Unfaithful

Unfaithful means....

You cheat??You are not being honest??You are not being true to other ppl & to yourself??

Unfaithful??

Always an issue among couple/married/engaged...am I right??

And unfortunately..it is an issue for me......Owhh...am not the one who are actually being unfaithful...hee~

But...I am dealing with a guy who are actually being unfaithful to his fiancee....camane tuh??

I had enough of him since last year...but he kept coming n coming like nobody business and pretend that everything is okay....

How am I suppose to get rid of this unfaithful guy??

Why la I have to deal with you when it come to work??

Dear you,

Yes...I am running away from you....

Yes...I wish I don't have to see you again....

Yes...I wish you stop looking for me.....

And Yes...you are hurting me.....

Farewell Dinner DATE with Bebeh~

Bebeh are going to leave me alone...

Poor me...Maybe after she left, I am going to "Puasa" A LOT...(because I am alone.....)

Starting next week, am going to be a lone ranger...

No more secret sharing with Bebeh.........

Am going to be bored......Haiyooo~

But owhh...we had a great Friday!!

1st, After work we go straight to TGV KLCC to watch Fast & Furious 5........

Review??

It was super awesome!!!! 5 stars!!!!

I'm in love with HAN~

And ohh...I love Vin Diesel too!!His deep voice for sure and....his bods..LOL~

Love the plots...am loving all the actors.....a good movie to watch for those who love actions & adrenaline junkie!!

After movie??

We had dinner at BEN's



The food??

Were good...definitely better than THE APARTMENT...

The Interior/Deco??

Were nice...quite cozy....

Seriously it was very nice....and quite crowded since I guess lots of people are loving it...

Bebeh ordered the Crab Tortilla sumthing2...(Can't remember the whole name)



It was good..love the crab meat..(Bebeh kasi sket...hehe!!)

Mine was The Fisherman Catch...a nice fillet with bun/fries..and some salads


Overall, we did have a nice date...kan BEBEH kan??LOL~

Okay later..........

Isu Kahwin

Ya...it is all about kahwin....dan kahwin...dan kahwin....dan kahwin....

Am I going to get married soon??

Well..ya...I hope so...but 1st, please do find me a groom..will YA??

Tahun Ni....lots..n lots of friends..especially GIRLFRIENDS are going to get married!!

HAPPY??Of course I am happy for them...I love WEDDINGS...I adore WEDDINGS!!

But....I can’t help myself of feeling a bit devastated or frustrated.....and most of all, I can’t help of pitying myself....hohohoho~

Ya...pity me..poor me...am going to be 26 years old by end of this year..But I’m yet to find the ONE to spend my life with...YA...I am sad....

Helo...sape yg tak sedih kans??Takpe...I nanges dalam hati jer...LOL~

Actually, this past few years I got lots of question on “Bila nak Kahwin?” (ulang 10x)

My answer is, I have no idea....since I have no Boyfriend...how am I suppose to get married??

Ya..been dreaming of having sum1 to grow old with...

Been dreaming of having kids....

Been dreaming of having a family of my own....

Ya...been dreaming of all that since I was 20 years old kot....LOL~

Tapi kan...I am okay right now...those questions about “KAHWIN” does not really bother me..

I’m cool...Cuma kadang2 rasa pilu mengenang nasib diri jer...auwwww~

But, the most important thing is...I am thankful that despite not having a boyfriend, I do have a loving family and my beloved friends...Thank you guys~

Ya....despite any disadvantages, we must always believe that LOVE is always there..do not seek LOVE but just be prepare for it to come....I BELIEVE~

May I find happiness in near future...Amin~

I love Fashion!!

Hehs...

It's lunch time!!

And..Owhh..I am not going to have my lunch since I "puasa" today....wink*

I know...such a good girl kan??well..........
(Sedang mengganti puasa to be exact)

Owhh...Actually I just want to share...

Am currently obssesed with this website!!

Totally awesome!!

You can shop and create your own looks...Auuwww~

I like!!!!

I know...so lame right??this website dah lama pun wujud...and I just joined it...

It's okay....as long as I'm happy....

My first Look...refer to this below pictorial...

What I like to wear to Office by namasayatihah featuring aldo shoes

I know.....sume expensive stuffs!!

