Orang itu....

Orang itu is going to Makkah...untuk melaksanakan umrah....

I am proud of you...

I really do....

Before you go, izinkan daku berkata2 ya....if you xdpt terima, it's okay..it's your life..your choice...
but I will say it....no matter what....

I like it and I don't care if you don't like it....

Will be missing orang itu....

Go ahead and find your missing pieces okay....

Will pray for you always~

LOVE,

Tihah

PERGILAH AIR MATA............

Who do you think you are??
Running around leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
Tearing love apart.........

Okay..air mata officially mencurah2...murah sungguh air mata ni kan.....
okay..jum nanges puas2!!

To be pretty inside OUT

Ehem2…Lately I am obsessed with beauty!!Bukan sekadar obsess yg suka2..but to tell you the truth..I am critically obsessed….Tak kisah la org nak cakap apa..yg penting mak happy kan nyah~LOL

To all the beautiful ladies di luar sana….eventho yes..we are still young but it is never to early when it comes to kecantikan..we need to take immediate action when it come to kecantikan..HUKUM nya WAJIB ya gadis2…

Beautiful itu subjective. We can’t simply measure kecantikan base on apa yg kita lihat with our eyes..because sometimes kecantikan itu lies within us…betul x??Ada sebab kenapa seorang lelaki boleh suka kita eventho kita rasa kita tidak cantik..Am I right ladies??

If we are going to talk about the beauty that lies beneath us..well, honey…sampai esok malam pun tak kan abis I nak elaborate…Just be true to yourself..and just be YOU…ppl love you because you are YOU.

Actually starting mid January, tiba2…I came across this one article on COLLAGEN. Previously, if anyone brought up the collagen subject/issues I was like…WHATEVER…I am still young kot…Do I need collagen?? Semua orang cakap..you are in mid twenties..why must you worry about your skin yg kedut2 or bertoksin ke..perlu ke risau??I always think that I am to early to worry about those sort of things…Until one day…I read this article bercerita tentang collagen and it make me think…I DO REALLY NEED COLLAGEN…for what??TO MAKE SURE WHEN I TURN 40 EVERYBODY WILL GOING TO ENVY ME FOR HAVING THE BEST SKIN EVER…...LOL~

So..here I am now, starting to take this below COLLAGEN supplement which work so miraculously….Serious..I am loving it!!!
SUMPAH…I x tipu….To those yg nak try to take collagen, you girls should try this one..COLLA PLUS, it provide us 5000mg of collagen which is very good compared to other brand yg only provide 2500mg sahaja…
It taste okay..I am not going to lie by saying that it taste good sbb it taste a bit hanyir but overall it was okay la..LOL~

But actually, it cost me quite a big sum of money la to maintain you know…bayangkan la..for 16 bottles, it cost me about RM167.90…maybe bagi anda di luar sana amount nya rendah..tapi bagi saya…it is expensive okay!!!!tak mampu MAK!!!

Oleh yang demikian, I came up with a PLAN B, since it is sort of expensive I pun selang2 kan myself to take other beauty supplement yg lebih murah….

For that, I go and bought myself BRAND’s INNERSHINE PRUNE…see…nak cantik punya pasal…sanggup kan I bersusah payah….Owhh…Innershine Pati Prune is sgt sedap….very sweet n juicy…I tak tipu…and for 6 bottles it only cost RM22.90 if you buy at WATSON laaa….

Okay, I bet ppl mesti la nak tahu outcome from this 2 supplements kan??

Seriously, if to those yg ambil Colla Plus, you can see the result in only 6days…nanti you akan rasa kulit you lebih anjal and you will look more radiant..sumpah I xtipu…and if you are consistent, insyallah..it can reduce scars, wrinkles dkt tepi mata tuh…it really work my dearest ladies…..
To those yang amik Innershine Pati Prune, sorry to say…the result it self may take quite some time..You can’t simply see it for the first few month I guess, but if we take it consistently, it will definitely produce a good result at the end of the day.

