Am I a workaholic???

The answer would be...'I think not'....workaholic mmg takde dlm kamus kehidupan ku...but yes..lately mmg saya busy...busy bee tahap gila babi!!


When I look back...mmg tak sangka I really went to work on public holiday...weee~tiba2 rasa bangga dgn diri sendiri....but million thanks to 'yoda' yg sggp dtg office utk bekerja jgk..hehe!!


Kenapa saya bekerja in public holiday??sebab nak siap kan safety passport application utk all marine crew!!!Kerana kamu semua...daku terpaksa bekerja okay..tapi takpe la..mengenangkan daku boleh claim..so..I suppose it is okay to work on public holiday...





By the way...in near future...sumpah mmg tak nak dtg office if sorg2...call me penakut...and yes..I am penakut sebab after 'Yoda' pulang mmg tiba2 rasa semacam jer...mayb takde apa2..but still when you are all alone..things does happen kan??takut wehh....kelam kabut gila time nak alek..dah la sorg2...rasa2 nya..saya terlupa nak tutup air cond kot...mati kena marah dgn HR esok...sorry yer Kak S...tak sengaja...bila dah takut...semua redah jer....





My pretty girls semua dah bising...semua thought currently I run for the president seat..yela kan...busy jer asek...kalah Najib...sorry syg2 ku...this week and next week...I am all yours..unless..if tiba2 ada date wif jejaka PCSB..so sorry la yer...hik2....~


Ooo...back to jejaka PCSB....thanks to kwn2 ku...ada yg offer me his phone number..thanks but no thanks...I would really love things happen naturally..if he wants my number...please come and get it from me..and if korang nak ask him to add me in FB pun...sila lah..saya alu2 kan...hehe!!(gatal no anak dara nih..ish2...)





p/s: No matter how busy I am, but still his image are still on my mind...I tak faham...how could someone actually forget his/her 1st love...arghhh...I need to forget....T_T

Try to sleep with a broken Heart..........

Orang ingat I broke my heart...no worries...my heart still merah berkilat..or maybe a bit pinkinsh since tadi I met jejaka PCSB yg berambut Fabregas..Auwwww....!!~

Actually, I love this song...sbb it remind me of sum1...yes..that particular sum1..mula2 I thought he broke my heart..but when I think back..nothing is broken..as I thought maybe we are not meant for each other but regardless of what happen between us I do owe him!!
Thank you awak!!you make me learn a lot about LOVE & LIFE...for that I am thankful to you...peace~

Sekarang saya nk story pasal jejaka PCSB...I do think he didn't really notice me kot sbb ramai lagi aweks cun kt OFFSHORE kan....and sad to say..I am not one of them..huhu!!~
But...his friend did notice me..sbb tadi his friend siap tegur I lagi...wee~(dlm hati gila meroyan happy since kwn dia notice gak daku yg comot nih..)
Saya suka la tgk jejaka PCSB nih..actually tade lah gorgeous mcm abg Cristiano Ronaldo ku..but he look sweet and plus..I love his hair...and I love to see him in office attire...cair wehhh....@_@

Tapi tadi saya nampak he was talking with few of our field staff...I'll bet he must be mamat Operation....tapi saya tak tahu nama dia laaa...camne ni???But ada org offer nak kasi his phone number...hik2...kasi laa..but trust me..I am not goin to call him..haha!!perhaps maybe one day we've met again in other occassion or terserempak kt KLCC ke kan...office kami lintas jln jer..sng...hee~

Alamakkk....lately cam byk choices la pulaks.....betul ke I am totally over my previous love?? Rasa cam dah over it but I am still afraid..takut tersalah langkah....Ooo...dear God...please do guide me....

Ooo..enjoy lagu ini okay....lirik dia touching...for me la I guess...;))

2days of crying..............

On saturday.......

OKay..tgk title....I'll bet mesti org ingat saya sedih......betul2..memang sedih....sebab it happen that on friday, one of my mum good friend lost her husband in accident...
On Saturday, kiteorang pun semua rush to Seremban sebab nk tgk aunty Nor....poor her..She is so sad and I don't think she ever imagine her life without her husband..sapa boleh kan??yela...sekejap you were on the phone with your hubby and the next thing sum1 call you to informed that your hubby is gone....boleh ke terima??

Bila saya fikir,If I were her......

My heart will definitely stop beating.....

where will I find such strengh to cope with all matters??

which way should I go??

To whom I could speak of my sorrow??

Thousands things were linger on my mind the day uncle Hazam died....sebab saya boleh bayang kan,if such things happen to my mum...I don't think I have the strengh to make her feel better...coz I don't know how to feel better without baba...yes..I'm crying now....crying sebab saya tahu...saya memang tak mampu dan tak boleh nk berfikir if things like this happen to us...but to be realistic...nothing is certain in this world....a minute you are well..but the next minute sape yg tahu.........


On Sunday...

Selepas peristiwa malam itu.....untuk menghilangkan rasa malu yg menebal...maka adik2 ku yg tercinta ajak tgk dvd..so all of us pun duduk bergelimpangan ngadap telivision buruk nih....konon2 plan nk lyn 'Donny Brasco' but after voting process, finally citer 'Bodyguard & Assassins' gak yg menang.....Mula2..mmg tade perasaan tgk...sebab was hoping to watch Johnny depp kan...sekali kena ngadap sekor2 apek yg tak hensem..at least if ada andy lau ke..layan r gak...ni ntah sape ntah berlakon....

Sekali tgk.....perghh..mengalir air mata buat dua hari berturut2....sumpah tak tipu...kepada manusia di luar sana sila menonton filem ini....tragis wehhh....saya tak mau citer byk kt sini..hangpa tgk la klip kt bwh ni naaa..... tak pun nanti pi download okay....

Semalam...

Semalam kan...saya memasak....

Kenapa saya masak??SEbab saya dah ready nk jadi seorang isteri kot.....(Geli tokak den...~)

Semalam saya masak 'ayam kicap pedas' my own speciality la katakan...sebab mama cakap...sape makan ayam kicap saya...confirm dia amik saya jadi menantu....(gila kembang hidung mama puji...phewittt~)

Semalam saya masak...bukan untuk saya...tapi nk dijamukan pada orang....

