Jealousy

According to Wikipedia, Jealousy is a second emotion. It is typically refers to the negative thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over an anticipated loss of something that the person values, particularly in reference to a human connection. Jealousy often consists of a combination of presenting emotions such as anger, sadness, resentment and disgust. It is not to be confused with envy. Sebab envy tend to be deeper than jealousy and I bet better be jealous then envy.

Bercakap soal jealousy, it is actually a universal human experience. No one can escape jealousy. You tend to feel it even though you don’t have the intention of feeling it. It is a feeling where you have no controlled of it. Same goes with love. When you are in love, you can’t help it but to keep falling kan?? I know, been there.

To tell you the truth, I don’t mind to keep falling in love everyday for the rest of my life. Because being in love is such a beautiful feeling. I am bless to be able to feel love until now. Yela…we never know, ALLAH might take those feeling away from me. By then, what do I have to give??

Being a human myself, sometimes I can’t help but to feel jealous. Yela, like Mr Wikipedia said when you feel insecure /anxiety over an anticipated loss you tend to get jealous. Bila jealous, you tend to be angry, sad and you definitely akan rasa a bit disgust of yourself. You know, the thought of “why am I supposed to be jealous” is running through your mind rapidly but hey…once you started to get jealous, it is hard to actually to overcome it. Ubat jealous are not available in the market and it will never be. Ubat nya senang sahaja, sila back to basic…INGAT LAH TUHAN, NESCAYA DIA AKAN INGAT ANDA DAN AKAN JAGA HATI ANDA.

Personally, I am not a good person either. Sometimes, hati ini mudah sangat jealous pada manusia lain. Ya, I tend to be jealous to those silly things like, Owhh..how come she has that bag?Ehh…I am much smarter than him how can he beat me??Owhh…how come she looks pretty with that hideous outfit?? Owhh…you don’t deserve him since you are not that pretty…

See….I am bad kan??Ya…I am that kind of person who can’t help but feeling jealous…Jealous yg tidak bertempat. I get jealous when my dad gives more attention to my sister, I get jealous when I saw my ex with his girlfriend. (That is why I delete him in my FB). See…my jealousy level is a bit chronic kan?

I am afraid actually. I am afraid that I can’t control my need of jealousy. What if my jealousy overcomes LOVE??I do have a lot of LOVE to give you know. I hate myself sometimes to actually feel jealous to manusia yg tidak sepatutnya. Maaf ya…sometimes I tend to follow my heart instead of my head.

Perhaps we should use our brain instead of heart. Our heart is full of lust and nafsu itu bring us to hell instead of heaven.

It is not easy to overcome jealousy. I have tried but my efforts dies in vain. Tapi takpe…Usaha itu tangga kejayaan right??

Don’t get jealous, don’t be jealous. Jealousy will eats you alive and all of sudden you have nothing else left except a broken heart.

Cakap itu mudah kan??But it is hard to do so…but hey…at least let us try not to be jealous okay…

Jom!!


p/s: to those people out there, I never meant to get jealous to you guys, I can't help it. I am so sorry if I cause you any harm in any way ya. Maaf from the bottom of my heart~