Lately...

I feel alive again!!


I am glad now that my family is complete. My dad just got back from his US trip. I believe it was a good one since he came back with lots of stuffs. Ya, I got some new stuff too and I can’t wait to use it. Most probably I will be using it this weekend. Sangatlah tidak sabar!!

I find myself not into blogging anymore these past few weeks. I guess it is due to workload plus most of my pictures are in instagram and I find myself too lazy to share pictures lately though I do have hundreds of pictures in my insta. Yes, I am an instafreak. LOL~

Life has been great so far despite of my “I think too much” behavior I guess everything seems to be in order. I am more positive nowadays, lack of susah hati lately and I am enjoying life as it is. Thanks to ALLAH the Almighty.

Masalah kecil hati is always there. I try not to dwell so much thought about it and try to be more reasonable. So far, my efforts die in vain. Sigh~ I tend to care too much and always want to jg hati semua orang and I let people around me to misuse and hurt me. Yes, I am hurt but am good at hiding it too. Am good at hiding pain but not when I am annoyed. It is such a tiresome to actually care about other people’s feeling but not mine. A friend asks me to actually care those who care about me. But the problem is, most people pretend to care when they actually don’t. They say, kawan senang mudah dicari but kawan susah sukar nak ada. I believe it is true because not all people can actually bear the pain with you.

I think what I am I suppose to do now is by being a better me. It is hard though but I have too. How??Well, I don’t actually know how but am just going with the flow and try not to think too much, care less and be more patience. Patience is yet another critical or massive problem that I have. Yes, we always have issues and I am yet to figure how to overcome it. What I did was simply banyakkan istighfar and starts to think about other people well being too. As a human, sometime we tend to be selfish. Sometimes we don’t even notice that we are being selfish. Ya, salah orang kita nampak but we don’t actually see our flaws kan??Yes, I got the same problem too. LOL~

Bila blogging jer, I always talk about my misbehavior. I don’t know why but I guess a blog is actually a medium for me to actually confess whatever my heart feels. Nowadays, it is hard though to talk to other people about our problems. Most people don’t really want to understand or listen to your problems. Only certain people do and care. Daripada saya susahkan kepala orang, lebih baik saya menulis. Ya, maybe blog can’t actually give me any advice but at least it’s listen and don’t judge. LOL~

Owhh…I am a bit free today, not so much work in my bucket but I am foresee that if a new projects coming, it is surely going to be mine.

Okay ada meeting!!