But I can afford the bag/the bangles/the scarft/the wide leg pants...

In fact, I am goin to buy it now via online...LOL~

Okay...I am officially satisfied!!!

p/s: is going to create other looks as well....theheheheee~

My weekend Look

My weekend Look by namasayatihah featuring red patent leather shoes

To have a Scar free skin

Ehem2....

I know..it is actually during office hour, and I am blogging...I know..this is wrong...but I can’t help it...I need to share this with you women out there...wink**

I admit..I do have skin problems...nothing serious..but it still manage to make me suffer or feeling a bit conscious of my appearance..well...typical right..we women always conscious on our looks~

Previously, I have already shared about the importance of taking care of our inner beauty right??

Trust me...collagen do works..but you have to take it constantly..and yes..it cost us dearly....haiyoooo....

Owhh..kindly be inform that I do have a partner in crime ya...Both of us are critically obsess on being pretty and stay young always...LOL~

Until one day, one of our colleagues told us that currently she has been taking VITAMIN E.
She told us that it really does improve her skin whereby it reduce her pimples as well as minimizing her scars....

At first, both of us are still in doubt..especially me...you know...I was afraid that it might not work with me..I mean different person, they have different body system right??

But being us...without wasting any time, during lunch break both of us went to Guardian KLCC to buy the Vitamin E.

According to our colleague, she has been using BLACKMORES Vitamin E...and we were actually thinking to buy the exact same brand that she used.

But, once we consult with the person in charge...finally we have decided on buying KORDELL’s Vitamin E.

Amazingly, it work miraculously...I was super happy with the outcomes...

Currently, my skin were doing fine...no more hideous pimples..my face were clean except that I still have this oily skin...(unhappy face....)

For those out there with pimples or scars problems...you should try it!!

But please do consult your doctor 1st on the dose of Vitamin E that your body can take...
I am happy to share!!!

A sacred Journey.........

Wow....title..."sacred journey"??

Well..yerp...it is actually a very sacred journey or lebih tepat lg....Perjalanan Penyucian diri baik dr segi mentally & physically....auuwwww~

The journey started on 24th April 2011 whereby we all departed from KL to Bahrain...

The journey it self to BAHRAIN took us about 8hours!!!

Perasaan??OMG!!!!my pinggang sakit nyah!!!!Seriously...all the way to BAHRAIN I was actually faking a sleep...but Thanks to Allah...I am okay!!I feel fresh despite not having a sleep..maybe sebab hati saya sgt gemuruh...huuu~

Arrived in BAHRAIN time tuh da malam....and we all terus dibawa check in to our hotel....

Since dah arrived to Bahrain, 1st thing to do..trus mandi and solat n when I look at the katil...trus saya tido tak sedar kan diri..huahuahua~

For your info, subuh di BAHRAIN dlm kul 4++ am ...and when we actually woke up...masing2 dah kelam kabut...sbb kt lua cam da nak terang...masing2 ingat dah terlepas subuh....tp rupanya2..kami sume bgn awl.....hasilnya...we all puns pergi jln2 around BAHRAIN...which actually happened to be a very expensive country!!!

You know what...air mineral botol besar cost us RM10 hokay!!!!

But...just so u know..BAHRAIN is definitely a beautiful place to visit!!!

Sila la dtg okay...dgn menaiki GULF AIR!! (ehem2...tiba2 I jadi duta Gulf Air...)

Okay..back to our sacred journey, actually we all have to take an afternoon flights to MADINAH..therefore after we had our breakfast and a bit of jalan2....we all terus head on to airport and sgt2 tak sabar nak menjejakkan kaki ke KOTA MADINAH yg merupakan kota yg sgt disayangi oleh Rasulullah SAW.

Journey to MADINAH took us about 2hours++ and guess what I had the most amazing air turbulence...sumpah..this is my 1st ever experience a bad air turbulence...tiba2 cam rasa naik bus yg asek nak langgar lobang....betul I xtipu okay!!!

Hasilnya...my beloved brother trus muntah once we are safe landing in MADINAH...while me and mama..we are safe!!!CAM TAK CAYA YG ME AND MAMA TAK MUNTAH!!!LOL~

Upon arrival in MADINAH, OMG!!their imigration are super lama....I think I have actually beratur more than an hour okay...but it's ok...alhamdulillah...things went well...I am in MADINAH yoooo!!!!