Macam I, I took both of them regularly but I do like to gilir2 on taking it for example, like today I take colla plus then tomorrow I will take Prune’s Innershine….u know gilir2…for better result in near future..chewahhh..~

Therefore my dearest gadis-gadis cantik…sila lah take action from now…jgn ingt kita still young and we don’t need such supplement. Trust me darling..it is never to early to look young and pretty~

SELAMAT MENCUBA!!!!

Kenapa wahai ENCIK LELAKI

LELAKI suka play hard to get ke??

Kenapa lelaki always being nice for nothing??

Kenapa lelaki perlu pretend to be good??

Kenapa lelaki kadang-kadang macam Chipsmore? (Sekejap ada,sekejap tade)

Kenapa lelaki perlu memberi harapan??

Kenapa lelaki tidak mahu berterus terang??

Kenapa & kenapa & kenapa ??????


Serius I am clueless………..

Ada HERO dalam hati........

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are

There's an answer If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
And you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold

You can find love
If you search within yourse
lf And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Oh ho, Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away, hey yea

Hold on
There will be tomorrow In time, you find the way,

hey Then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

That a hero lies in you
Mmm, that a hero lies in you

(Hanya hiasan semata-mata)

Perasaan Saya Today

Today kan..pagi2 lagi..I have no mood at all...

Kenapa??SEbab pagi2 lagi dah pegi sakitkan hati sendiri...PADAN MUKA!!!

It's okay..rasa sakit hati itu adalah perasaan...tahan suda...

And Today....I really2 miss that seseorang di JB...rindunyaaaa......nyesal semalam merajuk..ari ni da sangap gilaaaaa.................

But it is true..I am mad at you.....sape suruh xnk pick up your phone semalam??Malas nak think positive....tapi saya rindu laaaa.....haiyooo~

Lately kan...I da malas nk socially active in any social network...baik FB or TWITTER...xtahu kenapa....maybe sebab saya semakin tua kot.....saya rasa malas nk bersocial....my social life starts with my precious handphone yg buruk tuh laa...so if anyone nk update me on their life, please kindly text me...hohoho~

Tapi saya xbole tinggal blog...sebab thru blog..here I just let it out...I don't care about anyone's feeling..as long as my feeling is sated...bukan apa...in FB/TWITTER...I just have to fake it...you know la...byk hati orang I nk jaga....I can't simply say things that I want since I might hurt hati dan perasaan org laen kan??Here in blog, mostly here are those who are close to me....you know me...so..no hard feeling here kan??tapi kan..if ade sesiapa yg terasa...maaf dipinta ya...bukan niat di hati nk menyakiti sape2...as a human being jgn disimpan semuanya dlm hati...nti kite yg akan sakit...so writing is one of the channel for us to meluahkan perasaan...hehe!!

Okay...tiba2 hati saya rasa sayu...maybe saya nak melayan lagu jiwang sebentar....wink**

I recommend you...

I am not a pro when it come to make up..but in time...I will be pro la..hehe...jgn terkejut okay....

I do a simple make over myself la...alaaa....simple time nak pi opis kan....tak kan nk gi opis muka toya kan??Nothing much...I just wear an eye liner, sedikit blusher, lipstick and lip gloss....I tak reti nak wear eye shadow to opis...bukan apa...my skin is a bit oily and currently I xbeli lagi eye base maybe later on if I da beli eye base then baru I wear eye shadow to opis kot..tapi bila fikir2 balik..I am so malas to wear eye shadow to opis sebab you know la...nanti nak solat kan..malas I nak bersih kan...wear eye liner suda.....hehe~

Actually, am not really into lipstick or lip gloss you know...bukan apa..sebab I sedar..am not that good pun nk calit2 kat bibir sendiri kan...tapi bila pi opis rasa cam toya la pulak kan...previously I was working in factory industries, so I never did wear anything to my face..yela kan...kilang ok...eventho I work in ofis..but xpernah pun rase nk pakai benda tu sume....but once I'm working here in KL...suasana is totally different...I have to be more sophisticated la kan??hee~

Here I am...dari xpernah pakai apa2 kt muka...tak pasal2 sekarang..I can't leave home without my lipstick and blusher...huhu~blusher is so wajib for me...sebab I don't have those natural blushing kan..so..kena la tepek sket blusher kt muka...

