She takes the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what she've got, and remember what she had. Always forgive, but never forget. Learn from mistakes, but never regret.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Crazy mode at 1.25am in the morning~
I clueless.....
I hopeless......
I'm letting you go??(Need to think back...again..)
I think I better leave right now??(how to leave??you tell me...)
I will fight for you??(Don't think I have the gut to do so....)malas weyhh....perlu ke??
I think I'm going to kantoi sooner or later..damn~
I think I know Why I can't sleep at nite....(you la En chocolate..I nak move on pun ssh tau...sume psl you....T_T)
I tension.....
I need my gadis-gadis cantik......(Can't wait to see you girls on friday nite!!!)
To be continue.........................
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Still in office..do the thinking....bluerghhh~
Currently I feel quite frustrated...^o^
Jejaka PCSB is definitely in his car right now..heading home...sigh~I am frustrated because of you okay...SINCE it's a daily routine..everyday before you went home, you will at least text me..but today..against all the odd...you didn't call me..it was fine..but you didn't even text me..Ooohh..so not fine!!why lah??where have you been??
Maybe I should call..but...do I have too??Okay...I admit..yes..I am too damn ego to start everything....even to call you...and yes..even to text you...seriously I am a bit pissed....arghhh~
Okay..maybe I should just chill and relax...don't think....I hate when I turn into this pathetic person dependent on someone....wake up Fatihah!!!
Saturday, April 10, 2010
I nak yang ni boleh???
Chewahh..~Okay...I'll bet ppl think I'm crazy..yes...I sedang gila....gila sbb..I want this jacket badly!!!Dah lama cari....but still tidak ketemuan...kesedihan gua.....T_T
I nak yang ni......

Tapi I tamau this colour...I want black or dark brown laa...I really2 want this...where could I find it??Zara dah tade dah...Top shop??too expensive...Or shud I just buy it??
Ooo...just find out that F21 also ada...but this colour??I don't think so...since I prefer dark colour instead of white/creamy colour.....
If sape2 jumpa this kind of jacket..please do let me know ya....and if you find it...please buy it for me okay....TQ~
Jasa mu akan ku kenang sampai mati......wink**
Congratulation to Puan Dart!!!~
I know Puan Dart thru Blog and FB...by knowing her..at least now I do know how to 'conteng ' my face..Thank you Puan Dart!!You are the one who thought me to use youtube as guidelines..mekaseh yaa~
Thanks to cik Yana(she is the next person to be wed..amin~) yg pantas meng'upload' the picture of Puan Dart's solemnization...so sweet...all in white..Okay..tiba2 mode nak kahwin increase...siapa nak jadi pengantin lelaki??angkat tangan cepat!!!(gara2 sbb mama tak sabar nak ada menantu..wink*)
Okay...I manage to curik picture from Yana's FB..(sorry dear..teheheee~) this is Puan Dart with her hubby~both sgt sepadan~wish you all the best in future undertaking Dart...^_~
p/s: Ooo..so sorry I can't go to your wedding Dart..but I will pray for your happiness always~
SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU & SEMOGA BERKEKALAN SEHINGGA KE AKHIR HAYAT...Muahhhh2~
Sunday, April 4, 2010
I think I'm going to leave right now.......................
I'm here, just like I said
Though it's breaking every rule
I've ever made My racing heart, is just the same;
Why make it strong to break it once again?
And I'd love to say "I do"; Give everything to you
But I could never now be true
So I say... I think I better leave right now
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper I think I better leave right now
I'm here, so please explain
Why you're opening up a healing wound again
I'm a little more careful, perhaps it shows
But if I lose the highs at least I'm spared the lows
Now I tremble in your arms
What could be the harm?
To feel my spirit calm?
So I say... I think I better leave right now
Before I fall any deeper I
think I better leave right now Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now
I wouldn't know how to say How good it feels seeing you today
I see you've got your smile back
Like you say - you're right on track
But you may never know why
Once bitten, twice as shy If I'm proud, perhaps I should explain
I couldn't bear to loose you again
Yes, I will. I think I better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper... I think I better leave right now
Have you ever fall for sum1 husband??