After exiting the airport, kiteorang trus head on to TANAH HARAM MADINAH...kindly be inform ya...tanah haram means it is strictly forbidden for non muslim and please beware that ALLAH also ada HIS own imigration...SAPE??MALAIKAT...so barangsiapa yg ada niat jahat...insyallah..MALAIKAT ada untuk memantau...^_^

On our way to MADINAH, our mutawwif did told us several stories on MADINAH..which is happen to be the beloved city of our prophet.

Sebaik shj ternampak MASJID NABAWI.....terus terang saya cakap...hati saya terus jadi sayu..and air mata tuh...cam murah sgt...huhu~Alhamdullilah...ALLAH itu maha besar....DIA beri peluang kepada saya utk menjejakkan kaki ke MADINAH...(tiba2 cam nak menangis lagi.....)
LOL~

In MADINAH, we stayed in DURRAT AL FAYROZ which actually located near to masjid Nabawi!!!Saya suka.....serius...u have no reason for not to berjemaah in masjid when u are actually live so near to Masjid Nabawi!!

Setiba di hotel...our 1st dugaan bermula.....nak tahu apa??
Well, it so happened that the room that we r supposed to stay were a total mess!!!
Tapi kan...itu la...kuasa ALLAH....kami semua sgt calm...and sorang pun tak merungut...huhu~
bukan nak memuji diri sendiri n my family..but serius okay...kami semua stay calm...gi amik wudhu' n terus heading to Masjid Nabawi..^_~
(huhu...I am proud of myself for kerana dapat bersabar...LOL~)

Tiba di Masjid Nabawi....I was mesmerized...Perasaan??I was speechless.....and terus terang....You have to go there to feel it your self...sbb perasaan itu tidak terkata...^_^

My 1st time solat in masjid Nabawi is Solat zuhur..and masyaallah....manusia sgt ramai!!!
and 2nd Dugaan dtg menguji diri saya...APA??

Well, disebabkan oleh kerana terlalu ramai manusia yg dtg solat...jadi seperti biasa..seorang tidak akan lepas dari bersifat selfish...can u imagine when u are actually performing ur solat and then sum1 actually langkah kepala anda ketika anda sdg sujud or when u sedang solat, suddenly ppl langgar you...Apa perasaan anda??

Perasaan saya??To be frank...I was beyond piss...marahnya...hanya ALLAH shj yg tahu....
tapi alhamdullillah...saya ingat pesan mama..what ever happen....please be patient...byk kan BERistighfar...and alhamdulillah...it help...Thank you ALLAH~

Tapi itu la...sebagai seorang manusia, kita xkan terlepas dari terdetik perasaan atau ingin melakukan perkara yg bukan2...itu la yg paling saya takut...tp syukur sgt2...saya cepat sedar..and ALLAH sentiasa ada untuk ingat kan saya...^_^

The best thing of MASJID NABAWI??
Well disitu la terletaknya..makam Rasulullah SAW & para sahabat...and for your info, bagi kaum lelaki..you can always go there to visit our prophet's makam but for kaum hawa...ada waktu yg tertentu...same goes for RAUDHAH...I bet people mesti wondering kan...kenapa ada certain time for women right??

Well, it is for our own good jugak sebab seriously kaum hawa ni sgt aggressive okay....
Bayangkan la....kaum lelaki elok jer masing2 melawat makam Nabi and masuk Raudhah..Tapi bg kaum Hawa ni...semua sanggup bertolak2 untuk masuk okay...especially wanita2 di timur tengah yg berbadan besar ni...memang ganas...Saya tak tipu.....hee~

Pengalaman saya??Well, alhamdulillah...1st time saya nak masuk Raudhah...ALLAH bagi saya peluang untuk solat di hadapan makam Nabi...Perasaan?? I was literally speechless dan menangis tak berhenti sambil berdoa...huhu~Syukur sgt2...

Saya managed masuk ke dalam Raudhah despite being push by other makcik yg berbadan besar hokay....and Thank you Allah...I managed to perform solat sunat without being pijak...syukurnyaaa.....

