We break each other's heart nak??

Current obssession....wink**

I think2 laaaa.....

I think kan.......


Org itu still looking for me laaa....but maybe he is to afraid to approach me....


I think kan....


Org itu still care about me..but he don't know how to show it.....


I think kan.....


Org itu want to settle things with me...but he is too afraid to start kot....


I tell you laa....kepada org itu....enough is enough...things happen already...Ya..mostly it is ur fault..because..you make me suffer....but still..I am not going to put all the blame on you because things happen for a reason...and part of it, maybe it is a test from god to me...'Life is like a wheel' you are not always going to be on top....now I'm going to keep smiling and cherish all the things I have...........

CHiLLex okay~

I have failed today.....sigh~

Yes...I have failed!!!

Planning to be sombong...planning to buat bodoh...but then..I end up spending time with you.....Owhh...I am so gilaaaa.......why O why Fatihah??

I was supposed to be chill...I was suppose to stay strong...but when you called....suddenly I can hear myself telling you..."Okay...I see you later.."Haihs~What la you??Can't even stay strong even for a day??Seriously gilaaaa......

I need to be kuat....I need a divertion!!Okay..maybe I shud start going out with other guys...What About DD guy??What about En Surveyor??Okay...please make up your mind Fatihah!!!

Okay peace!!

is Currently hurt and stupid...but I do think you are going to hurt her more..

In office..during lunch hour...feeling hurt...but not that hurt...hurt when I know..what had happen during the weekend...thanks to you..you didn't tell me anything..but I did know some how...and yes..it's hurt...when I have to swallow everything painfully....but I'm cool..as I promise to be cool no matter what..and I won't show how hurt I am in front of you..damn~


Call me stupid...yes..I am so stupid for letting you do this to me...but, what am I suppose to do bee??when I left you...you came to me...when I'm invisible...you keep searching for me??why me??what do you want from me??Yes...I can give you love...I can hug you when you sad..I can be your listener...but...what I am for you??


I wish I cud pity her..but I'm not...because..I do think she deserve it..I mean, she should know you better than me right??But it happen, I know you better...I know how bad are you..I know what kind a guy are you..Or perhaps..maybe you are a good actor..maybe you fake all your move with her..but why??You once said...'I haven't found sum1 who I can actually commit with..'wtf??then why are you still with her??Guess...at the end of the days...she's going to get hurt more deep than I do...since I know you...

Seriously, I happy to say...I'm going with the flow with you..but am not going to be with you always....one day I'm gone....

I'm heartless.....

I can't believe that I am this cool...wow~

(yaa....me smiling...and will keep on smiling....)

Seriously...I can't believe my self....I can't quite figure..how on earth that I suddenly become so strong..so damn tabah when I know the real 'him'..THE REAL SITUATION....knowing how it works between us??

Wow.....amazingly...I was smiling...and it happen...I'm not shocked..as if like I knew it was coming...gila2~

Sumpah...I was so cool...when he say those words...when he told me the truth.....I can even laugh with him...Call me GILA..but seriously I'm not mad at him....and I can even accept it!!

It's okay....maybe hari ini hari you...siapa tahu hari esok hari I.....and yes...maybe I am cool now...we will see...how cool are you when I'm about to do the same things you do...okay u~

Next level???

(hanya hiasan semata-mata)

Ya...we are in the next level/phase......

A stage where..'kentut pun wangi'.....'pijak semut pun tak mati'.....and yes..we were happy....but..for how long???Seriously avoiding this question......

It's okay....I just want to enjoy myself in this happy stage..a stage where I'm actually floating....please be strong wahai hati ku yg comel.....wink**

Currently in the mode of romantikus almost every single nite...been dreaming the same old tune...a tune when I was in romantikus mode with En chocolate...Please dear Hati...Don't keep falling..Hati keras please.........

Your Song..................

It's a little bit funny this feeling inside I'm not one of those who can easily hide I don't have much money but boy if I did I'd buy a big house where we both could live
If I was a sculptor, but then again, nOr a man who makes potions in a travelling show I know it's not much but it's the best I can do My gift is my song and this one's for you
And you can tell everybody this is your song It may be quite simple but now that it's done I hope you don't mind I hope you don't mind that I put down in words How wonderful life is while you're in the world
I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song It's for people like you that keep it turned on
So excuse me forgetting but these things I do You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue Anyway the thing is what I really mean Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen....

