Psssttttt...

I rasa I dah terer masak laaa....

1st time siang ketam and making crab soup..maybe dah boleh la kot....

I rasa my crab soup tadi agak sedap la jgk...sebab habis kan..(gila bongkak)

I rasa esok I msk lagi kot...tiba2 rasa berkeyakinan gila nk msk....

Actually I sdg sengal ni...tiba2 cam nk buat pengakuan berani mati..ish2...don't Fatihah..you will break your mama's heart..sabar naaaa.....

Okay lah..I should sleep before I make any confession to die for...


p/s: Ooo...I xsabar tunggu hari esok...hati bunga2...wink*


(esok saya akan share crab soup 'made in ampang' punya recipe!!!)

Lelaki ber'tattoo' yg hot....yummy~

Saya suka lah tgk lelaki yg ber'tattoo'..especially when they had their tattoo on their leg ka....on their body ka...mmg super hot la...drooling wehh..@_@

Jejaka PCSB tak mo wat tattoo??mesti you look so damn gorgeous with your fabregas hair..haha!!

Before going back to KL, sila change your hairstyle back to Fabregas ok..I don't think you look yummy in your dreadlocks...wink*

LET ME show you how yummy they look with their tattos...get ready to drools ya...make sure you have your tissue nearby..wink**

- Ooo...Johnny Depp..you are a hot pirate -

- En Scofield is the ultimate gorgeous guy with brain and tattoos, if only a guy like you exist...saya sanggup bwk awk jumpa parent saya!!! -

- En Eminem..in love with his tattoos as I in love with his songs -

- What else to say about david, with a body to die for, he can tattoo all the way his body and women still drooling over him..trust me..lucky you Victoria!! -

Sad to say....I can't have a future husband with tattoos...confirm parent mak mengamuk nyah..hehe!!Cannot2...so I can only admire those guys with tattoos...maybe I should dream of Scofield tonite.....>.<

Awak

Awak.....


Saya doa awak success selalu.....

Saya harap one day awak akan jumpa soul mate awak or perhaps sum1 untuk menemani hari tua awak...sebab saya tahu..I am not that person....

Sorry sangat2...saya memang tak boleh jadi kwn awak..sebab perasaan itu masih kuat utk awak..maybe satu hari nanti bila perasaan itu hilang then kita jadi kawan okay....

Sorry if selama ini saya always bebankan awak with all my problems..well I have too since I know you will always be a good listener for me..tak tahu what went wrong...suddenly things falls apart kan....

Saya tak faham kenapa awak tak keep your own promises...until now..I am clueless......

Saya dah penat tunggu awak...so I have to let you go...not only from my heart but away from my life...sebab itu kita tak boleh jadi kawan...maaf ya...

Sebab awak...saya jadi kurus...sebab awak saya selalu lemah..sebab awak saya selalu rasa sakit..sebab awak saya learn about love...

Terima kasih yer...for all the love/pain/hurt that you have put me through..sampai mati pun saya tak akan lupakan awak..tapi hidup ini perlu diteruskan.....
SEbab itu org cakap...this insanity called LOVE mmg painful....I feel it now.....

Sila jaga diri elok2 ya En Chocolate (you know who you are)

I'm feeling sentimental at 4am.....................

Walaupun.........

Walaupun gaji lambat masuk disebabkan oleh CIMB facing some errors in their system (damn!!dah penat menyumpah semalam!!!) I stiil manage to bought a new handbag!!!!weee...~I suka!!!

Tadaaaaa..........

- My new MNG bag....

March wish list..too many things were linger on my mind...I think I shud buy this, maybe I shud buy that...byk2...Don't ask me why...I have no answer on why women love to shops..maybe once I'm old like my mum then I will start to consider other things instead of shopping..for now, I guess I should just indulge my own pleasure...hehe!!

Things I must have:

- New flat pumps (ini wajib since I love flats, I dun mind being short as long I am comfortable with it but sometimes yes..I do want to look pretty by wearing heels..wink**

- New clothes..(well...every month it is a must to have a new clothes because everytime I go out with my girl fren, I love to wear new cloth..haha!!Yes, call me freak but that is who I am...but still I have no idea what kind of clothes I need..any idea girls???

