Crush ke LOVE?

Crush??




Base on thesaurus punya dictionary, crush is temporary feeling yg tiba2 kita rasa kita suka org tuh..betul tak??If u ask me, I would say..Yes, it is absolutely right veveh!!




Love??




Love itu is a deep feeling. It is sgt subjective. People define love in their own ways. Some says, Love is not about words or how you wrote a poem to ur love ones or even confess ur love..I mean, it is as easy as a pie to say “I love you” but are you actually meant it??or is it just a word semata-mata??




Ya..LOVE it complicated. Senang citer, there is no right or wrong on how other people confess their love. Maybe ada segelintir manusia yg terlalu obsess with it sehingga membawa maut and jgn lupa LOVE itu can make other people go crazy. Well..baru la cinta mati kan??




Okay..let us talk about love 1st, I define love as a very subjective matter. It is a feeling that gave u butterflies in ur stomach whenever u see the person, u heard his/her name mentioned, u even dream of him/her during day & nite and when my heart keep beating faster than normally...Yes, that is love for me. Our malay came up with a proverb that “bila mandi xbsh, mkn xlalu, tidur xlena” means seseorang itu is in love right?? Well, I believe it is true tho…different people reacts differently when they are in love right?? Ya, my definition of love sounds simple kan?? Trust me, when u are in love you know how it feel.




Crush??




I have been there way too many times. It all started when I was just 10 years old I guess. I mean that is the very 1st time that I have the urge of actually liking seorang manusia yg bernama lelaki. How does crush works?? Well, for me..crush is a simple feeling. Like I said earlier..it is a temporary feeling. They said, it took a minute to like sum1, 5 minutes to have a crush on sum1, and a lifetime to love sum1. I believe it is true. I mean it sure didn’t take me much time to have a crush on sum1. …and for me, normally the crush thingy will only occur when I see that particular person…if I xnmpak or no one did mention his name, serius..wa mmg langsung xingat kot…Cuma bila nmpk en crush itu, tiba2 senyuman daku menjadi sgt lebar dan mula lah nk buat muka comel..sekian~




Love??




I have been in love..ONCE. Ya…baru sekali rupanya daku in love…tsskkk~ If u ask me, to be in love is surely not an easy process. It is easy for me to like a guy but to be in love??Up till now there is only one guy jer yg berjaya mengetuk pintu hati ini. Lelaki itu mmg hebat. He is the most amazing guy I ever met. Ya..he totally excel in all my criteria. Tapi tuhan itu ada plan lain untuk I kn..unfortunately lelaki itu bukan untuk ku. Regrets??No…never regret…it is such a bless to have meet such a guy. Never thought in a millions years I could actually met a guy who meets all my expectation. But hey…sila berpijak di bumi yg nyata kn..no one is bloody perfect..Obviously, he is definitely not the perfect one for me. Maksudnya, there is a someone out there yg akan complete me….haha~Ya..I am optimis!!




Currently, I am in a state of cannot differentiate my own feeling. I do think this guy is a crush but my guts told me that this is love. What my heart say??Well…currently I am not talking with my heart..I rather talk with my brain instead of heart.




Mr brain said, it is definitely a crush..and I should move on with life and who knows I might find myself someone else yg can complete me..Yerp…brain ckp, kita perlu optimis..and believe that kumbang itu bukan seekor…




But my guts said, babe…u shud holding on to him..who knows he might be the one??u just have to be more patient and insyaallah one day he will be yours…




And I said, I’m with you Mr. Brain…because seriously…I won’t waste my time on sum1 or uncertainty. MASA ITU EMAS…why must I waste it on sum1 yg not worth it, I might as well as move on and I believe pintu rezeki/jodoh itu terletak di Tangan NYA. Obviously, HE the ALMIGHTY ONE has a great plan for me..why must I wait for uncertainty??




Conclusion is, I definitely moving on..It has been 2 months already…and I doing good myself. I just deleted him from my FB. Some says, I won’t have to do that..but I do think that I shud do it..bukan apa..it is for the best..for the sake of us both~I believe, a woman shud protect her own heart 1st before you hand it over to sum1 else.




p/s: I still believe in LOVE and I never stop giving LOVE.




Okay bye~

Kisah Hati

Cinta kau dan aku
Takkan mungkin bersatu
Untuk saat ini di dunia ini
Mungkin kita bersama
Nanti di atas sana
Biar ku setia menjaga cintamu
Selamanya

is currently addicted to this song..

No..am not a big fan of remy ishak..Yes..I suka Alyah and her voice??Mantaps....

Dedicate to whom??errr.....kepada Cristiano Ronaldo yg berada jauh maybe di portugal atau pun sdg season practice di Bernabeu. Dgn Ucapan, sila lah menang champion league's next season..go thrash Barcelona okay syg~

Ok bye~

Bila hati terluka

Hati.

I have a heart. Yes, satu hati…hati tu la yg salu melompat happy (when I ‘m happy), hati tu lah yg salu nanges sorg2 (when I’m sad), hati tu lah yg salu dicalar, hati tu lah yg salu terluka…

Ya..hati itu mmg kuat. I never thought that I wud have such a heart. BRAVEHEART??tidak mungkin…itu adalah Mel Gibson. It’s ok..I’m still proud of you wahai Hati.
Owh..yes, hati ini terluka lagi…hari tu dah berparut, tapi tiba2 ia berdarah kembali. (omg..mcm lirik lagu..abaikan~)
Kenapa ia berdarah??Biarlah rahsia…takpe..I’m okay..mama ckp..bila happy u can tell the world, tp bila sakit..senyap suda….^_~

Since hati ini terluka, I pun google la… ”Cara-cara mengubati hati yang terluka” , pergh…mmg byk cara okay…salah satu drpdnya adalah menyuruh seseorang itu to commit suicide…What the??? Ya..itu adalah jalan mudah utk escape..mmg sampai bila2 hati tak kan terluka. Tapi itu adalah cara manusia takde agama. Excuse me, my mum raise me to be a better person and a good muslim..perlu ke I bunuh diri?? I tak kahwin lg okay!!

Tengah2 dok syok google..tiba2…I came across this word press…I believe it’s a SHE yg tulis ni…when I read it, I rasa satu tamparan yg menampar pipi ini..(maksudnya sedar), I just realized, it is myself who actually hurt my own heart…tidak percaya??Okay..ce tengok apa wanita ni ckp..ce tengok..ce tengok…

Emosi yang terluka mungkin bermula dari hanya calar yang kecil, namun rentetan peristiwa demi peristiwa yang berlaku mencetuskan emosi negatif yang setiap kali satu peristiwa selesai kesan calar bertambah besar dan emosi negatif mula membukit seterusnya menggunung yang andai meletus akan mengeluarkan lahar yang panas dan membahang dan akhirnya menjadi luka yang dalam dan sensitif.

bagaimana mahu merawat hati yang terluka ini?

muhasabah dulu punca kelukaan.
1. kebanyakan punca datang dari hati yang tidak redha.
2. hati yang tidak redha terjadi kerana tapaknya kotor dan hitam.
3. tapak hati hitam dan kotor kerana banyak melakukan maksiat.
4. maksiat berlaku kerana berpunca dari makanan yang tidak bersih dan halal.
5. makanan yang tidak bersih dan halal membuatkan kita melewatkan solat atau terus mengabaikannya kerana hati tidak rasa bersalah mensia-siakan solat.
andai kita jaga pemakanan , maka 80% solat kita terjaga., bila solat dapat dijaga, kita mudah mendapat solat yang khusyuk. apabila solat kita khusyuk, kita mampu membersih hati dan menjaga peribadi.

Apabila peribadi terjaga, hati bersih. emosi tidak mudah tercalar kerana kita berupaya sabar dan mengakui segala sesuatu yang berlaku adalah kerana izin Ilahi dan pastinya ada hikmah disebaliknya.

