is waiting outside the lines

You’ll never enjoy your life,
living inside the box
You’re so afraid of taking chances,
how you gonna reach the top?

Rules and regulations,
force you to play it safe
Get rid of all the hesitation,
it’s time for you to seize the day

Instead of just sitting around
and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground,
the time is now

I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting,
I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines

Serial Killer..I'm Obsessed??

Lately I have this obsession on serial killer…LOL~Don’t get me wrong…by obsessed means…lately, I love to watch all the movies relates to serial killer cases…trust me…it is so damn interesting when you can observe how details do they did all the killing process. and it is true. When it comes to serial killer, their motivation came from what did happen in their childhood. (my own opinion)

Well due to my obsession towards serial killer, therefore I did some research on my own about their behavior, life pattern, causes and etc….

Serial killers behaviour can be classified as a organizational and social skill. They can be organized or disorganized (depending on the type of crime scene) and nonsocial or asocial (depending on whether they are excluded by society or exclude themselves).

The majority of identified serial killers are organized and nonsocial. Most of them also follow some other basic patterns. Serial killers are generally intelligent, and they usually kill women. There's no way to "tell" a serial killer simply by his appearance -- most of them look like everyone else. We take for example a guy like Ted Bundy. Don’t you think that he looks normal?? A guy like him, with a typical good looks and a kind a guy who always interest other women, who in the world could think that he is a serial killer??
Ted Bundy, who was convicted of 30 murders, was often described as attractive, charismatic and articulate. John Wayne Gacy was a popular figure in his community and often performed as a clown at block parties. He met with first lady Rosalynn Carter when he was precinct captain of his local Democratic Party. He was also convicted of the murders of 33 boys and men. (Don’t judge books by it’s cover)

Often, serial killers exhibit three behaviors in childhood known as the MacDonald triad: bed-wetting, arson and cruelty to animals. They are also likely to have come from broken homes and been abused or neglected. Although some are shy and introverted, others are gregarious and outgoing but actually feel very isolated.
Many theorists point to the troubled childhoods of serial killers as a possible reason for their actions. (See..my theory was right after all)

The most exciting serial killer of them all would be the one and only “JACK THE RIPPER”. It started on 1888, and until now no one could actually identify who is actually the Jack the ripper. He is also known as the “Whitechapel murderer” since most of his killing act in the Whitechapel area which is one of the districts in London.

Throughout the cases, the Scotland Yard has come up with quite a few suspects but no one can actually conclude who is actually the real murderer because no one is caught.

And owh…not to forget “the zodiac killer”, he is one of a hell killer. Why??
Well, base on his pattern of killing, it seems that he kills couples/lovers to be exact.
His first killing started on December 20th, 1968 where he kills two teenagers in Lake Herman Road, just outside Benicia city.

Base on my research, they said that he did a total of 37 murders base on the letter that he did send to the local newspaper “The chronicles”
But no one actually no the exact figure right?

Actually, there are lots of serial cases that I wish to share here but I guess people would assume that I am a freak..hehe..Well, I don’t blame people since as a human being we all have things to be obsessed right?? And it happened that I am obsessed with serial killer cases. One should admire their piece of work right??HAHAHA…

It is a remarkable what a brain can do right?? Imagine that Albert Einstein manage to explore 1% of his brain and he came up with E=mc2 so what’s up with all the serial killer?? Are they actually insane or do they actually think too much trying to be smart like Einstein??

LATER I will definitely share other serial killer cases. It is interesting once you get your hands on it…Trust me…facts are more fun than fictions even though I do crave for fictions sometime..LOL~

En Cokelat is getting engage??

Dear Cokelat,

You tahu kan..I do stalked your FB??

I heard that you are getting engage…betul ke?

I know..it is none of my business if you are getting engage ke??married ke??or apa2 pun…

But…sorry to say, I can’t help myself of feeling jealous towards you..I know..it sounds ridiculous…
Why am I supposed to be jealous??

Maybe because I still have feeling for you..

Maybe because I am still not over you...

Maybe because deep down..I still hang on to you…for what??Seriously…I have no idea…

I don’t know why I feel hurt knowing that you are happy now…I should not have such feeling for you kan??

I should move on…I did..but I guess…I lied………

I do care for sum1 else now…but deep inside me…I still care about you..still want to know things about you..

I can go crazy you know..if I keep thinking about you…sakit hotak gua…

Sumpah right now, I don’t have the heart to even text that sum1…why??sebab I am thinking of you right now….

I need to forget you……..you are happy now with someone else……I need to be happy with sum1 else too….

Dear heart,

Sila pulang boleh??I am tired of feeling this way……………..

My Brother's Pasar Segar

Finally.....my 22 years old brother own a 'Pasar Segar'....Congrats Brother...you did good...

Yup..you work hard for it Bro..and you are getting thinner because of it too!!It's okay...next weekend I'm going to treat you "Wong Solo" (err...I will ask baba to belanja la...)

Here it is....his own 'Pasar segar'

When it comes to business ppl might think that things are easy when you have the money, but trust me.....it is not that easy...it is tough...it consume time..and it such a tiresome..but what to do??

We need to put foods on the table...chewahh...It's okay...my family love to make new business..it's in our blood...LOL

It is true....we loves money...hohoho~

Owh...wait till you see our next business....wink*

is Going to be a make up artist...

