t have you…

Yours truly,

Fatihah..

Perfect Nightmare~

Sometimes we fight
Sometimes I cry
Why don't I
Just tell him goodbye
Sometimes I should
But sometimes I don't
Build up the strength to
Say that it's wrong
Sometimes I hate
Sometimes I love
Sometimes I hurt
Sometimes I don't
Sometimes I wait
For him to change
But it's okay
I've disguised the pain

And I don't ever wanna leave him alone
They say i'm brainwashed but i'm in love with this man
Yeah~

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream

No way (x7)
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
Perfect nightmare

Don't be nice to a guy

It is Monday and I am doomed…yup..Monday blues..am not really into work. How I wish I could just sleep for another more hour….but obviously I can’t..I need to work..to put foods on the table (so not true…I just want to be a bit sarcastic today)LOL~

It is Monday…I know there a lot of works to be done..but I am so freaking lazy…I have made few calls but no one seems to answer my calls…so I am quite not in the mood now…haihs~
I was supposed to go up and see one of the big bosses but apparently he is not in the office...there goes my mood...

As usual, once I’m up there haruslah go & visit one of my girls cik S..Fyi, I love her new hair do..she looks young/fresh & trendy with her new hair..I like!!

Well basically, both of us are not close but we are nice towards each other and since she is cool/friendly/fun to be with so we are comfortable with each other. We love to talk to each other and sometimes share few stuff. It happen today, suddenly we have this talk on guys. She asked me, do I’m actually in a relationship with sum1?what kind a guy I was into?Well, am not speechless actually since I have all the answers if ppl were to ask me this sort of question..(am not trying to sound ‘berlagak’ but it’s true..I did have the answers..LOL)

Am I in a relationship with anyone?
My answer is, No I am not in a relationship with anyone or been exclusively with sum1 but I do date sum1. Okay??satisfied?

What kind a guy I was into?
My answer is, I am so into confident guy. A guy with confident is everything. Confident make a guy sexy, attractive and no words can describe how incredibly gorgeous a guy is when he is confident.

Seriously, I have been in love with a confident guy before, it was nice but things did not work out but I blame no one but myself. Why? BECAUSE I WAS TOO NICE TO HIM~

Yup..this is me…am always being nice to a guy. At the end of the day, I’m the one who suffer..congratulation!!

Back to my conversation with cik S, when I told her about the guy I’ve been dating with…immediately she told me…” Babe..I’m not saying that I have lots of experience with guys but one thing I do learn from my previous relationship is, don’t be nice to a guy”. Okay…I was like..I was always nice to a guy, I always let a guy to control me, I always let my feelings take control of myself….sigh~

Yes, this is the ugly truth..when we are nice to a guy, they tend to take advantage of that situation. Trust me,It is easy for a woman to love but it is not easy for a guy to actually be in love.

So girls, DON’T BE NICE

Lelaki with money...

It is true...women adore guys with money....we are not talking about few hundreds ok girls...but you know..a totally rich guy...Ya...I do admit..sometimes I wish I cud marry a rich guy..(in my dreams anyway...berangan nk kahwin with Cristiano Ronaldo laa...)

But what do actually those rich guys are looking for??Do you think they really care on how good a WOMEN cooking skills are??Or..perhaps...do they even care if you can actually spoke 5 differents language??Well..guess what...NO...they don't really give a damn about those things..because, all they want is..all they need is...for us WOMEN to succumbs will their needs...
Yup..dunia ini mmg kejam..lets face it..this is life..they don't care about our inner quality if you don't have that outside beauty...BETUL TAK??

Okay..money is important..seriously..I cant imagine my life without them..call me a mata duitan..I don't care..am not trying to be hypocrite here...but still money can't buy love..money can't buy happiness....so..please do remind me again..why am I actually need money??
Owhh..ya...I need money to buy new shoes/heels, new bags, new clothes, and what else...you know men, women have lots of needs...and it's always going to cost you guys...sorry~

But..I am truly happy with myself...despite of my craziness towards money, I never did physco any guys to spent their money on me...unless..if they want too...you know guys..when they want you, they willing to spent on you..typical la kan....

Dang..it's near 12am...and I have to work esok..to meet those rich guys...need to catch up with you later gadis kecil....

To be continue then..........

Kerja~

My so called job


I love my job..there is no doubt…who wont?It is hard to be in this industry actually but once you are in, it is good for your future…it’s true….

I learn a lot here..I truly do…which I am very grateful for it..who knows, nowadays I can actually talk about it..lol~

But…there is always sort of the ugly side of it..am not complaint.but, it is something I guess ppl shud know or ppl shud be aware of..it is the reality of life I guess…and it is not pretty…

Well, working in such a big industry in such a big organization (not as big as Petronas) you will actually see/experience lots of things…you will know a lot types of ppl..which is very interesting…I love ppl,I love to make new friends,senang cerita…I love my colleagues laaa….but…not all ppl are nice..it is true right??no matter where & when, mean ppl are everywhere ok..and you need to know how to handle them with care..betul tak??(well…we have too..)

Okay..back to the main thing, let me just say….sometimes ppl are using you for the sake of their benefits..maybe for the sake of the organization it self..or maybe for their own personal benefit…Umm..Do I make it sound complicated??

Okay fine..to tell you the truth..I am tired of being used..why??by whom??
Let me just say…when you are a woman, you are going to be use so that things will get more simpler..more easy..and the work itself are easily done…thank you~

Owh..by whom??well….like Nabil said,”lu pk la sendiri”…

So, the moral of the story is…..seriously,I have no idea…but what I did is, you just have to defend yourself…ok..take care!!