Meyakini sesuatu itu yang terbaik untuk kita kerana ia dtang dari Allah memerlukan fokus.
untuk fokus bahagian hipothalamus otak perlu kuat dan bertenaga.
untuk mendapat hipothalamus yang kuat dan bertenaga kita perlukan tidur delta dan tidur delta hanya boleh dicapai bila kita menjaga adab tidur dan tidur seawal lepas isyak dan bangun tahajud di 2/3 malam.

Emosi yang terluka adalah lemparan cas-cas elektromagnet yang boleh dikawal hanya dengan menggunakan mind power atau kekuatan minda.

Semudah mengatakan aku berfikiran positif dan percaya.

Cubalah. katakan sekarang , ” aku berfikiran positif , aku redha, aku menyayangi diriku dan aku menerima diriku seadanya”. sertakan dengan tapping,

Keberkesanannya melonjak.

Ya..now I know, hati ini..kita yg jaga..kita yg boleh decide sama ada nak hati terluka ke..terguris ke..tercalar ke..semua nya atas kita...okay??

Dear hati,
Tabahkan la dirimu, I know..you terluka..but come on..the first cut is the deepest right??this is obviously not the first..yg keberapa pun..I have no idea..dah lost count ok..So plese dear heart..bear with it..sekejap jer..nanti baik lah luka tuh..^_^

Sekarang..mari kita merawat hati yg luka..1st gi solat Asar dulu boleh??

Okay bye~

Wordless Wednesday

I c u later Van Persie

Open

It has been what??3 days since the BERSIH gathering…but from blog to blog..rata2 semua org are talking about it..ya..ada manusia yg embrace it and ada juga yg so against it..Ya, we are human..we have opinions. Whether it is right or wrong...it’s our opinion, so..Go ahead with it if you think that you are right..betul x?To hell with other people kan?as long as we get to voice up our says.

Actually, am not going to blog about BERSIH but I came across this amazing blog this morning, I love to read his blog (lensarosak). I mean, he is so open up..he talks about lots of things and yes..he is being sarcastic but..come on..who cares??that’s the whole point of blogging right??to speak up and tell the world what we felt. He is actually the owner of “Terfaktab”, ya…tentu sekali dia hebat kan..I am critically in love with his blog..sbb they expose so many things yg most people (ehem2..like me) won’t admit.

Berbalik to lensarosak, this morning I found that he is actually talking about BERSIH. Basically, ya..saudara Aqram are totally not agree on the existence of BERSIH. Well, being me…am not going to slam him and tell him..’hey, babe…you are wrong’..No..Aqram has his own opinion, and yes..I respect that..but me too have my own opinion. I believe other people should respect it and not to think that I am naïve about this whole things.

If people ask me on my opinion of BERSIH, am going to be exactly bold and said..hey..they did nothing wrong, all they want is a peaceful gathering and to be able to send a memorandum to Yang Dipertuan Agong. If I am not mistaken, our Yang Dipertuan Agong also mengalu-alukan mereka with his arm wide open. So, tell me…is it wrong to actually organize a peaceful gathering??Is it wrong to send a memorandum??

Sometimes, I do wonder…what makes other people too shallow when it comes to politics??I mean…am not a big fan of politics. Trust me..politics is always full of personal agenda. Am not a pro anti gov or not a pro gov either. Nak tahu kenapa??baik pakatan rakyat or gov…they have their own agenda..Ya, we can’t truly believe that if Pakatan Rakyat are the one who rules then they will be a good gov, there is no absolute guarantee that they are much better than our existing government and yes there are lots of ‘what if’ in our head if Pakatan Rakyat were to be our leader. Betul tak??But I do think that belum cuba, belum tahu..kan2??

I know..people will be asking..why change when everything is okay??Come on dear citizens, take a good look of Malaysia, are we okay now??

Seriously, we are not okay…yes..there are lots of lies/devious events/corruption and etc are happening here in Malaysia. Ya, we might not be as worse as other third world country but hey…we are going to be just like them if we don’t change. I believe people are afraid of changing but, let’s face the truth, we need a wind of change. Don’t be too radical and thinking that we are going to be doom if we change a government..No…it won’t be that bad, look at other country…they are still survive.

Look at Thailand my dear, they are changing with a new government, even their citizens are not afraid of changes. Look at Philippine, their people rising towards their government to fight over their government corruption and there goes Gloria Arroyo Macapagal dictatorship. Are we going to be as worse as Philippine when it comes to politics??Kindly be inform ya, there are a governor in Philippine whom are willing to killed just for the sake of winning an election. Are we going to be them??You tidak percaya??Kindly google “Maguidanao Massacre”. Confirm korang nanges if baca psl kisah ini ya…an example of a man who are so obsessed with his power & wealth and willing to do anything to retain it.

Actually, when it comes to politics I can share lots and lots of kisah manusia dictator. Why??well…personally, I read a lot and secondly, my brother studied in Political science so we did talk about it and share opinions about it. Yes, am not good of judging other people, but I believe my mum raise us right to make sure we do know how to differentiate on what’s right and what’s wrong.

When other people think that they are always right, well I believe “RIGHT” itu is up for a definition. I am not saying that I am right as I said earlier, everyone have their opinions and I do think one shud always accept other people’s opinions without feeling offended. What’s make human itu humanly enough is when he/she are able to live his/her life with consequences and possibilities. We can’t always think that life itu predictable; nothing is predictable as we can’t see our future. Maybe it is time to take chances on others rather than rely on the same party.

This is my opinion, whom ever are not pleased with it, you are more than welcome to voice up yours.

Ciao dude & dudettes

Kurus

Kurus?
I am kurus…physically kurus?Ya..I suppose I am..but still I do think I am a bit “mok-mok” lately…(mok sket jer..sbb nowadays saya suka makan nasi dan makan carbohydrates foods) Ya..blame it on me….(ada org ckp mok-mok itu comel..lyn kan suda..)

Actually when people are talking about kurus, I have few definitions of kurus.
Sebab I am kurus..(bukan sahaja physically)

When it comes to ilmu di dada ni, Ya…I am kurus…kurus sbb xckp lg mkn ilmu…as a human, we hav otak, and foods for otak is knowledge. And my otak definitely sgt2 tidak cukup mkn….baik ilmu dunia mahupun akhirat..memang xcukup lagi okay….

Owhh…tidak dilupakan…Miss hati dalam diri saya ni..mmg la kurus….Kalau anda semua ingat Victoria Secrets punya Angels tuh kurus, (cth: Miranda Kerr/Gisele Bundchen) meh sini dtg usha Miss hati saya… Hati saya mmg kurus….dia nipis sgt…senang terguris..senang terluka..(ciss..tiba2 rasa emosional) Tapi saya lucky, sbb saya ni mmg pandai mengubati hati saya yg kurus ini..nak tahu pakai ubat apa?? Ubatnya..jeng…jeng….sapu jer ngan air mata sendiri..saya tak tipu…saya mmg Puteri Menangis~ (sape2 nak ubat yg lebih berkesan, please do come & see me personally and I give u some tips..I hebat dalam mengubati luka hati tau) LOL~

Ape lagi yg kurus??Ya…buat masa ini…saat ini…mata saya ni rasa kurus sgt…mcm nak tutup jer…ini la penangan nasi dagang pagi tadi I rasa..Sumpah….mata ini sgt berat….PC ni pun cam dah nampak berbalam-balam (sape tak tahu maksud ini, sila rujuk kamus Dewan)

Okay la…ada audit..Bye~

Friday

Hari ini hari Jumaat,

Bila Jumaat.........



KLCC I see u at 12.30pm.....(I see u everyday kot..)



I eat n eat n eat....



is going to spend time with families...(xbole nak kuar gi mane2 kot..ari ni jam sbb ada few manusia sewels yg suruh polis buat road block!!)


p/s: sape2 yg rasa nak jln2 kt KL..xpyh laa...nanti korang sakit hati...


Ok bye~

BerSyukur

Lately there won't be a single day where I am not thinking about marriage/wedding.

Who's wedding??Mine of course...Every single day okay...always been wondering...sape lah..going to be the most amazing guy in my life*uhuk* apart from my daddy of course...

