Selamat Berpuasa to all muslimin dan muslimat yg menyambut ramadhan. Semoga ramadhan kali ini akan penuh denagn barakah..Insyaallah~
Puasa so far is okay with me. Alhamdulillah…my blood level is stable. Sgt bersyukur sebab tekanan darah is normal since I always had this problem when it comes to my blood level during fasting month. Yes, I am so unhealthy…badan ini sgt lemah and can simply sakit.
Teringin sangat nak puasa penuh but knowing us women, it is imposible for me to puasa penuh unless if I am pregnant. LOL~ Insyaallah satu hari saya dapat menrasakan nikmat pregnant jika diizinkan NYA.
Life has been hectic for me especially these past few weeks. Semuanya kerana my current project yg sgt fast track. That is why I have been tweeting a lot saying that 8 hours of work is simply not enough due to my workload yg agak massive. But I love being busy because it makes me feel alive…LOL~
Owhh…yes, being me…most of the time when I’m blog, I tend to blog about someone. This time around I am going to blog about someone. Someone I just knew recently during our project team building. He is a client by the way.
During our project team building, as per what I remember, we don’t actually talk to each other. But apparently, when he stationed here in my company we got the opportunity to talk. Basically we talk about our work. Not even once we try to have any normal conversation about our personal life. But, he did ask for my number and deep down I know, basically he needs my number because of kerja since sometimes I am not at my work place. Never once he actually text me or call me to ask anything on personal matter. When we talk, we talk about work and work and work.
The thing is, he is that good looking guy. Serius tak tipu….And being me, I always said that I don’t like a good looking guy but apparently I do like good looking guy. LOL~ Even my senior engineers keep calling him “Leng Chai” or handsome boy in Chinese because he is handsome. He maybe not as gorgeous as Cristiano Ronaldo but he has a look to die for.
Frankly, I am having a crush on him. WHY??Because he is handsome ma…When I had a crush on someone, normally what I did was I like looking at that person. Just looking okay nothing more sebab it is merely a crush but I do admit that when he ask for my number, my heart was actually doing a backflip..LOL~ Eventhough I do know he needs my number sebab kerja not because he wants to socializing with me kan…but still, hati rasa gembira..*hee*
However, the only thing I hate when I’m having a crush at someone is when that person were actually being too nice to me like being overly sweet and treat me like he needs me. At first I thought it was only my imagination but days to days he tends to prolong our conversation though we have nothing else to discuss.
Just today, we were actually emailing something about work and on his last email I was just joking by saying that I will belanja him for berbuka puasa today. Alas, we end up emailing for fun tho it was just a short email. Hurrmmm…this is my biggest fear. Why??Because I am afraid I might falling for him for real. Macam mana??It is not that I am afraid to love but I am afraid to feel the pain again. Rasa sakit itu hanya tuhan saja yg tahu.
I try to keep myself distance but how am I suppose to do that??Currently we are working on this project together and I see him every single week. Yesterday pun I try my best not to look at him but of course my efforts dies in vain because I did look at him when my boss were talking to him. I try to keep it cool for now. I pray and hope that hati ini kuat untuk meniti hari2 yg seterusnya..*omg!! Ayat mmg tak boleh blah* But hey…it is true you know…my biggest failure is expectation. I tend to expect more when there is nothing to expect that is why I don’t like when a guy being too extra nice. You can be nice when you have to be nice but not always too nice. You faham??Takpe…yg penting saya faham.
Anyway, I got this buka puasa thing to deal with today. Hopefully semuanya berjalan dgn lancar and I hope hati ini tidak berdetak dgn lebih kencang. Amin~
ehem2..cantik kn kwn saya..hee~