This is what happen everytime nak long holiday...my work load is super massive!!
I try my best to ensure that I don't burden anyone with my works. Currently, all of sudden my project got so many outstanding issues!!
Man oh man....I do think someone are going to marah me afterwards....I have to buat PEQP addendum for sure, NEED to issue out my audit report, MOM have to be submit by tomorrow, incident report is yet to be finalised, procedures is yet to be filed and my project file are not in order.
I is stress so I end up bought something just now...Thank you Dear Stress...me love you very much!!
I love being busy but I hate when I turn into this inorganized person!!
Okay bye!!
She takes the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what she've got, and remember what she had. Always forgive, but never forget. Learn from mistakes, but never regret.
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Quote#
Work at it, Work on it, Work through it, Work to it, as long as it's worth it, never walk away from it.
sabar dan terus sabar, ada hikmah disebalik kejadian....
Monday, May 28, 2012
Weekend as usual
How was your weekend??
Mine is quite eventful. Typical school holiday in Malaysia...it is mating season baby!! Ya, lots and lots of weddings which is awesome because I love weddings where I can eat my heart out. The not so best thing about wedding is when those elderly people kept asking the same question over and over again. Haihhsss...seriously, I don't know..TQ~ hee...
On Saturday, I had a family wedding in Shah Alam. Wahhh...I don't like Federal highway...it is still congested even on holidays...luckily, am not the one driving..LOL~Later that day, we also had a wedding in Banting but we end up lost..*haha* blame it on the signboard. It is obviously hard to find a house where you didn't even bring along the card. Note to myself, kindly bring along your wedding card when you drive out of KL. *wink*
From Banting, we go straight to Sunway Pyramid to have our so called tea time. Despite having quite a heavy lunch in Shah Alam, we are still hungry...hurrmm..let just say, my family and I love foods too much perhaps.hee~ So, we end up makan2 at Delicious. One of my favourite restaurant sebab their desserts and drinks are awesome!!
Mine is quite eventful. Typical school holiday in Malaysia...it is mating season baby!! Ya, lots and lots of weddings which is awesome because I love weddings where I can eat my heart out. The not so best thing about wedding is when those elderly people kept asking the same question over and over again. Haihhsss...seriously, I don't know..TQ~ hee...
On Saturday, I had a family wedding in Shah Alam. Wahhh...I don't like Federal highway...it is still congested even on holidays...luckily, am not the one driving..LOL~Later that day, we also had a wedding in Banting but we end up lost..*haha* blame it on the signboard. It is obviously hard to find a house where you didn't even bring along the card. Note to myself, kindly bring along your wedding card when you drive out of KL. *wink*
From Banting, we go straight to Sunway Pyramid to have our so called tea time. Despite having quite a heavy lunch in Shah Alam, we are still hungry...hurrmm..let just say, my family and I love foods too much perhaps.hee~ So, we end up makan2 at Delicious. One of my favourite restaurant sebab their desserts and drinks are awesome!!
Jam to Shah Alam...
My late grandfather ring
On Sunday, me and baby girl end up alone without our parent since both have their own agenda to be fulfill. We woke up pretty early since we have to send our mama to LRT station. Then after, we went to KLCC and had our brunch. Ya, it is typical in our family that we prefer to had a combination of breakfast and lunch. Well, save money maaaa...*wink* Since we had no clue on what are we suppose to do, so both of us pun end up watching movie in KLCC. Finally, we did watched "The Avengers"...I know, we are so last year kan??Yelaaa....it is not a norm for us to always watch movie pun since my mum does not really like the idea of watching movies in cinema. LOL~
Hurrmm...yesterday I am happy to admit that I am deeply in love with Tony Stark...*sorry dear Oezil*. If and only if such man is exist, I would be the happiest woman alive...*haha* Not a fan of Captain America since he is so typical superhero with good looks and nice abs. I like hawkeye too cause he is a bit like Legolas...love his biceps by the way. *haha* And yes, the hero of the day, is tak lain tak bukan...."The Hulk" woww...I love his brain!! *haha*
Owhh..and yes, yesterday I did also purchase a korean movie via astrofirst, Cerita "My way". Wahhhh..it is probably not as awesome as "Taegukki" but I guess it is still okay since I did cried my heart out yesterday especially towards the end of the movie where my everlasting hero "Kim Jung Shik" died. *sobsss*
Okay la...I think that is all for my weekend, I can't wait for my nect weekend actually...hee~
Okay bye!!
Friday, May 25, 2012
Somebody that I used to know
Last night while I was sleeping, I received a call from past...
Him: Helo
Me: Hey..
Him: Just want to tell you that tonite I am going to sleep for the last time as a bachelor, if you accept my love from the very beginning, it is you who is going to be my bride tomorrow...but you xnak I kan??
Me: ....................*speechless* hang up*
To you:
I wish you well, I wish you the very best, may ALLAH bless you always. Knowing you is not a regret. Thank you very much for all the love and kindness. Be happy, don't ever go looking for me again, stop telling me that you miss me.
Thank you very much!!
p/s: I am good, no permanent damage were done to my heart..ok bye!!
Him: Helo
Me: Hey..
Him: Just want to tell you that tonite I am going to sleep for the last time as a bachelor, if you accept my love from the very beginning, it is you who is going to be my bride tomorrow...but you xnak I kan??
Me: ....................*speechless* hang up*
To you:
I wish you well, I wish you the very best, may ALLAH bless you always. Knowing you is not a regret. Thank you very much for all the love and kindness. Be happy, don't ever go looking for me again, stop telling me that you miss me.