Yess...previously I have actually fall for someone's hubby...I know...gila kan??hee~When I think back...I just can't believe that once I had this feeling for someone's husband...sumpah mmg kerja gilaaa.....huu~
Okay..let me rewind...............
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We know each other thru work..since he is one of the top level management in my company..serius...I never thought that I would fall for him...why??HELLO.....he is old (near 40 kot), he is sum1 hubby, and yes..he looks old....
But you know...they say...don't judge book by its cover...once I know him..sumpah..that feeling came out naturally....what make I like him??Senang jer...he is so charming...he is so bijak(my weakness...goshhh~)..he is this husband material type ok...that's why they said, it is easy to fall for someone husband kan??sebab they are sumthing about them..yg make us young women...look up to them...and yes...they know how to treat women...but by saying this, it does not mean yang it is digalakkan to be with suami orang yaa...ingat yer anak2...A BIG NO~
Okay..nak jadi kan cerita..since I know I had this feeling for him...what shud I do??Tak kan la nk proceed to the next level??Gilaaa ke hapa??laki org wehhh.....So...I do think I have to take action..sbb if nak harap kan si lelaki org ni...hampeh...sebab he always sort of like giving hope kot..gila charming everytime he talks to me...he treat me nicely okay...bayang kan la...from zero to at least 50% kot feeling tu datang..tq ya En R~Alhamdulillah...since the will is strong..and atas dorongan few close fren yg always keep on advising me to stay away from him...yes..finally...I have no feeling for him..okay..tipu lah kan...tade lah zero terus..but at least feeling itu under control..takdelah menggila like before...Tahniah Fatihah...anda berjaya untuk tidak merosakkan perkahwinan org lain..hehe~bangga okay!!huu~
Since I did stay away from...at last he received the message clearly kot yg tulis, "I don't want to have anything with you okay...you married already.."...so currently..yes..we still talking..we still friends..but limitation itu ada..when he start to go charming2...I was like...okay.."hati keras please..."hehe~and yes...saya berjaya...dah okay dah..wink**
Currently....I am okay...no feeling2 with suami orang...and my advise is, ia boleh dielakkan...you have to have the guts to do so..you must have the will to stay away...if saya boleh..I bet other women can...don't let ourself keep on terjerumus in that situation. It is because, at the end of the day, ppl are going to point finger at you...they will say that you are the reason why other ppl marriage ruin...in case like this..ppl wont blame on the men..they will keep on blaming at us women...so as a women..it is us..who must be strong to prevent this situation!!!!KITA BOLEH OKAY WANITA~
Tapi kan..tapi kan...sekarang saya suka flirt dgn En R nih..hahaha~why??sbb saja2..I just want to see how he act...haha~Memang I tabik la kt you En R..sbb you mmg cool..eventho I did flirted with him...but..he was so cool..and siap balas dgn kecharmingan nyaa....time dia dah tunjuk charming...apa lagi...mak pun lari la nyah...hehe~But no worries...it all under control..sbb hati gua dah keras bhai..wink2**(bagi mereka yg hati masih lembut jgn flirt ok..bahaya..kang fall balik.mmg hampeh la...)
- En R -
(gambar perlu digelapkan atas sbb2 tertentu)
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Cerita tentang si Jejaka PCSB~
Ada apa dengan dia??Owwhhh..he works with PCSB (dang...gua mmg pantang btl dgn org ada kerjaya hebat nih..sigh~)/Lagi...I love his hair...auww~/OO..he definitely have style/Lagi...sebab dia caring kot??Okay...I am officially falling for him...tetapi???Yes...masih ada tetapi..kerana saya takut..afraid to really commit to sum1 sbb I do know..he do have a lots of other friends..by friends I mean kawan perempuan yer...sbb I know..there are lots of other girls yg hoping for you en PCSB...tell me I'm wrong..but you know I'm right kan??