Untuk...???

I just can't help it..but to hate her.....

Okay...maybe the title is a bit exegerate...but trust me...I never tought that I could actually hate someone...sampai make an FB status especially for that woman...sigh~

Why do I hate her??Have she done anything to me??The answer would be...a BIG no...sumpah...she never did anything to me...but I HATE HER!!!yes....seriously....hate her...like...I cannot even see her face..seeing her face make me hate her even more deeper....Okay..I'm officially tension and it happen my head hurt like hell.....what's wrong la you kepala??if nak migrain pun...please pick another time okay....currently not in the mood to have migrain.....tension gua....T_T

I hate you perempuan for trying to be sum1 you are not.....

I hate you because..you don't even have a clue of what you are trying to say except to quote a sentence from an internet sources...(so lame...just to impress him okay...)

I hate you for pretending to loves all his favourites....and you even try to speak his language..wow...a good pretender...

And yes.....I hate you because you like him too...Ooopps..wrong sentence...actually you are in love with him....that is why I hate you.....Okay...call me jealous...yes..I am hopelessly jealous....jealous to a perempuan like you??OMG!!gila sadis.....chill okay Fatihah!!!

Okay..now I feel okay...finally...after I put all my anger into this blog...I feel so puas hati...eventho yes..I should just tell it to ur face but still, as a woman with high integrity (chewahhh~) I won't do anything....yes..I hate you...but I will do nothing....in fact..all I'm going to do..is just to see how it goes for you...good luck perempuan!!~

Okay..peace~

I've made up my mind...hooray~

Okay...I should be sad.....but I'm not...I'm just a bit dissappointed...ya..kecewa..that's how I felt...








I da give up on you...not because of you...but there are too many women are in love with you...








I do think you should choose it wisely...why???








Because those girls look like bimbo...you know..pretty but empty...okay...I guess ppl think I'm jealous...of course I am..who doesn't??(24/7 texting...nearby lak tuh..haihs~)








But..still...it is your life...your choice...so...deal with it wisely~








After En Chocolate...I thought..I will be doom..but end up..I'm okay..so seriously..yes..I am okay now...no worries...dear girlfriends......








Currently I don't want to think about anything else other than my sweet girlfriends...looking forward to see you girls on friday nite!!!








- I will be seeing you girls tomorrow nite......plus hana/cyrus/nad......

p/s: OOo....I just colored my hair....LOL~

Crazy mode at 1.25am in the morning~

I gila.......


I clueless.....


I hopeless......


I'm letting you go??(Need to think back...again..)


I think I better leave right now??(how to leave??you tell me...)


I will fight for you??(Don't think I have the gut to do so....)malas weyhh....perlu ke??


I think I'm going to kantoi sooner or later..damn~


I think I know Why I can't sleep at nite....(you la En chocolate..I nak move on pun ssh tau...sume psl you....T_T)


I tension.....


I need my gadis-gadis cantik......(Can't wait to see you girls on friday nite!!!)


To be continue.........................

Still in office..do the thinking....bluerghhh~

It's after office hour..and I still stuck in the office..why??Do I have TONs of works??OOOooo....definitely not...being me...work is to be done during office hour..not after office hour..unless..if it's too urgent..then I have too laa..since works pay the bills...wink**

Currently I feel quite frustrated...^o^


Jejaka PCSB is definitely in his car right now..heading home...sigh~I am frustrated because of you okay...SINCE it's a daily routine..everyday before you went home, you will at least text me..but today..against all the odd...you didn't call me..it was fine..but you didn't even text me..Ooohh..so not fine!!why lah??where have you been??

Maybe I should call..but...do I have too??Okay...I admit..yes..I am too damn ego to start everything....even to call you...and yes..even to text you...seriously I am a bit pissed....arghhh~

Okay..maybe I should just chill and relax...don't think....I hate when I turn into this pathetic person dependent on someone....wake up Fatihah!!!

I nak yang ni boleh???

