How to 'buang' perasaan sayang itu??

I need to buang perasaan itu!!!

Kenapa perlu??

Jawapannya adalah..."Nak wat cane...orang yg I dok syg sgt tuh...dok suka sgt tuh....actually tade feeling pun kt I..."

Puas hati???

Hati I mmg xpuas......Xpuas sebab tak dapat apa yg I nak....

Regrets??No...when it comes to heart..I have no regrets...none~

Cuma Saya kecewa.....kecewa sebab saya tidak dapat kasih sayang daripada org yg saya syg....

Cuma Saya sedih......sedih sebab saya terpaksa belajar 'melupakan'/'menghapuskan' perasaan syg ini...atau bahasa mudah nya...I need to reformat my brain...clean up both my hard disk C & D...dlm recycle bin pun kena buang jgk~

Cuma Saya rasa sakit......sakit sebab the thought of seeing him in FB/YM is hurting me.....


I have learn to be an ego woman..Saya berjaya!!tapi I am not happy....

How to be happy when deep down..I am suffering kan??


Urghhhh..the urge to be happy and not to think of him sgtlah menebal......

Serius..saya perlu buang perasaan sayang ini.......BAGAIMANA??

Because ALLAH love you

Another 3days to go sebelum saya berangkat.....


Perasaan??

Serius...saya sendiri keliru....

Tipu la if saya tidak happy....I am actually happy....finally...hatiku terpanggil untuk menjawab seruNya...

Tapi..deep down...sumpah...saya betul2 takut...takut if saya tidak melakukan yg terbaek.....takut if saya tersilap langkah.....

SAYA MEMANG SANGAT TAKUT!!!

Ya tuhan...kuatkan lah diri ini ya.......

Aminnn....

Tapi kan..saya betul2 grateful...mmg betul..ALLAH mmg sayang kan saya....

HE save me from melakukan perkara yg jahil.....Ternyata ALLAH itu maha Besar kan??

Itulah...bila dah pasang niat yg tidak baik....ingin melakukan perkara yg jahil.....ALLAH indeed have save me.....

Tapi sampai bila DIA nak selamatkan diriku yg jahat ni kan??

Kenapalah susah ssgt nak sedar??susah sgt nak insaf??susah sgt ke nak jadi baik??


Thank you ALLAH~

Dinner with Brunei's Royalty........

Last2 week...on Sunday...we had a marvelous dinner a.k.a unofficial Doa selamat with Brunei's royalty...

I know..it is unbelievable kan??well..believe it....I pun xcaya...tak pernah terfikir pun yg one day am going to have dinner with kerabat Brunei...huhu~

Nak jadi kn cerita...actually...my uncle were doing business with one of the royalties....
Kalau nak tahu...the brunei's royalty mmg salu turun KL ok...especially bila ada event yg best2...cam FI race ke...mmg confirm depa turun laaa...

Next week pun depa nk turun lagi..sebab apa??Sebab anak2 depa nak pi tengok concert Justin Bieber....tu laaa...bila da byk duet sgt kan....money indeed can buy everything...even a man dignity pun kan??betul x??(tiba2 terselit sindiran sket..heee~)

Okay...cerita psl Brunei's royalty ni...masa mula2 di introduce kan....dlm kepala bila ckp jer kerabat brunei..kite msti da ingt yg they are so mewah...super berlagak....n mmg tak pandang kot kite org Mesia ni kans....

But actually...it is indeed untrue hokay......sumpah...they are just like us...so simple...xsumbung langsung.....tapi mmg they wear branded item la...but still they look simple...(nampak la....handbag pun LV...Gucci kans...)

Suka sgt bergaul wif them...sgt supan...peramah...n tidak lokek...hik2~

Nak tahu tak...I use to terserempak wif them dkt Pavillion tau..lepas tuh siap offer nk byr my brg hokay....ikut kn hati..nk jer kasi..hehe!!silap xmsk Butik Gucci...if not...dpt la satu handbag kn...kerabat brunei belanja....huahuahua~

Owh..ya..nanti I nak gi tgk konsert Bieber with Brunei's Royalty.....jgn jealous.....heeeee~


- Me n baby



- nenek/acik/mama wif bunch of brunei's kerabat..(they look so normal kn??)