Mama cakap ada org berkenan...(saya dah tersipu2 malu....)

Semalam puas saya msk..akhirnya..reti jugak potong ayam....(time kaseh nenekku..jasamu akan ku kenang sehingga ke akhir hayatku...)

SEmalam...family Dia datang...1st time saya jumpa dia.....orangnya...takdelah gorgeous mcm 'cristiano Ronaldo' ku...tapi Dia agak sweet...Orangnya tinggi...segak sekali penampilannya... Memang mama dah berkenan sgt...sebab Dia baik org nya...(itu mama yg ckp...)

Semalam...saya rasa saya sgt selekeh..yela...lepas masak..kelam kabut siap2 sebab family Dia dtg....Family Dia cool....siap puji masakan saya..(I lap u aunty....mmg tu je lah yg saya masak nanti tiap2 ari utk anak aunty if jadi lah yer..)

Tapi semalam...sepatah haram pun saya tak cakap dengan Dia..bukan masalah pemalu...tapi ini kali pertama kami berjumpa...mama suruh borak2...nak borak apa kan...1st time jumpa wehhh...menggigil bulu mata ku....

Semalam Dia hanya usha jauh jer...mesti Dia ingat saya ni seorang yg pemalu, lemah lembut, pandai masak...Kasihan Dia....alangkah malunya..kalau Dia tahu..saya ni memang kurang pemalu org nya...lemah lembut tang suara jer bang...kelakuannya...adalah..30% jer sopan....Pandai masak??20% jer.....Harap2 Dia tidak menyimpan harapan yg besar.....

Masih banyak yg kurang dalam diri saya...

Last sekali before Dia balik, Dia cakap...'Saya rasa maybe kita patut keluar berdua...'okay....saya dgn cuak dan blurrnya menjawab, 'Tanya lah mama saya...'Confirm la boleh kan...One thing about mama senang jer..sekali dia dah berkenan...bawak lah anak dara dia keluar lama2 pun dia xkesah..cam Fahim dulu..sanggup tuh suruh anak dara dia pi belajar malam2 ngan Fahim...tapi nasiblah si Fahim ni mmg lurus orang nya..so takdelah dia ambil kesempatan..kalau lelaki laen...abes Fatihah...huu~

Saya masih tak percaya tentang semalam....Rasa macam mimpi...saya dah ready ke??I have no answer....saya masih blurr.....

Saya suka lelaki ini

Kenapa saya suka??

sebab He is so cute..He looks genius...and when he start to talk....my heart stop beating...weee~

Nama dia Dr Spencer Reid (bukan nama sebenar), one of the co-star in 'Criminal Minds'....to those yg mmg follow criminal minds, I'll bet korang notice him already kan??

In my opinion, what's make men so special is all about their brain..hahaha!!Yaa...I know..my taste mmg pelik..saya suka lelaki yg out of my league in term of brain..huu~

Memang susah nk communicate with this type of guy but believe me..they are 110% an interesting men..hee~

What make them special??what make them different?1st....their brain always on the move...they don't hesitate..they have confident...they just keep me hypnotize...

What make them not a good choice for a woman.....

They are sgt EGO...

They don't take people's opinions easily

They are not romantic thinking but more to logically thinking

Don't expect them to be a lovey dovey bf

They spend their time focusing on other things instead of their women....

They expect women to be understanding

There are no rules being with them, you just have to go with the flow...

See...there are lots n lots of keburukan if we are dating one of them..tapi serius...saya sgt suka lelaki genius!!They just keep me mesmerizing with their thoughts & knowledge...auuwww~

Yang disukai...........

Currently obsess with hair band!!~

I use to wear hair band before but not as crazy as now...What is so special about hair band??

I guess it will actually make our hair look more beautiful as well as the use of other accesorries kot!!

But the thing is...my hair is quite messy now since I don't really take a good care of my hair....;(

I went to saloon after work today and that 'amoi' said, "ur hair manyak kering laaa"

Sigh~I've already know about that okay....so I did get my hair treatment today and as a result, yes...my hair is soft and silky now..phewittt....~I guess esok if jalan2...then my hair will look more beautiful kot...hehe!!(perasan mode...)

My obsession.....

Sila abaikan keserabaian rambut ku...but seriously today it looks better..baru wat hair treatment ok..hehe!!

Saya suka hairband..so if saya keluar jalan2 esok saya akan cari hairband lagi....wink**

The pieces don't fit anymore..........

I can't explain..what is not enough since I give it all to you......

It's time to surrender....Too long pretending.......There's no use in trying

don't miss understand of how I feel......

The pieces don't fit anymore.....


Oooppps..just so you know..this is not an emo entry...but few sentences of this song is definitely make me think...Betul...saya agree..saya mmg suka thinking too much!!

Ehh..correction..bukan saya seorang..but most women kot...but I do think Jiha mmg less think laa..mmg salu cam less expression kot..sebab dia mmg suka ketawa & sometimes I do think bila nk tgk pompuan ni marah eh??hehe!!But 2 years being her Roomate, I do think I know her when she is angry or when she is happy senang citer...being her friends make me laugh out loud!!

In term of thinking too much wud be me, Hana banana & eika.......Yes..our thoughts sometime mengjangkau Lautan Pacific kot....always think of the worst dulu..sebab tuh sometimes suka msk status or entry yg emo2 sket..hehe!!No offences..kami xkacau org it is just that we love to express our feeling & thoughts thru the web..huu~

But that is the old me..coz now...I do express myself in term of songs...and I do express it thru writings.....Bukan takmo citer kt close frens..but currently I love to keep all my thoughts to myself and only me know..what's actually been messing my mind...perhaps I'm going to talk/write in riddles lately..hahaha!!

Okay enough for tonite...actually sdg rasa a bit happy laa...hehe!!I know you know why...
Thank you2....wink**

I've been Tagged~

Tagged by Izzaty dearie........

1) Adakah anda rasa anda HOT??
Tentu lah tidak sekali..


2) Upload gambar kegemaran anda
latest favourites~


3) Cerita pasal gambar...
Us having our two days meeting @ JW Marriot..nice place..;)



4) Bila terakhir kali makan pizza?
During kak Farah's solemnization with En Bobby & his girlfriend.

