Raya not so Awesome

Talking about raya, mine is not great due to the absence of my parent & baby sis so mine can consider okay but not great or awesome.


Looking at other people blog post, everyone seems to have a wonderful raya except me. A bit sad but considering other people, at least makan pakai sendiri pun semuanya cukup so why should I complaint about my raya right??Yes,sometimes as a normal human being I tend to forget that there are lots of people out there yg lebih suffer during raya. Manusia kan mudah lupa….

I thought I can actually feel raya celebration in Kampung but unlucky me, my dear father had some work to do oversea. Hurmmm….I miss the feeling of raya in kampung. Barulah rasa raya. Not that raya in KL is bored. I am loving it but when it comes to raya, it is significantly about spending time with family far away from city life. One thing awesome about raya in KL is that we got lots and lots of money. *hee* Yes, at my age, my uncles & aunties still be giving me duit raya. Cool kan??

I do have quite a few of raya photos to share but unfortunately I am too lazy to share it. Most of them are in my instagram. Yes, Instagram play quite a big role in my life nowadays apart from twitter. Can’t wait to get my hands on the new Iphone5.

I am literally lost of words now, nothing much to say except that I am going to enjoy myself this upcoming weekends. It is time to eat and eat and eat and eat until you can’t eat. *hehe*

Happy Holiday People!!

Selamat Hari Merdeka!!

Towards Raya & Salam Aidilfitri

So...it is  a couple days towards raya and am quite excited for raya to wear my new kurung but a part of me is still sad and I simply do not know on how to face takbir raya and pagi raya due to the absence of my parent and little sis.

Today kerja pun I am semi productive. I manage to get my work done but still sumpah rasa malas todayyyy...

Today also I manage to get my self a new lipstick and for the first time I manage to get a lip prime to have a moist lip (kononnya).

Currently, am at my uncle's house having a java chips frapuccino sambil blogging. Hurrmmm...Starbucks remind me of my baby girl...Rindunya baby...dah lama tak gaduh with baby. Tapi dah lama jugak tak kiss baby...

Serius, am so looking forward for raya ke-4.

May Allah bless them always di kota Madinah...Semoga semuanya berjalan lancar. I miss mama, baba & baby!!

Newayyy.....

Salam Aidilfitri to all Muslims, May we have a bless raya. Amin~

Iftaringssss

Alhamdulillah…towards the end of puasa. dapat juga I spent some quality time with my lovely ladies and yes plus Rico since he can’t left his wife alone with us. LOL~


Plan ni dah lama, but unfortunately only few of us sahaja yg can make it. It is okay because we surely are going to make time for each other right after raya. Life nowadays has been hectic for us. Like me for example, this past few weeks has been horrendous due to lots of new projects coming in plus my boss does keep me busy by handing out quite a number of new task to be done.

However, am so glad that towards raya ni…work loads are getting slower. Being me, rasa mala situ mula menguasai diri and how I wish I could fast forward time to raya ke-4 where both my parent and little sister shall be back from their umrah journey. Sungguh tidak sabar!!!

Owhh…not to forget, syukur sgt..tahun ini rezeki agak murah sebab I got quite a few invitation of majlis berbuka puasa. Hopefully, tahun hadapan rezeki akan lebih murah and hopefully rezeki jodoh itu lebih murah yer…hee~

These are few of the pictures of yesterday iftaring session with my PERMAS project team.

Tidak sabar untuk cuti, tidak sabar tunggu mama pulang, tidak sabar nak spend time with family...I miss my parent more every single day!!

*okay nanges*

Majlis Berbuka at Makan Kitchen

Makan free??Siapa tidak suka??

Eating is one of my favourite past time. Apart from shopping, surfing, instagramming, twittering and reading. *hee*

So, the other day on Thursday we got the opportunity to berbuka di Makan Kitchen. It was such a nice place. Sgt cozy and the choices of foods pun sgt variety. However, due to too ramai orang so we miss lots of foods. Especially dim sum. Sgt looking forward to eat dim sum tp puas hati coz I got to eat sushi!!