Time baru mula2 jinak dengan lipstick, I fisrt bought a REVLON lipstick...which is quite a satisfying......I love the color...love the texture...
Tapi lama2...teringin jugak nak wear M.A.C...then I did buy myself a first lipstick at M.A.C
OWH....I am LOVING IT!!I suka sangat2.....

But memandang kan..I have this bad habit, when I wear lipstick sometime I tend to eat them..bukan sengaja..tak sengaja..especially time makan kan..ussually after makan,my lipstick will ruin tau...tidak suka okay!!!
Oleh itu, untuk mengelak kan daripada lipstick daku rosak atau hilang dgn cepat, after putting on my lipstick...I will put on my lip gloss....and as a result, eventho if I go eat..my lipstick are still okay...YEAY!!!

M.A.C ada few lip gloss yang best..I have tried some of them..and my favorite would be the PLUSHGLASS

'Sheer lip colour with a pearlized high-shine gloss finish. Comfortable to wear: lush, multi-dimensional. Gives a cool-warm, vanilla buzz to the lips. Moisturizes, soothes and visibly plumps the lips to make them look luxuriously healthy and well-conditioned. Contains vitamin E for added environmental protection.

I suka sangat..sebab it feel minty and it taste minty as well..and seriously it makes my lip look a bit plumpy...luscious gitu...LOL~

To those yang interested to buy lip gloss, you should try this one!!!

Kisah si Boyfriend orang

Yesterday, 4th Feb 2011 is genap setahun I know you.....

Rasa macam sekejap jer....I still remember last year, I met you during OFFSHORE WORKS IMS event...there you are, sit at the front row..wearing a belang2 tie with a black shirt..you look so handsome..and yes..you are quite a good looking guy..no wonder la mak terpikat kan nyah...LOL~

At first, I am head over heels over you...yela kan...you are that good looking guy and I can say that you are so charming yourself...haruslah I suka....

We are okay at first..you are always there for me as I for you..yup..our office is close...it's an advantage for us la kan??

But....out of the blue, suddenly...someone told me...you are actually in a relationship with some one..and I was like....YE KE???here I am..thought that we had something special going on..but tiba2...baru I tahu...you ada girlfriend rupanya.....YES...I am shocked...I'm in denial at the first place...being me, I kept quiet until one day you confess it to me.....time tuh, I am past shocking...serius...I have no feeling at all....

First,

Hello...am not going to be a third wheel...

Second,

I am a woman myself...how could I hurt another woman??

Third,

Am not going to compete over man...so not me okay...


Unfortunately, being a guy...you know what is a woman weakness kan??there you are...as always....selalu ada untuk I...and as a perempuan..I pun cair laaaaa....hahahaha~BENCI!!!

Deep down..I selalu envy..selalu sakit hati..sebab I know....at the end of the day...you are going to be with her...tapi I stick jugak with you....yerp..me being stupid....LOL

But....now...I had enough...maybe sebab I have someone else yang I should value more than you kot..yup..sebab itu kot...I like him...and he is being good to me..I should be with him not you...

Therefore, please stop calling me...please stop looking for me...please stop...just stop.....you have a girlfriend...a nice one...she has sacrifice a lot for you...but why are you still looking for me??

What do you want from me huh??I am seriously tired of being with you...let us just stick as client & contractor okay??

Maybe betul, lelaki tak kan pernah puas kan??Well, I had enough being a third wheel....we are quite good kan...until now, we never did kantoi with your girlfriend...I wonder when you are going to kantoi.......LOL

is waiting outside the lines

You’ll never enjoy your life,
living inside the box
You’re so afraid of taking chances,
how you gonna reach the top?

Rules and regulations,
force you to play it safe
Get rid of all the hesitation,
it’s time for you to seize the day

Instead of just sitting around
and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground,
the time is now

I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting,
I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines

Serial Killer..I'm Obsessed??