5) Lagu terakhir anda dengar
Dance with my father by Luther vandross..gila best!!


6)Apa yang anda buat selain menyelesaikan tag ini?
Berfacebooking & blogging ~


7) Selain nama sendiri anda dipanggil nama apa?
Lots of peeps call me tihah, but my gay bitches call me budak kecik, others call me fat/tey/teh o ais pun ada...;p


Tag lagi 8 orang.

1. Eika babe


2. Miss Marshmallow


3. Hana banana~


4. jiha bebeh


5. Doink


6. Yana


7. Dart


8. yus Bristol


9) Siapakah orang No.1 kepada anda?
My darling girl Eika...

10) Kata sesuatu mengenai orang No.5?
He is cool!!~

11) No.3 ada hubungan dengan siapa?
with Syib la kans...

12) Bagaimana pula dengan orang No.4?
She's taken by Encik Hitam


13) Pesanan kepada orang No.6
Good luck in ur internship in Japan dear!!~


14) Kata-kata cinta untuk No.2
Ooo..love ur writings~


15) Adakah No.7 dan No.8 mempunyai persamaan?
Yupsie..they both are not in Malaysia

16) Berikan 5 perkara yang anda tahu tentang orang yang men'tag' anda.
Her name is Izzaty
Her bf is En Izzat
She's been studying Med in Bandung
She loves her bf sgt2!!
She loves to shop like me I guess??

17) Persamaan kambing dengan lembu.
both are animal...


18) Perasaan buat tag ni.
Jiwa kosong....


19) Adakah anda tahu si razman tu sengal?
I don't know any razman..


20) Gay or Les?
I'm straight baby!!but I tend to be gay with my gay bitches...LOL~

I Heart The Curve!!!~

Saya suka THE CURVE!!!~Sebab kat situ sgt lah byk choices of Restaurants...serius okay!!Most of the restaurants sgt lah cantik....but still, you have to had money to go jln2 cari makan @ The Curve okay..sebab Restaurant kat situ are quite expensive and we have to pay for their service & gov tax...as usual lahh....Restaurant dah cantiks..of coz lah price pun expensive kan..but I guess it is worth it since the foods is quite nice and environment sgt lah cool!!

So..on Saturday I did went lepak2..jalan2..and makan2 with my office colleagues. We did had our dinner at 'The Garden'...Ooo..I'm loving it...tempat dia sgt lah cozy and very calm..sgt lah korea!!~Hahaha..!!~Ooo..and yes..we did encounter a guy who look like a korean actor!!Rambut dia very korean styles..siap mcm pelakon citer 'Boys over Flowers' okay..and he played the piano...sumpah mcm kembar!!!

But I don't really ate much yesterday..mcm menyesal la pulaks...since before I went out I was actually already ate nasi at home!!nyesal wehhh!!~We actually don't really do anything since plan nak tgk movie,but sume citer pun xbest!!!nyampah!!So we end up jalan2...and yes I did bought a new handbag...yes..I love bags!!my obsession!!Can't get enough of them..maybe next month beli lagi kot...ish2...apa nak jadi with Fatihah kan??hehe!!~

I guess everyone had a bless weekend right??Tapi jangan jealous coz we all in KL are goin to cuti on Monday!!~

Selamat bercuti to those who work in KL!!!~

Love recipe!!~

If only LOVE can be bake.....


Ingredients
2 Hearts Full of Love
2 Heaping Cups of Kindness
2 Armfuls of Gentleness
2 Cups of Friendship
2 Cups of Joy
2 Big Hearts Full of Forgiveness
1 Lifetime of Togetherness
2 Minds Full of Tenderness

Method
Stir daily with Happiness,
Humor and Patience.
Serve with Warmth and Compassion,
Respect and Loyalty.

(Serve it best with strawberry & Chocolate...wink**)

Ooo...ada one more Recipe!!

Ingredients
1/2 a cup of Affection
A pinch of cuddles
3 tablespoons of pure sweetness
A great big kiss

Method
Dim the lights then mix them very slowly together



Enjoy!!Selamat Mencuba!!!It work I guess......;))

Kebusy 'an' + ramblings...

Dear Gadis kecil,



I know I've been abandon you quite some times now..bukan niat ku...tetapi oleh kerana daku terlalu busy lately..don't really have time to pacifier you..I've been missing you sgt2!!



Too many things too update actually..about my so called boring life...my fabulous job..my freaking shopaholic behaviour...wehh..makin teruk wehh....but when I look back...or think back..I think, I deserve it!!Sebab apa...sebab..it is one way to make me happy!!Hahahaha!!Okay..bukan saya tak happy..but sometimes...when I think of....tutt...n tuttt....it actually make me unhappy...so one way to be happy is spending bebeh!!!~Oooo..apart from shopping...I do need my my parent and my lovely girls to make me happy!!Serius...korang are the chocolates of my existance okay....I heart you guys sampai mati..........................



Argghh..tiba2 rasa nk ramblings sampai lebam..pernah tak you guys felt that there are something yg you guys nak express kan..but it is hard to spill out from your mouth???I'll bet most of you guys out there have encounter this kind of feeling...sigh~

Maybe I should just let it out kan..sebab..lama2...jadi beku tak elok..nti sakit hati...bahaya wooo....Currently listening to Beyonce's song 'Broken Hearted Girl'...perghh....lyrics dia..confirm menyentuh perasaan okay...sgt sentaps...huhu!!



Part of the lyrics though....To you laa...To whom lagi....



Something that I feel I need to say

But up to now I’ve always been afraid

That you would never come around

And still I want to put this out

You say you’ve got the most respect for me

But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me

And still you’re in my heart

But you’re the only one and yes

There are times when I hate you

But I don’t complain

Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away

Oh but now I don’t hate youI’m happy to say

That I will be there at the end of the day.............



I don't want to play the Broken Hearted Girl....................

Better~

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm going 2 be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't want 2 laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again A
ll I know is I'm going 2 be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's going 2 hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm going 2 smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time.........