Owh...btw, I dapat masuk Raudhah dua kali YOOOO!!2nd time dapat masuk Raudhah...I am actually thankful to my mum for actually sanggup jadi minah guard and tolun kepung saya time saya sdg solat..bukan apa...if mama x tolun kepung, I might dipijak okay....THANK YOU MAMA...hanya ALLAH dapat membalas jasa mu MAMA~

Okay lupa pulak.....in MADINAH...we did go for sight seeing at few places...cam Masjid Quba', Masjid Qiblaitaini, ladang kurma and pasar kurma...actually byk tempat nak pi...but time constraint kan...sebab we all nak kejar zuhur kt Masjid Nabawi...^_^

What else in MADINAH??owh..I did some shopping...but nothing much..sebab ingat cam nk spend dekat MAKKAH..hehe~Owhh..tapi kan...saya beli byk PASHMINA...huhu~
OMG!!PASHMINA sgt mura.....huu~

Finally..the day to leave MADINAH suda tiba...perasaan??SEDIH.....tapi excited nak pi MAKKAH...Owhh..before we left, kami semua dah siap2 pakai pakaian ihram....tapi belum niat ihram lagi...tapi kan..tapi kan...saya suka la MADINAH....CAN I STAY IN MADINAH PLEASE????I nak solat dekat Masjid NABAWI everyday...huu~

Kindly refer to this below pictures....I MISS MADINAH............


- This was taken right after solat Isya'



- Me at Masjid Quba'



- Ehh...sedikit shopping....LOL~




- This is the entrance yg selalu I masuk Usman Bin Affan Door...

Okay...Later, I will continue on my journey to MAKKAH okay.....

Nighto........

No Time............

Pressure....penat....Tension............

Once da start working.....I am super duper busy!!!

I have no time to blog!!!

I wonder how other ppl who actually work like me, dividing their time to blog!!

I have lots of stories to share..lots of thoughts to share...but I can't find myself an ample time to blog about it....

Now,I am blogging since I came early today...but trust me..by 8.30am...I am fully occupied!!!

With WHAT??

With work loads...with phone calls.....(kerja jd kuli jugak..am not a boss yo!!)

Adusss....DUNIA...OH...DUNIA.....it will never stop!!

Maybe nanti during office hour I nak curik2 blogging laaa......

Boleh kan???

Please2...hopefully I can blog during office hour..LOL~

Saya sudah pulang........

Fuhh...fuhh...fuhh....berabuk sungguh blog daku ini.....

sorry ya gadis kecil...mummy been away for 2 weeks...hee~

Btw, saya suda pulang...pulang dengan senyuman yg lebar...pulang dengan muka yg berseri-seri...(omg...so menipu...my face is so gelap...I am so sedih...n sumpah xnak pegi keje esok....sobss...sobss..)

Tapi takpe....eventho kulit ku sedikit gelap...tapi diriku masih tetap menawan....huahuahua~
(it's ok...mak mmg suka puji diri sendiri ye nyah....hee~)

My journey??

It was great..amazing...and sng ckp...no words can describe it okay.....^_^


Banyak nak citer actually...but if i nak citer skrg...I need to be 100% focus..hehe!!

LOts of stories..n sedikit iktibar for us as a muslim to share.....

Tapi terus terang saya cakap ye...di sana....semua ALLAH bayar cash....

Okay jum tido~

How to 'buang' perasaan sayang itu??

I need to buang perasaan itu!!!

Kenapa perlu??

Jawapannya adalah..."Nak wat cane...orang yg I dok syg sgt tuh...dok suka sgt tuh....actually tade feeling pun kt I..."

Puas hati???

Hati I mmg xpuas......Xpuas sebab tak dapat apa yg I nak....

Regrets??No...when it comes to heart..I have no regrets...none~

Cuma Saya kecewa.....kecewa sebab saya tidak dapat kasih sayang daripada org yg saya syg....

Cuma Saya sedih......sedih sebab saya terpaksa belajar 'melupakan'/'menghapuskan' perasaan syg ini...atau bahasa mudah nya...I need to reformat my brain...clean up both my hard disk C & D...dlm recycle bin pun kena buang jgk~

Cuma Saya rasa sakit......sakit sebab the thought of seeing him in FB/YM is hurting me.....