Rasa lebih puas hati compare to berbuka di Hotel Istana sebab foods here in Makan Kitchen mmg sedap compare to Hotel Istana. *oPPPSS*

Am probably going to ajak my family to eat here after raya. Lucky my family suka jalan2 cari makan. 

Some pictures to share,

me & bebeh

noodle soup!!

Hurrmmm...lately I don't really use camera...bukan xsuka but simply malas and lagipun nowadays phone pun dah ada camera so I am getting use of using my phone to snap pictures. Btw, am so looking forward to change my phone. *xlama lagi*

Anyway, emosi semakin stabil though am not really looking forward for raya. Kenapa??Because both my parent are not here. Lagu raya nowadays are simply makes me sad and depressed. Dengar lagu raya jer, air mata mula laju nak mengalir. Tengok iklan raya saja mula nak touching. And guess what, last night I was crying my heart out while watching iklan raya Bernas. Sumpah, I can't stop crying sampai my brother risau. LOL~

HUrmm....semua ini faktor usia and hormon. Obviously I am emotionally unstable.But, it is okay..alhamdulillah..I am not alone in this. I have my brothers to share my beban di hati. Am so glad that one of my brother willing to accompany me to jaga butik and went out shopping with me. Although I end up not to shop and he is the one yg end up to shop. I am surprised of myself acually, sebab macam tak percaya pulak yg I don't even shop. LOL~

Dear Hati, 

Please kuat, though I don't know how am I going to face pagi raya but I do hope that I won't cry macam orang gila. And please don't be too selfish and think of other people too. Try to be more responsible, considerate and independent.

p/s: bukan senang nak jadi baik.....

Random Boleh??

Suka is a feeling too but it is not as strong as love.


People can simply like but love will take us to a different level. In my opinion, like is merely an infatuation that you felt towards someone. Yes, like can lead into love if you act on that feeling.

Feeling?? Is something that you have no control. Just like love, it just happens. When you like someone, of course you must have a reason behind it. But when you love someone, you just have no reason to actually feeling love because love can’t be described. It is a feeling only the one in love would know. Frankly, I use to know what is love but currently am not in love.

The other day, a friend told me that she is afraid that she might like someone else husband. Hurmmm…to tell you the truth, I see no harm if she likes him. Why??Because no law on earth says that it is wrong to like someone’s husband but it is indeed wrong if you actually act on that feeling. For me, as long as you don’t act on it I see nothing wrong to simply like married men. Heart can’t be control but please do have some common sense.

Yes, love is blind but we are not blind. If you have the heart to hurt other people’s life, be prepare to be hurt in near future. Hidup ini umpama roda, sometimes kita di atas sometimes kita di bawah. Hari ini harai kita, esok lusa hanya tuhan yg tahu.

Currently am not so looking forward for Raya due to the absence of my parent and little sister who went for Umrah yesterday. Seriously, listening to raya song actually makes me sad. Every time I heard raya song, my eyes become watery. Haihsss…never in my life I thought of celebrating raya without my parent. Obviously, I can live without other people but not my parent. Right now, I can’t even imagine my raya morning without my parent. I do hope hati ini kuat and not to spill anymore tears. *doa byk2*

Lately, penyakit kecil hati semakin menjadi-jadi. I am so penat of feeling this way. I wish my heart is made of stone so I don’t have to feel anything except love..Boleh??

Life is seriously dull without both of you mama & baba.

I miss you both….

Okay...pictures the other day...

  brother & me

 baby & me

Recipe: Ayam Kicap Pedas

Memasak is not my forte but sometimes I do enjoy cooking especially during fasting month. *hehe*

If you ask me to cook those difficult dishes like gulai lemak, kari or asam pedas...serius I can't because I do not know how to cook them. I am only "terror" when it comes to sambal tumis. *hee*

Ayam Kicap Pedas is one of my favourite dishes to cook. It was pretty easy actually and does not involved so much ingredients nor method. I love simple dish so don't ask me to cook rendang because I do not know how but I will learn it before kahwin Insyaallah. (Tapi nak kahwin with whom??) *HAHA*

Ingredients:
Cili merah (cili hijau also acceptable)
cili padi
cili blend (cili kering blend)
kicap (manis or masin)
bawang besar
bawang putih
lada hitam
ayam (siap dipotong)
asam jawa
garam
gula

Method:

Serius, I do not know how to explain the method so if you are interested to cook it, kindly let me know accordingly then I ajar ya..Maaf!!