February Issue!!~

To all CLEO's big fan...you should go and grab the latest issues.....ada pictures of Rob Pattinson in it!!!Waahh..gila gorgeous okay....Seriously...I haven't even look at the content..but once I saw his face with kristen...I just grab it and pay kat mamak tuh..siap blurr lagi muka En mamak..Maaf lah....gua mmg obsessed with Rob Pattinson @ Edward Cullen....hehe!!

Tapi mmg worth it laa..to those couple out there...byk love tips..since February is the month of 'LOVE'...hee~

And oohh...CLEO cakap I should be looking for Mr Aqua....where to find one??anyone??LOL~

Me & my Stomach....

Me & my stomach, we've got issues (nyanyi sket dlm version The saturdays okay...)serious issues!!

The issues would be.....

• En perut can't stop rumbling....keje bunyi je asek...


• En perut are too sensitive when it comes to foods..always hungry....


• En perut can't stand of the sight of foods....mouth watering gilaaaa.....air liur drooling wehh...~


• En perut always mahu diisi jer....mcm xpernah ada perasaan kenyang....bila fikir2..cam org pregnant jer...tapi mmg mustahil la kan...sape la pulak en ayah nya kan??hehehe!!merepeks sungguh Fatihah...~
  

Actually when it comes to foods...I have no regrets...but lately my face looks like a bloated fish wehh....gila benci!!!~

Lucky me...byk mkn pun...my body will always stay the same..maybe sebab blum ada anak kot..I do thinks once I'm having kids...my body shud be like watermelon..(cuakss okay!!) But still...for now..I am thankful that my body are still the same..even my stomach stay kempis..I like!!!Ooo...let me share petua perut kempis....it is actually hasil drpd 'sit up' exercise yg daku amalkan...and yes...satu lagi..please do practice don't drink while you are having your meals...sumpah berkesan okay!!

Macam mana ni wehh...Is there any petua supaya I eat less??Bayangkan lah...this morning..I did ate nasi lemak...and tonite...I did bantai nasi...siap bertambah lagi....wahh..semakin bloated nya ku rasa!!!Lately craving for chocolates...and in office mulut nih tak pernah berhenti mengunyah...sigh~

Life is all about eating or we eat for life???Urgghhh......Saya mahu pipi yg kurus!!!~

- Before..biskut almost empty...sigh~

- After..yeay...sudah refill...I'm loving it!!~

Serius...I xfhm........

Umm...tgk title..I'll bet people will start wondering...apa yg I tak faham kan??Banyak actually...but if I want to write it down..perhaps..a week pun still not enough okay...hee~ (maaf lah...gua lumpi okay...mmg bab2 understanding ni gua lemah...)

Nak jadi kan cerita...as usual lah..on saturday night..what else to do...mama & seangkatannya mcm biasalah....cerekarama kt TV3 tu mmg confirm wajib tgk laa.....The title for today's drama would be 'Nur di jiwa Harina'. Okay..I admit..title mmg gempak...memang menusuk kalbu abis laaa....

Tetapi.....macam biasa...drama melayu always typical...that's why..I do have this difficulty in accepting their message...huhu!!But this time...yes...this drama is quite good okay!!You know why....sebab drama melayu kali ni show how narrow minded some malay people are..hehe!!No offends okay...saya pun melayu juga...but sometimes...sorry to say...we tend to be not so open.

Okay...I do get it...if someone is too open minded pun tak elok jugak...but at least keep your mind open..and do think rationally...not just simply see things...or judge things through our eyes..because there is always more beneath it.

Err...before I do melalut more..it is better for me to cerita what today's drama is all about hehe!! Okay..today's drama is about a 15 years old girl named Harina who live in a so called village with her mum. It happen that her mum remarry again with a jerk who actually have a jerk son. Nak jadi kan cerita....her mum's husband is happen to be such a jackass. It goes the same for his son as both of them like to torture her by beating her and asking her to do lots of things for them. What makes me sakit hati is...I just don't understand...why sometimes women tend to be so stupid and so selfish?? In this case...seriously..I hate Harina 's mum...you know why?? SEbab she is so stupid by allowing all this things happen in front of her and do nothing about it except just to keep her faith on her husband's hand. Can you see how stupid she is??Bayangkan lah....her husband boleh marah2 her daughter for no reasons and she actually listen to her husband??Serius..I just can't believe such a woman do exist nowadays....

I do understand...as a wife we have to patuh our husband but in our religion, it doesn't state that a husband have the right to do bad things right??Perkara yg salah ttp salah...so as a human being don't u think we should stand up against it??Bila fikir2 balik... I do think, the reason why her mum ikut jer ckp her jerk husband is because she doesn't want to end up being alone..sebab tu..she willing to accept all her husband's mistake...or perhaps..when you love someone so much...kita tak nampak pun salah orang tu..betul tak??hehe!!

Okay....yang memang I just can't accept is that..Harina's mum actually ask her not to go to school so that she could help her jual karipap...adoiii...if you want to have a better life...don't you think you should let your kid go to school..boleh pulaks...ask ur daughter to ponteng..gila apa??if my mum...jgn arap la wehh....even demam sket2 pun kena pi sekolah ok....

But if nak salah kan her mum100% also is not fair la...sebab..things happen sebab they are not family yg senang..I mean not like me yg membesar without no financial problems..so perhaps..I don't really understand it..but in my opinion....no matter how hard life is...satu jer..don't ever stop learning..sebab..education is the only way to bring your family out of misery...and while I'm watching this drama...it makes me realise that sometimes we do have to sacrifice things that we want most to make sure our loved ones is in a good hand. In this case I guess Harina's mum have to sacrifice lah...I mean..apa guna ada husband yg menyusahkan??we need husband to protect us not the other way around okay...Like my nenek said, " If nenek la jadi pompuan ni..baik aku tak yah ada laki...ada laki pun perangai mcm sial ..baik aku besarkan anak aku sorang2..."===> okay..this nenek's talking...see..even my nenek pun pandai!!hehe!! In this case....Harina also have to change...sebab..she seems to accepting things as a fate...sedangkan...fate itu memang sudah tertulis..but sebagai manusia..our job is to change our fate by working hard to be somebody not just accepting things as they are...itu namanya berserah..if berserah..memang makin parah la kan....