The other day..I am so happy..happy sbb you accompany me to dinner..you were suppose to teman jer..but end up you yg mkn gila2....happy sbb you willing to balik lmbt tgu dkt office...happy sbb you sggp jalan tmn I pergi parking lot..happy sbb you willing to wait..but when I think back..well.semua lelaki begitu di awal2 perkenalan..but once dah enter comfort zone..mula laa....they definitely back to their own routine...'I do my thing..you do your thing..but please don't cheat!!'WTF?? Serius..sometimes..I hate men!!haha~
Currently...I am officially clueless...dah tak tahu nk fikir apa...I have talk about this stuff with my few close gf..and what they did told me is just..keep treat him nicely..give it all I've got..as men also have to choose..if he did have byk candidates..then let him be..let him choose the right one..someone yg he think can cope will all his shit & stuff...betul ke??Am I doing the right thing of letting him choose??Should I keep fighting for his love??Okay..I think I should just chill...LOLz~
PGCE
Exhibitors of the day
- The day before..booth is in the making~
Saturday, March 27, 2010
seminggu ku meninggal kan kamu......
- Ooo...I've met En Z for the first time...he is nice..thank you En z for helping me a lot!! (Sorry jejaka PCSB...I know u are mad coz I went to your building when you are not there..wink**)
- I think I'm falling into deep...yes..I'm still in denial..but..whatever..don't really care dah...shuhh2...love2 go away...~
- Umm..sometimes..the least expected things happen..I never thought that he likes me..okay...officially pening~(sort of feel guilty towards jejaka pcsb...sigh~)
- Goin to be an MC for the next Concon event...thank you very much~
- Ooo...goin to be a 'gadis booth' this upcoming monday n tuesday...hooray...no need to work except just standing and do the smiling and take a good care of the clients...wee~
- Just had the best pizza ever at Yellow cab with nani...sgt berbaloi for not having lunch on that day...huu~
See..in a week..so much things happen..that's why, people say..things happen..and we never know what's future hold for us...yes..I always wish for a good things to happen..but itu la...I can't control the future..so what ever happen next..mama say, put on a smile...and keep smiling...weee~
Ooo...tomorrow I'm going to wear a legging for the 1st time..tak sabar...I will update you esok gadis kecil...maybe esok I'm going to meet him..but not sure yet..but what ever happen esok..I will keep smiling....wink**
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Hindustan O Hindustan~
Ya...I love to menangis.....I don't know why..maybe sbb during mama were pregnant with me..she cries a lot I guess...(ish2..baba...sian mama..)It's okay...sbb menangis itu boleh membersih kan mata ye anak2...wink*
My favourite hindustan movies will be definitely all movies with SRK in it!!Ya..I know..he is not that handsome..if we compare him with Arjun Rampal for example...Helo...mmg confirm Arjun mng okay!!But to tell you the truth, there are something about SRK that when we watch him on-screen, he has that thing that can lure us to watch him!!First movie of him that caught my attention was Dulhania Dilwale Le Jayengge (correct me if I'm wrong)....OMG!!movie itu sgt best!!And guess what..Kajol looks so damn hot dlm movie tuh...and yes..I did cried mcm org mati laki while watching it!!
Okay..next movie is my all time favourite which is 'Kuch Kuch HOta Hai'....Okay...movie ini mmg sgt lah superb...To tell you the truth...saya siap ada compilation album utk semua lagu dlm filem ini okay!!Semua nya..sbb SRK!!Saya sgt suka anda SRK!!Sometimes I do think of how lucky ur wife to have you..huhu~
And then...comes the "MOHABBATEIN"...oKAy...movie ini make me believe about love..yelah..time tuh I was 17 years old..u know time baru2 nk learn about love..hee!!Mohabattein is entirely about love...about how we are willing to do anything when it comes to love..ya...love is blind..it makes ppl do crazy things kan??sometimes ppl willing to let go the absolutely important things in life when in love....that is why they say, when it comes to love use your brain...but it is easy for others to say..but kena batang hidung sendiri..barulah tahu...langit itu tinggi atau rendah..betul tak??hee~
Actually, last night I've watched KKKG (Kabhi Kushi Kabhi Gham) with mama...