Thank you very much!!
p/s: I am good, no permanent damage were done to my heart..ok bye!!
Thursday, May 24, 2012
Farewell lunch
One of my colleague here is leaving us today therefore to commemorate her, we end up having a little farewell for her. My department member is not that many pun. Total of us including boss will be 8 pax.
Nothing much for her farewell since we sure are going to see her again because she will be working with one of the client so of course lah akan jumpa.
Anyway, all the best to you dear Noraili, May you have a bless journey ahead. Amin~
p/s: no picture with Noraili unfortunately....LOL~
Nothing much for her farewell since we sure are going to see her again because she will be working with one of the client so of course lah akan jumpa.
Anyway, all the best to you dear Noraili, May you have a bless journey ahead. Amin~
Ruby & Farid
me & Kak Sha
p/s: no picture with Noraili unfortunately....LOL~
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Debate
So, yesterday one of the most anticipating debate was up in Awani right??So, how was it??And what is your opinions base on last night debate??
Well, yesterday actually I was quite occupied with my pretty boy Chang Min..hee~Ya, I watched Korean drama last night instead of watching the debate itself. But, looking at my twitter timeline, most people are actually ramblings on the debate itself so okayla..without any further do, I watched it too with my mum. Kindly be informed that my mother & her siblings love to talks about politics. Not that they officially involved in it but they just love to have discussions on politics. And if you were to come across my house every Friday night you will eventually heard all the loud noise came from a very hot discussions between my mum and her siblings. Ya, they are loud people and I can say that they were naturally born as a lawyer. LOL~ Sorry mama, acik & cu. *wink*
My thoughts on last night debate??
Hurrmmm…finally, I got quite a clear picture on why they want to abolish the PTPTN. Ok cool, they do have quite strong points on why they want to abolish PTPTN. Previously, yes..I am against it because I believe that our Malaysian people don’t deserve a free education. Ok wait!! Don’t be mad..let me tell you why….
Almost 27 years of my life, I guess I can see that Malaysian people tend to take things for granted unless if they work for it. I think generally we can see that people will appreciate more when they have to work for it. By giving a free education or spoon fed, people will never learn or know how hard it is to actually earn a Ringgit. Nowadays, if you want to have a good pay you have to work for it. Need I remind you that nothing is free in this world. I take Love for example, love is free that is why lots and lots of human being out there take love for granted. What will happen if we have to pay for love??I bet most of us will actually limit our self to actually falling in love less than 2 times kot?? Hee..
However, by listening to Rafizi last night, it practically opens my eyes a bit. By abolish PTPTN, the oppositions have already prepared a plan to remodeling/restructuring the current loan to our students. I am agree with some of his points last night. By giving a loan to student is good but years by years, the amount of money giving out to our student have increase and the amount paid back by the students are critically lower . I think put all the blame on us the former students I guess, I am actually owed PTPTN about 5K at least (including interest). When to pay??I have already ask PTPTN to cut it off from by EPF but unfortunately they haven’t done it yet which is quite surprised because it has been more than a year since I last applied. Hurrmm….I think the problem is not the system. The system is right but there are definitely something fishy inside the PTPTN itself. And, PTPTN should be more proactive. That is why people are always looking down at any government sectors because you guys just don’t know how to get your work done. Sorry to say….
And I am a bit upset with KJ last night, when you were supposed to debate about on a single issue, you should just focus on that particular issue. Don’t go attack on the political belief because as far as we concern, both of you are with different party. What the government want to do about this PTPTN is good, but come on laaa..this issue has been raise up years ago when I’m still a student myself kot. Many people have already suggested to government to actually abolish the interest. The interest is not necessaries kot, PTPTN is not a financial institution. They are just an institution to help our students. Let us pay the principal loan minus the interest. I think that is fair and square.
But, if the opposition can make an educational free for Malaysia, it is good but kindly look at both aspects. By the end of the day, I do hope that whatever the solution is, please ensure that we produce a qualified mahasiswa and not those who entered university for free and learn nothing from it. It is indeed a risk taken by the opposition actually. But if they succeed then a big standing ovation is up for them.
If you ask me, do whatever you think good for us the citizen and country not for your own personal comfort.
So, whom am I supporting last night?? Frankly, I like the way Rafizi voice up his opinions and the way he brought up all the facts. Cuma, I am a bit terkilan when he brought up that Petronas money issue during Pak Lah administration because to me, that one is way out of the topic. Don’t attack someone on personal when you are debating about other thing. Same goes with KJ too, most of time he does deviate from the topic which is can actually affect his credibility as a speaker. Hurrmm..so being an Oxford student is not that freaking awesome pun ya??LOL~ *joking*
Ok bye nak makan pisang goring!!
Well, yesterday actually I was quite occupied with my pretty boy Chang Min..hee~Ya, I watched Korean drama last night instead of watching the debate itself. But, looking at my twitter timeline, most people are actually ramblings on the debate itself so okayla..without any further do, I watched it too with my mum. Kindly be informed that my mother & her siblings love to talks about politics. Not that they officially involved in it but they just love to have discussions on politics. And if you were to come across my house every Friday night you will eventually heard all the loud noise came from a very hot discussions between my mum and her siblings. Ya, they are loud people and I can say that they were naturally born as a lawyer. LOL~ Sorry mama, acik & cu. *wink*
My thoughts on last night debate??