- New heels??Perhaps if I have extra cash and I would definitely get myself a new heels...why do we love heels??If you ask me, my answer would be, I love heels because heels make me feel sexy, confident, and my ass will look good...okay tak??hehe..

Yesterday...

Yesterday kan....I rasa sungguh serabut....


Yesterday I do think I look serabai..My hair cam xsikat jer pi keja....

Yesterday I rasa kain baju kurung yg I pakai cam nak terlondeh jer...maybe saya sudah kurus?? ye kot...sebab saya sekarang dah back to the old Fatihah which is I skip dinner almost every night...bukan sebab diet..tapi malas..yes!!saya mmg tak senonoh...how am I going to have a sexy butt if saya tak makan kan??ishh2....I need a sexy back!!!

Yesterday..akhirnya saya dapat jugak membeli buku yg diidam-idamkan...happy!!balik rumah trus layan novel sampai tertidur..huu~

Yesterday jejaka PCSB dtg office...serius...saya rasa malu gila..hearing his voice while he was talking to my GM and I was so menggelabah..macam mamat tuh ajak pi dating laks..hahaha!!

Yesterday semata-mata tak nak bertembung dgn jejaka PCSB saya sanggup thn nak pi toilet...sbb if nk pi toilet I do have to lalu in front of him..malu wehh...ini semua En amir punya pasal...u owe me En amir!!!

Yesterday saya jalan balik going to car park ngan suami org (bukan skandal) and it is good to hear when a husband so happily talking about his family, and cerita to me how it is good to have a family on your own. He also taught me how not to be selfish and it is indeed open my eyes that when you have to share ur life with sum1, you do have to learn how to compromise and to tolerate with every single things in life and I am proud of you abg A to see how you adore ur wife so much eventho yes sometime you look so blur and clueless but once you start talking about your wife, I can see that you are so happily married...bestnya....Tiba-tiba rasa gatal nak kahwin...haha!!

And today...I was thinking..if I really2 want to get married, why don't I try to get to know 'Tuuttt' tapi bila fikir2 balik...mcm tak baik if I force myself to like sum1 when obviously I am not into him...hurmm...few friends ask me to try to get know jejaka PCSB, bukan tak mahu....tapi saya rasa saya patut relax dulu..betul tak????

Futsal day~

Okay today baru nak update pasal yesterday activity.

- OFFSHORE WORKS GROUP -

Semalam we had fun, supporting our company in Futsal event. Futsal event ni actually have been organised by the Malaysian Oil & Gas Contractor Society which is a yearly event yg akan mengumpul all contractors in Oil & Gas business. Thank you for organizing such event since we do have fun being part of it.Congrats to all the player (bukan kaki perempuan) eventho we did dpt 3rd place but still, siapa sangka we all dapat sampai semi kan..hehe!!Rasa bangga la jgk eventho I was there as a 'pom-pom' girl jer..ya..kami pom-pom girl yg comel yer anak2...(ngaku diri comel I loike~)

The event it self start at 9am but as a gadis yg comel..haruslah dtg lambat..dtg lambat itu trend skrg..hik2..time sampai2 tuh cam cuak gak nk msk..since it is my 1st time menjejakkan kaki ke arena futsal..Excited gila babi..sbb before this, yes I did try to play futsal but I have failed in vain sbb mmg tade bakat langsung atau lebih tepat lagi I do think I was born to be a sopan girl..(geli tokak den). Nasib baik cik S n Mr L da ada kt sana so rasa segan itu menipis la kan...mmg segan abis time tuh..yela...ramai sungguh warga lelaki time tuh...malu mak..auwww~(gaya gedik sket ok)

Sampai2 jer trus amik picture..hee!!biasalah..saya mmg tak boleh ada camera..dia mesti nk snap jer...and yes..it happen I've met fet there..tak sangka pulak..after dah lama xketemu, finally we've met again...fet look semakin cerah..sgt lah xaci..huu~

BY the way, Offshore Works did send two teams to represent the company so we do hav to sapot both teams...thanks to Mr L, sebab dia telah menyiapkan all the pom-pom for us..tq dear...without you kami tak boleh jadi pom-pom girl..huu~

Ooo...I love our goalkeeper..Dia sgt hebat!!by love it doesnt mean saya fall in love okay..what I mean is our keeper mmg very talented...sampai cik S pun tergoda you..hehe!!

