On Kerja & Life

When I thought things are going to be better….eventually all hope seems to die in vain. Maybe I was hoping too much. They say expectation lead to disappointment. It is true I think, but how can I not to put such hope because I do think at the end of the day, it is hope that keep us driven and strong. Yes, hope do give us such faith kan?


They say, to be happy is to be content. I am and I do feel content. However, I do not have anyone or to be exact a love partner to share my happiness with. Yes, I do have family and friends but deep down I do need someone to actually complete me. Not that I am incomplete or feeling inadequate or something, I just need someone to share everything about life is. It is funny that I am actually talking about this in writing rather than to talk about it like a normal human being with anyone. LOL~

Funny is, I don’t really think I can share such thoughts about love with anyone now. It is too painful for me to even talk about love nowadays. I am being sensitive lately. A close friend of mine once told me that I should let myself out more if I want to meet a right person. To be honest, I don’t think that by going out frequently would actually make me find this so called guy. Entah lah…Frankly, I am tired of being all positive about this love thing. Sometimes, I do wonder…why lah am I so worried about this love or marriage business??I do question myself sometimes…The only thing that I can come up with now is due to lots of my girlfriend are getting married, married, getting baby and getting lots of babies are actually the reasons why I am so obsessed of getting myself a husband too kot and perhaps due to persuasion by family yg so anxious to see me walking down the aisle. Seriously mama, I pray and pray every day that one day HE will grant me a husband. Masa itu belum tiba lagi…bersabar ya fatihah. Sibuk sangat nak share life with someone kan…but sharing a life with someone itu bukan senang ya fatihah. Hurmmm…ya…I have a lot to improve actually…with my kind of attitudes, I bet I am not an easy person to live with. Yes, I have lots of issues but apparently so does other people too. Pitch can be perfect but no one can be perfect.

On work itself…I am so ready to be busy since I have just received a new project by MURPHY. Can’t wait to get started. I love being busy at least it keep me on my toes and I do not have waste my time on thinking things that I am not suppose to think. Well, typical me…I am a woman..I think a lot and usually I think too much of those things yg ridiculous. That is one of the reasons why I like to keep myself busy like yesterday.

Owhh…I did go to an interview though last week. Am not really into that company actually but I just give myself a try. Tak salah kan if mahu mencuba. So far, I am happy here, I truly learn so much here and I like to work with those people especially my favourite project manager. He is truly a garang person and super strict but I like working with him. He is a very good project manager and he teaches me a lot. With him, kerja memang banyak but he knows how to make things easy for his projects. I have received lots of bad feedback about him though, yes..he is not an easy person to work with and yes he yells a lot if you don’t do things right but trust me, if you know how to work with him..you sure will get lots of benefits from it.

Keep on learning ya Fatihah…about love, I leave it to yg MAHA ESA. HE knows best. Hanya tuhan sahaja yg tahu what I want the most.

Peace.