Ya..been thinking about it quite often..while working..while doing some business in the loo *ehem*..while sleeping..while eating...Ya...berfikir dan berfikir dan berfikir sambil menongkat dagu dan berkata, "I am the saddest person on earth dan manusia paling lonely sbb tade bf..."

Ya...am always thought that I am the most malang woman in Malaysia...ehh..tak la...maybe in Ampang kot...Sedih ok..sobssss~

But..something did happen today and it struck me, well..am not actually manusia yg sadis or malang...because...there are lots of other ppl out there whom might be in much2 worse situation or perhaps facing difficulties beyond anything I could imagine...who knows??

Here I am...every single day..whining about not having a bf..sedangkan...there are millions of other manusia di luar sana yg maybe sedang melalui saat yg paling sukar and perhaps there are facing death...but me??hanya kerana tidak mempunyai bf..tapi dia punya kalut cam ada kanser kan??Umm...sungguh kurang berpelajaran kan saya??

Ya...typical manusia...like me, I always want more..I always need more...I always want it all...without even think that life is not about having it all...Tuhan itu adil...HE gives me wealth..HE gives me health...HE gives me life...and insyallah...1 day, HE gives me sum1 to share a life with kan....HAWA itu dilahirkan dari tulang rusuk ADAM...satu hari nanti, I will see you wahai En ADAM.

One should be grateful on everything he/she had. Tuhan itu maha adil..and HE has a plan for each of us...cuma kita perlu sabar...for now, I should be grateful/bersyukur yg DIA bagi saya peluang untuk bernafas di atas muka bumi ini...always remember, ada byk lagi manusia yg lebih susah...oleh itu, sila lah bersyukur dengan apa yang ada...for now sila la byk2 kan bersabar ya wahai hati~

p/s: peringatan untuk diri sendiri

Bila Jiwa Kacau

Ya, saya mengalami jiwa kacau…siapa yang kacau??Jangan risau..bukan hantu yang kacau…jika hantu yang kacau, I don’t think I’ll be able to write or even go to work…sebab tentulah saya akan berada di rumah dan meracau macam orang gila…(nasib baik bukan hantu yang kacau)

Actually, lately..jiwa ini memang selalu kacau…terutama sekali semenjak hati ini sudah lama tidak terisi dgn insan yang bernama lelaki. Pada mulanya, jiwa ini takdelah kacau sgt..tapi semenjak 2 menjak bila dgr ramai sgt kawan nak kahwin ni…dia punya kacau tuh..jadi lain mcm ok…wa tension betul laaa….

Bila dah jiwa kacau nih…saya rasa gelisah jer…ada orang cakap dgn saya, bila kita susah hati or rasa alone…banyak2 kan berdoa dan ceritalah semuanya kepada ALLAH.



Ya..betul2…saya setuju, alhamdulillah…bila kita bercerita pada ALLAH SWT, beban dalam hati dan kepala tuh..kurang la sket..dan jiwa tuh..kurang la kacau…

Tapi tu la…jauh di sudut hati…saya masih lagi jiwa kacau..sebab..sebab…ada sesuatu yang sya betul2 mahu dalah hidup ni..tapi yang itu la susah nya nak dapat…Ya…hanya DIA yg lebih mengetahui….Saya memang nak sangat…tiap2 hari dok mintak benda yang sama….I told mama and she said, maybe you shud amal kan this ayat every single day..pagi..petang…siang..dan malam…haa….amik ko…

So okay…starting next week insyaallah..(minggu ni xboleh..ada masalah wanita)..I need/have/must amal kan membaca ayat 131 & 132 Surah Toha.

Dan janganlah engkau menujukan pandangan kedua matamu dengan keinginan kepada apa yang telah Kami berikan kepada beberapa golongan dari mereka yang kafir itu menikmatinya, yang merupakan keindahan kehidupan dunia ini, untuk Kami menguji mereka padanya; sedang limpah kurnia Tuhanmu di akhirat lebih baik dan lebih kekal. (Taha 20:131)

Dan perintahkanlah keluargamu serta umatmu mengerjakan sembahyang, dan hendaklah engkau tekun bersabar menunaikannya. Kami tidak meminta rezeki kepadamu, (bahkan) Kamilah yang memberi rezeki kepadamu. Dan (ingatlah) kesudahan yang baik adalah bagi orang-orang yang bertaqwa. (Taha 20:132)


Lagi satu….another Surah yg I do think setiap umat manusia shud amalkan is Surah Al-Waqi’ah. Menurut seorang ustazah yg ajar ngaji kt umah, ini adalah surah rezeki. Barangsiapa yg selalu mengamalkannya, insyaallah..dia akan jauh dari kefakiran and perhaps boleh memperoleh rezeki yg lebih banyak.

For more info on fadhilat surah Al-Waqi’ah ni, anda google lah sendiri ya…tak pun..pi la Tanya ustaz/ustazah..saya ni pun…salu bertanya jer..al-maklum la..ilmu kt dada ni..tak penuh lagi….

Tidak percaya??Owhh..tidak mengapa…saya ni..bukan nya seorang ustazah..tapi I do think I shud share it, sbb kadang2 kita manusia, bila jiwa kacau…kita lupa pd siapa kita patut mengadukan??Let us back to basic, saya ni pun byk khilaf nya, but I try my best to be the best…..takpelah…kita bersusah2 dahulu kan..insyaallah..one day DIA akan bagi kesenangan di akhirat kelak.

Sedikit nasihat untuk diri sendiri, SUDAH2 LAHH JIWA KACAU…HAMBA TAK LARAT NAK LAYAN DAH WEHHH…






Okay peace...







Bye~

Wordless Wednesday

ALL the Love in the world

p/s: is sharing some LOVE

Cerita tentang HIPOKRIT!

Ehem2...okay anak2 dara sekalian alam..today I nak share citer pasal wanita HIPOKRIT ya...

Ya...manusia hipokrit itu mmg ada...it is among us people...I bet we see them almost everyday kot...perempuan mmg banyak..(sape yg terasa tuh..sorry naaa...)

Hipokrit 1

This is a story about woman, whom are about to get married. Dia nak kawen dlm tahun ni la jgk...so happen she is a daughter of an Ustaz. Nak jadi kan cerita, sewaktu keluarga pihak lelaki dtg meminang (pihak laki ni is anak kawan mama), depa tanya la..berapa hantaran nak letak?Yang pihak perempuan ni, dgn tulus dan kudus nya...terus jwb...tak perlu hantaran semua, yang kami mahu hanyalah senaskhah Al-Quran. Pihak lelaki ni pun..rasa agak lega dan bersyukur la kan...baik betul keluarga pihak perempuan ni....Tanpa membuang masa, masing2 pun sibuk la nk buat preparation. Tapi kan...nak jadi kan masalah problem nya...bila time nak wat preparation. si pihak perempuan ni..tiba2 jer cam jadi lain la pulak...Bukan apa, ari tuh time masuk meminang, kata tamau sebarang hantaran la...nak senaskhah Al-Quran kan....but all of sudden, tiba2 pihak perempuan jadi semakin demand...Kasihan pihak lelaki okay...

Bayang kan la...since pihak perempuan cakap tak nak sebarang hantaran, mak si lelaki ni punya la..dah beli jubah putih untuk majlis pernikahan...tup..tup...tiba2 pihak perempuan ckp, Dia tak nak lah pakai jubah time wedding...sbb dia nak jugak pakai baju glamour....bukan tuh saja ok...tersedak la jgk pihak lelaki ni...daripada tak prepare apa2...tiba2 kena prepare mcm2....MUA laaa....baju wedding....siap pelamin oun nak nyah....What happen to "hanya senaskhah Al-Quran??"

