Past & Regrets

It is Monday again and I definitely had a Monday blues today. No…I don’t hate Monday but I simply don’t like Monday. Sorry Monday…weekend seems short lately…*stress*

Talking about past, we always heard a phrases said, “What past is past”. I use to agree with it, I mean...Come on...Life is all about looking forward, past is past..Keep your head high and realize that there are lots of uncertainties waiting for you upfront. Betul tak??

Somehow, this past few days make me think…what if my past got something to do with my future??What if my past does relate with my future??Ya…I have been filling my head with lots of “what if”.Typical me, I love to think too much…or perhaps maybe women do think too much..br lah cool kan??

I do not know why, but lately I have been thinking about a guy. He is a guy whom I never had a chance to meet. Seriously, we never met...But we do talk with each other through phone though. But it all happened in past…I knew him through a friend actually. She is the one who pass my number to this guy. I do not even know his full name nor do I know how he looks like. Ya, its intrigue me…..I mean, according to my friend he is this amazing guy who had a great career, a good life...Someone a woman could always rely on…but being me, I guess I was too young 3 years ago to realize all this things. Or perhaps I was too stupid and blindly in love with my ex and I can’t even see how good he is.

I know, I use to say..no regrets...and I know I do sound like I am regretting it….well, perhaps I do regret but I do think, setiap apa yang berlaku, pasti ada hikmah nya…Senang cakap, maybe kami tidak ada jodoh…Ya, the most common way to see it la..LOL~

Being me, I do believe in jodoh as I believe in fate. Some say, we cannot solely depend on fate…we live this life so we can or we must choose our own fate. It is true indeed, a person cannot solely depend on fate…..Allah created us to be HIS khalifah so it is up to us to design our life.

They said, life is a big canvas..So kindly use your paint brush and design it accordingly. I guess mine is so abstract and no one could actually understand it. Only you know what lies beneath all those design..Only You know your own self right?Eventhough yes, sometimes most of us do feel clueless on life…Itu perkara biasa, no one is bloody perfect and there will be a time where we need to figure out our self.

My mum said something to me that make me think while I’m having my shower yesterday. I told her about that particular guy I knew 3 years ago. I even told her that we never meet and somehow I feel a twinge of regret for not taking the opportunity to know him..I mean, who knows he might be the one right??

My mum said, “Obviously ALLAH has greater plan for you. HE has reasons for that. What ever happened we shall embrace it and move on. We are a human, it is a norm to have regrets, they said, regret is meaningless unless you plan to do something about it. We can’t undo time but we can always redeem our self. Maybe it is time for you to step up your life and do something about those regrets.”

Ya, my mum memang bijak!!Manusia..We keep on talking about regrets but we never do something about it.

Actually, I have been pondering myself about it for quite some time. Ya, I am afraid of doing it, because I simply do not want to hurt myself. I tend to get hurt pretty easy nowadays..It is due to my age..I guess..Pardon me~

Someone use to say, the best way to overcome fear is to face it. So, yes…I am going to face it, if I failed or perhaps things are not run accordingly, I still keep my head high…

Maybe past is not always a past and regrets will never be regrets..We should determine our life with HIS guidance not simply depending on fate.

p salam s: taking chances instead of losing hope lebih bagus kan??