Perasaan

Actually, I have promise myself not to blog anything in regards of my feeling and stop pitying myself. But eventually, I can’t….I do have another private blog to share my deepest thoughts but lately I tend to share more here instead of make it private. Maybe sebab sudah penat menahan rahsia hati and nak tak nak, I just want to let the world know about my feeling. Ya, obviously am not a private person. Dari dulu sampai sekarang saya memang kurang ada rahsia hati sbb saya suka share especially with my dearest mummy.


Bila fikir balik….most of the secrets yg I kept close to my heart is not my rahsia but other people’s rahsia. Ya, Nampak sangat semua rahsia hati saya dah beritahu mama. *hurrrmmm* Well, rahsia org biarlah ia menjadi rahsia…orang cerita, kita dengar dan simpan. My mum always said, whatever ppl told you..just keep it to yourself..biarlah orang nak jaja cerita buruk tentang orang lain pun yg penting sendiri sila jaga kain sendiri and tidak perlu la menjadi *nasi tambah*. OKAY?? Bagus sebenarnya jadi busy body ni, bukan apa…Nampak sangat he/she is caring actually tapi jgnlah sampai ter over caring, kelak nanti ada yang xpasal2 makan penampar instead of nasi. Itu adalah tidak cool okay.

Tips untuk semua dan diri saya sendiri, if ada orang menjaja cerita yg krg enak tentang orang lain, senang jer…sila dengar tapi jgn cepat membuat conclusion…benda yg kita tak tahu or tak nampak ni belum tentu benar…so biarlah apa org lain mengata, yg penting kita jgn cepat pandang serong dekat org itu. Come on laa…you don’t even have a clue how he/she lives their life, so don’t simply judge unless you know the truth. Mudah kan??

Okay…apa saya blog ini sudah agak keluar tajuk…hehe..I was suppose to blog about my feeling. *hehe*

Apa yg saya rasa??Entah laaa…tapi kan lately saya mudah sangat sentaps. I blame it on my age. I think age make someone’s heart a bit tender. Or maybe sebab saya sudah kurang berkawan with kaum lelaki kot?? *hurrrmmm*

I still remember those days…saya bukan jenis yg cepat terasa. Knowing mulut manusia yg bernama lelaki, most of them mempunyai mulut yg tidak ada insurans. They prefer to cakap lepas and they don’t bother to jaga hati you. Masa saya mula2 close with them, I don’t think I can manage to be their friends pun and I still remember they did make me cried in front of them once upon a time ago semuanya thanks to their mulut yg begitu lancang dan kepoh. Bila ingat balik, I can’t believe I am actually crying in front of a group of guys at mamak. *Malunyaaa*

Tapi, thanks to them actually..They make me stronger days by days. I end up jadi a lot tougher than before and I can simply take any sarcasm and kutukan. Tapi malangnyaaa….nowadays, I am not that tough. Life taught me to be manusia yg fragile semula. But I am glad, I am able to smile and laugh mcm biasa cuma I need to get my self yg dulu yg mampu menangani sebarang sarcasm tanpa perlu rasa sentap. I hate this sentap feeling whereby rasa macam diri ini loser. *hehe*

But,I know one day I am going to be away from them…Hey..life goes on and masing2 pun have their own life. Since I move in back with my parent memang I am officially distance myself from them. Bukannya tak sudi but you know la..my parent, I can’t simply go out with them macam dulu. The only time I can actually spent time with them is when they came to my house during raya. Itu pun xboleh lama2 and since most of them are married now, memang langsung lah saya tak hang out with them..hee~ Wahh..how I miss you guys, how I miss “girl talk” with korang, how I miss masak maggi untuk korang, how I miss jadi adik korang, how I miss tgk bola with korang, how I miss tgk korang practice band and most of all how I miss being those carefree person that I used to be when I’m with you guys…Sumpah rindu…

Sangatlah looking forward to see you guys tonight but unfortunately I can’t….so I will be seeing you guys esok….

Ya, perasaan ku kini is rindu serindunya dekat korang….

;(

 my two best "abang"

I see korang semua esok..