is HURT

I am not suppose to be hurt...but I am hurt..this is what I have to face since I am the one who asked for it..yup..I should just endure it and not complaint about it...but hey...I am just a human..a girl..who have a heart..and who can feel hurt...It is hurt no matter hard I try not to think about it and try to be cool about it..but still, knowing it make me hurt....

I use to say...I am cool with it..I don't care about it..but now, seriously I can't cope with it..because it is killing me softly...Told you Fatihah, but you won't listen to me..and now you end up hurt...thank you very much!!

How can I overcome this feeling??pretend to be okay and cool??I've done it already..but still..it is hurt...I should let it go??Yes...I should...but tell me how??I can't do it...

I need to muhasabah diri..need to look back..need to analyze this so called feeling...I need to be happy again~

Saya suka lahhh...

lovely song...lovely girl...I heart you Charice~

Bee yg busy bee~

Bee memang busy....kalah si lebah kot..3 weeks straight monitoring those pipeline yg semakin critical...(sorry to say..but this pipeline project is such a waste of money...and guess what..it is our money yg selama ini membiayai this pipeline cost ok!!)Ooopss...I have accidently terbocor kan rahsia PCSB..Sorry Bee~(Okay..will zip my mouth now..enough ramblings about your beloved pipeline)

Three weeks ago,
"Baby..I can't call you/text you for the next 48hours..will call you after I'm done.."

Two weeks ago,
"Baby..I'm going to be busy..talk to u later..."

Just now,
"Baby...I'm busy..u take care k.."


Okay...I'm cool..pretend to be cool to be exact...Three words, "Silalah pulang cepat" tak pasal2 gua jadi seorang perindu...seriously malas ok being a perindu..because I am already tired with works and now I am tired of missing you...Ooo..sangat tak suka despite having si 'Dia' yg always there for me..but still..It is not okay of missing you.....Okay takpe..I wait for you when I am not suppose to wait for you....okay I confuse...T_T

Congrats Alya~(Si gadis Pink)

Congrats to my ex-classmate!!Cik alya n hubby..Owhh...instead of 'cik' I should change it to 'puan' already...I am happy for you Alya...you are the second one to be married after Sunia..and yes, Sunia looks really happy nowadays....of course la...once dah married, rasa susah hati tu dah less since we can share it with en Hubby right??(Okay...seriously want to get married as soon as possible)

(jiranku classmateku)

(amik keberkatan kononnya)

Owhh..I love weddings...I love to see how beautiful the bride is..how sweet both of them looking in their wedding outfit..and yes..love to see their 'pelamin' so I can go home and berangan...sila la berangan cik Fatihah and keep on dreaming of your wedding yg tak tahu bila going to happen...wee~

(picture atas pelamin is wajib)

Seriously, this June is definitely a month of weddings...sumpah banyak gila wedding mak kena attend nyah!!Next week I'm going to Johor insyaallah to be at one of my dear friend's wedding...I have told Bee already....and I have told 'Dia' already...and now..I am clueless + cuakness since both seems eager to go...I am in dilemma...with whom am I supposse to go??Okay...I know..I was suppose not to tell Bee about the Johor's wedding, but terlajak perahu boleh diundur..terlajak kata..what to do??sigh~Okay...I do have to think of something later...

You've Got A way....

You've got a way with me
Somehow you got me to believe
In everything that I could be
I've gotta say you really got a way
You've got a way it seems
You gave me faith to find my dreams
Can't you see..you got a way with me

It's in the way you want me
It's in the way you hold me
The way you show me just what love's made of
It's in the way we make love

You've got a way with words
You get me smiling even when it hurts
There's no way to measure what your love is worth
I can't believe the way you get through to me

It's in the way you want me
It's in the way you hold me
The way you show me just what love's made of
It's in the way we make love

Oh, how I adore you
Like no one before you
I love you just the way you are

It's in the way you want me
It's in the way you hold me
The way you show me just what love's made of
It's in the way we make love

It's just the way you are......



Credit to Fet...when both of us are so gila bayang melayan lagu jiwangs the other nite!!Thanks Fet for actually melayan kepala ku yg gila ini......

I don't want to know......

I don't need to know the truth

keep it to yourself

I don't wanna know if you playing me

keep it on the low cause my heart can't take it anymore

And if you creeping please don't let it show cause I don't wanna know......

p/s: I don't want to know...I just want to let it flow....(I am complicated right??)

Dia dah Pulang.......

Yes..he is back...Owhh..not Bee..he is still working his ass off somewhere in the east side monitoring those pipeline..poor you Bee..how I wish I could help..but I am being helpful right??Being a good listener when you ramblings about those pipeline thingy yg sepatah haram pun I have no idea...(am not complaint)

Dia dah pulang...after more than a months working away and after weeks of holiday with his family..and now he is back in KL..and I'm going to see him esok!!Okay..yes..I am excited..especially when he called me telling that he is not feeling well since I'm on leave today...Auwww...so sweet...(dalam hati...ye2 je mamat ni...)

People must think that I'm a two timer right??It's ok..not all people could actually understand what's happening in my life kan...so I don't blame others as everyone have their own thoughts..so please use it wisely!!

Okay..enough talking here..Bee have to work tonite..selamat working Bee!!And yes..I'm going to see 'Dia' esok..spend time with him after months of waiting..wee~

It's not goodbye~Laura Pausini

Suddenly I have this thoughts.....

Finally...on 27th May 2010 at 7.15pm my lovely wan did past away...It was such a sad day for my beloved baba,since he was just on the way back to KL from Penang and suddenly he got call from his sister saying that his mother had just past away...Ooo...I feel you baba...I don't really think I could live at the thought of losing my own mother...Yes..we did fight sometimes but my mum is everything to me..(Even if she force me to marry that 'previous guy' ..yes..I will do it for you mama)Do I sound so obedient??So not Fatihah.....

But..when I do think back, yes...currently I don't really care with whom I will end up marrying with...why??Because seriously, I don't believe in LOVE anymore. Call me crazy, call me blind, call me stupid and please call me anything and yes..I have turn into this heartless little girl with no feelings towards anyone..by anyone I mean a guy. It is true I am attached with that particular someone, but I don't count on him to give me the "so called love" that he promised because I know he did something (let me say, he did a thing which I don't think a normal women would accept). Should I count on someone who did "that"??I don't think so...Well..being me, I am a complicated person who love to be in complicated situation so basically, yes..I do stick with him since he does make me happy and he does treat me well so I guess I should be with him..for now laa...