- Pengeran yg da lupa nama dia...tp baik...asek amik picture kiteorg...auwwww~



- siap jemput ustaz yg salu msk tv hokay....husband to Ustazah Norbaya...



Kesimpulannya...we had fun yoooo....^_^

2 weekend bercuti sampai lebammmmm

I had 2 good weekend!!


2 weeks ago..I went to visit my daddy in Ipoh....we all travel naik train yooo....
omaigod...am so excited ok naik train...huhu~
(ehem2..bukan jakun..dulu time kecik2 I use to take train from Ipon to KL ya..harap maklum...huu~)

Dalam train, sumpah gua tak leh tido bai....train asek benti...n being me....gua asek fenin...tapi best la...cuma gua ada masalah sket bila naik train or plane..kepala gua salu xbetul...menci mak!!!
Thanks to minyak CK (bukan Calvin Klein tp Cak Kapak) I am ok...through out the journey...and able to watch permandangan dr KL to Ipoh....tiba2 gua rasa proud to be a Malaysian..(tade kena mengena langsung..)

Sampai Ipoh....my dearest daddy dah tgu we ols.....from train station trus Baba bwk we ols pegi makan...mula2 cam tamau mkn....tp tiba2 nmpk ulam jantung pisang...trus nafsu mkn gua membuak2....

Satu ari smpi ipoh we ols pegi jln2 jer...omaigod...life is indeed a bless....best woooo jln2......kn bgs kalu gua xkerja....sobs..sobs.....~

In Ipoh...thanks to my parent...I keep on eating mcm org gila....gua mmg suda jatuh cinta pada foods...xtahu nape...sekarang perut ni asek nk mkn sajer.....pipi gua da mcm ikan buntal ok!!!

Berat badan gua??usah ditanya...mayb da cecah 45kg!!!!!!!

Okay..kt bwh gua nk share sket pengalaman nek tren....saksikan la video klip yg ntah hapa2 ni....cam poyo gila.....




Okay..last week punya cite laks......after balik keje....tiba2..mama ckp...tomoro we ols go to Kuantan n straight gi K. Terengganu....I was like..." What The...."

Actually..cam baru nk happy2...sbb mama n baba nk gi kuantan....dgn itu...bole la gua berjimba during weekend kn.....tapi tu la....sbb da psg niat yg tidak baik....tak psl2....kna folo mama....huahuahua~

But....it's ok....because...I had so much fun yooooo.....gila besh....last weekend...gua jd anak tunggal sementara since I am d only one yg folo baba n mama....happy gilaaaaa nyah.......

Cam bese....gua mkn dgt byk tak hengat dunia....u name it...dr nasi dagang...smpi ikan patin..sume gua balun.....sedapnyaaa.....

Yg paling best is....gua mkn durian dgn sgt byk....nasib baik tak demam....

Pas2 we ols bwk balik durian dgn byknya....smpi satu kereta bau durian..pening kepala mak....tp takpe...demi durian...gua sanggup!!!!

Btw...just nk gitau....semalam gua buat serawa durian...1st time...sedap hokay...anyone want 2 marry me??hik2~

Picture to share??ummm..tade picture....

Owhh...nak gitau jugak...sape2 nk pi K. Terengganu...sila la lalu kt area PAKA time mlm2....omaigod....sgt cantik..tiba2 rase mcm berada di negara yg sgt maju....huu~

Okay...sampai sini dulu...gua nk tuka topic len pulak......



p/s: maaf jika bahasa sy agak kasar....tiba2 rase cam nk jd gangster....hee~

INEEDADOCTOR

Just so you know....

I'm about to lose my mind
You've been gone for so long
I'm running out of time
I need a doctor
Call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
To bring me back to life


Anyone??be my doctor??

I know...no one.....................

I am Elton John's Fan~

I know..he is GAY...but he makes good music honey......Cane??