Since we did thru to semi so all things end before 5pm..yeay!!balik awal...suka2..Thanks to kwn skola ku En B for sending me home..if tak tak tahu la nk balik ngan sape..huu~mekaseh...

- Kwn skola rendah ku -

In near future akan ada satu futsal event inter subsidiaries..excited nih!!!maybe I will try to play kot..haha!!

- The pom-pom girls -

Jejaka Handsome yg pemalu......

hehe...post ini khas utk seorang jejaka handsome yg pemalu....wink**

aku tahu kalau ko baca nih..mesti ko gelak xhengat dunia akhirat..hehe...

Saya ada kenal seorang jejaka handsome...Dia berkulit cerah..tinggi...rambut not bad..walaupun tak mcm jejaka PCSB tetapi rambut mu tetap menawan bro!!

1st time jumpa..mmg kami tak bercakap langsung setakat..I tgk u..u tgk I je la...malu wehh...kt office dia ramai manusia yg bergelar lelaki....saya ni kan pemalu org nyer..(pemalu ke??hik2..)

Pada suatu hari....jejaka handsome add saya kat facebook..mula2 mmg wat bodo je la...since both tak knl kan..but then we start talking...borak kt FB mmg kencang habis....huu~

Tiba-tiba semalam jumpa kat office...jejaka handsome terus kelu lidah..langsung tak tegur mak..ni yg mak nak hangen ni nyah!!!hehehe...disebabkan rasa malu ku semakin menipis ngan jejaka handsome ni..so saya pun tegur la...yg kelakar nya...siap tunduk2 lagi ckp ngan I...muahahaha~

Relax yer bang...saya tak makan orang..saya makan nasi jer.....don't worry..I tak ngorat u punya...nanti sian jejaka PCSB kan...hee~

Peace ya mister..one and only post for you..hehe!!~

Bila mama dah start tanya......

Sigh~

I am serioulsy been avoiding this question...tak tahu nak jawab wehh.....

Mama dah start merisik...semalam dah start tanya..."So..apa citer with 'tuuutttt' ?"

Saya pun jawab lahh.."Entah lah ma..camtu laa...."

Mama tanya lagi,"Okay tak si 'tuuuttt' tuh??mama suka laaa..."

dalam hati (dah mama suka, mama je la kahwin...tapi ana bley...sian baba ku...I lap u baba!!)

Saya jawab, "Errr.....'Dia' baik..'Dia' cool..tapi...rasa suka tuh tak dtg lagi la ma...how??"

mama cakap,"Cuba laaa...ana tau..lama2 okay...bila nk pi dating??"

Saya cakap,"umm....satu hari nanti....."

Okay....I don't feel like dating anyone yet...mayb a casual lunch or dinner sounds okay..but still I need crowds..if setakat two people goin out dinner on normal date..mmg gua mls.....

Sebab I have no idea on what am I suppose to do on a normal date...cakap??nk ckp apa wehh...dah la if ckp dlm phone pun, bunyi cengkerik je lebih...huu~

I do think I am not ready yet....maybe you have to give me more time..say..2 months top??boleh??Currently I need my gadis2 cantik more than anything else.....I miss you girls!!!

To mama...sabar eh..I know you dah tak sabar nak ada menantu..keep it chill ya mama...My heart don't heal yet...so..hav to wait..wink**

Ooo....latest update on jejaka PCSB...he is younger than me...ahhh..tak suka lelaki muda...kenapa you muda??aishhhh...tapi rambut dia menawan...how????

Rambut oh rambut

Rambut....saya suka rambut saya..tapi kadang2 saya jealous tgk rambut orang laen..sungguh!!saya tak tipu...well..it's true..They say,manusia tak kan pernah puas...saya agree!!dah byk hair styles yg saya cuba...but still as a human being...I never did have a 100% satisfaction....

Currently I am not entirely satisfied with my hair...1st, my hair is not that long enough so susah nk gaya kan..okay..maybe ia hanya alasan semata-mata..tapi serius..I need my hair to grow a lot longer...and then perhaps I nak perm my hair kot??But...sesuai ke??I am afraid that nanti dah siap2 buat tiba2 I regret..how??