"I've been alone with you inside my mind...." (You = rider jacket)




Chewahh..~Okay...I'll bet ppl think I'm crazy..yes...I sedang gila....gila sbb..I want this jacket badly!!!Dah lama cari....but still tidak ketemuan...kesedihan gua.....T_T





I nak yang ni......








Tapi I tamau this colour...I want black or dark brown laa...I really2 want this...where could I find it??Zara dah tade dah...Top shop??too expensive...Or shud I just buy it??
Ooo...just find out that F21 also ada...but this colour??I don't think so...since I prefer dark colour instead of white/creamy colour.....

If sape2 jumpa this kind of jacket..please do let me know ya....and if you find it...please buy it for me okay....TQ~
Jasa mu akan ku kenang sampai mati......wink**

Congratulation to Puan Dart!!!~

Congrats!!!Akhir nya..you are no longer a 'cik' and now I have to call you 'Puan' yer...huu~


I know Puan Dart thru Blog and FB...by knowing her..at least now I do know how to 'conteng ' my face..Thank you Puan Dart!!You are the one who thought me to use youtube as guidelines..mekaseh yaa~





Thanks to cik Yana(she is the next person to be wed..amin~) yg pantas meng'upload' the picture of Puan Dart's solemnization...so sweet...all in white..Okay..tiba2 mode nak kahwin increase...siapa nak jadi pengantin lelaki??angkat tangan cepat!!!(gara2 sbb mama tak sabar nak ada menantu..wink*)





Okay...I manage to curik picture from Yana's FB..(sorry dear..teheheee~) this is Puan Dart with her hubby~both sgt sepadan~wish you all the best in future undertaking Dart...^_~

p/s: Ooo..so sorry I can't go to your wedding Dart..but I will pray for your happiness always~

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU & SEMOGA BERKEKALAN SEHINGGA KE AKHIR HAYAT...Muahhhh2~

I think I'm going to leave right now.......................

I'm here, just like I said

Though it's breaking every rule

I've ever made My racing heart, is just the same;

Why make it strong to break it once again?

And I'd love to say "I do"; Give everything to you

But I could never now be true

So I say... I think I better leave right now

Before I fall any deeper

I think I better leave right now Feeling weaker and weaker

Somebody better show me how

Before I fall any deeper I think I better leave right now

I'm here, so please explain

Why you're opening up a healing wound again

I'm a little more careful, perhaps it shows

But if I lose the highs at least I'm spared the lows

Now I tremble in your arms

What could be the harm?

To feel my spirit calm?

So I say... I think I better leave right now

Before I fall any deeper I

think I better leave right now Feeling weaker and weaker

Somebody better show me how

Before I fall any deeper

I think I better leave right now

I wouldn't know how to say How good it feels seeing you today

I see you've got your smile back

Like you say - you're right on track

But you may never know why

Once bitten, twice as shy If I'm proud, perhaps I should explain

I couldn't bear to loose you again

Yes, I will. I think I better leave right now

Feeling weaker and weaker

Somebody better show me how

Before I fall any deeper... I think I better leave right now

Have you ever fall for sum1 husband??

Jeng3!!~Okay...by the title..I bet ppl will start thinking/wondering...apakah??mengapakah??siapakah??hehe...



Yess...previously I have actually fall for someone's hubby...I know...gila kan??hee~When I think back...I just can't believe that once I had this feeling for someone's husband...sumpah mmg kerja gilaaa.....huu~


Okay..let me rewind...............


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We know each other thru work..since he is one of the top level management in my company..serius...I never thought that I would fall for him...why??HELLO.....he is old (near 40 kot), he is sum1 hubby, and yes..he looks old....