I have learn to be an ego woman..Saya berjaya!!tapi I am not happy....

How to be happy when deep down..I am suffering kan??


Urghhhh..the urge to be happy and not to think of him sgtlah menebal......

Serius..saya perlu buang perasaan sayang ini.......BAGAIMANA??

Because ALLAH love you

Another 3days to go sebelum saya berangkat.....


Perasaan??

Serius...saya sendiri keliru....

Tipu la if saya tidak happy....I am actually happy....finally...hatiku terpanggil untuk menjawab seruNya...

Tapi..deep down...sumpah...saya betul2 takut...takut if saya tidak melakukan yg terbaek.....takut if saya tersilap langkah.....

SAYA MEMANG SANGAT TAKUT!!!

Ya tuhan...kuatkan lah diri ini ya.......

Aminnn....

Tapi kan..saya betul2 grateful...mmg betul..ALLAH mmg sayang kan saya....

HE save me from melakukan perkara yg jahil.....Ternyata ALLAH itu maha Besar kan??

Itulah...bila dah pasang niat yg tidak baik....ingin melakukan perkara yg jahil.....ALLAH indeed have save me.....

Tapi sampai bila DIA nak selamatkan diriku yg jahat ni kan??

Kenapalah susah ssgt nak sedar??susah sgt nak insaf??susah sgt ke nak jadi baik??


Thank you ALLAH~

Dinner with Brunei's Royalty........

Last2 week...on Sunday...we had a marvelous dinner a.k.a unofficial Doa selamat with Brunei's royalty...

I know..it is unbelievable kan??well..believe it....I pun xcaya...tak pernah terfikir pun yg one day am going to have dinner with kerabat Brunei...huhu~

Nak jadi kn cerita...actually...my uncle were doing business with one of the royalties....
Kalau nak tahu...the brunei's royalty mmg salu turun KL ok...especially bila ada event yg best2...cam FI race ke...mmg confirm depa turun laaa...

Next week pun depa nk turun lagi..sebab apa??Sebab anak2 depa nak pi tengok concert Justin Bieber....tu laaa...bila da byk duet sgt kan....money indeed can buy everything...even a man dignity pun kan??betul x??(tiba2 terselit sindiran sket..heee~)

Okay...cerita psl Brunei's royalty ni...masa mula2 di introduce kan....dlm kepala bila ckp jer kerabat brunei..kite msti da ingt yg they are so mewah...super berlagak....n mmg tak pandang kot kite org Mesia ni kans....

But actually...it is indeed untrue hokay......sumpah...they are just like us...so simple...xsumbung langsung.....tapi mmg they wear branded item la...but still they look simple...(nampak la....handbag pun LV...Gucci kans...)

Suka sgt bergaul wif them...sgt supan...peramah...n tidak lokek...hik2~

Nak tahu tak...I use to terserempak wif them dkt Pavillion tau..lepas tuh siap offer nk byr my brg hokay....ikut kn hati..nk jer kasi..hehe!!silap xmsk Butik Gucci...if not...dpt la satu handbag kn...kerabat brunei belanja....huahuahua~

Owh..ya..nanti I nak gi tgk konsert Bieber with Brunei's Royalty.....jgn jealous.....heeeee~


- Me n baby



- nenek/acik/mama wif bunch of brunei's kerabat..(they look so normal kn??)



- Pengeran yg da lupa nama dia...tp baik...asek amik picture kiteorg...auwwww~



- siap jemput ustaz yg salu msk tv hokay....husband to Ustazah Norbaya...



Kesimpulannya...we had fun yoooo....^_^

2 weekend bercuti sampai lebammmmm

I had 2 good weekend!!


2 weeks ago..I went to visit my daddy in Ipoh....we all travel naik train yooo....
omaigod...am so excited ok naik train...huhu~
(ehem2..bukan jakun..dulu time kecik2 I use to take train from Ipon to KL ya..harap maklum...huu~)

Dalam train, sumpah gua tak leh tido bai....train asek benti...n being me....gua asek fenin...tapi best la...cuma gua ada masalah sket bila naik train or plane..kepala gua salu xbetul...menci mak!!!
Thanks to minyak CK (bukan Calvin Klein tp Cak Kapak) I am ok...through out the journey...and able to watch permandangan dr KL to Ipoh....tiba2 gua rasa proud to be a Malaysian..(tade kena mengena langsung..)