Yes, I use lots of chilies

is cooking

 Taraaaa...tp comot...

Majlis Berbuka MMC

So, finally I can blog despite my hectic schedule at work. Lately I can’t blog at home due to some problems with my internet connection. Wifi okay but land line is “kaput”. Since it is bulan puasa I do not want to stress myself with such matter but I guess sooner or later am going to be piss jugak..haihs~


Now, I am blogging at work and try to curi2 masa a bit though my workload is pretty much lately. I love being busy but sometimes my head won’t cooperate with me. Today I am not feeling well due to headache g tiba2 pounding. My sahor turn to be actifast instead of nasi. *sedih*

Okay, enough ramblings.

Last Friday, our mother company MMC BERHAD held a majlis berbuka puasa at Istana Hotel. Since it was free, of course lah yours sincerely pergi. *hee*

The foods itself is variety but sadly to say, it was not delicious as it look like. But luckily lauk pauk for nasi and rojak buah is marvelous.

I think the best part of the event is that all of us got the opportunity to mingle around with each other and we had a good night of laughing our ass off. Dari belum berbuka sampai lah berbuka, we can’t stop laughing. And my face literally aches due to too much of smiling and laughing. We had fun taking pictures with each other.

Cut the story short; I shall let all the pictures tell the stories.

 *bulat* pipi

 - Suzanna -

  Hanan & me

Bebeh & me (tembam)

  sheera & me

  Kak Sha & me

  me & Afif (spastik)

 PERMAS

Latest

First and foremost…


Selamat Berpuasa to all muslimin dan muslimat yg menyambut ramadhan. Semoga ramadhan kali ini akan penuh denagn barakah..Insyaallah~

Puasa so far is okay with me. Alhamdulillah…my blood level is stable. Sgt bersyukur sebab tekanan darah is normal since I always had this problem when it comes to my blood level during fasting month. Yes, I am so unhealthy…badan ini sgt lemah and can simply sakit.

Teringin sangat nak puasa penuh but knowing us women, it is imposible for me to puasa penuh unless if I am pregnant. LOL~ Insyaallah satu hari saya dapat menrasakan nikmat pregnant jika diizinkan NYA.

Life has been hectic for me especially these past few weeks. Semuanya kerana my current project yg sgt fast track. That is why I have been tweeting a lot saying that 8 hours of work is simply not enough due to my workload yg agak massive. But I love being busy because it makes me feel alive…LOL~

Owhh…yes, being me…most of the time when I’m blog, I tend to blog about someone. This time around I am going to blog about someone. Someone I just knew recently during our project team building. He is a client by the way.

During our project team building, as per what I remember, we don’t actually talk to each other. But apparently, when he stationed here in my company we got the opportunity to talk. Basically we talk about our work. Not even once we try to have any normal conversation about our personal life. But, he did ask for my number and deep down I know, basically he needs my number because of kerja since sometimes I am not at my work place. Never once he actually text me or call me to ask anything on personal matter. When we talk, we talk about work and work and work.

The thing is, he is that good looking guy. Serius tak tipu….And being me, I always said that I don’t like a good looking guy but apparently I do like good looking guy. LOL~ Even my senior engineers keep calling him “Leng Chai” or handsome boy in Chinese because he is handsome. He maybe not as gorgeous as Cristiano Ronaldo but he has a look to die for.

Frankly, I am having a crush on him. WHY??Because he is handsome ma…When I had a crush on someone, normally what I did was I like looking at that person. Just looking okay nothing more sebab it is merely a crush but I do admit that when he ask for my number, my heart was actually doing a backflip..LOL~ Eventhough I do know he needs my number sebab kerja not because he wants to socializing with me kan…but still, hati rasa gembira..*hee*

However, the only thing I hate when I’m having a crush at someone is when that person were actually being too nice to me like being overly sweet and treat me like he needs me. At first I thought it was only my imagination but days to days he tends to prolong our conversation though we have nothing else to discuss.