Hurrmmm…finally, I got quite a clear picture on why they want to abolish the PTPTN. Ok cool, they do have quite strong points on why they want to abolish PTPTN. Previously, yes..I am against it because I believe that our Malaysian people don’t deserve a free education. Ok wait!! Don’t be mad..let me tell you why….
Almost 27 years of my life, I guess I can see that Malaysian people tend to take things for granted unless if they work for it. I think generally we can see that people will appreciate more when they have to work for it. By giving a free education or spoon fed, people will never learn or know how hard it is to actually earn a Ringgit. Nowadays, if you want to have a good pay you have to work for it. Need I remind you that nothing is free in this world. I take Love for example, love is free that is why lots and lots of human being out there take love for granted. What will happen if we have to pay for love??I bet most of us will actually limit our self to actually falling in love less than 2 times kot?? Hee..
However, by listening to Rafizi last night, it practically opens my eyes a bit. By abolish PTPTN, the oppositions have already prepared a plan to remodeling/restructuring the current loan to our students. I am agree with some of his points last night. By giving a loan to student is good but years by years, the amount of money giving out to our student have increase and the amount paid back by the students are critically lower . I think put all the blame on us the former students I guess, I am actually owed PTPTN about 5K at least (including interest). When to pay??I have already ask PTPTN to cut it off from by EPF but unfortunately they haven’t done it yet which is quite surprised because it has been more than a year since I last applied. Hurrmm….I think the problem is not the system. The system is right but there are definitely something fishy inside the PTPTN itself. And, PTPTN should be more proactive. That is why people are always looking down at any government sectors because you guys just don’t know how to get your work done. Sorry to say….
And I am a bit upset with KJ last night, when you were supposed to debate about on a single issue, you should just focus on that particular issue. Don’t go attack on the political belief because as far as we concern, both of you are with different party. What the government want to do about this PTPTN is good, but come on laaa..this issue has been raise up years ago when I’m still a student myself kot. Many people have already suggested to government to actually abolish the interest. The interest is not necessaries kot, PTPTN is not a financial institution. They are just an institution to help our students. Let us pay the principal loan minus the interest. I think that is fair and square.
But, if the opposition can make an educational free for Malaysia, it is good but kindly look at both aspects. By the end of the day, I do hope that whatever the solution is, please ensure that we produce a qualified mahasiswa and not those who entered university for free and learn nothing from it. It is indeed a risk taken by the opposition actually. But if they succeed then a big standing ovation is up for them.
If you ask me, do whatever you think good for us the citizen and country not for your own personal comfort.
So, whom am I supporting last night?? Frankly, I like the way Rafizi voice up his opinions and the way he brought up all the facts. Cuma, I am a bit terkilan when he brought up that Petronas money issue during Pak Lah administration because to me, that one is way out of the topic. Don’t attack someone on personal when you are debating about other thing. Same goes with KJ too, most of time he does deviate from the topic which is can actually affect his credibility as a speaker. Hurrmm..so being an Oxford student is not that freaking awesome pun ya??LOL~ *joking*
Ok bye nak makan pisang goring!!
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Weekend#
I go where life takes me, but some days it makes me want to change my direction
Sometimes it gets lonely, but I know that it's only a matter of my perception
Sometimes it gets lonely, but I know that it's only a matter of my perception
I just entered this brand new world
And I'm so openhearted
I know I've got a long way to go but I'm
I'm just getting started
I'm over my head, and I know it, I know it
I'm doing my best not to show it, to show it
Whatever it takes to be what I was meant to be, I'm going to try
Cause I'm living the dream and I know it, I know it
I'm trying my best not to blow it, to blow it
And I know everything will be fine
With me, myself and time.
Me, Myself & Time, Demi Lovato
My weekend was pretty awesome on Sunday but I had a black Saturday!!Why??refer to previous post on "Sakit Kepala".
Serius, I am super blank today...kerja pun rasa lemau...hurrmmmm~
Btw, am currently loving the lookbook, I know..it is so last year but what to do..tiba2 rasa suka pula...okay bye!!
Monday, May 21, 2012
Sakit Kepala
Earlier I do mention that I want to rambling about bola but I guess I save it for later kot. I think I want to share a bit on my current self status. Owhh..not that *status* ya...but my current health status.
It has been few months since I start having this so called morning headace. When I first encounter it, I thought it was normal due to a low blood which is I do actually tend to have it since 2009. I guess, kindly blame my lack of vitamins in my body kot. I thought it is a one time only but all of sudden this sakit kepala thing tend to be quite frequent lately. It started on March then again in early May I did encounter it and last week again I did have twice morning headache. This is starting to scare me as I never encounter such headache yg dah quite prolong.
Last week I started to googling some facts on morning headache. What I found is, a morning headache can also lead to a brain tumor. Okay...so, by knowing the fact I was taken aback!! I swear I was a bit upset since I can't imagine my self having such disease kot. I can't even stand a fever, so how am I suppose to cope with thing like this (if and only if it is true). Sedih???Tuhan sahajalah yg tahu apa yg saya rasa. But eventually I have actually skip the part where it says that brain tumor is a rare cases as most of the morning headache is actually due to stress, wrong sleeping pillow, and normally it is due to lack of oxygen inside the brain itself. Okay, now I can feel a bit relieved. But I am still worried. Bukan apa, normally when I had a morning headache, my head seems to be spinning around and I can't be okay unless I puke. Throwing up does make my head better but it won't cure my morning headache. Risau + takut + what am I dealing with??