Sampai Ipoh....my dearest daddy dah tgu we ols.....from train station trus Baba bwk we ols pegi makan...mula2 cam tamau mkn....tp tiba2 nmpk ulam jantung pisang...trus nafsu mkn gua membuak2....

Satu ari smpi ipoh we ols pegi jln2 jer...omaigod...life is indeed a bless....best woooo jln2......kn bgs kalu gua xkerja....sobs..sobs.....~

In Ipoh...thanks to my parent...I keep on eating mcm org gila....gua mmg suda jatuh cinta pada foods...xtahu nape...sekarang perut ni asek nk mkn sajer.....pipi gua da mcm ikan buntal ok!!!

Berat badan gua??usah ditanya...mayb da cecah 45kg!!!!!!!

Okay..kt bwh gua nk share sket pengalaman nek tren....saksikan la video klip yg ntah hapa2 ni....cam poyo gila.....




Okay..last week punya cite laks......after balik keje....tiba2..mama ckp...tomoro we ols go to Kuantan n straight gi K. Terengganu....I was like..." What The...."

Actually..cam baru nk happy2...sbb mama n baba nk gi kuantan....dgn itu...bole la gua berjimba during weekend kn.....tapi tu la....sbb da psg niat yg tidak baik....tak psl2....kna folo mama....huahuahua~

But....it's ok....because...I had so much fun yooooo.....gila besh....last weekend...gua jd anak tunggal sementara since I am d only one yg folo baba n mama....happy gilaaaaa nyah.......

Cam bese....gua mkn dgt byk tak hengat dunia....u name it...dr nasi dagang...smpi ikan patin..sume gua balun.....sedapnyaaa.....

Yg paling best is....gua mkn durian dgn sgt byk....nasib baik tak demam....

Pas2 we ols bwk balik durian dgn byknya....smpi satu kereta bau durian..pening kepala mak....tp takpe...demi durian...gua sanggup!!!!

Btw...just nk gitau....semalam gua buat serawa durian...1st time...sedap hokay...anyone want 2 marry me??hik2~

Picture to share??ummm..tade picture....

Owhh...nak gitau jugak...sape2 nk pi K. Terengganu...sila la lalu kt area PAKA time mlm2....omaigod....sgt cantik..tiba2 rase mcm berada di negara yg sgt maju....huu~

Okay...sampai sini dulu...gua nk tuka topic len pulak......



p/s: maaf jika bahasa sy agak kasar....tiba2 rase cam nk jd gangster....hee~

INEEDADOCTOR

Just so you know....

I'm about to lose my mind
You've been gone for so long
I'm running out of time
I need a doctor
Call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
To bring me back to life


Anyone??be my doctor??

I know...no one.....................

I am Elton John's Fan~

I know..he is GAY...but he makes good music honey......Cane??

Actually, I was watching American Idol Cycle 11 the other night, and all the contestants have to sing Elton John's piece...and guess what...my Casey Abrams nails it with "Your Song"

Omangai!!!!!I am loving it....since I love Sir Elton John....mueheheheh~

Therefore, please do enjoy a few clips from Sir Elton John....^_^

P/s: He is amazingly talented..love the way he played his piano...nyesal dulu x belajar piano betul2!!!!









Okay..lg satu jer naa..please.....




Okay done~

Jom layan Elton John sampai muntah okies............

How to wear hijab with style~

I am so obsessed with the ways ppl wear their hijab...so cute...so beautiful...

Now..no one can say that u r not pretty while wearing hijab kan??

This are few hijab tutorial yg I did follow...

I loike~










Ada byk lagi...tp I post sket dulu naa....for any further info, pi la bukak youtube and tengok sendiri naaa.......

Sedang salin kulit mcm ular..............erkkk~

Currently sedang menghadapi masalah kulit yg tidak lah kronik...

no that serious pun...

Tapi kan..my kulit sedang actively menggelupas ok....

Semua org cakap sebab I am actively using chemical on my face...but the truth is...I AM NOT okay....

Everyday cuci muka macam biasa...wear my make up cam biasa....