Lately I have this obsession on serial killer…LOL~Don’t get me wrong…by obsessed means…lately, I love to watch all the movies relates to serial killer cases…trust me…it is so damn interesting when you can observe how details do they did all the killing process. and it is true. When it comes to serial killer, their motivation came from what did happen in their childhood. (my own opinion)

Well due to my obsession towards serial killer, therefore I did some research on my own about their behavior, life pattern, causes and etc….

Serial killers behaviour can be classified as a organizational and social skill. They can be organized or disorganized (depending on the type of crime scene) and nonsocial or asocial (depending on whether they are excluded by society or exclude themselves).

The majority of identified serial killers are organized and nonsocial. Most of them also follow some other basic patterns. Serial killers are generally intelligent, and they usually kill women. There's no way to "tell" a serial killer simply by his appearance -- most of them look like everyone else. We take for example a guy like Ted Bundy. Don’t you think that he looks normal?? A guy like him, with a typical good looks and a kind a guy who always interest other women, who in the world could think that he is a serial killer??
Ted Bundy, who was convicted of 30 murders, was often described as attractive, charismatic and articulate. John Wayne Gacy was a popular figure in his community and often performed as a clown at block parties. He met with first lady Rosalynn Carter when he was precinct captain of his local Democratic Party. He was also convicted of the murders of 33 boys and men. (Don’t judge books by it’s cover)

Often, serial killers exhibit three behaviors in childhood known as the MacDonald triad: bed-wetting, arson and cruelty to animals. They are also likely to have come from broken homes and been abused or neglected. Although some are shy and introverted, others are gregarious and outgoing but actually feel very isolated.
Many theorists point to the troubled childhoods of serial killers as a possible reason for their actions. (See..my theory was right after all)

The most exciting serial killer of them all would be the one and only “JACK THE RIPPER”. It started on 1888, and until now no one could actually identify who is actually the Jack the ripper. He is also known as the “Whitechapel murderer” since most of his killing act in the Whitechapel area which is one of the districts in London.

Throughout the cases, the Scotland Yard has come up with quite a few suspects but no one can actually conclude who is actually the real murderer because no one is caught.

And owh…not to forget “the zodiac killer”, he is one of a hell killer. Why??
Well, base on his pattern of killing, it seems that he kills couples/lovers to be exact.
His first killing started on December 20th, 1968 where he kills two teenagers in Lake Herman Road, just outside Benicia city.

Base on my research, they said that he did a total of 37 murders base on the letter that he did send to the local newspaper “The chronicles”
But no one actually no the exact figure right?

Actually, there are lots of serial cases that I wish to share here but I guess people would assume that I am a freak..hehe..Well, I don’t blame people since as a human being we all have things to be obsessed right?? And it happened that I am obsessed with serial killer cases. One should admire their piece of work right??HAHAHA…

It is a remarkable what a brain can do right?? Imagine that Albert Einstein manage to explore 1% of his brain and he came up with E=mc2 so what’s up with all the serial killer?? Are they actually insane or do they actually think too much trying to be smart like Einstein??

LATER I will definitely share other serial killer cases. It is interesting once you get your hands on it…Trust me…facts are more fun than fictions even though I do crave for fictions sometime..LOL~

En Cokelat is getting engage??

Dear Cokelat,

You tahu kan..I do stalked your FB??

I heard that you are getting engage…betul ke?

I know..it is none of my business if you are getting engage ke??married ke??or apa2 pun…

But…sorry to say, I can’t help myself of feeling jealous towards you..I know..it sounds ridiculous…
Why am I supposed to be jealous??

Maybe because I still have feeling for you..

Maybe because I am still not over you...

Maybe because deep down..I still hang on to you…for what??Seriously…I have no idea…

I don’t know why I feel hurt knowing that you are happy now…I should not have such feeling for you kan??

I should move on…I did..but I guess…I lied………

I do care for sum1 else now…but deep inside me…I still care about you..still want to know things about you..

I can go crazy you know..if I keep thinking about you…sakit hotak gua…

Sumpah right now, I don’t have the heart to even text that sum1…why??sebab I am thinking of you right now….

I need to forget you……..you are happy now with someone else……I need to be happy with sum1 else too….

Dear heart,

Sila pulang boleh??I am tired of feeling this way……………..