Currently, I am taking a medicine called Beta-Serc for inbalance purpose because everytime I had my headache, I tend to be so inbalance. Base on wikipedia, a long time use of this medicine may cause me some side effects where I can be too dependent on it and I can always have this headache. This is what I don't want but I have to take it for the sake of body balancing. I do not want to depend on any painkillers because I was afraid of their side effects. For all I know, painkiller does stop the pain but it can actually slower your heart rate. *hurmmm*
When to talk about head, my biggest fear is a brain cancer. Ya, I am afraid to die..who doesn't?? But what I'm afraid the most is, can I cope with such disease??Can I accept it??Can I live knowing that my life percentage might be lower than 50%??*takut* Fine, maybe I am overthinking about it, but I can't help it..I am a bit controlled when it come to my life and I tend to think and care too much. What to do??
For all I know, not all cancers patient are going to end up died. I do know, there are two types of cancer..one is malignant and the other one is benign. If one is facing the malignant cancer, it 50 - 90% curable but the benign cancer has below 50% chances to make it alive. The causes of brain cancer is a mutation cell inside the brain itself where it can result to a pembentukan tumor. Some said, it is an inherited disease and other opinion do said that handphones use can also lead into it. *hurmm*
Maybe I am a bit way over thinking/analyzing about it kan??maybe saya sepatutnya lebih chill and berdoa byk2 minta dijauhkan. Entahlah....but I do realized one thing, sakit itu dekatkan diri kita dengan tuhan, sakit itu mengajar kita untuk lebih menghargai hidup dan sakit itu buat kita lebih kuat.
It has been few months since I start having this so called morning headace. When I first encounter it, I thought it was normal due to a low blood which is I do actually tend to have it since 2009. I guess, kindly blame my lack of vitamins in my body kot. I thought it is a one time only but all of sudden this sakit kepala thing tend to be quite frequent lately. It started on March then again in early May I did encounter it and last week again I did have twice morning headache. This is starting to scare me as I never encounter such headache yg dah quite prolong.
Last week I started to googling some facts on morning headache. What I found is, a morning headache can also lead to a brain tumor. Okay...so, by knowing the fact I was taken aback!! I swear I was a bit upset since I can't imagine my self having such disease kot. I can't even stand a fever, so how am I suppose to cope with thing like this (if and only if it is true). Sedih???Tuhan sahajalah yg tahu apa yg saya rasa. But eventually I have actually skip the part where it says that brain tumor is a rare cases as most of the morning headache is actually due to stress, wrong sleeping pillow, and normally it is due to lack of oxygen inside the brain itself. Okay, now I can feel a bit relieved. But I am still worried. Bukan apa, normally when I had a morning headache, my head seems to be spinning around and I can't be okay unless I puke. Throwing up does make my head better but it won't cure my morning headache. Risau + takut + what am I dealing with??
Currently, I am taking a medicine called Beta-Serc for inbalance purpose because everytime I had my headache, I tend to be so inbalance. Base on wikipedia, a long time use of this medicine may cause me some side effects where I can be too dependent on it and I can always have this headache. This is what I don't want but I have to take it for the sake of body balancing. I do not want to depend on any painkillers because I was afraid of their side effects. For all I know, painkiller does stop the pain but it can actually slower your heart rate. *hurmmm*
When to talk about head, my biggest fear is a brain cancer. Ya, I am afraid to die..who doesn't?? But what I'm afraid the most is, can I cope with such disease??Can I accept it??Can I live knowing that my life percentage might be lower than 50%??*takut* Fine, maybe I am overthinking about it, but I can't help it..I am a bit controlled when it come to my life and I tend to think and care too much. What to do??
For all I know, not all cancers patient are going to end up died. I do know, there are two types of cancer..one is malignant and the other one is benign. If one is facing the malignant cancer, it 50 - 90% curable but the benign cancer has below 50% chances to make it alive. The causes of brain cancer is a mutation cell inside the brain itself where it can result to a pembentukan tumor. Some said, it is an inherited disease and other opinion do said that handphones use can also lead into it. *hurmm*
Maybe I am a bit way over thinking/analyzing about it kan??maybe saya sepatutnya lebih chill and berdoa byk2 minta dijauhkan. Entahlah....but I do realized one thing, sakit itu dekatkan diri kita dengan tuhan, sakit itu mengajar kita untuk lebih menghargai hidup dan sakit itu buat kita lebih kuat.
For that, I pray...Takpelah...I read a quote the other day, it says...when god gives you pain or hurt, thank HIM instead, HE knows better...perhaps ada hikmah disebalik kejadian. Jika itu yg tersurat untukku, redhalah bukannya pasrah. Hold your head high and smile.
Quick Post
It is Monday, and typically we are suffered by this so called Monday Blues syndrome. Ya, me too...but today I don't think I can afford to have such blues because my boss is back and I pretty much confident that it is a going to be a busy day!! Yeayyy~
So, last weekend...what happened??Ya, Bayern Munich lost to Chelsea. Congratulation...finally..after all this years and even the great Jose Mourinho failed to do so, the current coach manage to win!! A big standing ovation for him..He deserves it!!
Well, to tell you the truth, I was actually supporting Bayern eventhough yes, they did beat Real Madrid but hey, with player like Ribery, Robben, Mueller....Helo...what's not to like?? Am a big fan of German team so, I guess seeing how they played the other night do show that they got what it takes to win Euro. *wink*
Can't wait for the big Euro...yes, am not a fan of Olympics except for swimming category laaa...me love Ian Thorpe (The Torpedo).
I do have tons of things to rambling about football actually so I guess I will continue it during lunch time.
Okay bye!!
Have a good day people.
