Rezeki

Lunch hour post again!!


Today I had seaweed for lunch since I had quite a heavy breakfast. Takpe2…save perut for early dinner later. I am back again to work!! 4days cuti is definitely not enough. Senang cakap, mana ada cuti yg enough right??We always want and need more holidays. I will be rambling about holidays much later!!

Rasa mahu berbicara tentang rezeki. Alhamdulillah, near 27 years of my life, rezeki itu tidak pernah putus. Never in my life have I actually encounter such hard time when it comes to money. Ya, syukur sgt..we never face such difficulties when it comes to financial. Rezeki kerja??pun saya sgt2 bersyukur and happy…sebab bila cakap soal kerja…rezeki itu sentiasa ada. Itulah kehendak tuhan kan..HE gives me more when it comes to financially but bila soal rezeki jodoh, unlucky me..jodoh itu belum sampai.

I have always told my mum, in life I have no regrets and I feel blessed indeed knowing that I can well support myself with my own career but bila bercakap soal jodoh, I always told her..maybe saya tidak ada rezeki jodoh. Ya, you gain some and you lose some..that is the fact of life. You can never have it all..right?? And being a mum, of course lah…she doesn’t want to upset me and she always told me, bukan rezeki jodoh itu tidak ada but mungkin jodoh itu lambat. *hurrrrmmmm* maybeeee

But bila fikir balik, yaaa…tuhan itu maha adil, DIA beri lebih on financially tapi HE ask me to wait n work for it when it comes to jodoh. One can never be too tamak right?? You want a jodoh, then you have to work for it. But the problem is, how am I supposed to work for it??What I do now is simply doa and doa and doa..bukan tidak mahu berusaha tapi hati saya sudah penat melayan kerenah manusia kerana cinta. Woww…I never thought I could actually wrote such sentence..but yes, I am tired of using my heart to love other human being especially man. *hehe*

The other day, me and my mum talked about a girl that I used to know back when I was studying in Perlis. She was a really bright person and she manages to get herself into MRSM back those days after PMR. Compare to her, I am not as clever as her..seriously..She is way better than me. So, nak jadi kan cerita…the other day we went to visit her mother yg so happen is one of my mum’s close friends. Borak punya borak, aunty tu pun cerita about her daughter (my friend)..It was quite a shocked actually…I never thought a bright girl like her could actually end up being a clerk. According to her mum, she drop out from her Uni and decided to further studies in UITM but eventually she drop put again and got married with 2 kids now. I was like sgt terkejut and I can’t quite believe it sbb knowing her, I know she could probably be an engineer by now. Tapi itulah yg dinamakan rezeki dia..ya, she may not be as successful as she thought she might be but rezeki jodoh dia cepat. Her mum told me that she got married at the age of 20years old. Ya, rezeki dia kan..jodoh itu cepat..and perlu ingat, kehadiran anak2 dia is rezeki to her. Anak itu kan pembawa rezeki. No matter how hard life is, tuhan tak kan simply make your life miserable, all you have to do is have faith in HIM.

Kadang2 kita tgk ada orang can simply get what they want but we never know how it felt to be them right??No one can actually be content with whatever we had. We are merely human who always asking for more and craving for more.

People might see me as a happy go lucky person. Ya, I am happy being me but sometimes when the loneliness got into me, I am again this broken inside person. It is sad being me sometimes but hey…why should I complaint when there are millions people out there whom actually facing much2 worse situation than me right?? So, get a grip of yourself, tuhan itu maha adil….rezeki itu ada, perhaps diri ini masih perlu diperbaiki lagi.

Have faith and kena kuat!!