Actually, I was watching American Idol Cycle 11 the other night, and all the contestants have to sing Elton John's piece...and guess what...my Casey Abrams nails it with "Your Song"

Omangai!!!!!I am loving it....since I love Sir Elton John....mueheheheh~

Therefore, please do enjoy a few clips from Sir Elton John....^_^

P/s: He is amazingly talented..love the way he played his piano...nyesal dulu x belajar piano betul2!!!!









Okay..lg satu jer naa..please.....




Okay done~

Jom layan Elton John sampai muntah okies............

How to wear hijab with style~

I am so obsessed with the ways ppl wear their hijab...so cute...so beautiful...

Now..no one can say that u r not pretty while wearing hijab kan??

This are few hijab tutorial yg I did follow...

I loike~










Ada byk lagi...tp I post sket dulu naa....for any further info, pi la bukak youtube and tengok sendiri naaa.......

Sedang salin kulit mcm ular..............erkkk~

Currently sedang menghadapi masalah kulit yg tidak lah kronik...

no that serious pun...

Tapi kan..my kulit sedang actively menggelupas ok....

Semua org cakap sebab I am actively using chemical on my face...but the truth is...I AM NOT okay....

Everyday cuci muka macam biasa...wear my make up cam biasa....

Sedih tau..muka menggelupas....semua org keep asking..keep looking at me....

Tiba2 level of self confidence dah reduce...muahahah~


So untrue.....my level of confidence are still the same...chewahhh...I know..super berlagak kan???


Actually..I do kesah..but lama2 cam takde perasaan.....

Ya...my face look like ular yg sedang salin kulit..but who cares???as long as I came to work..do my job...that's all that matter right??

(Eventhough my boss kept asking me the same question everyday....Takpe...Saya Tak kesah bos...lg pun muka saya dah okay!!!)


Yerp..my face is okay...now I have this big smile on my face....

Okay Senyum..^_~


Sila lah tengok picture di bwh, di mana my face cam ular tengah salin kulit...mueheheheh~




Si ular Fatihah sedang salin kulit

Casey Abrams has put a spell on me.........

Am so sorry...

is currently obsessed with this dude....


I LOVE...I LOVE....I LOVE.....












Okay..enough for tonite....muah2 to CASEY ABRAMS~

Why I like older guys??

I am going to be 26 years old this year....

Wow.....I am getting older....3years ago I thought at this age I am happily married and is expecting my first child kot.....huahuahua~

Unfortunately....things are not always happened according to what we plan/want...kan..kan...???

3years ago...I don't like lelaki tua...by tua means someone 5 years n above older than me....

Yucks....geli hokay.....perlu ke in love with lelaki tua??Sangat lah tidak suka............

But when I'm start working...suddenly...I have a new perspectives when it comes to guys....

You know what....older guys are much more better than the young ones....oopppsie.....no offends lelaki-lelaki muda....LOL~

How come they are much more better??

Lelaki tua are so damn straightforward...

Lelaki tua are not pretentious or tend to make you feel good...

Lelaki tua are much more mature....

Lelaki tua know how to handle women....

Lelaki tua shows love by his actions not words....

I need lelaki tua I think....

What do you think???


Tapi kan..tapi kan...there are no lelaki tua yg single in Malaysia hokay......sangatlah menipu...
Lelaki tua yg single itu ramai kot..maybe mencecah ribuan??atau puluhan ribuan...

But I don't want lah..lelaki tua yg mcm atuk2 tuh....by tua means someone dalam range umur 30-40 an ke kan...I still can accept laaa....

Umm..do I sound a bit memilih??

Memilih itu adalah diharuskan...betul tak??(my left brain said "YES" but my right brain said "NO") Camne??


I use to ask my mum, "Mama...perlu ke kita accept sum1 yg syg kita eventho kita have zero feeling for him?"

And my mama said, " When it comes to hati, kita xbole force our self to like sum1, marriage is about spending your whole life with sum1...jadi choose sum1 yg kita betul2 yakin yg kita bole spend the whole life with...ramai cakap let a man love you more...it is true...but you must love him too..one sided love will never work in marriage.."