So, last weekend...what happened??Ya, Bayern Munich lost to Chelsea. Congratulation...finally..after all this years and even the great Jose Mourinho failed to do so, the current coach manage to win!! A big standing ovation for him..He deserves it!!
Well, to tell you the truth, I was actually supporting Bayern eventhough yes, they did beat Real Madrid but hey, with player like Ribery, Robben, Mueller....Helo...what's not to like?? Am a big fan of German team so, I guess seeing how they played the other night do show that they got what it takes to win Euro. *wink*
Can't wait for the big Euro...yes, am not a fan of Olympics except for swimming category laaa...me love Ian Thorpe (The Torpedo).
I do have tons of things to rambling about football actually so I guess I will continue it during lunch time.
Okay bye!!
Have a good day people.
Thursday, May 17, 2012
Ikhlas ke??
I have a major issue when it comes to "Ikhlas"
Not that I always pretend to be ikhlas. When I did something that I love or I like at least, perasaan ikhlas itu akan datang secara naturally. For example, I love my work so when I do it..I do it with all my heart. When you do things with all your heart, the outcomes akan jadi lebih amazing..tak percaya??It's okay...different people have different views so I respect that.
My problem is, when I don't like to do something or I don't like someone, I can't pretend to be ikhlas or to pretend to like that person. Seriously, I can't....
Sometimes, I do think that I am being rude. If I don't like that particular someone or I don't like a situation, it will definitely shows on my face. What I did is, my mouth will keep on ramblings and the look of my face shows it all. I know it is rude but I can't help it...I can't fake it...Hurrmm..I tried once but it didn't work. End up, I akan jadi lebih stress and I tend to get angry with those around me. I don't like when I'm angry because then I am going to say something that I might regret later on. Ya, my mouth can be super sarcastic and evil once I'm angry . So yes....don't try me...hee~
I guess, being the eldest of 4 make me a bit keras hati whereby I tend to not listen to other people instructions. LOL~ What I meant is, am not really keen to follow other people orders unless it was given by god (because it is compulsory). Even when it come to my parent, sometimes I do object few of their demands and orders...hee~Yupss...like I said, my mind don't really know how to take orders especially when it comes to things that I don't like. Sorry....
Despite that, when it comes to work...it is different...I mean, work is work..what ever your boss orders you to do, you have to comply unless if your boss ask you to do sesuatu yg salah then you have the right to say NO.
Hurrmm...
How to actually overcome this issue eh??Deep down. I know...I can't continue be this kind a person. A person who can't simply be sincere when she was asked to do things she don't like. I can see that several people like one of my cousin for example, she can simply be sincere when someone asked her to do things which she is not keen to do so...not like me. I tend to rebel against those who asked me to do things that I don't like particularly my family. LOL~
If we were to talk about sincerity, it is not easy nowadays. People all around you definitely have their own agenda to fulfill. Then, how are we going to know that someone is actually sincere?? My answer is, No..you won't even have a clue kot..hee~ My suggestion is, trust yourself, use your head and think before you trust. Saya pun mudah believe in other people sincerity, I mean..come on laa...you can't never know unless it is proven. It's okay...life is a gamble it self...learn from mistakes.
Obviously, I don't have any conclusion to my so called issue. I don't even have a clue pun on what am I suppose to do to overcome this issue....runsing + serba salah + I feel bad.
Okay lahh....for now I should sleep and look back upon my rudeness due to not being sincere...sobss~
Not that I always pretend to be ikhlas. When I did something that I love or I like at least, perasaan ikhlas itu akan datang secara naturally. For example, I love my work so when I do it..I do it with all my heart. When you do things with all your heart, the outcomes akan jadi lebih amazing..tak percaya??It's okay...different people have different views so I respect that.
My problem is, when I don't like to do something or I don't like someone, I can't pretend to be ikhlas or to pretend to like that person. Seriously, I can't....
Sometimes, I do think that I am being rude. If I don't like that particular someone or I don't like a situation, it will definitely shows on my face. What I did is, my mouth will keep on ramblings and the look of my face shows it all. I know it is rude but I can't help it...I can't fake it...Hurrmm..I tried once but it didn't work. End up, I akan jadi lebih stress and I tend to get angry with those around me. I don't like when I'm angry because then I am going to say something that I might regret later on. Ya, my mouth can be super sarcastic and evil once I'm angry . So yes....don't try me...hee~
I guess, being the eldest of 4 make me a bit keras hati whereby I tend to not listen to other people instructions. LOL~ What I meant is, am not really keen to follow other people orders unless it was given by god (because it is compulsory). Even when it come to my parent, sometimes I do object few of their demands and orders...hee~Yupss...like I said, my mind don't really know how to take orders especially when it comes to things that I don't like. Sorry....
Despite that, when it comes to work...it is different...I mean, work is work..what ever your boss orders you to do, you have to comply unless if your boss ask you to do sesuatu yg salah then you have the right to say NO.
Hurrmm...
How to actually overcome this issue eh??Deep down. I know...I can't continue be this kind a person. A person who can't simply be sincere when she was asked to do things she don't like. I can see that several people like one of my cousin for example, she can simply be sincere when someone asked her to do things which she is not keen to do so...not like me. I tend to rebel against those who asked me to do things that I don't like particularly my family. LOL~
If we were to talk about sincerity, it is not easy nowadays. People all around you definitely have their own agenda to fulfill. Then, how are we going to know that someone is actually sincere?? My answer is, No..you won't even have a clue kot..hee~ My suggestion is, trust yourself, use your head and think before you trust. Saya pun mudah believe in other people sincerity, I mean..come on laa...you can't never know unless it is proven. It's okay...life is a gamble it self...learn from mistakes.