But you know...they say...don't judge book by its cover...once I know him..sumpah..that feeling came out naturally....what make I like him??Senang jer...he is so charming...he is so bijak(my weakness...goshhh~)..he is this husband material type ok...that's why they said, it is easy to fall for someone husband kan??sebab they are sumthing about them..yg make us young women...look up to them...and yes...they know how to treat women...but by saying this, it does not mean yang it is digalakkan to be with suami orang yaa...ingat yer anak2...A BIG NO~





Okay..nak jadi kan cerita..since I know I had this feeling for him...what shud I do??Tak kan la nk proceed to the next level??Gilaaa ke hapa??laki org wehhh.....So...I do think I have to take action..sbb if nak harap kan si lelaki org ni...hampeh...sebab he always sort of like giving hope kot..gila charming everytime he talks to me...he treat me nicely okay...bayang kan la...from zero to at least 50% kot feeling tu datang..tq ya En R~Alhamdulillah...since the will is strong..and atas dorongan few close fren yg always keep on advising me to stay away from him...yes..finally...I have no feeling for him..okay..tipu lah kan...tade lah zero terus..but at least feeling itu under control..takdelah menggila like before...Tahniah Fatihah...anda berjaya untuk tidak merosakkan perkahwinan org lain..hehe~bangga okay!!huu~





Since I did stay away from...at last he received the message clearly kot yg tulis, "I don't want to have anything with you okay...you married already.."...so currently..yes..we still talking..we still friends..but limitation itu ada..when he start to go charming2...I was like...okay.."hati keras please..."hehe~and yes...saya berjaya...dah okay dah..wink**





Currently....I am okay...no feeling2 with suami orang...and my advise is, ia boleh dielakkan...you have to have the guts to do so..you must have the will to stay away...if saya boleh..I bet other women can...don't let ourself keep on terjerumus in that situation. It is because, at the end of the day, ppl are going to point finger at you...they will say that you are the reason why other ppl marriage ruin...in case like this..ppl wont blame on the men..they will keep on blaming at us women...so as a women..it is us..who must be strong to prevent this situation!!!!KITA BOLEH OKAY WANITA~





Tapi kan..tapi kan...sekarang saya suka flirt dgn En R nih..hahaha~why??sbb saja2..I just want to see how he act...haha~Memang I tabik la kt you En R..sbb you mmg cool..eventho I did flirted with him...but..he was so cool..and siap balas dgn kecharmingan nyaa....time dia dah tunjuk charming...apa lagi...mak pun lari la nyah...hehe~But no worries...it all under control..sbb hati gua dah keras bhai..wink2**(bagi mereka yg hati masih lembut jgn flirt ok..bahaya..kang fall balik.mmg hampeh la...)

- En R -

(gambar perlu digelapkan atas sbb2 tertentu)

Cerita tentang si Jejaka PCSB~

Dah lama saya tak update tentang dia...

Ada apa dengan dia??Owwhhh..he works with PCSB (dang...gua mmg pantang btl dgn org ada kerjaya hebat nih..sigh~)/Lagi...I love his hair...auww~/OO..he definitely have style/Lagi...sebab dia caring kot??Okay...I am officially falling for him...tetapi???Yes...masih ada tetapi..kerana saya takut..afraid to really commit to sum1 sbb I do know..he do have a lots of other friends..by friends I mean kawan perempuan yer...sbb I know..there are lots of other girls yg hoping for you en PCSB...tell me I'm wrong..but you know I'm right kan??

The other day..I am so happy..happy sbb you accompany me to dinner..you were suppose to teman jer..but end up you yg mkn gila2....happy sbb you willing to balik lmbt tgu dkt office...happy sbb you sggp jalan tmn I pergi parking lot..happy sbb you willing to wait..but when I think back..well.semua lelaki begitu di awal2 perkenalan..but once dah enter comfort zone..mula laa....they definitely back to their own routine...'I do my thing..you do your thing..but please don't cheat!!'WTF?? Serius..sometimes..I hate men!!haha~

Currently...I am officially clueless...dah tak tahu nk fikir apa...I have talk about this stuff with my few close gf..and what they did told me is just..keep treat him nicely..give it all I've got..as men also have to choose..if he did have byk candidates..then let him be..let him choose the right one..someone yg he think can cope will all his shit & stuff...betul ke??Am I doing the right thing of letting him choose??Should I keep fighting for his love??Okay..I think I should just chill...LOLz~

PGCE

What is PGCE??Okay..I bet most of us pun tak tahu wth is PGCE..me too..before I work in this industry, yes..I am clueless with all the term use in this industry..gila blurr....but now, I'm proud to say..I know it well..and sumtime I do think I am capable of borak2 with all the ppl in this industry..hehe~Okay..hidung tinggi sekejap~