Once upon time ago, I thought life was simple...who knows...the more older we get, the more hard the life is...that is why, when they say, Life is complicated...please tell me people...what life is not complicated??even if you are a cat, your life will be complicated as well...
Talking about life will never come to an end. Since we all have life to live on, I guess the best way to have a good life is just keep on living with it, no matter how hard life is,just remember that other people might face a more complicated life than we are. As long as we have a good health and people who always around us & love us..we should cherish every moment that we had and might have in near future....

Dear me,

Life is hard..Love is hurt..because it is complicated and it hurt you that is why you chose to be in this life...so please..be strong okay~

you

Dear You,

I do care...but I pretend not to...

Dear You,

I am ego..because of you...

Dear You,

Maybe tomorrow I will start to talk to you again..


Thank you...

I share it with her~

My life is complicated but I don't really share it with everyone. Why??Because, not everyone can actually understand me...Yes..call me crazy..but I love being in complicated situation...Why??Because, life is not about being perfect sometimes the imperfect make your life colourful..

I know..I don't really love to talk about my private life nowadays..Why??Because, people don't actually listen but they judge other people as well...

But I do share things with this girl..Why??Because she don't judge but she actually listen..

Thanks babe~

thanks for being a good listener!!

We eat & eat & eat.....

A day where we spent time together..updating all new stories...especially on our beloved Fidal..who is going to get engage within a week!!Congrats to our beloved Fidal...wow...never thought you were going to be the 1st one among us...huu~

-wif Fidal (a tunang org to be)-

I was accidently bought a new shirt..damn!!


It was a day where we ate a lot...and for the first time in my life..I do spent a lot on foods...nice~

We ate at Sushi King then Tony's Roma and having our tea time at DELICIOUS~(WOW..org kaya makan...)

- Us @ DELICIOUS -

p/s: Looking forward to see them........

I Pretend

Pretend to be okay..


Pretend to be cool..


Pretend to be understanding


But seriously, I am not okay, I am not cool, I am not a very understanding person....


I try to..but I can't...I can't pretend anymore..It's killing me softly bee~

Ooo..dear Heart...keras please...please make my heart stone for bee...


p/s: Looking forward to see Mady...;))

Tired!!

I am tired of feeling this way.....


I am tired to try......


I am tired to care.....


I am tired to live in a lie.....


I am tired of pretending......


The truth is..I am tired + tired + tired....


-To be continued...........

Keep on Judging & talking

People love to talk...so keep on talking people......

People love to judge..eventhough they don't even have a clue....so please..keep on judging people....


Dear people,

I am not mad...I don't hate you people...I know..you guys are too concern about me I guess..that's why you people talking/judging me right??

So..please...go ahead talking/judging..I am being me as always...but Just so you people know...people around you are actually talking about you too..so before you start talking/judging other people..look around you...are you sure that they are not talking/judging you??

Think people!!

Kenapa??

Kenapa perlu ada rasa jealous??


Kenapa perlu ada rasa sakit hati??


Kenapa perlu marah??


Kenapa & kenapa & kenapa.....

saya sepatut buat bodoh sahaja...hati oh hati..keras please....

Love you mama..Happy mothers day!!

For u mama....lots of hugs & kisses!!

I am here because of you

Out of the blue......Suddenly....

Suddenly...I felt so alone...eventho yes...I do have Jejaka PCSB...but things are too complicated between us...sigh~


Suddenly I was thinking about you En Chocolate...and yes...sad to say...I've been dreaming of you last nite eventho I was suppose to dream of Jejaka PCSB....


Suddenly I miss you En Chocolate....I know I shudnt feel this way..but what to do..feeling is something that we have no control...it happen..that's why people say..LOVE happens~


Okay2...focus2...tamau emotional...maybe I shud call Jejaka PCSB to take my mind of En Chocolate......


Okay nite...


p/s: will always miss you En chocolate..but we were never meant to be together~

I promise I won't ignore you..

From now on..I promise...I won't ignore you.....

No matter what..no matter how...okay..I will be there for you...(until when??)

I know...it is tough for me...but what shud I do??The more I stay away...the more close you came to me..So I guess...it won't do any good for us..I shud just let you in my life...sigh~

Always telling myself that I won't fall for you..but I'm afraid...lama-lama I will fall for you kot...but I tamau....I know..it won't do me any good if I'm with you....please2...hati keras...feeling2 go away~

Both of us are way to far of being just friend...betul tak??sigh~

Okay....just let it happen.....

Dulu & Now

Dulu.....

I use to say....'Owhh...I won't compete on guy'....

Now....

I'm proud to say...unfortunately I have to compete with her and her and her....to get his attention...sigh~


Seriously not happy with it....I rather compete in term of works or studies..but please people...I am not going to compete on guys!!!!!Gila sadis........

Yes..I'm not ready to compete...even sampai bila2 pun..yes..I won't compete....To you girls...please....take him...take him away from me...And you cik perempuan, you don't have to perli2 me....I know you feel so tergugats...so please save all your worries...he is all yours..


Thank you very much....


p/s: Owhhh...he just text me...what am I suppose to do cik perempuan??your so called Bf were looking for me..Why huh??Please take a good care of your So called Bf okay....wink**

We break each other's heart nak??

Current obssession....wink**

I think2 laaaa.....

I think kan.......


Org itu still looking for me laaa....but maybe he is to afraid to approach me....


I think kan....


Org itu still care about me..but he don't know how to show it.....


I think kan.....


Org itu want to settle things with me...but he is too afraid to start kot....


I tell you laa....kepada org itu....enough is enough...things happen already...Ya..mostly it is ur fault..because..you make me suffer....but still..I am not going to put all the blame on you because things happen for a reason...and part of it, maybe it is a test from god to me...'Life is like a wheel' you are not always going to be on top....now I'm going to keep smiling and cherish all the things I have...........