Haihs....itu la dia...so Hypocrite....perlu ke ckp nak senaskhah Al-Quran??If dah tahu diri tuh mengimpikan perkahwinan ala Siti Nurhaliza..awal2 ckp kan senang...cakap jela...takde sape pun nak marah...dah mmg tanggungjawab lelaki tersebut..don't be like this, you are actually menyusahkan pihak lelaki...kasi taw awal2 kan senang..tade la terkial2 laki tuh nak carik duet....

Hipokrit 2

Bab ni...I memang pantang...I memang tak suka...Kenapa perempuan perlu bermuka2??why must you pretend??I do think one should not pretend to be baik/naive/sopan/whateverla...

OWH...I saw lots of women macam ni...owh..they are not my friends...sorry ya nyah....I xkan kawan ngan org camni...if nak say 'hi' tuh mak bole la lyn...tapi nak kawan??sorry.....

Actually, it was a year ago...I adalah kenal this minah...she is actually a gf of a close fren of mine...

Nak jadikan cerita...back in UTM dulu, I am close with this group of guys...they are majority budak2 mechanical la...kenapa I boleh close??sebab I use to date with one of them...and lucky me..eventho I da break up with their fren pun..they r still cool with me..and always keep me in the look...thanks to En ex-bf yang always kekal as a good fren!!Okay...sambung citer please....since I am close with all this guys...quite frankly...haruslah I close ngan gf mereka kan...serius..mereka sume sgt cool and very mesra gitu...so we all get along famously...tapi kan...ade la satu minah ni...actually dia baru couple ngan one of the guy...kiteorang as usual..mmg super cool with evreyone..so at first..we are ok with her...but tiba2...we found out that she is actually a pretender....nak tahu kenapa??bayangkan laa....dpn we all...wahh...ckp punya la gah...belakang...tikus rupanya....itu la ini la...tapi itulah..sepandai tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh ke tanah jua....one day, akibat tersilap langkah..evrything is kantoi with us...am I menyampah??Yes..totally...

Owh...ada lah seorang lagi pretender woman ni, yang ni...memang xboleh blah...nak tahu kenapa??sbb tahap dia pretend..mmg hebat...Dia ckp dia budak baik la...xreti la itu la..ini la..but actually....mmg syaitan rupanya...tapi bertopeng di sebalik hijab...ini mmg tak boleh diterima, because indirectly you are actually merosakkan image wanita yg berhijab..If ikut kan hati, most probably..I da kasi dia penampar laju2...LOL~

Err..byk lagi kisah hipokrit actually..tapi I do think enough la for tonite k...

Yang penting, diri sendiri...kena mau ingat ok...jgn hipokrit tak tentu pasal...well..sumtimes mayb kita perlu hipokrit...time kerja ker...time belajar ker...(sbb nak jaga hati orang ke)we have too..depends on situation...but in your personal life...please don't...you are actually giving ur self a bad name okay...

okay chow...

picture saya yang sedang hipokrit..lalalalala

peace~

25.06.11

Yes..am not really okay with myself but hey...life goes on and so happen..it is my beloved daddy's birthday!!!

BABA already turn to 56 years old TODAY!!

Wuuu....it is more than a half decade right??

Dearest Baba,

If someone ask me, WHO is the most important male figure in my life??I would straight away said, "It's my dad". Yes..with no second thought, it will always be you. When people ask me WHY? I would definitely say that "Because I love him so much and he is the only man I could always count with". Baba, You are the best man I have known in my whole life. When I'm lost, you were always there. When I'm sick, you were always there. When I'm sad, you were always there to cheer me up with your silly jokes. And yes..I can't stay mad at you for so long because you always make me laugh. Owhh...yes..not to forget..when I'm broke, you were always be there despite being scold with mama.

Baby always said that you always love me more than anyone (except for mama) She always said that no matter what happen you won't scold me or be mad at me....Well, I guess sometime I do make you angry and sometimes I tend to hurt your feeling and hey..I guess baby was right.. cause you were never angry with me. Perhaps since we spoke in the same frequency and so happen we adhere the same interests.

I still remember, back when I was still in schools days, I were always scared of mama everytime I did not delivered a good result in exams, afraid of being 'cubit' by mama. But yeah..lucky me..cause I have you. You always in my defend and I do remember back in 2003, I was already in Matrix but at the same time, I got an offered to study in TESL, I refused to go and mama went so angry since I did not do things according to her plan but hey...I have you...lucky me, you talked to mama and eventually I did finished my matrix...Ya..there you are...always there supporting me eventhough sometime I did wrongs but you were always there to back me up.

I love you BABA!!more than I love myself...more than anything...I know you are sleeping right now but just so you know..YOU are the greatest DAD in the whole world. And I am thankful to ALLAH to provide me such an amazing person like you!!!

LOVE,

Your girl

p/s: thanks for the lovely lunch!!

F.A.Q (Frequently Ask Question)

Ehem2...yerp..I bet most people did encounter this "so called" problem...

Well, it is not exactly a problem unless when someone or perhaps people kept asking you the same question right??

Ya...IT IS ANNOYING PEOPLE!!

Kindly refer this below F.A.Q (F to the A to the Q) rap sket please....

It was actually categorise base on priority okay...and yes..I do provide all the answers..so please don't ask me again will ya??

1. Bila nak kahwin?? ----> me hav no idea when..since me got no bf/scandal/whatsoever but currently I have been actively browsing wedding dress (fornoreasonatall) and yes I am going to held my solemnization in Masjid Wilayah. Why??(becauseiwanttoo)
2. Kenapa awak single?? ----> Instead of saying "takde jodoh lagi", I am going to be exactly bold to say that, because I do think that I am not attractive enough to attract guys..that is the main reason why am I being single..OKAY??
3. Lelaki camane yang you suka??or maybe you ni memilih kot?? ----> Yes, I am picky when it comes to guy. I have too, it is a norm to be picky since there are a lot of guys out there..one should choose wisely. It is how life is, same goes with guys right??When it comes to guy, I need a stable man (economically/physically/mentally), Handsome??That is subject to a definition..how you define "handsome". If you ask me, "handsome" is subjective. It is all about the whole package. Please do bear in mind, handsome face can't buy you a house, so please choose wisely. And yes, I love a man who think with their head instead of their d***. And owhh...I love a guy who read. (Yes,ijustlistoutthetypeofguyiwouldlovetohavebutitallldependonTHEMIGHTYONEALLAH)Letjust say, HE knows it all.So I just wait and see and yes PRAY of course.
4. Boleh berkenalan??(IusetogetthisquestioninFB) ----> My answer is, NO if you want to know me thru FB since I don't even know you and have no idea who the hell are you. My answer is YES, if you approach me in person nicely. But, I come to think it again and I guess I changed my answer. You know what, if a guy do approach me in person nicely, I will ask him why he wants to know me and if he provides me with a good answer thenYES I will definitely want to know him too. Sorry dear guys out there, am not going out on a date anymore unless that someone is seriously want to know me and hopefully we hit things off to the altar. I am not going to wasting my time with those who won't commit and with those who thinks that we should be friend. KINDLY BE INFORM THAT I HAVE LOTS OF MALE FRIENDS SO I DON'T NEED A NEW ONE. (maybeisoundabitbitchyiamsosorrybutihavetoosinceiambaringmyheartandsoulherethereforeineedtobeclear)

Yerp...the above 4 question is the most F.A.Q. Actually, I have no problems to answer all the above questions but seriously dude, sometimes it does hurt when people kept asking you the same questions right??I mean, yes..it is true...at my age..those question is pretty normal but people should actually be more concern when they ask questions. One should know that there are stuffs or things, some people love to keep it to their self. Especially those very2 personal questions. Okay fine, there might be or might not be personal questions but for me, it is personal. Yes, I admit, previously I do said that those "married thingy" does not bother me at all. Yes, it is true..at that time since my heart is numb I guess but currently it does hurt me when people start to bragging about wedding and to make things worse when people ask me the above questions. But hey...I still love the idea or marriage though as I love the idea of LOVE.