Sedih tau..muka menggelupas....semua org keep asking..keep looking at me....

Tiba2 level of self confidence dah reduce...muahahah~


So untrue.....my level of confidence are still the same...chewahhh...I know..super berlagak kan???


Actually..I do kesah..but lama2 cam takde perasaan.....

Ya...my face look like ular yg sedang salin kulit..but who cares???as long as I came to work..do my job...that's all that matter right??

(Eventhough my boss kept asking me the same question everyday....Takpe...Saya Tak kesah bos...lg pun muka saya dah okay!!!)


Yerp..my face is okay...now I have this big smile on my face....

Okay Senyum..^_~


Sila lah tengok picture di bwh, di mana my face cam ular tengah salin kulit...mueheheheh~




Si ular Fatihah sedang salin kulit

Casey Abrams has put a spell on me.........

Am so sorry...

is currently obsessed with this dude....


I LOVE...I LOVE....I LOVE.....












Okay..enough for tonite....muah2 to CASEY ABRAMS~

Why I like older guys??

I am going to be 26 years old this year....

Wow.....I am getting older....3years ago I thought at this age I am happily married and is expecting my first child kot.....huahuahua~

Unfortunately....things are not always happened according to what we plan/want...kan..kan...???

3years ago...I don't like lelaki tua...by tua means someone 5 years n above older than me....

Yucks....geli hokay.....perlu ke in love with lelaki tua??Sangat lah tidak suka............

But when I'm start working...suddenly...I have a new perspectives when it comes to guys....

You know what....older guys are much more better than the young ones....oopppsie.....no offends lelaki-lelaki muda....LOL~

How come they are much more better??

Lelaki tua are so damn straightforward...

Lelaki tua are not pretentious or tend to make you feel good...

Lelaki tua are much more mature....

Lelaki tua know how to handle women....

Lelaki tua shows love by his actions not words....

I need lelaki tua I think....

What do you think???


Tapi kan..tapi kan...there are no lelaki tua yg single in Malaysia hokay......sangatlah menipu...
Lelaki tua yg single itu ramai kot..maybe mencecah ribuan??atau puluhan ribuan...

But I don't want lah..lelaki tua yg mcm atuk2 tuh....by tua means someone dalam range umur 30-40 an ke kan...I still can accept laaa....

Umm..do I sound a bit memilih??

Memilih itu adalah diharuskan...betul tak??(my left brain said "YES" but my right brain said "NO") Camne??


I use to ask my mum, "Mama...perlu ke kita accept sum1 yg syg kita eventho kita have zero feeling for him?"

And my mama said, " When it comes to hati, kita xbole force our self to like sum1, marriage is about spending your whole life with sum1...jadi choose sum1 yg kita betul2 yakin yg kita bole spend the whole life with...ramai cakap let a man love you more...it is true...but you must love him too..one sided love will never work in marriage.."

Umm...it means...if sum1 really2 love you...please make sure that at least on your part..you do love him too..eventho love itu sedikit...am I right?? (Owhhh....LOVE itu betul2 membuat kn daku semakin takut...)

By the way..thank you mama...I turn to you~ALWAYS......

Okay..berbalik kepada lelaki tua....

Maybe I should not put such a high hopes on being with an older guy.....huahuahua~

Benda yg kita selalu nak..itu lah yg kita tidak akan dapat..am I right??


We never know what future have for us right??

For now...I will wait and see....


- gadis kecil yg semakin tua -



Wisdom thoughts before I go to sleep: I should stop pitying on myself...there are lots of ppl whom are less fortunate than I am...please2...be a grateful person Fatihah....one step at a time...aminnn~

Hati tidak okay!!!

Deep down I am not okay…

Seperti ada sesuatu yang tersekat di dalam hati…

Susah hati…

Hati tidak tenang….

Deep down..I feel sad….

Kenapa??Sebab apa??

I can’t really figure it out…..

Tapi saya tahu saya sedih…..

ALWAYS SAYING THAT “I HAD ENOUGH!!”

But hanya tuhan yg tahu…hati ini tak pernah rasa puas…
Sentiasa mahu lebih dan lebih….

I need a rehab…not from drugs/alcohol/whatsoever

I need a rehab from manusia…from dunia….

Soon………….