Kerja saya today

Kerja is getting better each day and myself also feel much better. Not that everything is okay but I do think that everything is slowly in place. Syukur sangat2~

Thanks to my colleague yg banyak membantu and simply layan all my questions. I don't know la if they find me annoying ke apa but if they do, nanti nak raya I say sorry ya..LOL~

Lately, every time I am going to work I have already did a mental calculation on what am I suppose to do on that particular day. Umm...maybe I am being a bit paranoid..tapi nak buat macam mana, my boss is a very detail person ok..so I have to make sure my work done accordingly and no hiccups. So far, I am doing fine working under him sebab he is a very understanding boss and he does listen to our opinions and suggestions so I am comfortable with him.

Currently, I am enjoy every minutes of kerja eventhough yes, my job is a bit of tiring these days..but seriously, saya rasa..being busy suits me..seronok ok when you are occupied with work every time. Maybe I sound a bit exaggerate and maybe orang ingat I am being sarcastic but the truth is, being busy does me good actually so I don't have to think masalah yg sering diutarakan oleh orang sekelilling which is " Bila nak Kahwin??" LOL~

Saya bukan menyampah, but let just say....I am too tired to answer the exact same question. Jawapan saya is, one day insyaallah if jodoh itu sampai saya akan berkahwin..for now, I will keep on pray for my Khalifah untuk datang dan membimbing saya..ok tak my answer??hee~

Lagi pasal kerja...Owhh...my biggest concern is to handle project actually sebab I do think I am a bit lost on few terms. Tapi itu lah challenge yg saya kena cope right??Hurmmm..I try to take things slow but you know la...I can't ask other people to slow down for me. So what I did is, I do google a lot and ask my colleague afterwards. So far okay but I am pretty worried right now sebab after this ada new project I need to get involved with. Takpe la...just give my best shot la kan??

Owhh..by the way, today I went to audit our archive in Nilai. Ya, I know...our document storage is a bit jauh. Tapi okay la..everything pun is in place but I need to check few things with them esok sebab ada benda nak clarify..

okaylah...3 topics sudah di blog..and I haven't iron my baju yet, so I better call it a day.

Red Lippy & Bo's Wedding

Last night ada wedding in Felda Villa. Such a nice place even though not as big as Dewan Perdana Felda but I do think tempat ni is more comfy. So, in near future if anyone nak buat wedding yg more intimate and more to family & friends event maybe you guys should consider this place.

Last night mark the first time ever I am wearing a red lipstick..LOL~ I am a RED lover, tapi always not that confident enough to wear red lippy. Tapi semalam, I MADE IT!!

Owhh..to my ever dearest schoolmate, Mohd Bukhory Firdaus & wife ( Emy)...I pray that you have a smooth sailing marriage babe~ May you be a good leader in your family!!

Instagram 3#

Life through Instagram..........

Bad Habits

I have tons of bad habits. If you ask me to name one??I think I can actually name you more than 30 ok. I try to break all my bad habits and try to be a better person. For now, I think I manage to overcome one of my worst habits which are cursing.

Maybe people might say that I am stupid to actually acknowledge to all manusia out there on my bad habits. Terus terang, I am not proud of them and the reason why I blog about it is to remind myself that I am not a good person. Frankly speaking, I hate myself right now for not being able to be a good person. It is not easy my friend to be good. Kenapa susah??Susah sebab hati ini masih jauh dengan tuhan. Ya, my answer is as simple as that.

I have too many list of bad habits yg I am trying my damndest hard to overcome it. Currently, I try to buang sikap kurang sabar. I admit, patience is one of my biggest flaws. Back then, when I performed my Umrah it was a bit of struggling for me to control my patience. Bukan mudah ya, but Alhamdulillah tuhan itu maha besar. The best solution on keeping yourself in check is to keep beristighfar and insyaallah you will eventually can keep yourself calm. Unfortunately there is an event while I was in Masjid Nabawi where I totally lost my patience. Bila ingat balik, I can’t believe that I can be that rude. Well, pray tell me…how does it felt when someone simply langkah your kepala while you sujud?? Will you simply smile at that person??Well, what I did was I pull back my sejadah and that lady almost trip down and guess what I have to re-do my solat since the moment I came up after sujud I was inside her jubah. Hurm…came to think back again, perhaps itu adalah ujian yg tuhan bagi untuk menguji saya. It makes me realize after that, patience is easy apabila hati kita bersih and obviously mine is far from that. I am currently in the midst of cleaning my own hati. Nak belajar sabar, start it while you were driving. If you can control your patience while driving, I guess you are pretty much okay to handle other things too. Me??Saya sedang cuba untuk sabar. At least I am no longer cursing while driving sudah, it has been 3months since I last curse. Doakan saya mampu bersabar dan tidak cursing ya~