Umm...it means...if sum1 really2 love you...please make sure that at least on your part..you do love him too..eventho love itu sedikit...am I right?? (Owhhh....LOVE itu betul2 membuat kn daku semakin takut...)

By the way..thank you mama...I turn to you~ALWAYS......

Okay..berbalik kepada lelaki tua....

Maybe I should not put such a high hopes on being with an older guy.....huahuahua~

Benda yg kita selalu nak..itu lah yg kita tidak akan dapat..am I right??


We never know what future have for us right??

For now...I will wait and see....


- gadis kecil yg semakin tua -



Wisdom thoughts before I go to sleep: I should stop pitying on myself...there are lots of ppl whom are less fortunate than I am...please2...be a grateful person Fatihah....one step at a time...aminnn~

Hati tidak okay!!!

Deep down I am not okay…

Seperti ada sesuatu yang tersekat di dalam hati…

Susah hati…

Hati tidak tenang….

Deep down..I feel sad….

Kenapa??Sebab apa??

I can’t really figure it out…..

Tapi saya tahu saya sedih…..

ALWAYS SAYING THAT “I HAD ENOUGH!!”

But hanya tuhan yg tahu…hati ini tak pernah rasa puas…
Sentiasa mahu lebih dan lebih….

I need a rehab…not from drugs/alcohol/whatsoever

I need a rehab from manusia…from dunia….

Soon………….

Nak mengadu boleh??

Bukan hendak mengata..bukan hendak mengutuk…tapi ini adalah kenyataan………….

Boss saya selalu MC…in a week..mesti ada MC sedangkan..saya tak pernah MC…

Bukan nak memuji diri sendiri, but I do think that as a boss you should show some example to us your staff kot…

You are a good boss in term of work..tetapi boss selalu sgt tidak ada…or lebih tepat lagi..boss selalu sgt MC…sampai sometimes we are serba slh when ppl ask us about your whereabouts.

Maybe it is good for us because it make us independent but at the same time, we are not the boss so we can’t actually make a decision..betul tak??

Tapi kan..bila part pergi outstation, laju jer boss kan…if seminggu pergi outstation, tak pulak boss sakit2…oooppssss~

Okay…saya Cuma hendak meluahkan perasaan shj..whatever pun, you are still the boss…

Saya yang menurut arahan sahaja……….

Okay…sila kembali membuat kerja ya Fatihah~

I am a big fan of Casey Abrams!!!!

Have you watched the latest season of American Idol???

Who is your favorite??

Well, I got mine!!!

I am a big fan of Casey Abrams!!!

I know...he looks nerd, Gorky kind a way...but he is cute!!!(fyi, JLO said he is sexy!!)


Kindly listen to his voice will ya....you will definitely be blown away....

superb voice..mad talent at music wise.....

I present you the one and only........




More............



More..more....



Okay enough....please do see him next week in STAR WORLD (to those yg ada Astro okay)

p/s: how I wish I could vote for him........T_T

MakeUp by TOPSHOP

When it come to TOPSHOP, first thing yg terlintas kt dalam kepala saya would be their fabulous clothes…..
Seriously I adore TOPSHOP…especially their Skinny…suka gila!!!
Skinny from TOPSHOP sgt best ya kwn2….and I love their extravagant blouse and yes not to forget their range of bags…SUKANYA!!!!

Yerp…when it comes to TOPSHOP I can go really crazy about them…tapi tidak sekarang..sebab saya perlu berjimat cermat sekarang….T_T

Actually, I just want to share with you girls out there about this new range of makeup line from TOPSHOP!!
Basically you can only found it at TOPSHOP KLCC shj since they baru2 nak test market kt MALAYSIA kn….
I have already saw them and honey, trust me you are going to love it!!