Owwhh....I was thinking to colour my hair as well..bukan apa...everytime I did colour my hair..secara tak langsung...my face then will look radiant..hehe!!I tak tipu...sumpah...I look different..dah lama tak colour rambut...last time I did dyed my hair was on 2007. Lepas tuh trus cam insaf sekejap..tapi mama cam dah tak bagi colour rambut..ummm...we'll see how...

This is what I have done with my hair before....I need opinions......which one look better on me??

Should I colour my hair??

- when I had a short hair..I dye it with light brown colour -

- Ooo..when I had a long hair..winduuu...T_T -

- my latest hair do....xsabar mahu pjg..... -

Am I a workaholic???

The answer would be...'I think not'....workaholic mmg takde dlm kamus kehidupan ku...but yes..lately mmg saya busy...busy bee tahap gila babi!!


When I look back...mmg tak sangka I really went to work on public holiday...weee~tiba2 rasa bangga dgn diri sendiri....but million thanks to 'yoda' yg sggp dtg office utk bekerja jgk..hehe!!


Kenapa saya bekerja in public holiday??sebab nak siap kan safety passport application utk all marine crew!!!Kerana kamu semua...daku terpaksa bekerja okay..tapi takpe la..mengenangkan daku boleh claim..so..I suppose it is okay to work on public holiday...





By the way...in near future...sumpah mmg tak nak dtg office if sorg2...call me penakut...and yes..I am penakut sebab after 'Yoda' pulang mmg tiba2 rasa semacam jer...mayb takde apa2..but still when you are all alone..things does happen kan??takut wehh....kelam kabut gila time nak alek..dah la sorg2...rasa2 nya..saya terlupa nak tutup air cond kot...mati kena marah dgn HR esok...sorry yer Kak S...tak sengaja...bila dah takut...semua redah jer....





My pretty girls semua dah bising...semua thought currently I run for the president seat..yela kan...busy jer asek...kalah Najib...sorry syg2 ku...this week and next week...I am all yours..unless..if tiba2 ada date wif jejaka PCSB..so sorry la yer...hik2....~


Ooo...back to jejaka PCSB....thanks to kwn2 ku...ada yg offer me his phone number..thanks but no thanks...I would really love things happen naturally..if he wants my number...please come and get it from me..and if korang nak ask him to add me in FB pun...sila lah..saya alu2 kan...hehe!!(gatal no anak dara nih..ish2...)





p/s: No matter how busy I am, but still his image are still on my mind...I tak faham...how could someone actually forget his/her 1st love...arghhh...I need to forget....T_T

Try to sleep with a broken Heart..........

Orang ingat I broke my heart...no worries...my heart still merah berkilat..or maybe a bit pinkinsh since tadi I met jejaka PCSB yg berambut Fabregas..Auwwww....!!~

Actually, I love this song...sbb it remind me of sum1...yes..that particular sum1..mula2 I thought he broke my heart..but when I think back..nothing is broken..as I thought maybe we are not meant for each other but regardless of what happen between us I do owe him!!
Thank you awak!!you make me learn a lot about LOVE & LIFE...for that I am thankful to you...peace~

Sekarang saya nk story pasal jejaka PCSB...I do think he didn't really notice me kot sbb ramai lagi aweks cun kt OFFSHORE kan....and sad to say..I am not one of them..huhu!!~
But...his friend did notice me..sbb tadi his friend siap tegur I lagi...wee~(dlm hati gila meroyan happy since kwn dia notice gak daku yg comot nih..)
Saya suka la tgk jejaka PCSB nih..actually tade lah gorgeous mcm abg Cristiano Ronaldo ku..but he look sweet and plus..I love his hair...and I love to see him in office attire...cair wehhh....@_@

Tapi tadi saya nampak he was talking with few of our field staff...I'll bet he must be mamat Operation....tapi saya tak tahu nama dia laaa...camne ni???But ada org offer nak kasi his phone number...hik2...kasi laa..but trust me..I am not goin to call him..haha!!perhaps maybe one day we've met again in other occassion or terserempak kt KLCC ke kan...office kami lintas jln jer..sng...hee~

Alamakkk....lately cam byk choices la pulaks.....betul ke I am totally over my previous love?? Rasa cam dah over it but I am still afraid..takut tersalah langkah....Ooo...dear God...please do guide me....