And not to forget, my biggest flaws of all are penyakit Keras hati. Penyakit ini memang dah lama bertapak dalam diri saya. I do not how and why am I having such disease. We can cure a fever but to cure penyakit Keras hati there are no such medicine. Ubatnya is to be near to our Creator and I can guarantee you hati itu akan mudah dilentur. Sebab itu lah banyak orang cakap, nak jaga hati kita perlu jaga makan. Hurmm…ok..I admit, nak jaga makan may sound easy but it is not that easy. We may live in a Muslim country but there are too many doubts when it comes to foods. Betul tak??Yes, we don’t eat pork and our sembelihan is mengikut syariat Islam but how sure are we that our food sources are clean?? Terus terang, there will be a never ending stories when it comes to this issues. Honestly, I am not pious when it comes to foods and saya ni pun jenis yg selamba when it comes to foods. That is why, my mum said, hati itu keras sebab sumber makanan itu tidak bersih sepenuhnya. To tell you the truth, bercakap soal ini is like membuka pekung di dada…and to talk about halal, I have no authority or no say sebab saya pun tidak arif. I just hope that one day, Jabatan yg bertanggungjawab will eventually clarify to us dengan sepenuhnya. Saya pun risau sebab hati saya ni susah sangat nak dilenturkan. *sigh*

Why am I talking about bad habits ya??Sebab yesterday, I was super sedih with my own self. I feel that the more I try to be good, I end up being bad and I hurt other people’s feeling.

Takpelah, I should be positive..ada hikmah di sebalik kejadian.

Choices

Not long time ago, I have talked about Nicholas Sparks’s novel title, “The Choice”. It is a very aspiring novel base on choices that we have to make in order to move forward. WELL, it is a romantic love story kind a thing but still it is about choices.

Days by days, we are facing some decision to be made. Usually, we have few options or choices before we succumb to one final choice. I take myself for example, when I’m at work sometimes I have quite a number of tasks to be done with. But as a typical human with no super power, I can’t get things done simultaneously. Therefore, I have to prioritize things, which is more important then I choose to settle it first. However, one should always remember, we can’t always choose. There are things in life where we don’t have a choice. And not to forget, not all people have the power to choose.

I take people in poverty for example; they do not have the opportunity to choose. They just have to be content in whatever life provided them. Their life is not heavenly as us lucky people who have a house to live and foods to keep us alive. My grandmother use to say, even us the one with all the money is very picky when it comes to foods, clothes, cars and etc. but what about those people in poverty, are they picky as well?? Well, that question is actually a slap to my face. *pang* Regretly to say, I am picky..not only on foods but in life too. That is why; I consider myself not a very good person because I have too many flaws. T_T

Choices made who we are today. We are what we choose to be. That is why, not all people are saint and not all people are devilish. I chose to be good but it is not easy to be good. If it is easy, I bet most people in the world are good but sadly to say, there are lots of monsters out there with a human façade.

Sometimes, choices also were made due to pressures. Like I said earlier, not all people have the liberty to choose everything they want. I had encountered the same problem over and over again. Why??? Because my mum way over protective. Not that she is a control freak, but she just love to maneuver her children life a bit. Honestly, I do like when my mum intervenes in my choices at least I know, no matter what choices I made; she will be a part of it. But there are times I feel a bit annoyed when I do not have the chance to make my own choices. However, by the end of the days, mother knew better..I guess you better stick with your mum even though people might call you a mummy’s girl/boy. What’s important is, at the end of the day you don’t get burn by your choices.

I think I was inspired to talk about choices due to a blog written by En Fuad. LOL~

As a human myself, sometimes we tend to take granted for all choices that we made without even realized that our choices are actually define us. Instead of being mad at other people, maybe I should reflect upon myself and figure out my own weakness. Biasalah, sebagai manusia..Sometimes we do see other people’s flaws without even notice ours. And yes, karma does happen…..


Okay, time to choose…To eat or not to eat??

Teenager Nowadays

Yesterday, I had my first class at a Tuition centre after having a year off without teaching. Ya, being a teacher are my passion but now I guess I pretty much need a part time job just to keep me busy. Hee~ Being busy keeps my mind off from “other” things.