Early this month, I took a bridal make up class...so happen that I am going to be a bridal make up artist...Can you believe that??

Seriously, this is not my dream..this is not my passion...but...sometimes as a human being, you have to be realistic...stop living in a dream...

People can dreams...I HAVE DREAMS....and once I have kids..I definitely want them to have dreams..but please be realistic people!!!!not all people are going to achieve what they dream of..right??

So..here I am, came up with a new plan..or perhaps a new direction...

Well, am not going to spend the rest of my life working for other people...making money for them...I have to start making fortune for my own pocket right??

That is what I am doing right now....kinda excited about it..this is the 1st time I am so committed on doing something...yup...am not that committed when it come to a relationship..hehe!!but no worries...I am serious about 'I know who" now...LOL~

Yerp...I am totally focus right now...

Currently in the midst of buying all the make up item..and yes...Dear Friends,please don't ask me out or even ask me to shop..coz I don't have any money left to shop...uwaaaa.....
"Duet mak cukup2 makan je"

I did buy few items already but all and all, there are still few pending items that I need...

Owhh..btw, I did practice my make up move on my baby girl..and guess what..she HATES it...LOL~


Before make over

After make over


Baby hates her make over....(sorry baby...item xcukup)

Me??Saya??

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Blogging sewaktu Bekerja!! (Doink suruh buat)

Starting Time : 1600 hrs (18th January 2011)
Name : Nurul Fatihah Bt Abd Manaf
Brother(s) : Ahmad Saif & Ahmad Mustaqim (single n available)
Eye Colour : hitam kecoklatan
Shoe Size : size 4/size 5
Hair : short/boy cut brownish hair (brown to orange sket color)
Piercing : ears
What are you wearing right now : red shirt with grey pants
Where do you live : Ampang hometown~
Favorite no : 30 . 11.1985 (my birthday)
Favourite drink : epal susu
Favourite breakfast : anything yg berunsurkan karbohidrat

Have You Ever :
Broken a bone : Never
Been in police car : tidak pernah…good girl
Fallen for a friend : Of course..fall suda…
Fallen for a guy/girl in a short period of time : yerp…that guy already got married suda…
Swam in the ocean : aku pernah
Fallen asleep in school : yup..tersengguk2 lagi
Broken someone's heart : I broke sum1’ s heart..and he broke my heart..
Cried when someone died : Yes
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : Once upon a time ago.
Save e-mails : Yes..sweet2 email jer
Been cheated on : Once upon a time ago

What :
Your room like : like a normal room with lots of books and bags (and hair…rambut keguguran)
What is right beside you : books
What is the last thing you ate : Karai chicken ramen

Who:
Who did you last yell at : my baby sister
Who was the last person you dance with : my baby sister
Who last made you smile : yoda

Final Question:
What are you listening to right now : suara manusia di HR berborak…
What did you do today : woke up and work
Are you the oldest : Yes and paling kecil
Indoors or outdoors : Indoors

Today You Did:
Talk to someone you like : texting to sum1 I like to be precise
Kiss anyone : my mum
Sing : waiting outside the lines (greyson chance)
Talk to an ex : No
Miss Someone : YES
Eat : kuey tiaw n munchy2

Last Person Whooo:
You talked to on the phone : My dad
Made you cry : seorang manusia bernama lelaki
You went to the mall with : Haizum & yoda
Who cheer you up : Yoda

Have You:
Been to Mexico : No
Been to USA : No

Random:
Have a crush on someone : Yerp
What book are you reading right now : The Terminal Spy (superb)
Best feeling in the world : To be loved and in love
Future Kids name : In the making
Do you sleep with your stuffed animals : I sleep with books
What is under your bed : Nothing
Favourite sport(s) : BOLA DAN BOLA DAN BOLA (but I kaki bangku)
Favourite place : rumahku syurgaku
Who do you really hate : 2 orang itu
Do you have a job : Yes
What time is it now : 1635 hrs

so what did i got from doing this?
-> missing sum1??

saper yg akan di tag?
Anyone…you are most welcome to do it..if u got time..like me..

RINDU

It has been 2 days....and I miss you.....


Am not suppose to miss you..but I did.......


Okay....sedang menahan hati....


Dear hati,

Be strong please....I know you can do it!!!


Okay...mari pulang...........

HELLO 2011

2010…

Is definitely not a good year for me…I cried a lot in 2010…so..It’s definitely not a good sign…

I lost sum1 so dearly to me in 2010..my heart got broken in 2010…

I had a huge rebound relationship with sum1’s bf…yup..it’s me..Fatihah..with sum1 else bf…mak pun tak caya nyah….LOL~

I lost my grandmother & a cousin in 2010….

What else did I lost??

Owhh…ya…I lost my heart….I have no idea where it go…. Perhaps one day, it will come back to where it belong kan…for now…dear heart, please take a good care of yourself…

Dear 2011,

I hope you will bring me lots of happiness…

I hope to be united…with “I know who”…

I hope to be a better person..better than last year…(I know I’m bad last year..super bad)

I wish ALLAH SWT mempermudahkan perjalanan hidup daku..no more hanky panky please…..

I wish to be over “En Cokelat”….

I wish..I hope….to have a bless year indeed….

No more having this “tight feeling” in my chest…sakit ok…pening kepala I ok….

And..ya…tighten up your ego Fatihah…you need it…LOL~