CHiLLex okay~

I have failed today.....sigh~

Yes...I have failed!!!

Planning to be sombong...planning to buat bodoh...but then..I end up spending time with you.....Owhh...I am so gilaaaa.......why O why Fatihah??

I was supposed to be chill...I was suppose to stay strong...but when you called....suddenly I can hear myself telling you..."Okay...I see you later.."Haihs~What la you??Can't even stay strong even for a day??Seriously gilaaaa......

I need to be kuat....I need a divertion!!Okay..maybe I shud start going out with other guys...What About DD guy??What about En Surveyor??Okay...please make up your mind Fatihah!!!

Okay peace!!

is Currently hurt and stupid...but I do think you are going to hurt her more..

In office..during lunch hour...feeling hurt...but not that hurt...hurt when I know..what had happen during the weekend...thanks to you..you didn't tell me anything..but I did know some how...and yes..it's hurt...when I have to swallow everything painfully....but I'm cool..as I promise to be cool no matter what..and I won't show how hurt I am in front of you..damn~


Call me stupid...yes..I am so stupid for letting you do this to me...but, what am I suppose to do bee??when I left you...you came to me...when I'm invisible...you keep searching for me??why me??what do you want from me??Yes...I can give you love...I can hug you when you sad..I can be your listener...but...what I am for you??


I wish I cud pity her..but I'm not...because..I do think she deserve it..I mean, she should know you better than me right??But it happen, I know you better...I know how bad are you..I know what kind a guy are you..Or perhaps..maybe you are a good actor..maybe you fake all your move with her..but why??You once said...'I haven't found sum1 who I can actually commit with..'wtf??then why are you still with her??Guess...at the end of the days...she's going to get hurt more deep than I do...since I know you...

Seriously, I happy to say...I'm going with the flow with you..but am not going to be with you always....one day I'm gone....

I'm heartless.....

I can't believe that I am this cool...wow~

(yaa....me smiling...and will keep on smiling....)

Seriously...I can't believe my self....I can't quite figure..how on earth that I suddenly become so strong..so damn tabah when I know the real 'him'..THE REAL SITUATION....knowing how it works between us??

Wow.....amazingly...I was smiling...and it happen...I'm not shocked..as if like I knew it was coming...gila2~

Sumpah...I was so cool...when he say those words...when he told me the truth.....I can even laugh with him...Call me GILA..but seriously I'm not mad at him....and I can even accept it!!

It's okay....maybe hari ini hari you...siapa tahu hari esok hari I.....and yes...maybe I am cool now...we will see...how cool are you when I'm about to do the same things you do...okay u~

Next level???

(hanya hiasan semata-mata)

Ya...we are in the next level/phase......

A stage where..'kentut pun wangi'.....'pijak semut pun tak mati'.....and yes..we were happy....but..for how long???Seriously avoiding this question......

It's okay....I just want to enjoy myself in this happy stage..a stage where I'm actually floating....please be strong wahai hati ku yg comel.....wink**

Currently in the mode of romantikus almost every single nite...been dreaming the same old tune...a tune when I was in romantikus mode with En chocolate...Please dear Hati...Don't keep falling..Hati keras please.........

Your Song..................

It's a little bit funny this feeling inside I'm not one of those who can easily hide I don't have much money but boy if I did I'd buy a big house where we both could live
If I was a sculptor, but then again, nOr a man who makes potions in a travelling show I know it's not much but it's the best I can do My gift is my song and this one's for you
And you can tell everybody this is your song It may be quite simple but now that it's done I hope you don't mind I hope you don't mind that I put down in words How wonderful life is while you're in the world
I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song It's for people like you that keep it turned on
So excuse me forgetting but these things I do You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue Anyway the thing is what I really mean Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen....

Untuk...???

I just can't help it..but to hate her.....

Okay...maybe the title is a bit exegerate...but trust me...I never tought that I could actually hate someone...sampai make an FB status especially for that woman...sigh~

Why do I hate her??Have she done anything to me??The answer would be...a BIG no...sumpah...she never did anything to me...but I HATE HER!!!yes....seriously....hate her...like...I cannot even see her face..seeing her face make me hate her even more deeper....Okay..I'm officially tension and it happen my head hurt like hell.....what's wrong la you kepala??if nak migrain pun...please pick another time okay....currently not in the mood to have migrain.....tension gua....T_T

I hate you perempuan for trying to be sum1 you are not.....

I hate you because..you don't even have a clue of what you are trying to say except to quote a sentence from an internet sources...(so lame...just to impress him okay...)

I hate you for pretending to loves all his favourites....and you even try to speak his language..wow...a good pretender...

And yes.....I hate you because you like him too...Ooopps..wrong sentence...actually you are in love with him....that is why I hate you.....Okay...call me jealous...yes..I am hopelessly jealous....jealous to a perempuan like you??OMG!!gila sadis.....chill okay Fatihah!!!

Okay..now I feel okay...finally...after I put all my anger into this blog...I feel so puas hati...eventho yes..I should just tell it to ur face but still, as a woman with high integrity (chewahhh~) I won't do anything....yes..I hate you...but I will do nothing....in fact..all I'm going to do..is just to see how it goes for you...good luck perempuan!!~

Okay..peace~

I've made up my mind...hooray~

Okay...I should be sad.....but I'm not...I'm just a bit dissappointed...ya..kecewa..that's how I felt...








I da give up on you...not because of you...but there are too many women are in love with you...








I do think you should choose it wisely...why???








Because those girls look like bimbo...you know..pretty but empty...okay...I guess ppl think I'm jealous...of course I am..who doesn't??(24/7 texting...nearby lak tuh..haihs~)








But..still...it is your life...your choice...so...deal with it wisely~








After En Chocolate...I thought..I will be doom..but end up..I'm okay..so seriously..yes..I am okay now...no worries...dear girlfriends......








Currently I don't want to think about anything else other than my sweet girlfriends...looking forward to see you girls on friday nite!!!








- I will be seeing you girls tomorrow nite......plus hana/cyrus/nad......

p/s: OOo....I just colored my hair....LOL~

Crazy mode at 1.25am in the morning~

I gila.......


I clueless.....


I hopeless......


I'm letting you go??(Need to think back...again..)