Currently I have to teach form 1 Bahasa Melayu. Frankly speaking, I rather teach students from primary school instead of secondary students. Not that I have anything against them, I just prefer to teach younger student as they are more obedient than students in secondary school. I had a quite difficulty last night on handling my students. Well, I am not prone to be a garang teacher as I want them to have a comfortable learning experience. But knowing kids nowadays, you just have to rise up your voice then eventually they will listen up to you. I guess that is part of the challenge that you have to face in order to become a teacher. Definitely not easy my friend.

I consider myself not too old even though yes, I am old..but hey…yg penting hati ini masih muda. LOL~ I saw several other students last night from different classes and if I am not mistaken, they are those teens yg age around 14 – 16 years old. It is amazing to hear them actually talking in English. They seem so mature than their age. When I was at their age, I guess I still look like a 12 years old kid. By mature what I mean is by the way they talk and the way they act is so beyond their age. I do think what I saw last night is not a teenagers cause they almost seem like near to my age.

Actually, at first I was surprised by the way they talk. Back in those days, when I talk to my friends, I use “saya” or “kita” , “awak” as a kata nama. But these day, teenagers talk like us the adults, no more those innocent kata nama, nowadays..cakap with friends pun use “I” and “you”. I was a bit in awe last night.

But my biggest concern here is the way they act or behave. Seriously, I am no longer surprise with all those cases where teenagers at the age of 15years old got pregnant out of wedlock. Take a good look on how they behave among friends including their male friends. When I was still in secondary school, my relationship with boys are quite distance and to tell you the truth, I start to get close with boys when I was in UTM. Sebab itu I is pelik when I saw how callously they are in being friendly with male friends. I mean, they are too young to actually involve themselves in such things. I think that is why nowadays it is compulsory for all secondary female students to have HPV injections to prevent themselves from having a cervical cancer. By the thought of that, I am simply scared for my sister. I am afraid if she accidently befriend with wrong click.

It is sad to see what have become to our teenagers nowadays, who’s to blame?? Most people put all the blame on technology but if you think carefully, it is us the adult people whom provide them with such info. We can never stop them from using technologies but the best solution is to monitor your kinds/teenagers activity. To me those FB/TWITTER and other social web are not applicable for teenagers because social webs are contagious. They are like viruses that soon become a disease to teenagers nowadays. And more excess to the internet means our teenagers are continuously becoming corrupted.

Perhaps my opinions are a bit harsh. Well, sorry to say…back in my days, even without FB/TWITTER, we turn out to be just fine and I can say we are much more responsible then teenagers nowadays. We learn from Robophone to Iphone and from picit screen to touch screen.

I do hope adults out there do take responsibility on shaping up your children. Having kids is not easy but raising kids are tougher. Sama-samalah kita renungkan dan sama-samalah we try to educate our next generation to become our next leader. Our nation is depends on them.


p/s: My mum said, the best way to raise a child is to educate them with religion knowledge dari kecil, insyaallah anak itu mudah mendengar kata. Ini pesanan untuk diri sendiri juga..^_^

Lunch post: Need a short vacation

I am pretty restless these days. No, I am not stress about work anymore sebab I think I am okay now. Yes, I still have plenty to learn and I am slowly learning about it. At least by today I have the whole general idea of what am I suppose to do here.

But still, I do need to take a break. I do need to stay away as far as I can from KL. KL seems so hectic nowadays until I do not know when and how am I going to rest. Ya, I still have some ample time to rest at home but still I don’t feel rested. But come to think back again, no one can actually feel rested unless they are dead right??LOL~

Takpelah, yg penting…I do need to take a short vacation. It is time to splurge myself on holiday instead of buying myself new bags/clothes/shoes/….not that I’m complaint as I can’t stop myself from buying those stuffs…LOL~

I have told one of close friends Hana about it, and so far we are agreed upon a short vacation to Miri. Seriously, I need to stay away from towns so I choose to be near to nature instead. In Miri, as far as I’m concern it is an oil city. Even my company does have site office over there. But, the reason why we picked Miri is because we want to try a caving activity. Perhaps we want to explore nature and be close to our land. I mean, Sarawak is famous with its culture so I guess it is time for us to learn and experience those culture instead of tengok Discovery channel kan??