My Brother's Pasar Segar

Finally.....my 22 years old brother own a 'Pasar Segar'....Congrats Brother...you did good...

Yup..you work hard for it Bro..and you are getting thinner because of it too!!It's okay...next weekend I'm going to treat you "Wong Solo" (err...I will ask baba to belanja la...)

Here it is....his own 'Pasar segar'

When it comes to business ppl might think that things are easy when you have the money, but trust me.....it is not that easy...it is tough...it consume time..and it such a tiresome..but what to do??

We need to put foods on the table...chewahh...It's okay...my family love to make new business..it's in our blood...LOL

It is true....we loves money...hohoho~

Owh...wait till you see our next business....wink*

is Going to be a make up artist...

Early this month, I took a bridal make up class...so happen that I am going to be a bridal make up artist...Can you believe that??

Seriously, this is not my dream..this is not my passion...but...sometimes as a human being, you have to be realistic...stop living in a dream...

People can dreams...I HAVE DREAMS....and once I have kids..I definitely want them to have dreams..but please be realistic people!!!!not all people are going to achieve what they dream of..right??

So..here I am, came up with a new plan..or perhaps a new direction...

Well, am not going to spend the rest of my life working for other people...making money for them...I have to start making fortune for my own pocket right??

That is what I am doing right now....kinda excited about it..this is the 1st time I am so committed on doing something...yup...am not that committed when it come to a relationship..hehe!!but no worries...I am serious about 'I know who" now...LOL~

Yerp...I am totally focus right now...

Currently in the midst of buying all the make up item..and yes...Dear Friends,please don't ask me out or even ask me to shop..coz I don't have any money left to shop...uwaaaa.....
"Duet mak cukup2 makan je"

I did buy few items already but all and all, there are still few pending items that I need...

Owhh..btw, I did practice my make up move on my baby girl..and guess what..she HATES it...LOL~


Before make over

After make over


Baby hates her make over....(sorry baby...item xcukup)

Me??Saya??

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Blogging sewaktu Bekerja!! (Doink suruh buat)

Starting Time : 1600 hrs (18th January 2011)
Name : Nurul Fatihah Bt Abd Manaf
Brother(s) : Ahmad Saif & Ahmad Mustaqim (single n available)
Eye Colour : hitam kecoklatan
Shoe Size : size 4/size 5
Hair : short/boy cut brownish hair (brown to orange sket color)
Piercing : ears
What are you wearing right now : red shirt with grey pants
Where do you live : Ampang hometown~
Favorite no : 30 . 11.1985 (my birthday)
Favourite drink : epal susu
Favourite breakfast : anything yg berunsurkan karbohidrat

Have You Ever :
Broken a bone : Never
Been in police car : tidak pernah…good girl
Fallen for a friend : Of course..fall suda…
Fallen for a guy/girl in a short period of time : yerp…that guy already got married suda…
Swam in the ocean : aku pernah
Fallen asleep in school : yup..tersengguk2 lagi
Broken someone's heart : I broke sum1’ s heart..and he broke my heart..
Cried when someone died : Yes
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : Once upon a time ago.
Save e-mails : Yes..sweet2 email jer
Been cheated on : Once upon a time ago

What :
Your room like : like a normal room with lots of books and bags (and hair…rambut keguguran)
What is right beside you : books
What is the last thing you ate : Karai chicken ramen

Who:
Who did you last yell at : my baby sister
Who was the last person you dance with : my baby sister
Who last made you smile : yoda

Final Question:
What are you listening to right now : suara manusia di HR berborak…
What did you do today : woke up and work
Are you the oldest : Yes and paling kecil
Indoors or outdoors : Indoors

Today You Did:
Talk to someone you like : texting to sum1 I like to be precise
Kiss anyone : my mum
Sing : waiting outside the lines (greyson chance)
Talk to an ex : No
Miss Someone : YES
Eat : kuey tiaw n munchy2

Last Person Whooo:
You talked to on the phone : My dad
Made you cry : seorang manusia bernama lelaki
You went to the mall with : Haizum & yoda
Who cheer you up : Yoda