I think I better leave right now??(how to leave??you tell me...)


I will fight for you??(Don't think I have the gut to do so....)malas weyhh....perlu ke??


I think I'm going to kantoi sooner or later..damn~


I think I know Why I can't sleep at nite....(you la En chocolate..I nak move on pun ssh tau...sume psl you....T_T)


I tension.....


I need my gadis-gadis cantik......(Can't wait to see you girls on friday nite!!!)


To be continue.........................

Still in office..do the thinking....bluerghhh~

It's after office hour..and I still stuck in the office..why??Do I have TONs of works??OOOooo....definitely not...being me...work is to be done during office hour..not after office hour..unless..if it's too urgent..then I have too laa..since works pay the bills...wink**

Currently I feel quite frustrated...^o^


Jejaka PCSB is definitely in his car right now..heading home...sigh~I am frustrated because of you okay...SINCE it's a daily routine..everyday before you went home, you will at least text me..but today..against all the odd...you didn't call me..it was fine..but you didn't even text me..Ooohh..so not fine!!why lah??where have you been??

Maybe I should call..but...do I have too??Okay...I admit..yes..I am too damn ego to start everything....even to call you...and yes..even to text you...seriously I am a bit pissed....arghhh~

Okay..maybe I should just chill and relax...don't think....I hate when I turn into this pathetic person dependent on someone....wake up Fatihah!!!

I nak yang ni boleh???

"I've been alone with you inside my mind...." (You = rider jacket)




Chewahh..~Okay...I'll bet ppl think I'm crazy..yes...I sedang gila....gila sbb..I want this jacket badly!!!Dah lama cari....but still tidak ketemuan...kesedihan gua.....T_T





I nak yang ni......








Tapi I tamau this colour...I want black or dark brown laa...I really2 want this...where could I find it??Zara dah tade dah...Top shop??too expensive...Or shud I just buy it??
Ooo...just find out that F21 also ada...but this colour??I don't think so...since I prefer dark colour instead of white/creamy colour.....

If sape2 jumpa this kind of jacket..please do let me know ya....and if you find it...please buy it for me okay....TQ~
Jasa mu akan ku kenang sampai mati......wink**

Congratulation to Puan Dart!!!~

Congrats!!!Akhir nya..you are no longer a 'cik' and now I have to call you 'Puan' yer...huu~


I know Puan Dart thru Blog and FB...by knowing her..at least now I do know how to 'conteng ' my face..Thank you Puan Dart!!You are the one who thought me to use youtube as guidelines..mekaseh yaa~





Thanks to cik Yana(she is the next person to be wed..amin~) yg pantas meng'upload' the picture of Puan Dart's solemnization...so sweet...all in white..Okay..tiba2 mode nak kahwin increase...siapa nak jadi pengantin lelaki??angkat tangan cepat!!!(gara2 sbb mama tak sabar nak ada menantu..wink*)





Okay...I manage to curik picture from Yana's FB..(sorry dear..teheheee~) this is Puan Dart with her hubby~both sgt sepadan~wish you all the best in future undertaking Dart...^_~

p/s: Ooo..so sorry I can't go to your wedding Dart..but I will pray for your happiness always~

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU & SEMOGA BERKEKALAN SEHINGGA KE AKHIR HAYAT...Muahhhh2~

I think I'm going to leave right now.......................

I'm here, just like I said

Though it's breaking every rule

I've ever made My racing heart, is just the same;

Why make it strong to break it once again?

And I'd love to say "I do"; Give everything to you

But I could never now be true

So I say... I think I better leave right now

Before I fall any deeper

I think I better leave right now Feeling weaker and weaker

Somebody better show me how

Before I fall any deeper I think I better leave right now

I'm here, so please explain

Why you're opening up a healing wound again

I'm a little more careful, perhaps it shows

But if I lose the highs at least I'm spared the lows

Now I tremble in your arms

What could be the harm?

To feel my spirit calm?

So I say... I think I better leave right now

Before I fall any deeper I

think I better leave right now Feeling weaker and weaker

Somebody better show me how

Before I fall any deeper

I think I better leave right now

I wouldn't know how to say How good it feels seeing you today

I see you've got your smile back

Like you say - you're right on track

But you may never know why

Once bitten, twice as shy If I'm proud, perhaps I should explain

I couldn't bear to loose you again

Yes, I will. I think I better leave right now

Feeling weaker and weaker

Somebody better show me how

Before I fall any deeper... I think I better leave right now

Have you ever fall for sum1 husband??

Jeng3!!~Okay...by the title..I bet ppl will start thinking/wondering...apakah??mengapakah??siapakah??hehe...



Yess...previously I have actually fall for someone's hubby...I know...gila kan??hee~When I think back...I just can't believe that once I had this feeling for someone's husband...sumpah mmg kerja gilaaa.....huu~


Okay..let me rewind...............


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We know each other thru work..since he is one of the top level management in my company..serius...I never thought that I would fall for him...why??HELLO.....he is old (near 40 kot), he is sum1 hubby, and yes..he looks old....


But you know...they say...don't judge book by its cover...once I know him..sumpah..that feeling came out naturally....what make I like him??Senang jer...he is so charming...he is so bijak(my weakness...goshhh~)..he is this husband material type ok...that's why they said, it is easy to fall for someone husband kan??sebab they are sumthing about them..yg make us young women...look up to them...and yes...they know how to treat women...but by saying this, it does not mean yang it is digalakkan to be with suami orang yaa...ingat yer anak2...A BIG NO~





Okay..nak jadi kan cerita..since I know I had this feeling for him...what shud I do??Tak kan la nk proceed to the next level??Gilaaa ke hapa??laki org wehhh.....So...I do think I have to take action..sbb if nak harap kan si lelaki org ni...hampeh...sebab he always sort of like giving hope kot..gila charming everytime he talks to me...he treat me nicely okay...bayang kan la...from zero to at least 50% kot feeling tu datang..tq ya En R~Alhamdulillah...since the will is strong..and atas dorongan few close fren yg always keep on advising me to stay away from him...yes..finally...I have no feeling for him..okay..tipu lah kan...tade lah zero terus..but at least feeling itu under control..takdelah menggila like before...Tahniah Fatihah...anda berjaya untuk tidak merosakkan perkahwinan org lain..hehe~bangga okay!!huu~