So...moral of the story is...don't ever let our fate gets in a way with our hopes & dreams...If we have one..we should go and pursue it not just sitting around and do nothing about it...

By the way...I am not married yet..so I don't really know how it felt to have a husband and perhaps..I have no idea....how lonely it is not to have one..but I do know one thing, seorang suami yang baik tak akan menyakiti seorang isteri dan anak2 nya(even anak tiri/adopted) dari segi physically or mentally...jadi better be lonely dari having a husband yg akan menyakit kan hati/mental..betul tak??hehe!!~

p/s: btw...it is just a thought from me..since I hate to see how weak most women are....sedih okay...T_T

In between...wink***

Walaupun kau bukan kekasih

Namun bukan sekadar teman biasa

Hadirmu membawa cahaya

**wink**

Rindu nyaaaaa.........

Rindu...rindu sgt2 kt Mr Manaf.....padahal baru 2 weeks jer dia alek Kuching..but still I miss him like crazy....Baba..please pulang lah cepat.........Serius...my weekend tersgt lah bosan without baba.....Sorry mama....no offends...I've always love to be your guardian angel but deep down I know you need baba more than you need me right??hehe!!

Sebab-sebab I need baba :

• So he can send me to the office and pick me up after that...I hate to drive...(in fact baba don't really like me driving...I know..he indulge me too much!!LOL~)


• I can have breakfast with him every single day..............


• After work I can have a tea time with him so I can skip dinner!!


• He likes to buy me things....with baba...all you need is just ask...Love you baba!!!


• Ooo...we can hang out at bookstores and looking for our favourite books...(we share the same hobbies..)


• We love to watch football...eventho I despise his team...but still, having a quality time with him..so I don't really care eventho I have to support his ARSENAL...arghhh~


• And...ooo...we love to eat....he loves to try foods..so we complete each other...hahaha!!~

Okay..baba...cepat lah pulang okay...I'll be waiting for you.....byk story nak share okay baba....love you!!!!~

- my BABA bear -

p/s: mama ckp....if you want to find a husband..at least find sum1 like ur baba...hehe!!~okay..noted mama.....tapi ada ke lelaki mcm baba???ummmmm.....

zaRA

Dear ZaRa....

You know I love to be in your stores...In fact I do love to invest in your store...For this past few years...I've been such a loyal customer for you...I never did ask for anything...even for a discount..never okay...

But currenly, I have this issues...I really2...want to have your leather jacket...Well ya...it is affordable but could you please at least make about 30% discount??I know..it does sound ridiculous...but I need those jacket...huu~

Arghh...serius...gua tension laaa....memang dah lama gila kot aim that particular jacket!!~Actually it is not that expensive, it cost me only RM269.90 only but still.......expensive okay....sebab...for this month...I do need a new handbag/new flat pump/new shirts..........arghhh..tension nyaaaaa...................sigh~

Kenapa lahh....I love to shop??(Already ask this question for 10000 times kot..but still I have no answer for this question......LOL!!)

Okay...I need this..........

Laparrrrr...

Kelaparann..but I have to tahan all this craving for foods....sebab my face dah mcm bloated fish!!OMG!!!xsuka gilaaaa......



Tahan...



Tahan..



Tahan...


I think I should be okay...sabar ya Fatihah..alek uma nanti kita melantak puas2 naaa......



Errkk....ternampak biskut Kak S...............sigh~

Why I love you???(It's plural)

===> The reasons I'm alive and getting stronger day by day.......love~

I love you...I love you......I love you....

I love the phrase 'LOVE'....why??SEbab kita semua dilahirkan atas dasar kasih sayang...okay...I know...there are few special cases where they are born out of love..but still it is 'love' who brought us into this world!!!I can't imagine someone's life when he/she said that they don't need love...sgtlah bullshit okay!!!~

I love ALLAH & Rasul nya...S.W.T~

• Because HE who create us...He who let us breath in this world

I love mama & baba...~

• I am here because of you both....I am actually your love symbol..right baba??I know you will agree with me on this..I am always your princess kan baba??LOL~


• Because I end up growing up well..thanks to you both, finally I do have my own career, I've finish my degree, I've learnt a lot about love (special thanks to mama!!~)


• I am grateful for being a daughter to Mr Manaf & Mrs. Manaf...both of you indulge me too much!!Especially baba...hehehe!!You know you love me..xoxoxo~

I love my siblings..~

• Because of korang I learnt a lot about communication...yes..we are indeed love to fight but I know...we do love each other...xoxo~


• Sebab korang, we know how to back up each other....the three of you will always be there for me kan??I guess you guys know the best & the worst me...LOL

I love all my Gadis cantik...

• Yes..I need you girls like I need the air to breathe...because you girls are my sweet candy...my chocolate for life...my babes...


• We shop..we laugh...we curse....we bankrupt sama-sama!!!hehe....


• I heart you girls sampai mati okay.....~Love~

I love my gay bitches...~

• Because you guys keep it real for me...no censored...~


• You guys know me inside out..you guys have seen me crying..dah tgk aku ketawa...dah tgk aku sedih..but most of all..you guys know who is the real 'Fatihah'...

I love my other friends too......(it means a lot)

• Because korang willing to be a friend...get to know me...nothing more I can give but I can assure you once you are my friend, we are friend for life okay...====>Especially to my facebook/blogspot/twitter/plurk friends whom I never get to keep in touch with...Love you guys so much..thanks for being there to listen..to talk when I do need sum1...

Okay..saya rasa nak menangis sekarang..it is funny when you want to cry over your own post kan2??hehe!!Well...when it comes to love..yes...saya mmg sensitive...sbb saya suka syg orang...So no matter what...I will always..keep giving my love...unless you guys tak nak..then nothing I can do about it laaa....Enough rambling for now, I need to sleep and dream of people that I love...who knows...perhaps tonite I will be dreaming about one of you...wink***

I don't understand you..........