I just felt so freaking lonely lately. Yes, I have lots of friends and families but I need someone....YA ALLAH...seriously, I have no idea how to actually make people understand what's in my heart. I feel so alone and vulnerable as if like no one did really care about me which is a total bullshit...yes I know..lots n lots of people on earth do care about me but I just need SOMEONE or to precise a GUY. Arrrghhhhhh.........the urge to do something stupid is so high right now...but I do not want to do things out of stupidity and I know that I am better than this and I really2 want to be a good MUSLIMAH.

YA ALLAH, please2 do guide me and help me to get through this mid 20's crisis..this so called life crisis...I am so tired....Soooooooooooooo Tireeeeeeddddddddd...........

p/s: Iamsshowingahappyfaceinfrontofeverybodyanditissuchatiresome

Muhasabah Diri

"Wanita Hiasan Dunia, Seindah Hiasan Adalah Wanita SOLEHAH"

(I try my best to one though it is hard to do so)

“Be content with what Allah has given you, and you will be among the richest of people.”

“Do not become angry, and you will be relieved.”

“Do not betray the one who betrays you.”

“If you do something bad, follow it by doing something good.”

“Forgive the one who does you wrong.”

If you count the faults of others, count your own faults instead.

“The upper hand (the one that gives) is better than the lower hand (the one that takes).”

“(Take care of) your mother, then your mother, then your mother, then your father, then other relatives in order of closeness.”

Let us "Muhasabah diri"

If you commit a sin, say “Astaghfir-ullah (I ask Allah for forgiveness).”

If you are given a blessing, say, “Al-Hamdu-Lillaah (praise be to Allah).”

If some disaster befalls you, say, “Innaa Lillaahi wa innaa ilayhi raaji’oon (Truly, to Allah we belong and truly, to Him we shall return).”

p/s: intheneedofsearchingagoodlifewithHISguidance

What my H.E.A.R.T says.............

I'm not looking for someone to talk to
I've got my friends, I'm more than okay
I've got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams, but it's not all they say

Still I believe
(I'm missing...)
I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me

(Don't want to wake...)
Don't want to wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world

I've often wondered if love's an illusion
Just to get you through the loneliest days
I can't critisise it, I had no hesitations
My imagination just stole me away

Still I believe
(I'm missing...)
I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me

(Don't want to wake...)
Don't want to wake up alone anymore
Still believeing you'll walk in my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world

Love's for a lifetime
Not for a moment
So how could I throw it away
I'm only human
And nights grow colder
With no one to love me that way

I need someone who really sees me

(Don't want to wake...)
Don't want to wake up alone anymore
Still believeing you'll walk through my door
You'll reach for me and I'll know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world

p/s: hati ini suda mellow...............

OUTaCLOSET

Dear ALL,

Kindly visit my blogshop for those who are interested ya...

Will update things accordingly.

Will be sharing a few fashion tips/faux pas.

Will be sharing few clothes from my very own closet..(me have too many clothes!!)

Ya...am going to have a garage sale..but I was thinking to actually ask few of my girlfriends to join me as well..anyone interested to join??

Kindly let me know honey!!

Owhhh...last but not least,

here's the link:

http://namasayatihah.blogspot.com

Check out yooo!!

Sangat Marah

is freaking mad....




rasa mcm nak jd hijau dah ni....nsb baik currently i am wearing one of fav jeans..so harus la xnk jd incredible hulk kn....

yes..it is 12am..and I am working like org gila...ape kejadah nya I have to work skrg??

for the sake of whom??the company ke??

Gaji I tade pun naik2 kan??Perlu ke kerja kuat untuk company???

Org ckp...we must Enterprise 1st....sooooooo...ADE AKU KESAH??

Ade ke aku kesah if Kapal xbole gerak esok??




No...I don't bloody care because sape suruh last minute inform??




AD HOC??What The??




I dah highlight benda ni...on Wednesday okay....kamon laaaaa....




And now...all of you sdg enak diulit mimpi..and me??am working my ass off to get things done so that kapal bole keluar esok??




Arrrghhhhhhhh.....tolun laaaa.....serius...I had enough of mencarut ok...dun make me mencarut...I want to be a good girl.....




Kepada yg berkenaan, sumpah on monday...I akan buat muka ketat or muka empat belas and to hell with korang punya kerja and kapal or apa2 pun...I don't want to b a bloody helpful anymore....

Cukup2 la ditindas.....I hate O*******




p/s: larva gunung fatihah sgt meluap-luap dlm hati...
p/s/s: hati panas...+ xbole gi holiday esok + kesunyian...
p/s/s/s: darah menyirap jer ni.....cam ade gak yg mkn kasut ari senin ni.....




Okay....sabar...bykkn beristighfar...........

Kenapa perlu laga-laga pipi??

Ehem2...

Tiba2 jer I rasa cam nak tulis sket pasal topic ni...

Kenapa??

Sebab tadi kat ofis..one of my ofismate (lelaki) ask me,

"Kenapa you kena laga2 pipi everytime korg pompuan berjumpa..perlu ke??"

Time dia tanya tuh, I do think sbb dia jealous kot..ye la kan...ape hal lak kiteorang nk muah2 kt pipi dia...puh-lease...tak ingin mak!!!

Tapi kan bila fikir2, I am actually asking myself too..kenapa we all suka laga2 pipi??I mean perempuan laa...(I tahu...ade lelaki yg buat jgk..hee..)

Okay...back to our main topic please....

If esok I jupe my ofismate tu lagi, maybe saya akan ckp camni.....

"Kami laga2 pipi sebab kami love each other..it is a way to show some love ya people...eventho yes sumtime kami perempuan mmg xkan penah sebulu or seiring&sejalan but lets face the fact..we love to show some loves...Ya..maybe kami hipokrit..but who cares...as long as kami tak sakit kan hati sape2....lagi pun..dah lumrah, org melayu kan mmg suka menjaga hati orang lain...biar hati sendiri sakit..tapi hati org kena jaga okay.."

Err...cam ade yg xkena kan dgn jawapan I??HAHAHA...

Ya....jawapan itu dtg dari hati I yg tulus ikhlas ini...I admit..sumtime I am hypocrite..I have too....I mmg suka jaga hati orang...why??Because I can afford too...I love my friends and families..so..am really sorry for being hypocrite sometime ya...LOL~

Berbalik kpd our topic laga2 pipi,

Dulu....when it comes to laga2 pipi, I only laga2 pipi with manusia yg rapat dgn I jer...Seriously, I don't go laga2 pipi with strangers yoo...puh-lease....

Sekarang....when I met new people, I don't know why...suddenly like automatically...terus cam..laga2 pipi with them...WHAT the???

Maybe sbb it is a trend kot...I mean..perhaps it is a nice gestures of something...like when you meet sum1 new means you have to greet them properly by laga2 pipi with them...I think laa...

I take one situation for example.

Situasi 1

I went to this Fashion Bazaar...basically to meet all the fashionista..and when I met them...instead of shaking hands or give them a nice gestures like.."what's up?", all of sudden we all just...terus hug each other and laga2 our pipi..as if like we have known each others for so long...Let me remind you, I JUST MET THEM...eventho I do stalk them thru blog...but still, hey..we just met kot....

So, my conclusion is...it is definitely a trend...who invent it??I do think it is those ARAB peeps...because that is how they greet their people right.....

Tapi kan...dulu kan..I admit la...I am not a generally good person..I mean..I am okay la kan...tapi Good to jauh sket kot....sbb previously, I do sort of like laga2 pipi with men as well...ya..those men yg I close laa....But hey..people change right..so...sorry ya En Bownett & Bobby..next time I see you guys I cannot hug korang dah....we have boundaries okay..eventho you guys are like my brothers....wink*

OMG!!!baju tak gosok lagi...

Ok bye...

Last weekend

I had a wonderful weekend!!

Because of what??Or should I say because of Whom??

hehehe....

Because............................

Drum roll please....................

Because I had two wonderful event last weekend....Ya...my dua pupu got married last week...wink*

Well....we are not exactly close family but seriously, I really2 had such a wonderful time spending my time at their wedding...