Just today, we were actually emailing something about work and on his last email I was just joking by saying that I will belanja him for berbuka puasa today. Alas, we end up emailing for fun tho it was just a short email. Hurrmmm…this is my biggest fear. Why??Because I am afraid I might falling for him for real. Macam mana??It is not that I am afraid to love but I am afraid to feel the pain again. Rasa sakit itu hanya tuhan saja yg tahu.

I try to keep myself distance but how am I suppose to do that??Currently we are working on this project together and I see him every single week. Yesterday pun I try my best not to look at him but of course my efforts dies in vain because I did look at him when my boss were talking to him. I try to keep it cool for now. I pray and hope that hati ini kuat untuk meniti hari2 yg seterusnya..*omg!! Ayat mmg tak boleh blah* But hey…it is true you know…my biggest failure is expectation. I tend to expect more when there is nothing to expect that is why I don’t like when a guy being too extra nice. You can be nice when you have to be nice but not always too nice. You faham??Takpe…yg penting saya faham.

Anyway, I got this buka puasa thing to deal with today. Hopefully semuanya berjalan dgn lancar and I hope hati ini tidak berdetak dgn lebih kencang. Amin~

ehem2..cantik kn kwn saya..hee~

Sa-Tur-Day

Finally..I can enjoy my weekend!!!

Nothing much on today except that I go where ever my mum goes.

Unfortunately, as usual..I manage to get myself a new spectacles frame which is quite awesome sebab design dia cool and plus I got it at cheaper price. Sometimes, I try not to shop but I always failed in vain because my weekend were usually spent in a shopping mall. Haruslah mak shopping kan nyah!!

Only today my day was a bit tainted by someone. How I wish I could reveal that particular someone. How I wish I could hurt him but luckily someone asked me not to dwell in my thoughts and my energy to someone yg not even worth it. So, I guess You are lucky indeed. Yelakan...ikut hati boleh mati.

But a word of wisdom to that particular someone. Kindly use your remarkable brain before you tweet. Words are sharper than a sword you know. Careful with words before things might get ugly.

Okay..as usual..pictures time only today pictures are not that many due to sakit hati kot..hee~

Ok bye..may we have a good sunday aheads!!

Tentang Cinta

I found few amazing quotes from "Ketika Cinta Bertasbih" movie.

Am not a fan of Indonesia Movie but this particular movie moves me...I cried my heart out while watching this movie. I guess this movie pretty much give such impact to me. Kenapa??Sebab this movie adalah tentang jodoh. Jodoh pertemuan, ajal dan maut emuanya di tangan tuhan. Kita hanya mampu merancang tapi yg tentukan adalah DIA.

Kindly enjoy this below quotes yg begitu menyentuh hati saya....

How I wish....

Kalipun cinta telah kuuraikan dan kujelaskan panjang lebar

namun jika cinta kudatangi
aku jadi malu pada keteranganku sendiri
Meskipun lidahku telah mampu menguraikan
namun tanpa lidah cinta ternyata lebih terang
sementara pena begitu tergesa-gesa menuliskannya
kata-kata pecah berkeping-keping begitu sampai kepada cinta
dalam menguraikan cinta akal terbaring tak berdaya
bagaikan keledai terbaring dalam lumpur
cinta sendirilah yang menerangkan cinta dan tercinta

- Habiburrahman El Shirazy- Ketika Cinta Bertasbih


“Menurutku,


cinta adalah kekuatan
yang mampu
mengubah duri jadi mawar,
mengubah cuka jadi anggur,
mengubah malang jadi untung,
mengubah sedih jadi riang,
mengubah setan jadi nabi,
mengubah iblis jadi malaikat,
mengubah sakit jadi sehat,
mengubah kikir jadi dermawan,
mengubah kandang jadi taman,
mengubah penjara jadi istana,
mengubah amarah jadi ramah,
mengubah musibah jadi muhibah,
itulah cinta !”