Packaging dia agak simple and seriously it is so marketable for tenagers nowadays. Bukan apa, for us yg sudah agak tua or lebih tepat lg sudah melangkaui alam remaja maybe kita kurang sesuai kot….hehe~
It is due to their range yg more to casual kind of makeup yg most of the product itself byk yg ade shimmer/glitters sket…for those yg very fancy2 maybe suka kot..for me, I prefer something yg more classic…LOL~

Tapi kan..saya kn..jatuh cinta with their eye liner!!!Suka sangat….for your info, they only produce a black eye liner and seriously it is so easy to apply.
Other stuff like blusher, gloss and etc…kinda okay but as I said earlier, for teenagers maybe it suits them kot but for me yg sudah agak tua (tapi comel) agak tidak sesuai kot…or perhaps when it comes to make up, I am not as bold as other women out there…I ni simple orang nya…I don’t really like to overdo when it come to make up..hee~Lebih tepat lagi is saya tidak berani mencuba seperti Dart (pinjam nama u sekejap eh darling..hee~)

Owh…they also produce a line of nail polish yg sgt comel, so to those yg suka color your nail u shud try…

Overall, I can say that their line of makeup is very fresh, fancy, playful and cute…and yes..the price itself sgt berpatutan…seriously ia tidak expensive okay.

(sukanya..........)

Oleh itu, come and visit TOPSHOP KLCC for your further action okay!!And if sape2 yg dtg KLCC tuh..let me know….maybe korg boleh belanja me mkn2 ker since my office is just opposite KLCC..hee~

p/s: Nak muntah dah ni….tiap2 ari ngadap KLCC…..haiyooo~

MARCH

It is March already.............

I have another 9months to go......

What am I suppose to do in March??

1. Need to sambung belajar make up..brush up my skills wif manusia yang suda hebat dalam art of make up....


2. Kena byk muhasabah diri...lately semakin improve...alhamdulillah......wee~puji diri sendiri...LOL~


3. Perlu start my part time tution class.....I need the extra money!!for what??JENG..JENG...


4. Perlu start belajar masak dengan consistent with nenek...semalam saya masak sayur bendi goreng okay...huahuahua..~


5. Perlu menghabiskan buku yg baru dibeli last weekend....I LOVE MY BOOKS MORE THAN MY LOVE TOWARDS LELAKI...chewahhh~sgt lah menipu......LOL~


6. Need to start focusing on my mum's boutique....sbb xlama lagi saya nak berhenti kerja and focus on business.....

Okay..cukuplah 6perkara...byk2 karang tak tercapai akalku pun....

YOU need to change okay FATIHAH.....ada orang tanya, kenapa perlu berubah??

My answer is, saya perlu berubah untuk diri saya...I have too!!

Yes....saya sudah tidak memikirkan tentang ITU...cukup suda...if IA datang, then I will accept it with my open heart...if not, I rather be me....

Maybe xlama lagi ppl are going to see a new me....Jangan terkejut hokay~

(saya suka rambut dia......tiba-tiba..auwwww..I cut my hair short because of her..hehehe~)

Orang itu....

Orang itu is going to Makkah...untuk melaksanakan umrah....

I am proud of you...

I really do....

Before you go, izinkan daku berkata2 ya....if you xdpt terima, it's okay..it's your life..your choice...
but I will say it....no matter what....

I like it and I don't care if you don't like it....

Will be missing orang itu....

Go ahead and find your missing pieces okay....

Will pray for you always~

LOVE,

Tihah

PERGILAH AIR MATA............

Who do you think you are??
Running around leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
Tearing love apart.........

Okay..air mata officially mencurah2...murah sungguh air mata ni kan.....
okay..jum nanges puas2!!

To be pretty inside OUT

Ehem2…Lately I am obsessed with beauty!!Bukan sekadar obsess yg suka2..but to tell you the truth..I am critically obsessed….Tak kisah la org nak cakap apa..yg penting mak happy kan nyah~LOL

To all the beautiful ladies di luar sana….eventho yes..we are still young but it is never to early when it comes to kecantikan..we need to take immediate action when it come to kecantikan..HUKUM nya WAJIB ya gadis2…

Beautiful itu subjective. We can’t simply measure kecantikan base on apa yg kita lihat with our eyes..because sometimes kecantikan itu lies within us…betul x??Ada sebab kenapa seorang lelaki boleh suka kita eventho kita rasa kita tidak cantik..Am I right ladies??