Okay..eventhough we had watched this movie for like 100th times kot..but still both of us menangis macam orang gilaaa...both of us were crying and we accidently telah menghabiskan almost sekotak tisu okay...huu~tapi hati kami puas walaupun baba cam bising2...I'll bet baba jealous tgk mama nanges sebab tgk SRK kan...well...biasa la...kami mmg pantang sket tgk hindustan..kna plak..both me n mama..hati mmg mudah tersentuh...chewahhh~(for this movie also I have the compilation album..wee~)
Oleh kerana....currently saya sdg dlm hindustan mode so I keep on download all hindustan songs with SRK in it!!nanti boleh feeling2 before tido..suka2....come2...let us menangis sama2...
p/s: Ooo...been missing to watch hindustan sorang2 kt laptop and feeling sorg2..mayb next weekend nk buat laaa....
Friday, March 19, 2010
Weng~
Bukan saya tak happy..ooo..I am happy today, by having those girlfrens of mine in office and by having colleagues yg best dan cool!!Mekaseh semua......@_@
But I do feel a bit weng...entah la...I don't know why..when it comes to a guy..I selalu gilaaa....
Okay it start with a feeling...a feeling yg I think I shud just let it go..perlu ke I let it go??Maybe I do like him..what's not to like??every single day we sort of like have this rigid daily routine...as a women..yes..we are easily fall for sum1 yg always be there for us kan??betul tak??As for me..yes...once that sum1 dah capture my heart mmg confirm..lelaki lain msk line pun..mmg xnmpk..sbb dlm hati dah set org tuh je laaa.....payah okay....
Truthfully...I still thinking that sum1..when I shudnt be...nak wat camne kan??he is the first guy yg btl2 make my eyes open towards a relationship yg serious but a dumb me..akhirnya I found that he is not that serious kot..it's okay...in life we have a lot to learn..terhantuk sekali it does not mean, it is end of the world right??I take it as a positive heart broken..haha~ya..I sounds tabah..but it is not easy okay..after lots of crying and an eating disorder problem..finally...I realize yg life have to goes on...yes..it is painful...only ALLAH knows how hard it is to let go of sum1 so dearly to me..but I do believe..HE knows what's best for me..one day there will be sum1 for me....
Ooo..berbalik to the main issue, yes..currently I do think once again..i fell for sum1...well..it is definitely not like before..this feeling is not that strong...but still..being with that sum1..make me happy...sumpah happy okay...I know...I am supposed to stay happy and just let things happen naturally..but malangnya...I dont think I shud...sbb I think I need to slow down for now kot...Ummm...tapi...tak kan nk let go kan??Oooo..peningnyaa......
At a time like this..I wish I could be heartless!!ya..itu cakap org yg tak mahu face the truth...Umm...I am clueless..and I do think at least for tonite..I'm going to be heartless!!~
Okay...heartless...starts now.............
Thursday, March 18, 2010
I am flattered~
It has been a good wednesday..but cuma ada sedikit jiwa kacau last nite..but overally..I feel so happy!!Happy sebab..sgt lah tak sangka ada orang itu sanggup bersusah payah..to do things..and hoping that we can meet up during office hour..haha~
Okay..it happen that yesterday, I was suppose to go and pick up all the OSP (Offshore Safety Passport) for my company with En Z since I'm dealing everything with him regarding this OSP. Nak jadikan cerita, before I went to work I did told Encik jejaka PCSB that maybe I'm going to his office and meet up with En Z, his colleague....being him..wahh..sgt lah beria-ria want to settle kan all my OSP...hehe!!
Nak jadikan cerita, my boss is a very cool guy but he does not really love the idea of me dealing with clients or meeting with clients since he rather send out a man to do those things..okay..maybe he is a bit protective atau over protective kot....oleh itu..instead of me yg suppose to meet En Z to ambil all my OSP, my boss asked my colleague (a guy) to do so. What funny is, I was thinking that En Z will deliver me all the OSP, but it happen En jejaka PCSB yang actually deliver those OSP!!hahaha...he was so frustrated sampai text me and said,"penat2 I siapkan OSP you..sekali org lain yg muncul..lemah semangat.." wahhh...so sweet...sungguh terharu yg he is willing to do all the things sdgkan..it was not his part..dah la tuh..baru jer pulang dari outstation terus bertungkus lumus siapkan my OSP..alaaa...terharu....huu~
I thought there are no more drama, but suddenly I received a call from a quite familiar number. At first, I thought it was En Z, rupa2 nya..En jejaka PCSB...konon2 nya menyamar jadi seorang yg profesional at work..siap mrh lagi and ask me to be profesional..haha~
Okay...terima kasih byk2..sebab sanggup bersusah payah...thanks for making me happy..Yes, I am truly flattered by your efforts...and owhh..our secret almost terbongkar laa...it is your fault okay...siapa suruh byk sgt kawan dgn my field staffs?? It is hard to sorok2 okay when they actually ask me about you...gila kantoi~ish2....