Ooo..enjoy lagu ini okay....lirik dia touching...for me la I guess...;))

2days of crying..............

On saturday.......

OKay..tgk title....I'll bet mesti org ingat saya sedih......betul2..memang sedih....sebab it happen that on friday, one of my mum good friend lost her husband in accident...
On Saturday, kiteorang pun semua rush to Seremban sebab nk tgk aunty Nor....poor her..She is so sad and I don't think she ever imagine her life without her husband..sapa boleh kan??yela...sekejap you were on the phone with your hubby and the next thing sum1 call you to informed that your hubby is gone....boleh ke terima??

Bila saya fikir,If I were her......

My heart will definitely stop beating.....

where will I find such strengh to cope with all matters??

which way should I go??

To whom I could speak of my sorrow??

Thousands things were linger on my mind the day uncle Hazam died....sebab saya boleh bayang kan,if such things happen to my mum...I don't think I have the strengh to make her feel better...coz I don't know how to feel better without baba...yes..I'm crying now....crying sebab saya tahu...saya memang tak mampu dan tak boleh nk berfikir if things like this happen to us...but to be realistic...nothing is certain in this world....a minute you are well..but the next minute sape yg tahu.........


On Sunday...

Selepas peristiwa malam itu.....untuk menghilangkan rasa malu yg menebal...maka adik2 ku yg tercinta ajak tgk dvd..so all of us pun duduk bergelimpangan ngadap telivision buruk nih....konon2 plan nk lyn 'Donny Brasco' but after voting process, finally citer 'Bodyguard & Assassins' gak yg menang.....Mula2..mmg tade perasaan tgk...sebab was hoping to watch Johnny depp kan...sekali kena ngadap sekor2 apek yg tak hensem..at least if ada andy lau ke..layan r gak...ni ntah sape ntah berlakon....

Sekali tgk.....perghh..mengalir air mata buat dua hari berturut2....sumpah tak tipu...kepada manusia di luar sana sila menonton filem ini....tragis wehhh....saya tak mau citer byk kt sini..hangpa tgk la klip kt bwh ni naaa..... tak pun nanti pi download okay....

Semalam...

Semalam kan...saya memasak....

Kenapa saya masak??SEbab saya dah ready nk jadi seorang isteri kot.....(Geli tokak den...~)

Semalam saya masak 'ayam kicap pedas' my own speciality la katakan...sebab mama cakap...sape makan ayam kicap saya...confirm dia amik saya jadi menantu....(gila kembang hidung mama puji...phewittt~)

Semalam saya masak...bukan untuk saya...tapi nk dijamukan pada orang....

Mama cakap ada org berkenan...(saya dah tersipu2 malu....)

Semalam puas saya msk..akhirnya..reti jugak potong ayam....(time kaseh nenekku..jasamu akan ku kenang sehingga ke akhir hayatku...)

SEmalam...family Dia datang...1st time saya jumpa dia.....orangnya...takdelah gorgeous mcm 'cristiano Ronaldo' ku...tapi Dia agak sweet...Orangnya tinggi...segak sekali penampilannya... Memang mama dah berkenan sgt...sebab Dia baik org nya...(itu mama yg ckp...)

Semalam...saya rasa saya sgt selekeh..yela...lepas masak..kelam kabut siap2 sebab family Dia dtg....Family Dia cool....siap puji masakan saya..(I lap u aunty....mmg tu je lah yg saya masak nanti tiap2 ari utk anak aunty if jadi lah yer..)

Tapi semalam...sepatah haram pun saya tak cakap dengan Dia..bukan masalah pemalu...tapi ini kali pertama kami berjumpa...mama suruh borak2...nak borak apa kan...1st time jumpa wehhh...menggigil bulu mata ku....

Semalam Dia hanya usha jauh jer...mesti Dia ingat saya ni seorang yg pemalu, lemah lembut, pandai masak...Kasihan Dia....alangkah malunya..kalau Dia tahu..saya ni memang kurang pemalu org nya...lemah lembut tang suara jer bang...kelakuannya...adalah..30% jer sopan....Pandai masak??20% jer.....Harap2 Dia tidak menyimpan harapan yg besar.....

Masih banyak yg kurang dalam diri saya...