Don't ask me why...cause I do not have any answers for that...I just happy I guess...

Mungkin kah itu tanda2 nya I akan bertemu dgn soul mate/jodoh??JENG..JENG.....

Stop berangan please......T_T

Actually bukan apa, I do think what's make me had such a great weekend sbb I do spent it with my families.....with my nenek..and all my uncles/aunties and cousins.....

To people out there, please do spend lots of quality time with your family okay..cause I do think they are the one who always stand by you no matter what kan??

We had a wedding on Saturday at Masjid Wilayah (OWHHH..am loving this place..baba ckp, nti bole buat akad nikah kat situ...huhu...)OMG!!sungguh gatal sdg kan bf pun tade.....LOL~

We actually arrived on time ok...sampai2 jer trus pengantin lelaki nk lafaz akad...hehe~

Owhhh...Congrats to Abg Zafrul!!!now you r a hubby....I know..you are going to be a good hubby n daddy!!!Amin~

On the event it self, I wear one of my Jubah collection...Ya...I have lots of jubah right now.

KENAPA??Sebab I sangat2 suka Jubah...It is comfy, easy and it's fabulous yoo...

Tidak percaya??

Take a good look at my Jubah ok...

Cantik Tak??(sambil buat muka comel)*mlm ni nak perasan comel puas-puas~

I bought this Jubah in MAKKAH actually...it was suppose to be my sister's jubah..but baby cam tak suka jubah kan..so kakak dia yg comel pun amik laa...hehe..

Owhh..I love the way I'm wearing my hijab actually since I did not use any pins to secure it...It does look nice kan??hehehehe...

Nak tahu cane I wrap this shawl tak??Kindly view this below tutorial by a beautiful Fatin Suhana..I like her...So pretty!!!

On Sunday pulaks...I have to attend a wedding in Sepang..my mum's hometown...since one of my dua pupu got married as well... (kami same age, but he already got married..T_T)

It was quite a long journey due to jam...but it was worth it..because I got to spend time with my cousins!!

I love them!!!we all had fun cam whoring and laughing sampai lebam!!!

After wedding, all of us head to Sepang Gold coast sbb ingat cam nk lepak at their coffee house but once we arrived there, sorry to say laaa....coffee house itu nampak lengang..so we end up having goreng pisang at the nearest stall yg sgt dekat dgn pantai...OWhhh..me love beaches!!!

But since I am wearing baju kurung and a very killer high heels...jadi I pun xdpt la nak jln2 and lari dkt tepi pantai...nanti orang ingat I ni gila la pulak kans....hee~

Can I have the same weekend please...................

Okay bye...

p/s: i feel alone......

is Officially start her own business

Yeay!!!

Finally...itis official..am having my own business.

HAPPY??

Of course I am..am so thrilled about it!!!

Currently my collection is not that much..but it was okay I guess..for a start kan??

Kindly view my facebook page for further info and owh..if you are not in my friend list, no worries..I will be open an official blog for my collection and yes..am going to open a store/boutique of my own....SOON~

If you guys are so rajin, please do come to my mum's SPA cum boutique since I put all my collection there so you guys can kindly view it yourself and you can even try out my clothes...

All the prices are negotiable but you need to be a very serious buyer ya...^_~

And owhh....my mum's Spa do offer lots of treatment from face facial, hair, body treatment and etc...

If you are interested, please do let me know okay...

Owhh...kindly view this below pictorial ...

for any further info, kindly PM me..^_^

What say you??

What say you??

When sum1 you like keep ignoring you and he/she treats you as if like you are not exist??

What say you??

When you have to pretend that you are okay?

Can you delete sum1 from your life??

Can you??

p/s: too many question in my head right now.....when I have no answers...........

Letters to JULIET

IT's Thursday....and I'm fasting..(ganti puasa to be exact)

Today I feel a bit emotional..a bit sensitive...a bit touching...

WHY??

Me have no idea....NO one did offended me in any way, but still I feel like I want to cry my eyes out....

CAN I CRY??LIKE RIGHT NOW IN MY OFFICE??

Urrgghhh....I feel so stressed out!!!!

Perhaps because I think too much...of what??

About lots of things..about life/work/business......haihs~

Okay...enough ramblings FATIHAH....

Since I am so emotionally disoriented right now..so I just want to story mory about this film which I have just watched it on last Monday...(I know...am so lame..it is a last year's film...)

But..who cares??

Ya...it's LETTERS TO JULIET...

Lately, I do think that am not really into Romance movie..(I am all into romance before~)

Currenlty I am so into actions/adventures type of movie...you know those kind of movies that gave you adrenaline rush..ya...I am an adrenaline junkie..(so not true..LOL)

But, seriously...when I watched Letters to Juliet, I was like so into it.....am so passionate about it..and I even cried...^_^

It is actually a typical love stories...a girl who had a fiancee met a new guy which she end up falling in love with...ya..cliche~

But, what make it interesting is the journey through out the movie itself...It is a story about a girl who actually believe in romance and believe that LOVE knows no boundary....LOVE does not end even when you think that you are too old for LOVE...

It is a journey about an old lady came all the way from London to find her long lost soul mate....

It is a story of someone who believe in fate...believe in destiny....

It is a story of someone who believe that there is no such thing as late when it come to LOVE...

I guess.it is true right??Everything happen for a reason...perhaps we lost someone so dearly to us now..but who knows.....we never know what's future holds for us....

I know....am sounding so hopelessly romantic right??

Ya....I may look tough on the surface but am so fragile inside.....sigh~

Okay...currently in the mood of love...ya..I love the idea of LOVE...and I believe in it...and insyaallah ONE DAY.....

Aminnn....

Me meet Fashionista

YA...YA...YA....

Me love fashion!!

Me obsessed with fashion!!

Today is a Fashion Day!!

Dari pagi sampai sekarang..me n mama can't stop talking about fashion....(luckily me n mama share the same passion...we ADORE fashion!!!)

Our Sunday start with a stroll in the park??(errrkkk...so not true...)

Pagi2 dah murah rezeki, my aunty called us ajak breaky at her place....

We had home made nasi lemak Yoooo~

Lepas tuh...all of us head to Mama's Boutique in Ampang Park...we spent about 10 min there just to drop things off....

Lepas tuh...we head to TAMAN Medan.....need to snap few pictured of Mama's Spa since mama want to sell her SPA in Taman Medan..

For those who are interested kindly let me know ASAP!!!

Lepas tuh...we head to SOHO Empire Gallery...to go to Fashion Bazaar!!!(Actually were the highlights of the day!!)

Am so looking forward to go there...to see their clothes/stuff and to meet them personally...

Finally...I meet them!!

Shea so elegant in her outfit..always admire her sense of fashion

Maria was very cool...sgt cantik in person...a selamba person...LOVE2 her!!!

Adriani were so polite n so pretty....



Ami is so stylish...love her stripe skirt.....



Overall...we had so much fun kan baby!!! (is refering to my dearest baby sister Marsya)

How I wish I cud stay there n spent time with them...byk bole story kans....haihs~

And owhh...my only regret...for not being able to have a face to face moment with Hana Tajima...
Sobs..Sobs~

Tapi takpe....next time insyaallah....amin~

Owhh...ya...kindly be inform that am going to launch my business later on.....

Can't wait!!!lots of energy n money da abes...so I need to get it started!!!

Soon okay......

Outfit of the day:
scarf: pashmina from Madinah
Tops: MNE Korea
Dress: Uniqlo (on Sale)
Bag: Carlo Rino

I will marry you Seth Tan...LOL~

is currently obsessed with this Drama....

Because of whom??

Because of Seth Tan!!!(Aaron Aziz)

Datang la seribu Eid..I still choose you Seth!!

LOL~

Kindly view this below clip......



And..owhh..I just found out in youtube that he (Aaron Aziz) is going to be featured in this upcoming movie called "OMBAK RINDU" which was actually adapted from a famous novel karya Fauziah Ashaari...

Am seriously looking forward for it....sbb ada Aaron Aziz!!!