If we are going to talk about the beauty that lies beneath us..well, honey…sampai esok malam pun tak kan abis I nak elaborate…Just be true to yourself..and just be YOU…ppl love you because you are YOU.

Actually starting mid January, tiba2…I came across this one article on COLLAGEN. Previously, if anyone brought up the collagen subject/issues I was like…WHATEVER…I am still young kot…Do I need collagen?? Semua orang cakap..you are in mid twenties..why must you worry about your skin yg kedut2 or bertoksin ke..perlu ke risau??I always think that I am to early to worry about those sort of things…Until one day…I read this article bercerita tentang collagen and it make me think…I DO REALLY NEED COLLAGEN…for what??TO MAKE SURE WHEN I TURN 40 EVERYBODY WILL GOING TO ENVY ME FOR HAVING THE BEST SKIN EVER…...LOL~

So..here I am now, starting to take this below COLLAGEN supplement which work so miraculously….Serious..I am loving it!!!
SUMPAH…I x tipu….To those yg nak try to take collagen, you girls should try this one..COLLA PLUS, it provide us 5000mg of collagen which is very good compared to other brand yg only provide 2500mg sahaja…
It taste okay..I am not going to lie by saying that it taste good sbb it taste a bit hanyir but overall it was okay la..LOL~

But actually, it cost me quite a big sum of money la to maintain you know…bayangkan la..for 16 bottles, it cost me about RM167.90…maybe bagi anda di luar sana amount nya rendah..tapi bagi saya…it is expensive okay!!!!tak mampu MAK!!!

Oleh yang demikian, I came up with a PLAN B, since it is sort of expensive I pun selang2 kan myself to take other beauty supplement yg lebih murah….

For that, I go and bought myself BRAND’s INNERSHINE PRUNE…see…nak cantik punya pasal…sanggup kan I bersusah payah….Owhh…Innershine Pati Prune is sgt sedap….very sweet n juicy…I tak tipu…and for 6 bottles it only cost RM22.90 if you buy at WATSON laaa….

Okay, I bet ppl mesti la nak tahu outcome from this 2 supplements kan??

Seriously, if to those yg ambil Colla Plus, you can see the result in only 6days…nanti you akan rasa kulit you lebih anjal and you will look more radiant..sumpah I xtipu…and if you are consistent, insyallah..it can reduce scars, wrinkles dkt tepi mata tuh…it really work my dearest ladies…..
To those yang amik Innershine Pati Prune, sorry to say…the result it self may take quite some time..You can’t simply see it for the first few month I guess, but if we take it consistently, it will definitely produce a good result at the end of the day.

Macam I, I took both of them regularly but I do like to gilir2 on taking it for example, like today I take colla plus then tomorrow I will take Prune’s Innershine….u know gilir2…for better result in near future..chewahhh..~

Therefore my dearest gadis-gadis cantik…sila lah take action from now…jgn ingt kita still young and we don’t need such supplement. Trust me darling..it is never to early to look young and pretty~

SELAMAT MENCUBA!!!!

Kenapa wahai ENCIK LELAKI

LELAKI suka play hard to get ke??

Kenapa lelaki always being nice for nothing??

Kenapa lelaki perlu pretend to be good??

Kenapa lelaki kadang-kadang macam Chipsmore? (Sekejap ada,sekejap tade)

Kenapa lelaki perlu memberi harapan??

Kenapa lelaki tidak mahu berterus terang??

Kenapa & kenapa & kenapa ??????


Serius I am clueless………..

Ada HERO dalam hati........

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are

There's an answer If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
And you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold

You can find love
If you search within yourse
lf And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Oh ho, Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away, hey yea

Hold on
There will be tomorrow In time, you find the way,

hey Then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

That a hero lies in you
Mmm, that a hero lies in you

(Hanya hiasan semata-mata)