Last sekali before Dia balik, Dia cakap...'Saya rasa maybe kita patut keluar berdua...'okay....saya dgn cuak dan blurrnya menjawab, 'Tanya lah mama saya...'Confirm la boleh kan...One thing about mama senang jer..sekali dia dah berkenan...bawak lah anak dara dia keluar lama2 pun dia xkesah..cam Fahim dulu..sanggup tuh suruh anak dara dia pi belajar malam2 ngan Fahim...tapi nasiblah si Fahim ni mmg lurus orang nya..so takdelah dia ambil kesempatan..kalau lelaki laen...abes Fatihah...huu~

Saya masih tak percaya tentang semalam....Rasa macam mimpi...saya dah ready ke??I have no answer....saya masih blurr.....

Saya suka lelaki ini

Kenapa saya suka??

sebab He is so cute..He looks genius...and when he start to talk....my heart stop beating...weee~

Nama dia Dr Spencer Reid (bukan nama sebenar), one of the co-star in 'Criminal Minds'....to those yg mmg follow criminal minds, I'll bet korang notice him already kan??

In my opinion, what's make men so special is all about their brain..hahaha!!Yaa...I know..my taste mmg pelik..saya suka lelaki yg out of my league in term of brain..huu~

Memang susah nk communicate with this type of guy but believe me..they are 110% an interesting men..hee~

What make them special??what make them different?1st....their brain always on the move...they don't hesitate..they have confident...they just keep me hypnotize...

What make them not a good choice for a woman.....

They are sgt EGO...

They don't take people's opinions easily

They are not romantic thinking but more to logically thinking

Don't expect them to be a lovey dovey bf

They spend their time focusing on other things instead of their women....

They expect women to be understanding

There are no rules being with them, you just have to go with the flow...

See...there are lots n lots of keburukan if we are dating one of them..tapi serius...saya sgt suka lelaki genius!!They just keep me mesmerizing with their thoughts & knowledge...auuwww~

Yang disukai...........

Currently obsess with hair band!!~

I use to wear hair band before but not as crazy as now...What is so special about hair band??

I guess it will actually make our hair look more beautiful as well as the use of other accesorries kot!!

But the thing is...my hair is quite messy now since I don't really take a good care of my hair....;(

I went to saloon after work today and that 'amoi' said, "ur hair manyak kering laaa"

Sigh~I've already know about that okay....so I did get my hair treatment today and as a result, yes...my hair is soft and silky now..phewittt....~I guess esok if jalan2...then my hair will look more beautiful kot...hehe!!(perasan mode...)

My obsession.....

Sila abaikan keserabaian rambut ku...but seriously today it looks better..baru wat hair treatment ok..hehe!!

Saya suka hairband..so if saya keluar jalan2 esok saya akan cari hairband lagi....wink**

The pieces don't fit anymore..........

I can't explain..what is not enough since I give it all to you......

It's time to surrender....Too long pretending.......There's no use in trying

don't miss understand of how I feel......

The pieces don't fit anymore.....


Oooppps..just so you know..this is not an emo entry...but few sentences of this song is definitely make me think...Betul...saya agree..saya mmg suka thinking too much!!

Ehh..correction..bukan saya seorang..but most women kot...but I do think Jiha mmg less think laa..mmg salu cam less expression kot..sebab dia mmg suka ketawa & sometimes I do think bila nk tgk pompuan ni marah eh??hehe!!But 2 years being her Roomate, I do think I know her when she is angry or when she is happy senang citer...being her friends make me laugh out loud!!

In term of thinking too much wud be me, Hana banana & eika.......Yes..our thoughts sometime mengjangkau Lautan Pacific kot....always think of the worst dulu..sebab tuh sometimes suka msk status or entry yg emo2 sket..hehe!!No offences..kami xkacau org it is just that we love to express our feeling & thoughts thru the web..huu~

But that is the old me..coz now...I do express myself in term of songs...and I do express it thru writings.....Bukan takmo citer kt close frens..but currently I love to keep all my thoughts to myself and only me know..what's actually been messing my mind...perhaps I'm going to talk/write in riddles lately..hahaha!!

Okay enough for tonite...actually sdg rasa a bit happy laa...hehe!!I know you know why...
Thank you2....wink**