Have You:
Been to Mexico : No
Been to USA : No

Random:
Have a crush on someone : Yerp
What book are you reading right now : The Terminal Spy (superb)
Best feeling in the world : To be loved and in love
Future Kids name : In the making
Do you sleep with your stuffed animals : I sleep with books
What is under your bed : Nothing
Favourite sport(s) : BOLA DAN BOLA DAN BOLA (but I kaki bangku)
Favourite place : rumahku syurgaku
Who do you really hate : 2 orang itu
Do you have a job : Yes
What time is it now : 1635 hrs

so what did i got from doing this?
-> missing sum1??

saper yg akan di tag?
Anyone…you are most welcome to do it..if u got time..like me..

RINDU

It has been 2 days....and I miss you.....


Am not suppose to miss you..but I did.......


Okay....sedang menahan hati....


Dear hati,

Be strong please....I know you can do it!!!


Okay...mari pulang...........

HELLO 2011

2010…

Is definitely not a good year for me…I cried a lot in 2010…so..It’s definitely not a good sign…

I lost sum1 so dearly to me in 2010..my heart got broken in 2010…

I had a huge rebound relationship with sum1’s bf…yup..it’s me..Fatihah..with sum1 else bf…mak pun tak caya nyah….LOL~

I lost my grandmother & a cousin in 2010….

What else did I lost??

Owhh…ya…I lost my heart….I have no idea where it go…. Perhaps one day, it will come back to where it belong kan…for now…dear heart, please take a good care of yourself…

Dear 2011,

I hope you will bring me lots of happiness…

I hope to be united…with “I know who”…

I hope to be a better person..better than last year…(I know I’m bad last year..super bad)

I wish ALLAH SWT mempermudahkan perjalanan hidup daku..no more hanky panky please…..

I wish to be over “En Cokelat”….

I wish..I hope….to have a bless year indeed….

No more having this “tight feeling” in my chest…sakit ok…pening kepala I ok….

And..ya…tighten up your ego Fatihah…you need it…LOL~

HOW to berterus terang??

I LIKE this guy…but am too afraid to say it out loud…bukan sebab malu or segan..okay FINE..I admit..I was a bit malu la…of cuz la…there are too many ‘what if’ in my head now…

WHAT IF HE DOES NOT FEEL THE SAME WAY AS I DO?

WHAT IF HE THOUGHT ME AS A FRIEND?

WHAT IF & WHAT IF & WHAT IF……..

Okaylah…I story 1st laaa….I know him thru friend…whereby time tuh, I was actually lepaking with his friends at mamak. We didn’t know each other mase tuh…but one of my friend sort of kenal kan kami…It was on March when I was actually quite down since En Cokelat walk away from me…so sadis…LOL~

Nak jadi kan cerita, he did ask my number from one of his friend and he did sms me on that particular day we met…time tuh..am not so keen pun to know him…sbb I was not over En Cokelat kan…so…I was a bit jual2 mahal and sort of mls nk kwn2 wif any guy…

After about a month, I was kinda bored..tiba2 tgn ni mcm rajin la pulak nak texting him..so I did texted him and all of sudden we became close…like almost every day he texted me, sumtime he called and we did going out like dating kot..sbb we never did went out with his friends or mine..so I can consider it as dating right??LOL~

Next year on March..it’s going to be a year dah..since I know him…therefore, I really2 need to clarify with him la…what are we actually??who am I to you??I don’t like to be kept in the dark..if u know what I mean…..

But, the problem is…how to berterus terang with him? What am I suppose to say?I am afraid okay..afraid of his rejection to be precise….afraid that we might not be as close as we are now….

Once before, I had an experience of pouring my heart out to a guy…lucky me..he respond it well…and he was okay with it..and we end up to be an item…Tp sekarang…I do think I don’t have the gut to do it again…..haiyoo….how??

I saw him yesterday…he was..well..the usual him…we had sushi..then jalan2 tgk handbag since I need a new bag (typical me)..there are times..when I was about to confess…but I am holding it back…sbb I was too afraid!!Damn it….I hate this situation….