Okay...please enjoy this below promo....



hehe...I know...this is what we called obsessive compulsive....LOL~

Okay enough..let us dream of Aaron Aziz.....

Nite~

Unfaithful

Unfaithful means....

You cheat??You are not being honest??You are not being true to other ppl & to yourself??

Unfaithful??

Always an issue among couple/married/engaged...am I right??

And unfortunately..it is an issue for me......Owhh...am not the one who are actually being unfaithful...hee~

But...I am dealing with a guy who are actually being unfaithful to his fiancee....camane tuh??

I had enough of him since last year...but he kept coming n coming like nobody business and pretend that everything is okay....

How am I suppose to get rid of this unfaithful guy??

Why la I have to deal with you when it come to work??

Dear you,

Yes...I am running away from you....

Yes...I wish I don't have to see you again....

Yes...I wish you stop looking for me.....

And Yes...you are hurting me.....

Farewell Dinner DATE with Bebeh~

Bebeh are going to leave me alone...

Poor me...Maybe after she left, I am going to "Puasa" A LOT...(because I am alone.....)

Starting next week, am going to be a lone ranger...

No more secret sharing with Bebeh.........

Am going to be bored......Haiyooo~

But owhh...we had a great Friday!!

1st, After work we go straight to TGV KLCC to watch Fast & Furious 5........

Review??

It was super awesome!!!! 5 stars!!!!

I'm in love with HAN~

And ohh...I love Vin Diesel too!!His deep voice for sure and....his bods..LOL~

Love the plots...am loving all the actors.....a good movie to watch for those who love actions & adrenaline junkie!!

After movie??

We had dinner at BEN's



The food??

Were good...definitely better than THE APARTMENT...

The Interior/Deco??

Were nice...quite cozy....

Seriously it was very nice....and quite crowded since I guess lots of people are loving it...

Bebeh ordered the Crab Tortilla sumthing2...(Can't remember the whole name)



It was good..love the crab meat..(Bebeh kasi sket...hehe!!)

Mine was The Fisherman Catch...a nice fillet with bun/fries..and some salads


Overall, we did have a nice date...kan BEBEH kan??LOL~

Okay later..........

Isu Kahwin

Ya...it is all about kahwin....dan kahwin...dan kahwin....dan kahwin....

Am I going to get married soon??

Well..ya...I hope so...but 1st, please do find me a groom..will YA??

Tahun Ni....lots..n lots of friends..especially GIRLFRIENDS are going to get married!!

HAPPY??Of course I am happy for them...I love WEDDINGS...I adore WEDDINGS!!

But....I can’t help myself of feeling a bit devastated or frustrated.....and most of all, I can’t help of pitying myself....hohohoho~

Ya...pity me..poor me...am going to be 26 years old by end of this year..But I’m yet to find the ONE to spend my life with...YA...I am sad....

Helo...sape yg tak sedih kans??Takpe...I nanges dalam hati jer...LOL~

Actually, this past few years I got lots of question on “Bila nak Kahwin?” (ulang 10x)

My answer is, I have no idea....since I have no Boyfriend...how am I suppose to get married??

Ya..been dreaming of having sum1 to grow old with...

Been dreaming of having kids....

Been dreaming of having a family of my own....

Ya...been dreaming of all that since I was 20 years old kot....LOL~

Tapi kan...I am okay right now...those questions about “KAHWIN” does not really bother me..

I’m cool...Cuma kadang2 rasa pilu mengenang nasib diri jer...auwwww~

But, the most important thing is...I am thankful that despite not having a boyfriend, I do have a loving family and my beloved friends...Thank you guys~

Ya....despite any disadvantages, we must always believe that LOVE is always there..do not seek LOVE but just be prepare for it to come....I BELIEVE~

May I find happiness in near future...Amin~

I love Fashion!!

Hehs...

It's lunch time!!

And..Owhh..I am not going to have my lunch since I "puasa" today....wink*

I know...such a good girl kan??well..........
(Sedang mengganti puasa to be exact)

Owhh...Actually I just want to share...

Am currently obssesed with this website!!

Totally awesome!!

You can shop and create your own looks...Auuwww~

I like!!!!

I know...so lame right??this website dah lama pun wujud...and I just joined it...

It's okay....as long as I'm happy....

My first Look...refer to this below pictorial...

What I like to wear to Office by namasayatihah featuring aldo shoes

I know.....sume expensive stuffs!!

But I can afford the bag/the bangles/the scarft/the wide leg pants...

In fact, I am goin to buy it now via online...LOL~

Okay...I am officially satisfied!!!

p/s: is going to create other looks as well....theheheheee~

My weekend Look

My weekend Look by namasayatihah featuring red patent leather shoes

To have a Scar free skin

Ehem2....

I know..it is actually during office hour, and I am blogging...I know..this is wrong...but I can’t help it...I need to share this with you women out there...wink**

I admit..I do have skin problems...nothing serious..but it still manage to make me suffer or feeling a bit conscious of my appearance..well...typical right..we women always conscious on our looks~

Previously, I have already shared about the importance of taking care of our inner beauty right??

Trust me...collagen do works..but you have to take it constantly..and yes..it cost us dearly....haiyoooo....

Owhh..kindly be inform that I do have a partner in crime ya...Both of us are critically obsess on being pretty and stay young always...LOL~

Until one day, one of our colleagues told us that currently she has been taking VITAMIN E.
She told us that it really does improve her skin whereby it reduce her pimples as well as minimizing her scars....

At first, both of us are still in doubt..especially me...you know...I was afraid that it might not work with me..I mean different person, they have different body system right??

But being us...without wasting any time, during lunch break both of us went to Guardian KLCC to buy the Vitamin E.

According to our colleague, she has been using BLACKMORES Vitamin E...and we were actually thinking to buy the exact same brand that she used.

But, once we consult with the person in charge...finally we have decided on buying KORDELL’s Vitamin E.

Amazingly, it work miraculously...I was super happy with the outcomes...

Currently, my skin were doing fine...no more hideous pimples..my face were clean except that I still have this oily skin...(unhappy face....)

For those out there with pimples or scars problems...you should try it!!

But please do consult your doctor 1st on the dose of Vitamin E that your body can take...
I am happy to share!!!

A sacred Journey.........

Wow....title..."sacred journey"??

Well..yerp...it is actually a very sacred journey or lebih tepat lg....Perjalanan Penyucian diri baik dr segi mentally & physically....auuwwww~

The journey started on 24th April 2011 whereby we all departed from KL to Bahrain...

The journey it self to BAHRAIN took us about 8hours!!!

Perasaan??OMG!!!!my pinggang sakit nyah!!!!Seriously...all the way to BAHRAIN I was actually faking a sleep...but Thanks to Allah...I am okay!!I feel fresh despite not having a sleep..maybe sebab hati saya sgt gemuruh...huuu~

Arrived in BAHRAIN time tuh da malam....and we all terus dibawa check in to our hotel....

Since dah arrived to Bahrain, 1st thing to do..trus mandi and solat n when I look at the katil...trus saya tido tak sedar kan diri..huahuahua~

For your info, subuh di BAHRAIN dlm kul 4++ am ...and when we actually woke up...masing2 dah kelam kabut...sbb kt lua cam da nak terang...masing2 ingat dah terlepas subuh....tp rupanya2..kami sume bgn awl.....hasilnya...we all puns pergi jln2 around BAHRAIN...which actually happened to be a very expensive country!!!

You know what...air mineral botol besar cost us RM10 hokay!!!!

But...just so u know..BAHRAIN is definitely a beautiful place to visit!!!

Sila la dtg okay...dgn menaiki GULF AIR!! (ehem2...tiba2 I jadi duta Gulf Air...)

Okay..back to our sacred journey, actually we all have to take an afternoon flights to MADINAH..therefore after we had our breakfast and a bit of jalan2....we all terus head on to airport and sgt2 tak sabar nak menjejakkan kaki ke KOTA MADINAH yg merupakan kota yg sgt disayangi oleh Rasulullah SAW.