Okay...I had enough of your 'sunyi sepi'!!serius....I mmg sakit hati dgn you + sedih sebab you + penat sebab you...I tak faham lah...you nak main tarik tali ke???Tolong lah....for the first time, I'm begging you...(I'm begging ok..) please tell me the truth...what do you want from me??you still want me to keep hanging onto you ke??If tak..please stand up and say it...eventhough I'm might end up hurting (mmg going to be hurt pon...)but at least have the gut to say it to me...bukan apa..I don't want to keep waiting. Being all silent is sgtlah tak baik okay....If you want to move on, okay..please do so...it is your life. I pun nak move on jugak.....since lately yes..I do admit..I am happy even without you but yet still sometimes I do miss you...bukan sikit okay..banyakkkkk.......almost three month without khabar berita from you....I know...you must think I have already move on right??Maybe...I try my best kot nak move on..but deep down...only ALLAH knows how painful it is for me...So please laa.....Let us be true to each other okay????

Saya mahuuu....

Saya mahu blogging..tapi saya terlalu busy.....saya busy menjadi ibu tunggal.....one of 'budak kecil' demam today...unfortunately she accidently vomitted dgn byknya......dughhh...~Pressure2.....Poor 'Jijah'....finally she's asleep....now I do have time to spend my time in front this pc.....Tomorrow have to wake up early...have to send kids to school....susah2...it is hard to be a single working mum....sigh~

Tapi saya harus kuat...kuat for the kids........................Ganbatte!!~

Emosi~

Tiba- tiba rasa emosional today.....sebab apa??sebab siapa??entah lah...deep down..maybe hanya tuhan yg tahu....feeling lonely??yes...I do feel it...lonely sgt2!!!!~what do I need??Currently I do think I need books...sigh~

Arggghhh...tak suka sgt bila rasa camni....bila hati sudah terbuka...kenapa ia kembali tutup??

Dear ALLAH...please help me...do give my guidance...aminnnn..........

Saya sudah penat...sudah penat with everything...saya mahu happy!!!~

Okay enough ramblings Fatihah...I'm off to ampang point..need to find books to kill my boredom then lepak sorang2 kt coffee bean to have a blissful ice blended~

later......................................

Pernah tak???

Pernah tak korang suka older guys???Mesti tak kan??me too!!I can't imagine seeing myself falling to any older guys...by 'Old' means guys yg 35 years old and above okay rakan2...

Ooo...I am definitely not a choosy...but yes..I do have sort of like my own version of 'prince charming'..if only korang tahu what type of guys I've use to fall into, sure korang ketawa besar xhengat lah...gua mengaku la..taste gua mmg pelik sket...hehe!!!~

By pelik it doesn't mean something yg weird okay..harap maklum!!hee~To tell you the truth, I am always like other typical young girl at my age, when it comes to guys..of course la..we are looking at the range of age yg tak jauh different with us right??But I don't know why...this past few months, I was actually suka gila borrow novels from Kak S, her novels mostly involve those guys yg I can considered quite old..but yet an interesting guys. By interesting, what I mean is...those older guys...I can say that, they are way cool than other guys yg below 30...Sorry Mr lelaki out there....hehe!!What make me say this is that because older guys..especially yg near to 40 years old they tend to act much2 matured and sometimes I do think they do understand women more than younger guys??Betul tak??Correct me if I'm wrong but seriously, older guys tak main tarik tali like you guys yg muda2 ni okay.....when they want something, they will just tell it to ur face. No ayat2 manis...they just straight forward and say, "yes..I like you"...Technically speaking, itu lah lelaki idaman ku.....hee~

Okay..nak jadikan cerita, currently I have this crush on Mr R...hanya Kak Y tahu who is Mr R actually..hehe!!I owe you Kak Y~Who is Mr R??He is actually one of the top gun in my company. He is actually near 40 and I guess his age is around 35 and above kot...1st time kenal Mr R is when both of us have to attend this 2days short course. Masa mula2 knl, I never thought that he is one of the managers, I was thinking perhaps this guys is just another new exec like me and it happen when I know him, I was actually call him Abg R...boleh tak??Dah la manager kan...selamba jer gua panggil dia 'abg'...tapi dia cool jer...mesti dlm hati dia ckp, " lyn kan je la minah ni" hehe!!First thing yg buat gua terus kagum with Mr R ni is that he is so pandai!!Bayang kan..something yg dia mmg takde basic langsung...but he can be so good at it..sgt lah amazing mamat ni...OOhh....kenangan yg tidak boleh dilupakan is, we actually share makan kacang sama2...hee~sweet tak??LOL~

Yesterday I was actually participate in QHSE workshop yg basically we have to attend to discuss on our challenge and to plan our short/long term program for our dept. It happen that, yesterday he came to join us as a management rep. Okay...saya admit..saya was a bit happy...he came to our workshop serba cream...~cute~
As usual, when he start talking and ramblings...mmg gua terus fikir...wow...how lucky a woman is to have him as a husband...hehe!!Ummm..actually I do think he is married already but Kak Y actually trying to convince me that he is still single!!hahahaha...Okay...I don't want to make any assumption, lagi pun..it is just a crush...how big is the crush is??well...it is something only both me and Kak Y know..wink**



P/s: I was eating ice cream with Mr R yesterday......................^_~

Ibu Tunggal..............

Single mum??wow...big word...big responsibilities!!!That is how I felt for this past 2 weeks!!huuu~serius............Okay..I do admit, I love kids..too much perhaps...some time I do thinks maybe I should adopt kids...but sekarang boleh ckp la minah..dah ada besok terkangkang wehhh...hak2!!~

Routine harianku, currently I'm driving to work, so I tend to bgn lambat la sket...6.15/6.20 a.m baru lah bgn..ngantuk wehh...kata single mum (wannabe okay!!) biasalah...letih uruskan baby...yela...since baby dah start schoooling..every night I have to iron her school uniform, saya tekan kan sekali lagi..every single night!!!!sigh~kalah org nk pi ofis..dia yg lebih2..tapi mengenang baby punya psl..lyn kan jela..eventho mulut membebel sbb kena gosok her uniform!!damn!!~

Bangun pagi as usual...of course lah..I am the one who have to mandi dolu..since saya memang suka duk lama2 dlm bathroom...habit2..mmg xleh nk tinggal..hehe!!after dah siap shower semua then barulah have to kejut kan baby..then kena cpt2 siap, since I have to prepare her bekal semua plus have to make sure she takes breakfast ok...ughhh~Do I sound like ibu mithali???Tentu lah tidak kan??huu~

After baby dah siap semua, then have to rush to send her to school...sumpah tak suka hantar baby pi sekolah pagi2...Jam thp gila babi kot kt depan sekolah!!menci nyaaa..........Tapi tu la...sebab baby punya psl jugak..ku gagahi langkah tayar kereta hitamku untuk berada di hadapan sekolah every single day before 7.20am(gila awal..buat la..kul 7.45am ke...)