Well it so happened yesterday..we did had a bit of argument…nothing serious..but I was a bit kecil hati with him…on some issues..but instead of being mad at him..I turn to be a bit quiet and kinda moody… He knows me well to know that I am not in a good mood..so he tried his best to cheer me up last nite… by making me laugh…and make me smile all nite…Yes…you make me happy last nite…but, what about future??Can I still have those laughs that I had last nite??

What am I suppose to do now??SUMPAH AKU BINGUNG!!

is PELIK

I miss you gadis kecil….how are you??(bercakap dgn blog..am I crazy??ya..1 of my act of craziness)

So..what’s up with “PELIK”??

Seriously…it is weird nowadays, when lots of young ppl so eager to be married…why??

Am not saying that I don’t want 2 get married in my early age…am so into marriage kot…kalau boleh, after grade dulu..nak terus kahwin..but what to do…got no bf maa…LOL~

It is not wrong to have an early marriage, in fact if you are physically & mentally ready for it..why not?? Just go for it laa…it is advisable kot..yela..to prevent any unforeseen circumstances kan…(if u know what I mean)

What’s make me “pelik” is when lots of young peeps tend to get married so early just because they are afraid of losing, they felt threaten, and they feel so insecure…of what??or should I say…of whom??

At the first place, why do you feel insecure??Actually, I am not good when it comes to marriage/relationship but I do know one thing…marriage is not a simple thing..it is a big thing..it is not about saying I do or “aku terimanya nikah….”It is not about a piece of paper(sijil nikah)..it is beyond that…I believe marriage is a sacred thing to do when you believe you are going to spend the rest of your life with that person…(wow…do I sound so pure n sweet..)LOL

Okay la…fine..I admit, I do envy those yg going to get married..but..all and all…I am happy for you guys…knowing that you have sum1 to grow old with..sum1 to membebel with….seronok kn??and the best part is having lots n lots babies…sgt best kan??So..looking forward to that…haha~

Bukan apa….since I am working in oil & gas industry, I can say that..most of my field staff..they tend to kahwin awl…actually…xslh…but…I can see why their gf want them to get married cpt2…u now why??
Because..they don’t trust their partner…why??

To tell you the truth…in O&G…there are lots of cabaran and dugaan….one of the cabaran & dugaan yg perlu ditempuhi oleh all those engineers/surveyors…is…perempuan….kerana wherever they go..whenever they go…women are always all around them….kenapa??sebab…they have lots of money….sumpah….mereka mmg byk duet…they may look rugged..look kinda selekeh a bit..but…their pocket is deep my friends…..Owh…am not saying that…all manusia di oil n gas are the same…but one have to be careful if you want 2 involve with them….jadi, xslh pun..if their gf tak trust mereka kan??
But still, marriage are not going to solve any problems…sbb once they got married pun..if they want 2 cheat they will cheat..if they want 2 flirt..they will flirt….am not lying here…..I’ve known lots of manipulative husband and lots of flirty husband….as well as flirty fiancée and not to forget….bf2 yg willingly cheat on their gf….terlalu ramai okay…no worries…I won’t disclose any names here…LOL

Do you think they will stop cheating once they marry you??Do you think you will feel secure once you marry him??
I bet you won’t feel secure…& trust me..if your partner want 2 stop cheating…he will…if he wants to stop flirting..he will…so you don’t have to force them to marry you….just be patient…if they are meant for you…they will be…by forcing them to marry you…it won’t do any good to both of you…..please do think before you act…

What I’m trying to say here…is not that men can’t be trusted or men who work in O&G are the bad ones…no….am not going to racun sape2 punya fikiran pun…I just want to let ppl knows….how things are..for men in O&G…REMEMBER….appearances can be deceitful…so please be careful women~

Profesional please............

Dear you,

Be professional okay??

Yes..we do have some unresolved relationship issues..but it does not give you any excuse on exposing it to other ppl…especially to your colleagues…………..

Sweetheart…work is work..what we do after work is another different story..boleh x B??

Yes…I was kecil hati..so kecil hati with you…

Please be professional okay….it might be a joke for you..but am not taking this joke lightly…

Remember..personal stuff can affect work…..


Okay…I am merajuk now…

Bye!!