Since I did stay away from...at last he received the message clearly kot yg tulis, "I don't want to have anything with you okay...you married already.."...so currently..yes..we still talking..we still friends..but limitation itu ada..when he start to go charming2...I was like...okay.."hati keras please..."hehe~and yes...saya berjaya...dah okay dah..wink**





Currently....I am okay...no feeling2 with suami orang...and my advise is, ia boleh dielakkan...you have to have the guts to do so..you must have the will to stay away...if saya boleh..I bet other women can...don't let ourself keep on terjerumus in that situation. It is because, at the end of the day, ppl are going to point finger at you...they will say that you are the reason why other ppl marriage ruin...in case like this..ppl wont blame on the men..they will keep on blaming at us women...so as a women..it is us..who must be strong to prevent this situation!!!!KITA BOLEH OKAY WANITA~





Tapi kan..tapi kan...sekarang saya suka flirt dgn En R nih..hahaha~why??sbb saja2..I just want to see how he act...haha~Memang I tabik la kt you En R..sbb you mmg cool..eventho I did flirted with him...but..he was so cool..and siap balas dgn kecharmingan nyaa....time dia dah tunjuk charming...apa lagi...mak pun lari la nyah...hehe~But no worries...it all under control..sbb hati gua dah keras bhai..wink2**(bagi mereka yg hati masih lembut jgn flirt ok..bahaya..kang fall balik.mmg hampeh la...)

- En R -

(gambar perlu digelapkan atas sbb2 tertentu)

Cerita tentang si Jejaka PCSB~

Dah lama saya tak update tentang dia...

Ada apa dengan dia??Owwhhh..he works with PCSB (dang...gua mmg pantang btl dgn org ada kerjaya hebat nih..sigh~)/Lagi...I love his hair...auww~/OO..he definitely have style/Lagi...sebab dia caring kot??Okay...I am officially falling for him...tetapi???Yes...masih ada tetapi..kerana saya takut..afraid to really commit to sum1 sbb I do know..he do have a lots of other friends..by friends I mean kawan perempuan yer...sbb I know..there are lots of other girls yg hoping for you en PCSB...tell me I'm wrong..but you know I'm right kan??

The other day..I am so happy..happy sbb you accompany me to dinner..you were suppose to teman jer..but end up you yg mkn gila2....happy sbb you willing to balik lmbt tgu dkt office...happy sbb you sggp jalan tmn I pergi parking lot..happy sbb you willing to wait..but when I think back..well.semua lelaki begitu di awal2 perkenalan..but once dah enter comfort zone..mula laa....they definitely back to their own routine...'I do my thing..you do your thing..but please don't cheat!!'WTF?? Serius..sometimes..I hate men!!haha~

Currently...I am officially clueless...dah tak tahu nk fikir apa...I have talk about this stuff with my few close gf..and what they did told me is just..keep treat him nicely..give it all I've got..as men also have to choose..if he did have byk candidates..then let him be..let him choose the right one..someone yg he think can cope will all his shit & stuff...betul ke??Am I doing the right thing of letting him choose??Should I keep fighting for his love??Okay..I think I should just chill...LOLz~

PGCE

What is PGCE??Okay..I bet most of us pun tak tahu wth is PGCE..me too..before I work in this industry, yes..I am clueless with all the term use in this industry..gila blurr....but now, I'm proud to say..I know it well..and sumtime I do think I am capable of borak2 with all the ppl in this industry..hehe~Okay..hidung tinggi sekejap~

PGCE or it's full name is, PETROLEUM GEOLOGY CONFERENCE & EXHIBITION is a yearly event which will be held/sponsored by those big guns in Oil & Gas industries. Usually, they will sponsor this such event to make sure other O&G companies will join them and give their supports..especially in term of money la kan...huhu~It happen that, every year OFFSHORE WORKS will definitely be part of this exhibition since as an O&G service provider we have to market our company in term of our services, new technology & equipment. This year we did purchase a new equipment called the AUV (Automotive Underwater Vehicle). What so cool about this equipment is that it is a self service equipment which everytime we run this AUV, our vessel can do other job instead of doing the site survey too. This AUV can go until 3000m depth. Cool kan??actually this thing kecil jer...but the cost itself..Masyaallah~Mengucap den.....

Ape lagi best at PGCE??Ooo....sgt la seronok..sbb we can cuci mata as well..haha~Sumpah mak tak tipu nyah....ramai jejaka gorgeous okay...no need to ngorats..juz cuci mata sudah...hee~

Umm..what else??OOoo..just so you know,since company yg take part in this event mostly are big companies, so practically they are quite generous in giving away lots of free stuffs okay. It can be umbrealla, bags, books, calenders...and etc~I did get a new bag..it's a DEUTER okay...but we deserve it since we paid RM300 for the exhibitor pass kan...and guess what...I did berjaya memujuk mamat TALISMAN!!haha...for that we managed to get another bag..thanks to TALISMAN!!

Exhibitors of the day

Owhh...actually I love this umbrella from SCHLUMBERGER..but to have that umbrella..I have to sit there and hear their talks about their latest technology..arghhhh~malas kot...at the end of 2days...still I tak dapat pun that umbrella...huu~kesedihan okay....It is such a good experience for me..talking to the clients..marketing our company..and had free lunch sponsored by SHELL & MUDABALA...waa...feels like heaven..hehe~And guess what..I learn a lot this past 2days..TQ OFFSHORE WORKS!!

- The day before..booth is in the making~

- 2nd day at PGCE~

seminggu ku meninggal kan kamu......

Okay..it have been a week...what happen in a week??