I know..tak baik merungut kan??hehe!!no worries baby...eventho yes..I did felt quite menyampah sebab have to send u every single day..but I'm going to do it anyway...cause you are my baby, my princess, my darling sweetheart..love u baby girl....~

Stay~

I've been sitting here staring at the clock on the wall

And I've been laying here praying, praying she won't call

It's just another call from home

And you'll get it and be gone and I'll be crying

And I'll be begging you, baby, beg you not to leave

But I'll be left here waiting with my heart on my sleeve

Oh, for the next time we'll be here

Seems like a million years and I think I'm dying

What do I have to do to make you see she can't love you like me?

Why don't you stay?I'm down on my knees

I'm so tired of being lonely, don't I give you what you need?

When she calls you to go, there is one thing you should know

We don't have to live this way, baby, why don't you stay?Yeah

You keep telling me, baby there will come a time

When you will leave her arms and forever be in mine

But I don't think that's the truth

And I don't like being used and I'm tired of waiting

It's too much pain to have to bear to love a man you have to share

Why don't you stay? I'm down on my knees

I'm so tired of being lonely, don't I give you what you need?

When she calls you to go, there is one thing you should know

We don't have to live this way, baby, why don't you stay?

I can't take it any longer but my will is getting stronger

And I think I know just what I have to do

I can't waste another minute after all that I've put in it

I've given you my best, why does she get the best of you?

So next time you find you wanna leave her bed for mine

Why don't you stay? I'm up off my knees

I'm so tired of being lonely, you can't give me what I need

When she begs you not to go, there is one thing you should know

I don't have to live this way, baby, why don't you stay? Yeah, oh

Wow..she's good...love her voice..I heart you 'SUGARLAND'~^_~

V.V.I.P

V.V.I.P stands for Very very Important Person!!!That is what I've turn into!!!Sakit kepala...Headache...~I am not an important person, even in the office I am the regular staff, been doing my job base on JD. But lately, I do think Encik Boss you should revise my JD. Why??Sebab....lately I've been doing lots of work out of my JD. I am not complaining, I am happy with it since I am using most of my time on work and at least it did take my mind off certain things (those silly, stupid stuff...dughh~)

Okay back to the title, yes..I am the very very important person now!!!!huhu~gila laa...you guys must think that I'm famous kan??OOO..back to the reality.....am not that famous though..LOL~ Siapa tak suka being all important right??I know...me too..as a women, we love attentions..it doesn't have to be guys attention but we just love when people does notice us..Yes..I'm loving it too!!But in my case, when you have to do all the works even those tiny little simple things, yes..it is annoying!!sangat okay!!!Gua tension nak mati!!~I love my jobs...I simply love to do all those paper works/procedures/dealing with Operation...but sometime I do need time to breath which I'm lack of it!!!

This past few days have been such a tiresome...Can you imagine my phone won't just stop ringing(usually handphone xbunyi wehhh...takdak sapa nak call..sadis kan??T_T)sometimes I do think I should just throw away the phone..sigh~But work is work....you can complaint all you want but at the end of the day still it is work who pay all the bills...yes..it sad but true..~
Another 3 more days to go........but still this weekend I have a HSEQ workshop....Ooo...I'm sad....T_T

Be strong Fatihah!!You choose this path so you have to endure it!!!~

Life ku semakin serabutssssss...............

Yes..indeed it is so serabuts!!!~what make it so serabut???Because things seems to happen around me unplaned!!!Goshhh!!!I hate when something occur or even happen unexpectedly!!Eventhough I know..we should always be grateful on whatever things turn into but still...arghh....Tension gua wehhh......

Actually nowadays, I don't even think I do have a space to breath. To busy on my daily work even during weekends I just can't stop thinking of works that have to be done in office!!

Seriously if someone could see what this bubbly thoughts in my head, it will read like this, "Dang!!Ardy punya medical tak save lagi!!"/"Ooo...I need to email the hotel about booking!!"/"OMG!!procedure need to be upload in DiMs" and etc...................Haihs....I wish sometime my work is less compicated.

Yes...I love weekends!!But for this past few weeks my weekends is like hell!!I am super busy helping my mum to establish her new boutique!!Lots to be done...about the pricing,about the interior design, buying stocks..........Ooo...my heads is full with ideas for mama but it is also cloudy with other thoughts as well...I am so sorry mama!!Wish I could work with you but you know me right, I do have to fullfill some of dreams too!!Someday yes, I will work with you but until then I will help you as much as I can!!!No worries...I will always with you...;))

Okay...lets take a deep breath...take a chill pill!!Need to enjoy my Faizal Tahir tonite!!(Mine ke???laki orang wehh..sedar sket!!hehe!!~)

Akhirrnyaaaaaaaaa...............

I am not a big fan of make up stuff...But lately since I was actually been around beautiful people, so I tend to look pretty my self too!!!LOL~I'm not an expert though, but I'm willing to try!!Actually this inspiration came from Dart's blog (thanks Dart!!you really open my eyes towards make up okay!!), been ogling her blog until I was thinking, okay lets try to do some simple make over. Stuff I use would be:

• LOREAL liquid foundation
• MAYBELINE liquid concealer
• SILKY girl compact powder
• SK-II moisturizer (Borrowed from mama)
• ELIANTO blusher
• MAYBELINE eye liner
• REVLON lipstick

HERE my experiment!!!~



- Ughhh..the old me...kusam~(nude face!!!)

- Uikkkss.....after make over....LOL~

Okay...do I look hideous??Too thick is it??Doesn't look that natural eh?Too 'tepung gomak' right??How am I suppose to look natural??Dang!!~

p/s: I use only cheap stuff..not so into make up, perhaps one day when I'm competent enough to do make up then I will purchase the expensive stuff!!~LOL...