Obviously, I don't have any conclusion to my so called issue. I don't even have a clue pun on what am I suppose to do to overcome this issue....runsing + serba salah + I feel bad.
Okay lahh....for now I should sleep and look back upon my rudeness due to not being sincere...sobss~
- si budak tidak ikhlas tadi-
Monday, May 14, 2012
Mother's day Weekend
So, how was your Mother's day weekend??Mine is nothing much...adalah celebrate sikit where we had our dinner outside. Any present??No, I do spent on my mum occasionally when I feel like it...I mean, we should celebrate our mum every single day but still it is not wrong to actually have a particular day to celebrate her right??If you ask me, it's depend to your nawaitu, as long as niat itu baik, I guess ALLAH itu lebih mengetahui.
By the way, currently I am not having my lunch since I am in the midst of penggantian puasa. Ya, begitu gigih sekali whereby I am going to fast every Monday & Thursday for each week. So far I still have another 4days to go..so Fighting!!!
Today me, myself and I is a bit lemau...probably due to my boss is not in the office kot. Usually if my boss is in the office, my day will be more productive sbb my boss is the type of boss yg suka mind about his staff's work. Which is not annoying because what he did keep us productive. I suka...But unfortunately, currently he is in Miri for a week, I do hope I can be as productive as before...Amin~ *but if byk kerja by hook by crook akan busy juga* tsskkkk
Okay Instagram...*wink*
By the way, currently I am not having my lunch since I am in the midst of penggantian puasa. Ya, begitu gigih sekali whereby I am going to fast every Monday & Thursday for each week. So far I still have another 4days to go..so Fighting!!!
Today me, myself and I is a bit lemau...probably due to my boss is not in the office kot. Usually if my boss is in the office, my day will be more productive sbb my boss is the type of boss yg suka mind about his staff's work. Which is not annoying because what he did keep us productive. I suka...But unfortunately, currently he is in Miri for a week, I do hope I can be as productive as before...Amin~ *but if byk kerja by hook by crook akan busy juga* tsskkkk
Okay Instagram...*wink*
Ok bye...nak Online shopping!!
Ohh my money!!!
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Semalam Sabtu
Yesterday, I went to a wedding...didn't snap any pictures at the wedding sebab malu perhaps..hee~ Is loving the pelamin itself and the pengapits are all gorgeous with their hair yg berhigh volume..I thought that kind of hair do is so mexican....and sumpah they look like artist...*wink*
Owhhh...all thanks to my dear bebeh yg ajak me accompany her to this wedding, at least I got the opportunity to eat such good foods yesterday...acar timun dia sedap!!!
Back from wedding, rushing siap to went out with my parent pula...as usual, went out shopping for mum's butik and then off to Bangi.The best part is makan & makan & makan...Ya, lately...it seems that I live to eat not eat to live..LOL~Ya, since this week is the Mother's day weekend, so I decided to treat my mum and the rest some good makan...we went to have our early dinner at Islamic Steak house in Bangi. Waaaa...love the steaks!!Sedap but the service itself is a bit slow..luckily, customers masa itu is not that ramai.
On the way back to rumah, so happen my dad konon2 nya try balik ikut Kajang and we end up stuck in the traffic for 1 hour okay!!!Hurrmmm...I do wonder, how am I going to survive once my family move to Kajang....I love living in Ampang..but I know..sooner or later we are going to move to Kajang...wahhh...stress gua if every single day I have to face such traffics...*sedih*
Oklah..since we haven't move it yet to Kajang, I guess I better be sad for later kan....
Err..ok..some pictures via instagram as usual.....weeeee
Owhhh...all thanks to my dear bebeh yg ajak me accompany her to this wedding, at least I got the opportunity to eat such good foods yesterday...acar timun dia sedap!!!
Back from wedding, rushing siap to went out with my parent pula...as usual, went out shopping for mum's butik and then off to Bangi.The best part is makan & makan & makan...Ya, lately...it seems that I live to eat not eat to live..LOL~Ya, since this week is the Mother's day weekend, so I decided to treat my mum and the rest some good makan...we went to have our early dinner at Islamic Steak house in Bangi. Waaaa...love the steaks!!Sedap but the service itself is a bit slow..luckily, customers masa itu is not that ramai.
On the way back to rumah, so happen my dad konon2 nya try balik ikut Kajang and we end up stuck in the traffic for 1 hour okay!!!Hurrmmm...I do wonder, how am I going to survive once my family move to Kajang....I love living in Ampang..but I know..sooner or later we are going to move to Kajang...wahhh...stress gua if every single day I have to face such traffics...*sedih*
Oklah..since we haven't move it yet to Kajang, I guess I better be sad for later kan....
Err..ok..some pictures via instagram as usual.....weeeee
*tikus*
Okay jum jadi cikgu!!!
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Restless
Today…I feel so restless..It is probably due to overslept last night. Sebab itu la, Rasul dah cakap, kurangkan tidur dan lebihkan ibadah. *okay touching*
I slept early last night sebab stress and marah. Ya, when I am not in a good mood, the best thing to do is to sleep so I don’t have to face any manusia. Kenapa stress & marah??Well, sedang kan lidah tergigit, inikan pula siblings…hee~Ya, I am a normal human being with flaws and feeling so sometimes, hati ini cepat terasa and terguris.