• Ooo...I've met En Z for the first time...he is nice..thank you En z for helping me a lot!! (Sorry jejaka PCSB...I know u are mad coz I went to your building when you are not there..wink**)
• I think I'm falling into deep...yes..I'm still in denial..but..whatever..don't really care dah...shuhh2...love2 go away...~
• Umm..sometimes..the least expected things happen..I never thought that he likes me..okay...officially pening~(sort of feel guilty towards jejaka pcsb...sigh~)
• Goin to be an MC for the next Concon event...thank you very much~
• Ooo...goin to be a 'gadis booth' this upcoming monday n tuesday...hooray...no need to work except just standing and do the smiling and take a good care of the clients...wee~
• Just had the best pizza ever at Yellow cab with nani...sgt berbaloi for not having lunch on that day...huu~

See..in a week..so much things happen..that's why, people say..things happen..and we never know what's future hold for us...yes..I always wish for a good things to happen..but itu la...I can't control the future..so what ever happen next..mama say, put on a smile...and keep smiling...weee~

Ooo...tomorrow I'm going to wear a legging for the 1st time..tak sabar...I will update you esok gadis kecil...maybe esok I'm going to meet him..but not sure yet..but what ever happen esok..I will keep smiling....wink**

Hindustan O Hindustan~

Oooo...I love hindustan movies!!The old hindustan movies ye kwn2...saya rindu nak tgk Shah Rukh Khan menari...rindu nak nanges2 dpn tv layan hindustan...rindu nak feeling/emosi terganggu after tgk hindustan....Damn...I miss those moment!!!~

Ya...I love to menangis.....I don't know why..maybe sbb during mama were pregnant with me..she cries a lot I guess...(ish2..baba...sian mama..)It's okay...sbb menangis itu boleh membersih kan mata ye anak2...wink*

My favourite hindustan movies will be definitely all movies with SRK in it!!Ya..I know..he is not that handsome..if we compare him with Arjun Rampal for example...Helo...mmg confirm Arjun mng okay!!But to tell you the truth, there are something about SRK that when we watch him on-screen, he has that thing that can lure us to watch him!!First movie of him that caught my attention was Dulhania Dilwale Le Jayengge (correct me if I'm wrong)....OMG!!movie itu sgt best!!And guess what..Kajol looks so damn hot dlm movie tuh...and yes..I did cried mcm org mati laki while watching it!!

Okay..next movie is my all time favourite which is 'Kuch Kuch HOta Hai'....Okay...movie ini mmg sgt lah superb...To tell you the truth...saya siap ada compilation album utk semua lagu dlm filem ini okay!!Semua nya..sbb SRK!!Saya sgt suka anda SRK!!Sometimes I do think of how lucky ur wife to have you..huhu~

And then...comes the "MOHABBATEIN"...oKAy...movie ini make me believe about love..yelah..time tuh I was 17 years old..u know time baru2 nk learn about love..hee!!Mohabattein is entirely about love...about how we are willing to do anything when it comes to love..ya...love is blind..it makes ppl do crazy things kan??sometimes ppl willing to let go the absolutely important things in life when in love....that is why they say, when it comes to love use your brain...but it is easy for others to say..but kena batang hidung sendiri..barulah tahu...langit itu tinggi atau rendah..betul tak??hee~

Actually, last night I've watched KKKG (Kabhi Kushi Kabhi Gham) with mama...
Okay..eventhough we had watched this movie for like 100th times kot..but still both of us menangis macam orang gilaaa...both of us were crying and we accidently telah menghabiskan almost sekotak tisu okay...huu~tapi hati kami puas walaupun baba cam bising2...I'll bet baba jealous tgk mama nanges sebab tgk SRK kan...well...biasa la...kami mmg pantang sket tgk hindustan..kna plak..both me n mama..hati mmg mudah tersentuh...chewahhh~(for this movie also I have the compilation album..wee~)

Oleh kerana....currently saya sdg dlm hindustan mode so I keep on download all hindustan songs with SRK in it!!nanti boleh feeling2 before tido..suka2....come2...let us menangis sama2...

p/s: Ooo...been missing to watch hindustan sorang2 kt laptop and feeling sorg2..mayb next weekend nk buat laaa....

Weng~

Hari ini...saya rasa sungguh weng~

Bukan saya tak happy..ooo..I am happy today, by having those girlfrens of mine in office and by having colleagues yg best dan cool!!Mekaseh semua......@_@

But I do feel a bit weng...entah la...I don't know why..when it comes to a guy..I selalu gilaaa....
Okay it start with a feeling...a feeling yg I think I shud just let it go..perlu ke I let it go??Maybe I do like him..what's not to like??every single day we sort of like have this rigid daily routine...as a women..yes..we are easily fall for sum1 yg always be there for us kan??betul tak??As for me..yes...once that sum1 dah capture my heart mmg confirm..lelaki lain msk line pun..mmg xnmpk..sbb dlm hati dah set org tuh je laaa.....payah okay....

Truthfully...I still thinking that sum1..when I shudnt be...nak wat camne kan??he is the first guy yg btl2 make my eyes open towards a relationship yg serious but a dumb me..akhirnya I found that he is not that serious kot..it's okay...in life we have a lot to learn..terhantuk sekali it does not mean, it is end of the world right??I take it as a positive heart broken..haha~ya..I sounds tabah..but it is not easy okay..after lots of crying and an eating disorder problem..finally...I realize yg life have to goes on...yes..it is painful...only ALLAH knows how hard it is to let go of sum1 so dearly to me..but I do believe..HE knows what's best for me..one day there will be sum1 for me....

Ooo..berbalik to the main issue, yes..currently I do think once again..i fell for sum1...well..it is definitely not like before..this feeling is not that strong...but still..being with that sum1..make me happy...sumpah happy okay...I know...I am supposed to stay happy and just let things happen naturally..but malangnya...I dont think I shud...sbb I think I need to slow down for now kot...Ummm...tapi...tak kan nk let go kan??Oooo..peningnyaa......

At a time like this..I wish I could be heartless!!ya..itu cakap org yg tak mahu face the truth...Umm...I am clueless..and I do think at least for tonite..I'm going to be heartless!!~

Okay...heartless...starts now.............

I am flattered~

It's 17th March, pagi2 woke up dah rasa excited to go to work..suddenly felt so confident..felt so pretty..felt amazingly sexy..hahaha~(Ooo..I feel sexy everytime I'm wearing heels..auww~)

It has been a good wednesday..but cuma ada sedikit jiwa kacau last nite..but overally..I feel so happy!!Happy sebab..sgt lah tak sangka ada orang itu sanggup bersusah payah..to do things..and hoping that we can meet up during office hour..haha~
Okay..it happen that yesterday, I was suppose to go and pick up all the OSP (Offshore Safety Passport) for my company with En Z since I'm dealing everything with him regarding this OSP. Nak jadikan cerita, before I went to work I did told Encik jejaka PCSB that maybe I'm going to his office and meet up with En Z, his colleague....being him..wahh..sgt lah beria-ria want to settle kan all my OSP...hehe!!