Walaubagaimanapun, I feel a bit confused and worry laa...sbb I do think you have a unfinish business to take care of...better be done with it sbb it does not make me feel good..by all means..I pray that it's nothing to do with me...aminnn~okay you are going to have a week holiday..sungguh xaci!!have fun!!~
p/s: Err...don't let encik2 boss tahu okay...I am super dead if kantoi...peace~
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Excited menghabiskan duit??
Oleh yg demikian (ayat skema buat karangan SPM) secara tidak langsung...saya have to mengumpul duit dari sekarang..it means starting March my gaji are strictly forbidden utk digunakan membeli sebarang new bags/jeans/clothes..dan apa2 yg sengkatan dgn nya!!! Sound sadis kan??OMG!!terpaksa jadi separuh gila menahan nafsu dari bershopping!!!Ooo...I've been asking my self the same question??mampu ke??hehe~
Oo...while I was browsing other ppl facebook..then suddenly my eyes caught this nice leather jacket yg I really wish I could have it!!!Maybe saya should just grab it without any regrets..lagi pun..bulan 6...I do think I'm going to use it too!!wee~Suka2....okay2...sila kumpul duit yer anak2 ku sekalian...another 3months to go!!!!
But still...I am pretty sad since I have to change my car punya minyak hitam using my own money!!!benci okay!!tapi fikir2 balik...it's okay..once baba pulang ke Kl...I will ask for my money back..hehe!!!I lap u baba!!~
Ooo...I just bought this new maxI DRESS...do I look okay with this dress??bukan apa...I am short(si ketot) okay..so sometime...I do have this lack of self esteem in term of dressing up..hehe!! I need opinions ya kwn2 ku...
okay ke??
Friday, March 12, 2010
tiba2~
Okay...I do admit..it must be something to do with guy when I am this happy kan??hehehe....
well...sort of I guess...happy like this 10 years old girl yg always beaming..and smiling....thanks to you!!you make me happy..eventho maybe untuk sementara..but still..I am happy sebab you!!
Happyyyyyyyy................~
I know you are in a plane right now on the way to Miri..again..I know..you tak happy...but still please do enjoy yourself while working!!~
Thursday, March 11, 2010
I had a wonderful weekend!!
On 6th March,
My day start with a birthday wish to sum1...sum1 yg need to grow up already...please be seorang lelaki sejati okay..hehe~
Then, on the afternoon I went to one of my oldest classmate yg happen to be the 1st one to get married!!!Siapa sangka??She always been like this girl yg ganas2...but end up turn into this beautiful young lady..I am so happy for you Sunia!!Finally..one of us are married...next to be married will be Arif Majmi, followed by Alya..then ........Sila ambil nombor giliran yer masing2....hehe~
We had so much fun...mengenang kembali kisah2 semalam...we had fun laughing about our silly faces...and it is nice to see that all of my classmate semua turn up to be somebody!!You can see that there are engineers, doctors, future lecturers, auditor, and even yg jadi business man pun ada...When I think back...siapa tahu...12 years after..all of us akhirnya berjaya menjadi seseorang!!congrats to ALL!!
Ooo...and we did went to visit our old class teacher!!Okay..time tuh agak emotional since Cikgu Mazlinda also did cried sbb she also tak sangka yg her old pupils still remember her...hehe!!Love you cikgu!!Seriously..you are the best teacher I ever had!!
Okay..on 7th March,
My day start as early as 10 am...have to bgn awal...since I have already promised to my chicas that we are going to have fun talking/gossiping/updating each other stories....mmg super excited to meet them since the last time we did went out was about few months ago.....lama kan??
Things went out well...and it happen I had fun celebrating that sum1 birthday...and had to MMS setiap detik celebration yg dilakukan...huhu~funny2....