PGCE or it's full name is, PETROLEUM GEOLOGY CONFERENCE & EXHIBITION is a yearly event which will be held/sponsored by those big guns in Oil & Gas industries. Usually, they will sponsor this such event to make sure other O&G companies will join them and give their supports..especially in term of money la kan...huhu~It happen that, every year OFFSHORE WORKS will definitely be part of this exhibition since as an O&G service provider we have to market our company in term of our services, new technology & equipment. This year we did purchase a new equipment called the AUV (Automotive Underwater Vehicle). What so cool about this equipment is that it is a self service equipment which everytime we run this AUV, our vessel can do other job instead of doing the site survey too. This AUV can go until 3000m depth. Cool kan??actually this thing kecil jer...but the cost itself..Masyaallah~Mengucap den.....

Ape lagi best at PGCE??Ooo....sgt la seronok..sbb we can cuci mata as well..haha~Sumpah mak tak tipu nyah....ramai jejaka gorgeous okay...no need to ngorats..juz cuci mata sudah...hee~

Umm..what else??OOoo..just so you know,since company yg take part in this event mostly are big companies, so practically they are quite generous in giving away lots of free stuffs okay. It can be umbrealla, bags, books, calenders...and etc~I did get a new bag..it's a DEUTER okay...but we deserve it since we paid RM300 for the exhibitor pass kan...and guess what...I did berjaya memujuk mamat TALISMAN!!haha...for that we managed to get another bag..thanks to TALISMAN!!

Exhibitors of the day

Owhh...actually I love this umbrella from SCHLUMBERGER..but to have that umbrella..I have to sit there and hear their talks about their latest technology..arghhhh~malas kot...at the end of 2days...still I tak dapat pun that umbrella...huu~kesedihan okay....It is such a good experience for me..talking to the clients..marketing our company..and had free lunch sponsored by SHELL & MUDABALA...waa...feels like heaven..hehe~And guess what..I learn a lot this past 2days..TQ OFFSHORE WORKS!!

- The day before..booth is in the making~

- 2nd day at PGCE~

seminggu ku meninggal kan kamu......

Okay..it have been a week...what happen in a week??

• Ooo...I've met En Z for the first time...he is nice..thank you En z for helping me a lot!! (Sorry jejaka PCSB...I know u are mad coz I went to your building when you are not there..wink**)
• I think I'm falling into deep...yes..I'm still in denial..but..whatever..don't really care dah...shuhh2...love2 go away...~
• Umm..sometimes..the least expected things happen..I never thought that he likes me..okay...officially pening~(sort of feel guilty towards jejaka pcsb...sigh~)
• Goin to be an MC for the next Concon event...thank you very much~
• Ooo...goin to be a 'gadis booth' this upcoming monday n tuesday...hooray...no need to work except just standing and do the smiling and take a good care of the clients...wee~
• Just had the best pizza ever at Yellow cab with nani...sgt berbaloi for not having lunch on that day...huu~

See..in a week..so much things happen..that's why, people say..things happen..and we never know what's future hold for us...yes..I always wish for a good things to happen..but itu la...I can't control the future..so what ever happen next..mama say, put on a smile...and keep smiling...weee~

Ooo...tomorrow I'm going to wear a legging for the 1st time..tak sabar...I will update you esok gadis kecil...maybe esok I'm going to meet him..but not sure yet..but what ever happen esok..I will keep smiling....wink**

Hindustan O Hindustan~

Oooo...I love hindustan movies!!The old hindustan movies ye kwn2...saya rindu nak tgk Shah Rukh Khan menari...rindu nak nanges2 dpn tv layan hindustan...rindu nak feeling/emosi terganggu after tgk hindustan....Damn...I miss those moment!!!~

Ya...I love to menangis.....I don't know why..maybe sbb during mama were pregnant with me..she cries a lot I guess...(ish2..baba...sian mama..)It's okay...sbb menangis itu boleh membersih kan mata ye anak2...wink*

My favourite hindustan movies will be definitely all movies with SRK in it!!Ya..I know..he is not that handsome..if we compare him with Arjun Rampal for example...Helo...mmg confirm Arjun mng okay!!But to tell you the truth, there are something about SRK that when we watch him on-screen, he has that thing that can lure us to watch him!!First movie of him that caught my attention was Dulhania Dilwale Le Jayengge (correct me if I'm wrong)....OMG!!movie itu sgt best!!And guess what..Kajol looks so damn hot dlm movie tuh...and yes..I did cried mcm org mati laki while watching it!!