Nak jadikan cerita, my boss is a very cool guy but he does not really love the idea of me dealing with clients or meeting with clients since he rather send out a man to do those things..okay..maybe he is a bit protective atau over protective kot....oleh itu..instead of me yg suppose to meet En Z to ambil all my OSP, my boss asked my colleague (a guy) to do so. What funny is, I was thinking that En Z will deliver me all the OSP, but it happen En jejaka PCSB yang actually deliver those OSP!!hahaha...he was so frustrated sampai text me and said,"penat2 I siapkan OSP you..sekali org lain yg muncul..lemah semangat.." wahhh...so sweet...sungguh terharu yg he is willing to do all the things sdgkan..it was not his part..dah la tuh..baru jer pulang dari outstation terus bertungkus lumus siapkan my OSP..alaaa...terharu....huu~

I thought there are no more drama, but suddenly I received a call from a quite familiar number. At first, I thought it was En Z, rupa2 nya..En jejaka PCSB...konon2 nya menyamar jadi seorang yg profesional at work..siap mrh lagi and ask me to be profesional..haha~
Okay...terima kasih byk2..sebab sanggup bersusah payah...thanks for making me happy..Yes, I am truly flattered by your efforts...and owhh..our secret almost terbongkar laa...it is your fault okay...siapa suruh byk sgt kawan dgn my field staffs?? It is hard to sorok2 okay when they actually ask me about you...gila kantoi~ish2....

Walaubagaimanapun, I feel a bit confused and worry laa...sbb I do think you have a unfinish business to take care of...better be done with it sbb it does not make me feel good..by all means..I pray that it's nothing to do with me...aminnn~okay you are going to have a week holiday..sungguh xaci!!have fun!!~


p/s: Err...don't let encik2 boss tahu okay...I am super dead if kantoi...peace~

Excited menghabiskan duit??

Currently my family semua sedang excited!!!Excited nk menghabiskan duit!!Yes..call us crazy..but this is what happen to us now..weee~GILA2.....

Oleh yg demikian (ayat skema buat karangan SPM) secara tidak langsung...saya have to mengumpul duit dari sekarang..it means starting March my gaji are strictly forbidden utk digunakan membeli sebarang new bags/jeans/clothes..dan apa2 yg sengkatan dgn nya!!! Sound sadis kan??OMG!!terpaksa jadi separuh gila menahan nafsu dari bershopping!!!Ooo...I've been asking my self the same question??mampu ke??hehe~



Oo...while I was browsing other ppl facebook..then suddenly my eyes caught this nice leather jacket yg I really wish I could have it!!!Maybe saya should just grab it without any regrets..lagi pun..bulan 6...I do think I'm going to use it too!!wee~Suka2....okay2...sila kumpul duit yer anak2 ku sekalian...another 3months to go!!!!



But still...I am pretty sad since I have to change my car punya minyak hitam using my own money!!!benci okay!!tapi fikir2 balik...it's okay..once baba pulang ke Kl...I will ask for my money back..hehe!!!I lap u baba!!~



Ooo...I just bought this new maxI DRESS...do I look okay with this dress??bukan apa...I am short(si ketot) okay..so sometime...I do have this lack of self esteem in term of dressing up..hehe!! I need opinions ya kwn2 ku...

okay ke??

tiba2~

Okay..I bet everyone wonder...how come tiba2...I was happy again??Ya...currently I am happy....bukan sebab si 'Dia' yg pernah came to my house (the one yg I did mention on my post yg lama2 dulu)...but I am happy sebab suddenly all things seems to be in place...happy sebab I had my beautiful girlfriends yg always ada with me..yg always there when I'm sad..when I'm happy...and not to forget..my mum..yg always there..giving me all the support...eventho she actually xsabar nk to have a menantu but still she is an amazing mum!!Love you mama!!!

Okay...I do admit..it must be something to do with guy when I am this happy kan??hehehe....
well...sort of I guess...happy like this 10 years old girl yg always beaming..and smiling....thanks to you!!you make me happy..eventho maybe untuk sementara..but still..I am happy sebab you!!

Happyyyyyyyy................~

I know you are in a plane right now on the way to Miri..again..I know..you tak happy...but still please do enjoy yourself while working!!~

I had a wonderful weekend!!

Okay..eventho I had been scold sbb dah langgar waktu curfew..but still last weekend mmg sgt happening!!I know...I'm going to be a 25 years old lady but still ada waktu curfew...pelik kan??saya pun pelik gak...tapi bila fikir2 balik...ya..whatever mama...as long you are happy then we are happy...pekak kan telinga sudah..like my nenek said..hehe~


On 6th March,


My day start with a birthday wish to sum1...sum1 yg need to grow up already...please be seorang lelaki sejati okay..hehe~


Then, on the afternoon I went to one of my oldest classmate yg happen to be the 1st one to get married!!!Siapa sangka??She always been like this girl yg ganas2...but end up turn into this beautiful young lady..I am so happy for you Sunia!!Finally..one of us are married...next to be married will be Arif Majmi, followed by Alya..then ........Sila ambil nombor giliran yer masing2....hehe~


We had so much fun...mengenang kembali kisah2 semalam...we had fun laughing about our silly faces...and it is nice to see that all of my classmate semua turn up to be somebody!!You can see that there are engineers, doctors, future lecturers, auditor, and even yg jadi business man pun ada...When I think back...siapa tahu...12 years after..all of us akhirnya berjaya menjadi seseorang!!congrats to ALL!!


Ooo...and we did went to visit our old class teacher!!Okay..time tuh agak emotional since Cikgu Mazlinda also did cried sbb she also tak sangka yg her old pupils still remember her...hehe!!Love you cikgu!!Seriously..you are the best teacher I ever had!!