Today my life at work is not as productive as yesterday. I feel mellow and my mind keeps thinking of home. Maybe it is due to fasting kot…I ‘m in the midst of process ganti puasa and what’s killing me is that I keep thinking of pengat pisang at home yg I failed to eat yesterday. Menyesal yg amat….itulah…too busy mending my own feeling sampai terlupa makan pengat pisang yg awesome itu!! To make things worse, last night I don’t even eat any rice….Owhhh…dugaan…
Okay, chill ya Fatihah…there are thousands people out there whom actually starving right now and all you are thinking of is yourself…Selfish nya diri ini…. *sedih*
Maybe ini dugaan tuhan nak beri..be positive..sometimes I do realize, disaat saya berpuasa or sdg sabar, saya selalu diuji dengan perkara yg boleh buat saya hilang sabar, marah dan melenting..Hurrmmm…my patience level sgt nipis kan??
Okay..positive yours truly..you know, I know and everybody know..life is not easy, it is getting tougher and tougher day by day but yet life is exciting. Today, we feel bad but tomorrow may bring lights to us.
I guess when a person is hungry, he or she will have a mental breakdown sekejap..like what I’m having right now…my mind can’t focus at work. They said, 70% of lives controlled by mind, only 30% of it is were controlled by our physical. You can do it Fatihah…dear Otak, be strong!!!
Owhh..Jimmy….
I slept early last night sebab stress and marah. Ya, when I am not in a good mood, the best thing to do is to sleep so I don’t have to face any manusia. Kenapa stress & marah??Well, sedang kan lidah tergigit, inikan pula siblings…hee~Ya, I am a normal human being with flaws and feeling so sometimes, hati ini cepat terasa and terguris.
Today my life at work is not as productive as yesterday. I feel mellow and my mind keeps thinking of home. Maybe it is due to fasting kot…I ‘m in the midst of process ganti puasa and what’s killing me is that I keep thinking of pengat pisang at home yg I failed to eat yesterday. Menyesal yg amat….itulah…too busy mending my own feeling sampai terlupa makan pengat pisang yg awesome itu!! To make things worse, last night I don’t even eat any rice….Owhhh…dugaan…
Okay, chill ya Fatihah…there are thousands people out there whom actually starving right now and all you are thinking of is yourself…Selfish nya diri ini…. *sedih*
Maybe ini dugaan tuhan nak beri..be positive..sometimes I do realize, disaat saya berpuasa or sdg sabar, saya selalu diuji dengan perkara yg boleh buat saya hilang sabar, marah dan melenting..Hurrmmm…my patience level sgt nipis kan??
Okay..positive yours truly..you know, I know and everybody know..life is not easy, it is getting tougher and tougher day by day but yet life is exciting. Today, we feel bad but tomorrow may bring lights to us.
I guess when a person is hungry, he or she will have a mental breakdown sekejap..like what I’m having right now…my mind can’t focus at work. They said, 70% of lives controlled by mind, only 30% of it is were controlled by our physical. You can do it Fatihah…dear Otak, be strong!!!
Owhh..Jimmy….
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
Tuesday
I am wearing Dian's jibab today. At first I am not that confident that I can pull it off but eventually I come to love it sbb it was so easy to wear and I don't have to use any pins!! Sukaaa...
Owhh..I love bright colors and so happen I have a work shirt to match it...Thank you Dian, probably I am going to get myself another one..heee~
By the way, it has been quite a long time since I last saw si gemuk Jimmy...so today, right after work..I went to see my baby Jimmy. Jimmy baru lepas grooming and currently all his bulu sudah pun di shave off!! Poor Jimmy....and it seems that keboyotan nya amat terserlah..so comel!!!! *see the perut*
Rasa cam nk gomol Jimmy but today Jimmy is sombong!!Dia malas and bila org angkat jer dia nk cakar!! Takpe Jimmy..esok I kidnap you!!!
Okay nak tidur..Esok is Wednesday....
Bye!!
Owhh..I love bright colors and so happen I have a work shirt to match it...Thank you Dian, probably I am going to get myself another one..heee~
By the way, it has been quite a long time since I last saw si gemuk Jimmy...so today, right after work..I went to see my baby Jimmy. Jimmy baru lepas grooming and currently all his bulu sudah pun di shave off!! Poor Jimmy....and it seems that keboyotan nya amat terserlah..so comel!!!! *see the perut*
Rasa cam nk gomol Jimmy but today Jimmy is sombong!!Dia malas and bila org angkat jer dia nk cakar!! Takpe Jimmy..esok I kidnap you!!!
Okay nak tidur..Esok is Wednesday....
Bye!!
Sunday, May 6, 2012
At Dian Pelangi
Owhh..today is Sunday...so esok, back to work as usual and probably I will be in a good mood since I'm going to wear a new scarf..LOL~
Nothing much happening today except that I went to Dian Pelangi's butik in Bangsar. It was a nice boutique, good concept and I love all the dresses.hee~ Am not a big fan of a harem pants but I do have several of them...*haha* but seeing them in tie dyes makes my eyes drooling over them. Tapi, come to think back..I know...I won't wear them kot unless I go for any holiday outside KL...heeee~
Owhh...satu lagi, today my family and I had our brunch at Murni Discovery in USJ. Previously, I do heard about them through kak Laili and several others yg cakap tempat tu best. So, finally...we went there and had our brunch. Tempat itu is simple but what's interesting is, the menu itself mmg awesome!!! I do think, this is the first restaurant I have actually encounter a drink names like "I love you", "I miss you", "Don't worry" and etc...Cool okay!!! I chose "I miss you" which is a combination of lychee + soda + orange..nama dia so sweeeet...*wink*
Ok some pictures to share...