However, this is still part of our initial plan. We haven’t come to any conclusion yet and still wonder where are we supposed to take a short vacation. If we have any interesting or awesome place yg much more cheaper in Semenanjung, perhaps we better go there instead of flying to Sarawak. We’ll see, but deep down I am dying to be adventurous in Miri. hee~

I have been in Sarawak before, but most of the time me & my family spent time in Kuching and we do not have that much time to go and explore other district in Sarawak. They said, it is a long trip by land if you were to go to other main district like Miri.

My main concern right now is, Am I able to be adventurous?? It has been such a long time since I last done some adventure myself. Ask my girls, they sure know that I am not keen to participate in any outdoor activities. Bukan tidak suka, but I have lost interest actually. The last time I went for any adventure activity was in 2005 where I went mountain climb with UTM recreational club. That was ages ago, I am pretty much sure that I am not fit and my coordination is zero. LOL~

Tapi takpe, they said…if you put your mind & soul into it, the chances or probability for you to succeed is increase.

Okay lah..lunch time is over..ok kerja..few hours to go…Fighting!!!

I Quote

I am currently addicted to this application...huhu~Am not good with words but I try to express my thoughts onto this application called "Tweegram". This is the reason why I am so addicted to Twitter as well as twitter allow us to simply say what we want to say at the moment. Facebook is so last year...LOL~

Why we must stop LYNAS

First of all, let me just say, I am not into politics nor I support any act in regards of politics.
I am merely a normal citizen who has concern over the action of her own government by letting a radioactive refinement facility in her country. I mean, come on….are the government that stupid to actually allow our nation to be poisoned by radioactive?? Obviously they are not stupid but they are just normal people whom are being blind by money instead of our nation health.

If you actually read their company profile, LYNAS actually shows a tremendous track record. They are clearly stated that, there is nothing dangerous about their nature of business. I believe to those whom actually excel in chemistry or if you are a chemistry student yourself, it is a basic knowledge for us where radioactive chemicals are extremely dangerous no matter how little you have been exposed to.

Personally, I am a chemistry student myself. Being exposed to chemical is a normal thing for us chemistry student. We play with all types of element every single week. Back then, I always thought that I am eventually going to end up being a chemist but luckily I am not. Frankly speaking, being a chemist may shorten up my life spend. Why??Kindly be inform that if you were being expose to chemical elements especially inorganic substances like the Halogens group (Cl/Io/Fl), in near future you might encounter a speech problem. I have seen the effects on my lecturer. Halogens are not radioactive element but it is dangerous. Once, when I was in UTM I have been exposing myself with too many sulphur. So, eventually I end up getting sick, coughing nonstop. When I went to see doctor, she told me to start wearing mask while I’m operating with chemicals. However, being me particularly during those days, I don’t even bother with safety precaution as what is matter the most is to ensure that I complete my lab. Just so you know, I use to eat using my hands with Argentum (silver) on it. So, kindly think what happen if such element like thorium were to be in Kuantan??

Thorium is a radioactive element with 14.05 billion years half life. Based on my reading on regards of this element, if someone is to be exposed by this element, it is possibly can lead to increased risk of cancers of the lung, pancreas, and blood, as lungs and other internal organs can be penetrated by alpha radiation. Exposure to thorium internally leads to increased risk of liver diseases. So, what is our government action in order to overcome such disease to occur??

In my opinion, our government should take a look back on what happened in Bukit Merah, Ipoh 1985 where a Japanese company is being sued and it has been requested to shut down its operation due to few people end up sick and died. It has marked the first time ever in Malaysia where all of us fight to claim our right as a Malaysian and fight for our future generation. Are we going to let our next generation born with physical or mentally deficiency??

I am surprised indeed when our government has simply allowed them to open a facility here in Malaysia. To tell you the truth, Malaysia is contaminated enough. Pasir gudang and Shah Alam is ranking high on our list of contaminated city. Why must we add up Kuantan in that list??

Being rich and famous is nothing. Our life worth more than anything. Money has no value once you die right??Therefore, stop arguing about who’s the best, who’s more qualified, who’s have the integrity??Just stop and focus to make Malaysia a peace and harmony country. Apparently if we were to have LYNAS on our ground, we will never have peace.

p/s: I would love to ramblings about work but apparently someone else working in the same company as me is going to view my blog…LOL~

Today

Today. I am pretty exhausted. Not physically exhausted as I am not doing any hard labour. But, I am mentally exhausted since today I have to make use of my whole brain in order to process all the information and knowledge given today.

Sumpah, I am glad that I stick by my decision on not taking an engineering course for my degree. If not, I am not surprise if my head is bald by now due to too much of hair falls sebab ambil engineering course. Ambil chemistry pun saya sudah sakit kepala okay.