Okay..on 7th March,



My day start as early as 10 am...have to bgn awal...since I have already promised to my chicas that we are going to have fun talking/gossiping/updating each other stories....mmg super excited to meet them since the last time we did went out was about few months ago.....lama kan??

Things went out well...and it happen I had fun celebrating that sum1 birthday...and had to MMS setiap detik celebration yg dilakukan...huhu~funny2....


Meeting with these girls will only lead to one place which is sushi king since we all heart japanese foods!!And yes...everytime we met, I can say that we spent most of our time talking2...rambling2..and laughing2....yes...we didnt do anything except eating/talking/eating/talking...hahaha~


What else did we do then??OOooo..yes...we love to camwhoring mcm org gilaaa....hahaha~every minutes..every seconds..you can see all cameras flickering..and if takde camera pun..phone camera pun jadi..hehe~

At the end of the day...semua dah penat..byk sgt cakap..too many laugh that we shared sampai nk amik picture time kt coffee bean pun cam dah kurang excited..huhu~Overally we had the greatest fun eventho we didn't do lots of activities..next stop will be Genting I guess...and perhaps we should bawak photographer to snap our pictures instead of snapping our pictures sendiri kan....yelah..tangan I parkinson..memang tak reti amik pictures..huhu~



Last but not least!!!I love you girls...and thanks for making me happy...thanks for always be there for me!!LOVE2~

Birthday Orang~

Last weekend..it happen to be sum1 birthday.....And since He can't celebrate his own birthday so I did have a small celebration for him..hehe!!Thanks to my chicas..you girls happen to be so cool celebrating his birthday with me..love you girls sampai mati!!

Happy birthday to you...

Happy birthday to you...

Happy birthday to ..........

Happy birthday to you..............

Happy 24th birthday!!!

(Hate it when you are younger than me okay!!)

What did I do to celebrate his birthday was,

I'm eating a cake for him

I'm eating sushi & ramen for him

I eating a melon sherbet for him...

Everything about his celebration is all about food!!I know you are so jealous about me celebrating your birthday without you...no worries..insyallah next year..we will celebrate it together okay??hehe....(If and only if you are in KL ya...)

p/s: Next time make sure you are in Kl during March..instead of in some other remote places whereby you can only see crocodiles everyday...hee~

Life yg busy~

Dear Gadis kecil,

Lately..I am too busy to update..maybe later tonite or tomorrow nite I will update....

Actually I have too many things to tell..especially on...........(special edition okay)

Currently I am blogging in office before 8.30am...before I turn into this robotic human being yg only know how to cari money dan money....Yes I am addicted to RM (RINGGIT MALAYSIA)

I see you later gadis kecil~

p/s: money itu penting..like one of my girlfriend said, Love is money~wink**

Weekend yg dinantikan

Tak sabar tunggu esok...

Esok I'm going to meet my old primary school friends...

We are going to celebrate our first classmate yg get married!!

Congrats Sunia!!!

Excited to meet my friends esok..we are going to laugh & have fun mcm org gila esok..

And yes..it's someone's birthday esok...and esok la I wish you okay...
(U are goin to belanja me if I wish u exactly at 12 AM right??)wink**


On Sunday...

I'm going to spend a day with my lovely gadis2 cantik!!

Excited to shop & to gossip as well...

Lots to updates with my gadis2..meet me on Sunday ya gadis2 ku...

Hopefully things are going well for me..Pray for you ALLAH....let me be happy & stay happy..aminnn~

Happy ke??

Latest update with jejaka PCSB...

We have start to talk..which is a good sign..it happen we are actually study in the same uni!!

Gila tak??sometimes the least expected things happen kan??what funny is his faculty is next to mine but we never did met..I wonder why??maybe we have actually terserempak kot but time tuh buta hati mmg tak nampak lelaki laen..hehe~

He seems cool but I did learn few things from my past, "Don't judge book by it's cover" so I'm just glad we have started on being friend.

I'm happy ker??Yes I am..haha!!So let us be friends okay Jejaka PCSB or you want me to call you budak KLCC??hehe..

Okay...later I will update on you okay Jejaka PCSB..
(Ooo..it's his birthday esok.. 6th March??ironi isn't it??)LOL~

Crab Soup made in Ampang!!!

Helo Gadis Kecil...I know..you miss me..I've miss you too!!(perasan..ckp dgn diri sendiri..gila sadis..)

As promise..I'm going to share with anda semua 'how to make the simplest crab soup ever'...

Sumpah...mak tak tipu nyah..mmg senang sekali and you don't have to be a good cook...because I'm also not a good cook but still at least I did impress someone kan??wink**

what you need is:

bawang besar/red onion also acceptable

bawang putih (I love garlic!!so when I cook..I love to use lots of garlic!!)

black pepper (it depends on you...you can put chillis if you want but for soup I prefer pepper)

ketam bunga (make sure siang elok2 naa...)

kiub Know (ini bahan wajib!!)

Suon - (yg ni yang adik beradik bihun tuh but bukan bihun..)

what you have to do:

1. As usual, 1st you have to tumbuk all the tumis ingredient like bawang besar,bawang putih & black pepper..make sure tumbuk until it halus but if you are too lazy to tumbuk or tak larat pegang lesung batu you can use your blender ya...


2. Then, go panas kan your periuk/belanga, and without any further a do please campak all the tumis ingredient inside the periuk okay...make sure you stir it.


3. Once you tgk your tumisan mcm dah naik bau, then pour in some water and boil it for a while maybe dlm 5 minutes should be okay..now we wait yaa....


4. After that, dgn segala hormatnya..ltk kan ketam2 yg telah siap di siang ke dlm periuk and let it boil until you tgk all the ketam mcm dah nampak empuk2 gitu...


5. Remember to put salt & all the suon inside the soup and let it boil for a while & last but not least before I terlupa, sila masukkan kiub ayam Know inside the soup to make it more sedap.

Senang je kan??It only took me less than half an hour to make it...but if you prefer to put more ingredient into it, feel free to add on. Perhaps you can add on petola or eggs ke..boleh je...

That is why, people say when it come to cook all you have to do is campak2 jer...if sedap tuh means jadi la...

Selamat mencuba!!

- Crab Soup buatan ampang~