Meeting with these girls will only lead to one place which is sushi king since we all heart japanese foods!!And yes...everytime we met, I can say that we spent most of our time talking2...rambling2..and laughing2....yes...we didnt do anything except eating/talking/eating/talking...hahaha~
What else did we do then??OOooo..yes...we love to camwhoring mcm org gilaaa....hahaha~every minutes..every seconds..you can see all cameras flickering..and if takde camera pun..phone camera pun jadi..hehe~
At the end of the day...semua dah penat..byk sgt cakap..too many laugh that we shared sampai nk amik picture time kt coffee bean pun cam dah kurang excited..huhu~Overally we had the greatest fun eventho we didn't do lots of activities..next stop will be Genting I guess...and perhaps we should bawak photographer to snap our pictures instead of snapping our pictures sendiri kan....yelah..tangan I parkinson..memang tak reti amik pictures..huhu~
Last but not least!!!I love you girls...and thanks for making me happy...thanks for always be there for me!!LOVE2~
Birthday Orang~
Life yg busy~
Lately..I am too busy to update..maybe later tonite or tomorrow nite I will update....
Actually I have too many things to tell..especially on...........(special edition okay)
Currently I am blogging in office before 8.30am...before I turn into this robotic human being yg only know how to cari money dan money....Yes I am addicted to RM (RINGGIT MALAYSIA)
I see you later gadis kecil~
p/s: money itu penting..like one of my girlfriend said, Love is money~wink**
Friday, March 5, 2010
Weekend yg dinantikan
Esok I'm going to meet my old primary school friends...
We are going to celebrate our first classmate yg get married!!
Congrats Sunia!!!
Excited to meet my friends esok..we are going to laugh & have fun mcm org gila esok..
And yes..it's someone's birthday esok...and esok la I wish you okay...
(U are goin to belanja me if I wish u exactly at 12 AM right??)wink**
On Sunday...
I'm going to spend a day with my lovely gadis2 cantik!!
Excited to shop & to gossip as well...
Lots to updates with my gadis2..meet me on Sunday ya gadis2 ku...
Hopefully things are going well for me..Pray for you ALLAH....let me be happy & stay happy..aminnn~
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Happy ke??
We have start to talk..which is a good sign..it happen we are actually study in the same uni!!
Gila tak??sometimes the least expected things happen kan??what funny is his faculty is next to mine but we never did met..I wonder why??maybe we have actually terserempak kot but time tuh buta hati mmg tak nampak lelaki laen..hehe~
He seems cool but I did learn few things from my past, "Don't judge book by it's cover" so I'm just glad we have started on being friend.
I'm happy ker??Yes I am..haha!!So let us be friends okay Jejaka PCSB or you want me to call you budak KLCC??hehe..
Okay...later I will update on you okay Jejaka PCSB..
(Ooo..it's his birthday esok.. 6th March??ironi isn't it??)LOL~
Crab Soup made in Ampang!!!
- As usual, 1st you have to tumbuk all the tumis ingredient like bawang besar,bawang putih & black pepper..make sure tumbuk until it halus but if you are too lazy to tumbuk or tak larat pegang lesung batu you can use your blender ya...
- Then, go panas kan your periuk/belanga, and without any further a do please campak all the tumis ingredient inside the periuk okay...make sure you stir it.
- Once you tgk your tumisan mcm dah naik bau, then pour in some water and boil it for a while maybe dlm 5 minutes should be okay..now we wait yaa....
- After that, dgn segala hormatnya..ltk kan ketam2 yg telah siap di siang ke dlm periuk and let it boil until you tgk all the ketam mcm dah nampak empuk2 gitu...
- Remember to put salt & all the suon inside the soup and let it boil for a while & last but not least before I terlupa, sila masukkan kiub ayam Know inside the soup to make it more sedap.
Senang je kan??It only took me less than half an hour to make it...but if you prefer to put more ingredient into it, feel free to add on. Perhaps you can add on petola or eggs ke..boleh je...
That is why, people say when it come to cook all you have to do is campak2 jer...if sedap tuh means jadi la...
Selamat mencuba!!

