HOW to berterus terang??

I LIKE this guy…but am too afraid to say it out loud…bukan sebab malu or segan..okay FINE..I admit..I was a bit malu la…of cuz la…there are too many ‘what if’ in my head now…

WHAT IF HE DOES NOT FEEL THE SAME WAY AS I DO?

WHAT IF HE THOUGHT ME AS A FRIEND?

WHAT IF & WHAT IF & WHAT IF……..

Okaylah…I story 1st laaa….I know him thru friend…whereby time tuh, I was actually lepaking with his friends at mamak. We didn’t know each other mase tuh…but one of my friend sort of kenal kan kami…It was on March when I was actually quite down since En Cokelat walk away from me…so sadis…LOL~

Nak jadi kan cerita, he did ask my number from one of his friend and he did sms me on that particular day we met…time tuh..am not so keen pun to know him…sbb I was not over En Cokelat kan…so…I was a bit jual2 mahal and sort of mls nk kwn2 wif any guy…

After about a month, I was kinda bored..tiba2 tgn ni mcm rajin la pulak nak texting him..so I did texted him and all of sudden we became close…like almost every day he texted me, sumtime he called and we did going out like dating kot..sbb we never did went out with his friends or mine..so I can consider it as dating right??LOL~

Next year on March..it’s going to be a year dah..since I know him…therefore, I really2 need to clarify with him la…what are we actually??who am I to you??I don’t like to be kept in the dark..if u know what I mean…..

But, the problem is…how to berterus terang with him? What am I suppose to say?I am afraid okay..afraid of his rejection to be precise….afraid that we might not be as close as we are now….

Once before, I had an experience of pouring my heart out to a guy…lucky me..he respond it well…and he was okay with it..and we end up to be an item…Tp sekarang…I do think I don’t have the gut to do it again…..haiyoo….how??

I saw him yesterday…he was..well..the usual him…we had sushi..then jalan2 tgk handbag since I need a new bag (typical me)..there are times..when I was about to confess…but I am holding it back…sbb I was too afraid!!Damn it….I hate this situation….

Well it so happened yesterday..we did had a bit of argument…nothing serious..but I was a bit kecil hati with him…on some issues..but instead of being mad at him..I turn to be a bit quiet and kinda moody… He knows me well to know that I am not in a good mood..so he tried his best to cheer me up last nite… by making me laugh…and make me smile all nite…Yes…you make me happy last nite…but, what about future??Can I still have those laughs that I had last nite??

What am I suppose to do now??SUMPAH AKU BINGUNG!!

is PELIK

I miss you gadis kecil….how are you??(bercakap dgn blog..am I crazy??ya..1 of my act of craziness)

So..what’s up with “PELIK”??

Seriously…it is weird nowadays, when lots of young ppl so eager to be married…why??

Am not saying that I don’t want 2 get married in my early age…am so into marriage kot…kalau boleh, after grade dulu..nak terus kahwin..but what to do…got no bf maa…LOL~

It is not wrong to have an early marriage, in fact if you are physically & mentally ready for it..why not?? Just go for it laa…it is advisable kot..yela..to prevent any unforeseen circumstances kan…(if u know what I mean)

What’s make me “pelik” is when lots of young peeps tend to get married so early just because they are afraid of losing, they felt threaten, and they feel so insecure…of what??or should I say…of whom??

At the first place, why do you feel insecure??Actually, I am not good when it comes to marriage/relationship but I do know one thing…marriage is not a simple thing..it is a big thing..it is not about saying I do or “aku terimanya nikah….”It is not about a piece of paper(sijil nikah)..it is beyond that…I believe marriage is a sacred thing to do when you believe you are going to spend the rest of your life with that person…(wow…do I sound so pure n sweet..)LOL

Okay la…fine..I admit, I do envy those yg going to get married..but..all and all…I am happy for you guys…knowing that you have sum1 to grow old with..sum1 to membebel with….seronok kn??and the best part is having lots n lots babies…sgt best kan??So..looking forward to that…haha~

Bukan apa….since I am working in oil & gas industry, I can say that..most of my field staff..they tend to kahwin awl…actually…xslh…but…I can see why their gf want them to get married cpt2…u now why??
Because..they don’t trust their partner…why??

To tell you the truth…in O&G…there are lots of cabaran and dugaan….one of the cabaran & dugaan yg perlu ditempuhi oleh all those engineers/surveyors…is…perempuan….kerana wherever they go..whenever they go…women are always all around them….kenapa??sebab…they have lots of money….sumpah….mereka mmg byk duet…they may look rugged..look kinda selekeh a bit..but…their pocket is deep my friends…..Owh…am not saying that…all manusia di oil n gas are the same…but one have to be careful if you want 2 involve with them….jadi, xslh pun..if their gf tak trust mereka kan??
But still, marriage are not going to solve any problems…sbb once they got married pun..if they want 2 cheat they will cheat..if they want 2 flirt..they will flirt….am not lying here…..I’ve known lots of manipulative husband and lots of flirty husband….as well as flirty fiancée and not to forget….bf2 yg willingly cheat on their gf….terlalu ramai okay…no worries…I won’t disclose any names here…LOL

Do you think they will stop cheating once they marry you??Do you think you will feel secure once you marry him??
I bet you won’t feel secure…& trust me..if your partner want 2 stop cheating…he will…if he wants to stop flirting..he will…so you don’t have to force them to marry you….just be patient…if they are meant for you…they will be…by forcing them to marry you…it won’t do any good to both of you…..please do think before you act…

What I’m trying to say here…is not that men can’t be trusted or men who work in O&G are the bad ones…no….am not going to racun sape2 punya fikiran pun…I just want to let ppl knows….how things are..for men in O&G…REMEMBER….appearances can be deceitful…so please be careful women~