Ayatul Husna,

Relieved

Finally, I can breathe a bit…It has been a whirlwind life for me for these past few weeks. Semuanya kerana ANGSI CEOR. I feel a bit relaxed now at least for another few days before client come back with comments then I will be busy again.


July definitely a busy busy busy month for me. I do have another 2 audits to attend. Stress??So far I feel blessed, everything pun seems to run smoothly despite my health condition yg agak kurang elok. Ya, I am suffering cold and nonstop coughing. It is sangat annoying but I manage to live with it semuanya kerana ANGSI CEOR!! Ya, I have too!!

Today work happens to be at my own pace sebab itulah I can simply blog.

Personal life??

HUrmm…obviously, nothing is new about my life except that I am enjoying life as it is. I tend to not to think too much lately sebab by thinking too much I tend to hurt myself. Yes, no one can actually hurt me except me. *hehe*

Lately I am learning to be content with life. I am a type of person who always wants more in life. Ya, kadangkala as a human kita selalu lupa nak bersyukur with what we have and rather craving on what we don’t have. Betul tak?? Ya, I am so like that…I always find myself not to be content with what life give me. Sometimes life does test my patience by sending all the wrong person/things in my life. I always question myself, am I actually only worth with that kind a person/things??I asked my mum once, and she said…what ever life gives you..itu semua adalah ujian tuhan. Untuk dapat yg terbaik memang susah. Perhaps tuhan makes it harder untuk berikan yg terbaik Insyaallah. Okay sedih…

Lately bila mengenangkan nasib diri, I tend to be sad. I always question life..tapi itulah…typical manusia, when life treats you good, you won’t question it but when life turn out to be bad there you go…we asked life why are we deserving such fate??Bukan senang nak jadi manusia yg content dan bersyukur. Kenapa??Because life do provide lots of diversion untuk always melalaikan kita semua.

But its okay, it is never too late to start a life kan?? Am not saying that I am starting over but I am merely picking out those little pieces to make a puzzle of my life. Life is a puzzle; every single day we are putting a piece by piece to complete our life.

Hope life treats me good and hopefully saya dapat menjadi lebih grateful and content.

Bukan senang nak jadi baik….

p/s: saya gila The Poplook

Angsi CEOR Team Building

So here is my weekend...which is this weekend. For the first time in my life, I can't actually enjoy my weekend because I have to work. Well, by having this team building I was suppose to enjoy myself but eventually I am not because me and few of my girls are the one who have to organize things.

I am a bit nervous actually because this is my very first team building with my current company. Furthermore, I don't really know them that well. From what I heard, most of the Leadds are senior engineers and they were quite garang. Being me, I am quite afraid but alhmadulillah, they were sgt okay and I can get along very well with them. Eventhough it is such a tiresome weekend and I eventually lost my voice, at least I am happy to be able to carry out such event. The best part is, to be able to get to know other new people in MMC and our client (PCSB).

Our schedule for this past 3days were quite packed. We have several outdoor activities which is good since I don't really do any exercise for these past few years kot. Even if I went for a jog with my dad pun, I would rather walking than jogging..LOL~

Owhh..one of the most anticipating event I guess is the durian fest which is actually were being sponsored by our third party, Water Standard. But most of us were quite unsatisfied due to durian quality is not that good. I only had 2 ulas of durian that night since I can't simply eat much due to my health condition. Yes, I am currently suffered a flu attack along with non stop coughing which is sgt irritating. And I am yet to have my voice back. Therefore, you guys yg have to deal with me esok need to bear with my sexy seraksss voice. *sedih*

Okay now is pictures time....

Thistle Hotel & Resort

The Organizer

Ice Breaking Session

Durian Hunting!!

Balcony View

Schedule Planning

Dinner

With Nadia

With *Preggy* Kak Y

Durian Fest

Ready to be home!!

Errr..eventually got a pair of a new heels

There goes my interactive weekend. I had fun despite my whole body is aching and seriously I need holidayssssss

Ok Bye!!