Okay..next movie is my all time favourite which is 'Kuch Kuch HOta Hai'....Okay...movie ini mmg sgt lah superb...To tell you the truth...saya siap ada compilation album utk semua lagu dlm filem ini okay!!Semua nya..sbb SRK!!Saya sgt suka anda SRK!!Sometimes I do think of how lucky ur wife to have you..huhu~

And then...comes the "MOHABBATEIN"...oKAy...movie ini make me believe about love..yelah..time tuh I was 17 years old..u know time baru2 nk learn about love..hee!!Mohabattein is entirely about love...about how we are willing to do anything when it comes to love..ya...love is blind..it makes ppl do crazy things kan??sometimes ppl willing to let go the absolutely important things in life when in love....that is why they say, when it comes to love use your brain...but it is easy for others to say..but kena batang hidung sendiri..barulah tahu...langit itu tinggi atau rendah..betul tak??hee~

Actually, last night I've watched KKKG (Kabhi Kushi Kabhi Gham) with mama...
Okay..eventhough we had watched this movie for like 100th times kot..but still both of us menangis macam orang gilaaa...both of us were crying and we accidently telah menghabiskan almost sekotak tisu okay...huu~tapi hati kami puas walaupun baba cam bising2...I'll bet baba jealous tgk mama nanges sebab tgk SRK kan...well...biasa la...kami mmg pantang sket tgk hindustan..kna plak..both me n mama..hati mmg mudah tersentuh...chewahhh~(for this movie also I have the compilation album..wee~)

Oleh kerana....currently saya sdg dlm hindustan mode so I keep on download all hindustan songs with SRK in it!!nanti boleh feeling2 before tido..suka2....come2...let us menangis sama2...

p/s: Ooo...been missing to watch hindustan sorang2 kt laptop and feeling sorg2..mayb next weekend nk buat laaa....

Weng~

Hari ini...saya rasa sungguh weng~

Bukan saya tak happy..ooo..I am happy today, by having those girlfrens of mine in office and by having colleagues yg best dan cool!!Mekaseh semua......@_@

But I do feel a bit weng...entah la...I don't know why..when it comes to a guy..I selalu gilaaa....
Okay it start with a feeling...a feeling yg I think I shud just let it go..perlu ke I let it go??Maybe I do like him..what's not to like??every single day we sort of like have this rigid daily routine...as a women..yes..we are easily fall for sum1 yg always be there for us kan??betul tak??As for me..yes...once that sum1 dah capture my heart mmg confirm..lelaki lain msk line pun..mmg xnmpk..sbb dlm hati dah set org tuh je laaa.....payah okay....

Truthfully...I still thinking that sum1..when I shudnt be...nak wat camne kan??he is the first guy yg btl2 make my eyes open towards a relationship yg serious but a dumb me..akhirnya I found that he is not that serious kot..it's okay...in life we have a lot to learn..terhantuk sekali it does not mean, it is end of the world right??I take it as a positive heart broken..haha~ya..I sounds tabah..but it is not easy okay..after lots of crying and an eating disorder problem..finally...I realize yg life have to goes on...yes..it is painful...only ALLAH knows how hard it is to let go of sum1 so dearly to me..but I do believe..HE knows what's best for me..one day there will be sum1 for me....

Ooo..berbalik to the main issue, yes..currently I do think once again..i fell for sum1...well..it is definitely not like before..this feeling is not that strong...but still..being with that sum1..make me happy...sumpah happy okay...I know...I am supposed to stay happy and just let things happen naturally..but malangnya...I dont think I shud...sbb I think I need to slow down for now kot...Ummm...tapi...tak kan nk let go kan??Oooo..peningnyaa......

At a time like this..I wish I could be heartless!!ya..itu cakap org yg tak mahu face the truth...Umm...I am clueless..and I do think at least for tonite..I'm going to be heartless!!~

Okay...heartless...starts now.............