Journey to MADINAH took us about 2hours++ and guess what I had the most amazing air turbulence...sumpah..this is my 1st ever experience a bad air turbulence...tiba2 cam rasa naik bus yg asek nak langgar lobang....betul I xtipu okay!!!

Hasilnya...my beloved brother trus muntah once we are safe landing in MADINAH...while me and mama..we are safe!!!CAM TAK CAYA YG ME AND MAMA TAK MUNTAH!!!LOL~

Upon arrival in MADINAH, OMG!!their imigration are super lama....I think I have actually beratur more than an hour okay...but it's ok...alhamdulillah...things went well...I am in MADINAH yoooo!!!!

After exiting the airport, kiteorang trus head on to TANAH HARAM MADINAH...kindly be inform ya...tanah haram means it is strictly forbidden for non muslim and please beware that ALLAH also ada HIS own imigration...SAPE??MALAIKAT...so barangsiapa yg ada niat jahat...insyallah..MALAIKAT ada untuk memantau...^_^

On our way to MADINAH, our mutawwif did told us several stories on MADINAH..which is happen to be the beloved city of our prophet.

Sebaik shj ternampak MASJID NABAWI.....terus terang saya cakap...hati saya terus jadi sayu..and air mata tuh...cam murah sgt...huhu~Alhamdullilah...ALLAH itu maha besar....DIA beri peluang kepada saya utk menjejakkan kaki ke MADINAH...(tiba2 cam nak menangis lagi.....)
LOL~

In MADINAH, we stayed in DURRAT AL FAYROZ which actually located near to masjid Nabawi!!!Saya suka.....serius...u have no reason for not to berjemaah in masjid when u are actually live so near to Masjid Nabawi!!

Setiba di hotel...our 1st dugaan bermula.....nak tahu apa??
Well, it so happened that the room that we r supposed to stay were a total mess!!!
Tapi kan...itu la...kuasa ALLAH....kami semua sgt calm...and sorang pun tak merungut...huhu~
bukan nak memuji diri sendiri n my family..but serius okay...kami semua stay calm...gi amik wudhu' n terus heading to Masjid Nabawi..^_~
(huhu...I am proud of myself for kerana dapat bersabar...LOL~)

Tiba di Masjid Nabawi....I was mesmerized...Perasaan??I was speechless.....and terus terang....You have to go there to feel it your self...sbb perasaan itu tidak terkata...^_^

My 1st time solat in masjid Nabawi is Solat zuhur..and masyaallah....manusia sgt ramai!!!
and 2nd Dugaan dtg menguji diri saya...APA??

Well, disebabkan oleh kerana terlalu ramai manusia yg dtg solat...jadi seperti biasa..seorang tidak akan lepas dari bersifat selfish...can u imagine when u are actually performing ur solat and then sum1 actually langkah kepala anda ketika anda sdg sujud or when u sedang solat, suddenly ppl langgar you...Apa perasaan anda??

Perasaan saya??To be frank...I was beyond piss...marahnya...hanya ALLAH shj yg tahu....
tapi alhamdullillah...saya ingat pesan mama..what ever happen....please be patient...byk kan BERistighfar...and alhamdulillah...it help...Thank you ALLAH~

Tapi itu la...sebagai seorang manusia, kita xkan terlepas dari terdetik perasaan atau ingin melakukan perkara yg bukan2...itu la yg paling saya takut...tp syukur sgt2...saya cepat sedar..and ALLAH sentiasa ada untuk ingat kan saya...^_^

The best thing of MASJID NABAWI??
Well disitu la terletaknya..makam Rasulullah SAW & para sahabat...and for your info, bagi kaum lelaki..you can always go there to visit our prophet's makam but for kaum hawa...ada waktu yg tertentu...same goes for RAUDHAH...I bet people mesti wondering kan...kenapa ada certain time for women right??

Well, it is for our own good jugak sebab seriously kaum hawa ni sgt aggressive okay....
Bayangkan la....kaum lelaki elok jer masing2 melawat makam Nabi and masuk Raudhah..Tapi bg kaum Hawa ni...semua sanggup bertolak2 untuk masuk okay...especially wanita2 di timur tengah yg berbadan besar ni...memang ganas...Saya tak tipu.....hee~

Pengalaman saya??Well, alhamdulillah...1st time saya nak masuk Raudhah...ALLAH bagi saya peluang untuk solat di hadapan makam Nabi...Perasaan?? I was literally speechless dan menangis tak berhenti sambil berdoa...huhu~Syukur sgt2...

Saya managed masuk ke dalam Raudhah despite being push by other makcik yg berbadan besar hokay....and Thank you Allah...I managed to perform solat sunat without being pijak...syukurnyaaa.....

Owh...btw, I dapat masuk Raudhah dua kali YOOOO!!2nd time dapat masuk Raudhah...I am actually thankful to my mum for actually sanggup jadi minah guard and tolun kepung saya time saya sdg solat..bukan apa...if mama x tolun kepung, I might dipijak okay....THANK YOU MAMA...hanya ALLAH dapat membalas jasa mu MAMA~

Okay lupa pulak.....in MADINAH...we did go for sight seeing at few places...cam Masjid Quba', Masjid Qiblaitaini, ladang kurma and pasar kurma...actually byk tempat nak pi...but time constraint kan...sebab we all nak kejar zuhur kt Masjid Nabawi...^_^

What else in MADINAH??owh..I did some shopping...but nothing much..sebab ingat cam nk spend dekat MAKKAH..hehe~Owhh..tapi kan...saya beli byk PASHMINA...huhu~
OMG!!PASHMINA sgt mura.....huu~

Finally..the day to leave MADINAH suda tiba...perasaan??SEDIH.....tapi excited nak pi MAKKAH...Owhh..before we left, kami semua dah siap2 pakai pakaian ihram....tapi belum niat ihram lagi...tapi kan..tapi kan...saya suka la MADINAH....CAN I STAY IN MADINAH PLEASE????I nak solat dekat Masjid NABAWI everyday...huu~

Kindly refer to this below pictures....I MISS MADINAH............


- This was taken right after solat Isya'



- Me at Masjid Quba'



- Ehh...sedikit shopping....LOL~




- This is the entrance yg selalu I masuk Usman Bin Affan Door...

Okay...Later, I will continue on my journey to MAKKAH okay.....

Nighto........

No Time............

Pressure....penat....Tension............

Once da start working.....I am super duper busy!!!

I have no time to blog!!!

I wonder how other ppl who actually work like me, dividing their time to blog!!

I have lots of stories to share..lots of thoughts to share...but I can't find myself an ample time to blog about it....

Now,I am blogging since I came early today...but trust me..by 8.30am...I am fully occupied!!!

With WHAT??

With work loads...with phone calls.....(kerja jd kuli jugak..am not a boss yo!!)

Adusss....DUNIA...OH...DUNIA.....it will never stop!!

Maybe nanti during office hour I nak curik2 blogging laaa......

Boleh kan???

Please2...hopefully I can blog during office hour..LOL~

Saya sudah pulang........

Fuhh...fuhh...fuhh....berabuk sungguh blog daku ini.....

sorry ya gadis kecil...mummy been away for 2 weeks...hee~

Btw, saya suda pulang...pulang dengan senyuman yg lebar...pulang dengan muka yg berseri-seri...(omg...so menipu...my face is so gelap...I am so sedih...n sumpah xnak pegi keje esok....sobss...sobss..)

Tapi takpe....eventho kulit ku sedikit gelap...tapi diriku masih tetap menawan....huahuahua~
(it's ok...mak mmg suka puji diri sendiri ye nyah....hee~)

My journey??

It was great..amazing...and sng ckp...no words can describe it okay.....^_^


Banyak nak citer actually...but if i nak citer skrg...I need to be 100% focus..hehe!!

LOts of stories..n sedikit iktibar for us as a muslim to share.....

Tapi terus terang saya cakap ye...di sana....semua ALLAH bayar cash....

Okay jum tido~