Hurrmmm..I promis myself not to shop, but I did anyway...Dear hati, kawal lah nafsu shopping ini...amin~
Saturday, May 5, 2012
Saturday Today
So, today I followed my parent to a wedding in Ipoh. I love weddings!! I feel good at weddings..probably due to a good foods and I love to be a witness of such a beautiful ceremony..Kenapa??Ntah...let just say I enjoy myself in any weddings. *wink*
Owhh..I'm in a good mood today so as usual, *ehem* of course lah saya melawa puas2...hee~
Let the pictures do the talking...today I had a brain freeze, everything pun won't come out from my mind...ok cool!!!
Owhh..I'm in a good mood today so as usual, *ehem* of course lah saya melawa puas2...hee~
Let the pictures do the talking...today I had a brain freeze, everything pun won't come out from my mind...ok cool!!!
is loving my Poppy dress by Thepoplook
I love my baby girl!!
Okay bye!!!
Dinner with Nani
Meet one of my close friend, Nani. We have been friends since primary school. Now, both of us working so nak jumpa tuh mmg payah. Sebab itu, we have this monthly dinner to update our stories...hee~
So last Monday, we went to have our monthly dinner at Las Carretas. It is a Mexican Restaurant. Both of us love foods so much so we always try to have our dinner at different places every month. Best kan?? *tiba2 lapar*
The food itself is marvelous. Both of us ordered Fajitas. Mine is beef and Nani's is chicken. Sedappppp...but I can't finish mine cause the portion is quite big. Umm..maybe next time datang I have to share.
Frankly I don't have any idea to blog an I believe pictures will tell you the story itself...
The food itself is marvelous. Both of us ordered Fajitas. Mine is beef and Nani's is chicken. Sedappppp...but I can't finish mine cause the portion is quite big. Umm..maybe next time datang I have to share.
Frankly I don't have any idea to blog an I believe pictures will tell you the story itself...
p/s: is lapar and missing Nani..........
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Labour Day
So, Happy Labour Day to those who celebrate it like me!!
Ya, it suppose to be a stay at home day for me but I end up spending time with my parent and baby sis. Ya, stay at home is not an option when both my parent suka pergi makan tempat yg awesome..so, how am I suppose to duduk rumah and watch them eat foods yg best??The answer is, I can't coz I love foods too much!!
Today I spent most of my time in KLCC..I know..again...what to do??my house is only 10min away to KLCC and manusia in KLCC is super ramai!!! What I hate on Labour Day is, KLCC akan definitely full with foreigners. Not typical tourist but simply those minah & mamat kilang foreigners okay!! Hurrrmmmm...I feel like I was in Indonesia/oversea today...LOL~
I think the highlight of the day is when me, baby girl and papito decided to watch a movie while waiting for my mum. Si budak kecik tu insist nak tgk The Avengers 3D but you know la...TGV in KLCC during public holiday???The Avengers mmg confirm full house/sold out and nak try tgk battleship but eventually the tickets available pulak seats dia depan sekali...so we end up watching cerita LOCKOUT. Actually, I manage to Google it up before cerita tu start and since my dad is not a big fan of cerita yg merepeks so I have to agree la to watch this movie since it is one of the movie yg tidak selling fast..LOL~
The movie itself is okay..I give 2.5 stars out of 5. Bagi saya, cerita itu, is a bit too futuristic which is so not me but I love all the actions!!And for the 1st time today, I found that Guy Pearce is quite a hottie...hee~
Eventhough It is such a tiring day but I had so much fun with budak kecik and my parent and owhh...lagi satu sebab I got my self a new tudung lagi...LOL~Thank you Mama!!
Okay lahhhh...Robert Downey jr is calling me now so I got to go!!
Happy working esok!!!
Ya, it suppose to be a stay at home day for me but I end up spending time with my parent and baby sis. Ya, stay at home is not an option when both my parent suka pergi makan tempat yg awesome..so, how am I suppose to duduk rumah and watch them eat foods yg best??The answer is, I can't coz I love foods too much!!
Today I spent most of my time in KLCC..I know..again...what to do??my house is only 10min away to KLCC and manusia in KLCC is super ramai!!! What I hate on Labour Day is, KLCC akan definitely full with foreigners. Not typical tourist but simply those minah & mamat kilang foreigners okay!! Hurrrmmmm...I feel like I was in Indonesia/oversea today...LOL~
I think the highlight of the day is when me, baby girl and papito decided to watch a movie while waiting for my mum. Si budak kecik tu insist nak tgk The Avengers 3D but you know la...TGV in KLCC during public holiday???The Avengers mmg confirm full house/sold out and nak try tgk battleship but eventually the tickets available pulak seats dia depan sekali...so we end up watching cerita LOCKOUT. Actually, I manage to Google it up before cerita tu start and since my dad is not a big fan of cerita yg merepeks so I have to agree la to watch this movie since it is one of the movie yg tidak selling fast..LOL~
The movie itself is okay..I give 2.5 stars out of 5. Bagi saya, cerita itu, is a bit too futuristic which is so not me but I love all the actions!!And for the 1st time today, I found that Guy Pearce is quite a hottie...hee~
Eventhough It is such a tiring day but I had so much fun with budak kecik and my parent and owhh...lagi satu sebab I got my self a new tudung lagi...LOL~Thank you Mama!!
Okay lahhhh...Robert Downey jr is calling me now so I got to go!!
Happy working esok!!!
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