I feel good!!!~

I feel so damn good!!Just had the best foot massage!!Sangat suka ber'massage'!!I use to dream of having a personal 'tukang urut'...as if like nak mintak one of my mum's staff to be my personal 'tukang urut' boleh tak mama??huhu!!~

Thanks kak Mai tolong urutkan kan my feet!!seriously I feel so

lega since my feet does hurt(sapa suruh pi pakai heels every single day??)My answer would be, My ass look good when I'm wearing heels!!LOL~Tak percaya??Serius dear friends....to make your ass look fine/sexy, you should wear heels!!I'm loving it!!!

Okay...enough rambling...I need to do a pedicure!!(self service pedicure!!tak dak duet!!juz bought a new wedges!!~)Ooo...my new wedges...sgt cute!!chewahh~And Ooo...just bought a new handbag as well!!It's a CHANEL look alike..eventhough it is not a CHANEL(serius tak mampu!!) but as long as it looks pretty..so I'm content~(actually pasrah...LOL~)

Suddenly teringat dekat...............okay.....I wait..............

P.E.N.A.T

Penattttttttttt..............



Penat walking all around SUNWAY PYRAMID....

Penat holding shopping bags.......

Penat mata saw all those SALE items..............

Penat try all those shoes...........

Penat tengok orang ramai....sesak!!!!rimas-rimas!!~

Penat tengok Eika shopping...(dalam hati ada rasa envy..sorry babe!!)she bought a GUESS handbag..I should be envy right??LOL~

Penat driving all the way from Ampang....(I hate to drive!!!)

Penat gosok baju 'baby'..............

Penat ngadap PC...but I try my best to update my gadiskecil~

Penat tunggu En Keanu Reeves................

Okay...penat..dan penat.....it will never end.....but I have to keep my eyes wide open!!! En Keanu...wait for me!!!!!!!~

My eyes.....seems so sleepy.....please wake up Fatihah......focus2!!!!

>Haven't met you yet<

I'm loving it......................>.<

I'm Not Surprised

Not Everything Lasts

I've Broken My Heart So Many Times,

I Stop Keeping Track.

Talk Myself In

I Talk Myself Out

I Get All Worked Up

And Then I Let Myself Down.

I Tried So Very Hard Not To Loose It

I Came Up With A Million Excuses

I Thought I Thought Of Every Possibility

And I Know Someday That It'll All Turn Out

You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out

And I Promise You Kid That I'll Give So Much More Than I Get

I Just Haven't Met You Yet

01.01.10

First day of 2010!!!~I am super excited..finally..it is *2010* time to open a new book!!excited sampai I only slept for about 4hours since smlm ber*internet* mcm org gilaaa.....but what's important is..I feel good!!~(okay..not that good..but at least I'm happy..betul tak??*nodding2*) I had a great day today...nothing much~But I indeed had the best 'nasi padang' today!!OMG!!superb!!I wish I could just eat it everyday...but obviously, are you sure it is wise enough to eat 'nasi' every single day???Yess..exactly...my thought as well...don't eat 'nasi' everyday..remember ya girlfriends..~

- mine..all mine... -

I had fun shopping with my mum. Eventhough we didn't exactly bought stuff for ourselves but still..spending time with mum is the best thing ever!!~Ooo...I even get a chance to be my mum's model...wuu~siapa sangka...finally..one of my dreams came true....LOL~

- model me..ahaks~ -

Later then, after Friday prayer...we went to KLCC since baby's birthday is on this sunday, so we need to go find her presents..(dughh..she got to choose her own presents..gila best!!!Jealous mode increase!!>.<)As the eldest, of course laa...I did got her a new school bag. Tak a good care of your new bag okay baby!!~By the end of the day....all of us are so tired...KLCC as always...full with peeps...rimas nya!!!before going back..as usual, singgah sekejap to auntie anne's!!thanks baba!!~

- baby's presents -

What more today??nothing much...I am falling head over heel onto Michael Buble new song!!And yes...I'm going to watch Ellen Degeneres...Love Talk show!!~

I see you when I see you Gadis Kecil.....!!~

Bye..bye 2009...hello 2010!!!!~

Finally....it's 2010 already...somehow I do feel that it is such a short 2009!!Can't believe in the next 11 months I'm going to turn 25!!!I'm old!!!But it's okay, people say...age is just a number..it is what's in our heart that's matter the most..(chewahh..ayat nk sedapkan hati sendiri mmg lagu nih..~)

Talking about 2009....okay..I do admit..it is such a bless year. I met lots of new friends...through facebook/twitter/plurk...you girls..are the love of my life!!Can't live without you girlfriends!!~ 2009 do make me think a lot...damn..I hate to think...I love to feel...yes call me hopeless..I am indeed hopeless when it come to digging my own brain!!But still..my mum raise me to become a thinker and since I'm getting older..so I do have to think about my future..about dreams...Ooo...yes..I do have dreams...lots of it..but I won't share my hopes & dreams for 2010...it's a highly classified information!!~What does happened in 2009??well....to tell you the truth..lots & lots & lots of things going on around me...people get married,got engaged,got divorce,got new beau, and what else.......too many things I guess..it is hard to list it down and track those memories...sorry..my hard disk is quite small.Perhaps around 8 gigabyte??LOL~

When it comes to 2010....wowww....it is indeed 2010..and I'm not yet sleeping...don't feel sleepy by the way, still revising all those 2009 memories...thinking..where should I kept those memories??should I just throw it in the recycle bin??huhu!!~I had so many good memories in 2009...don't think I should just throw it away right??It's okay..eventhough perhaps my hard disk is a bit full..guess I could just squeeze a bit those memories...hehe!!~Looking at this desktop, I was suddenly realized that..okay...I can't quite figure out what am I going to do in order to achieve all my hopes & dreams....Guess...I shall start thinking..make plans...analysing all the problems...and don't forget...do think twice and it is actually preferably think more than twice!!~

Lets us start a brand new year with a bit of reminiscing those memories..years and years ago.....

New year..new me..new phone (hopefully~)...new????