Kindly imagine, I never even care to actually have the initiative to learn on technical part when I was working with OWS. Ya, I admit..I am too lazy to care kot since I am too occupied on doing my work. But here in MMC, by hook or by crook..I have to learn it all. It is tough indeed for me since I am not familiar with all the engineering terms. What I did is, I jot down all the unfamiliar terms and nak tak nak…dengan muka tebal, I ask my colleagues. I have too, perasaan malu or rasa rendah diri tu, I have to put it aside. What’s important is, I have to capture everything and to be able to understand how the process works.

Today, I am happy to be able to learn the overview of a platform design. Perhaps I am a bit lost on certain aspect but at least I did gain something today. It makes me realize, everyday is a learning process. I learn a lot each day. Takpe lah kan..pelan2 kayuh…like my boss said, “No one can be excellent overnight, take your time to learn and understand.”

After 3^rd time tukar kerja, now I only know what it felt to be pressure by work. LOL~ Lately I have to motivate myself to work. Not that I am less motivated but I need to compose myself to make sure that I will stay positive. I read a good quote today. It says, “ You have to has a desire to do something in order to enjoy the things that you do.” Oleh itu, yes…no matter what happen, we must enjoy our work so we don’t have a reason to be unhappy about it. And not to forget, keep on senyum..^_~

Errr..okay, this is me in my new green palazzo….hee~

p/s: picture ini tiada motif okies..

Kerja Baru, Tempat baru

Okay, I have been working in tempat baru for 2days. Alhamdulillah, I feel okay I guess thanks to bebeh sebab ada. If I were to be alone, I memang confirm akan jadi lone ranger. Tapi tak kisah lah kan, it is a challenge if you were to work in a new place right??

My first day is not that great sebab, pagi2 datang office dah kena hon by an Audi yg dibawa oleh seorang makcik yg perasan dirinya muda. It was not a good start okay. Pagi2 dah rasa nervous satu badan as I do not know what to expect. Once I have been given proper induction by HR, lepas tu I went straight to my department and wait for my next instruction. My boss nampak macam garang, but he turns out to be seorang yg sangat approachable. First time okay, I get a boss yg awal2 sudah prepare my job scope on my first day. He did my orientation himself and explained to me on how our department work. Owhh, I was seated next to my new colleague…nama dia Amir. Such a senyap person. First day tu..he didn’t even say a single word to me. I thought he is sombong but according to bebeh, rupa-rupanya dia memang seorang yg pemalu. But it’s okay sebab the next day, tiba2 kami jadi banyak cakap and since he sat next to me, so he has to teach me macam2…hee~ Obviously, he is not that pemalu. LOL~

Second day, finally…my PC sudah okay. Now I can use my PC to view my email, all my working hard drive. Owhh..kindly be inform, I like the way my new company operates. They are so systematic. Everything are online even all our internal documents are transparent. So, there is no such thing that you can’t get your job done. One thing yg saya sangat-sangat risau is, I have to be more independent. My boss allowed us to do our work accordingly and he won’t kacau us unless if we need his help. That is why, I am so susah hati right now, because seriously..I have a lot of catch up to do. I have to be involved in projects as well as I have to prepare the Project Execution Quality Plan (PEQP). I am a Science student okay, and engineering is not my forte and now..I have to learn it all. So, kindly imagine betapa susahnya hati ini and currently I am doing a bit of research on our next project where I have to work closely with our project team. Ya, baru dua hari masuk kerja, and I dah rasa nak menangis during project team discussion. LOL~ (Sebab I am so lost since banyak betul term I tidak tahu okay!!)

But…no matter what, I take this as a challenge. I have too. No pain no gain right??This is the time, I have to perform well. Takpelah..bersusah dahulu, bersenang kemudian kan??

Pray for me ya.

Sayonara Offhore Works

My last day. Nothing much to do except to touch up semua kerja before I leave OWS for good. Most of the time, I spent time with most OWS colleagues. I spent time to camwhore with them. Berinstagram and bergambar sakan especially with manusia level 3 since I spent more than a year on level 3. *miss*

I am glad, I don't even shed any tears. LOL~

Banyak kenangan with OWS. I face all sorts of emotions while I was working in OWS. Overall, I am happy indeed to be able to work with such colleagues.

Thank you OWS.

p/s: Office baru is not that far kot, so I can always see them anytime I want. hee~