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It went well. Alhamdulillah. I have a lot to thank especially to our beloved Allah.

Am so blessed indeed. I pray for this to last In Sya Allah. Only YOU knows what is matter the most inside kan.

Dear Hati,

No matter what life threaten you in near future, remember...only to Allah we can hope and pray. So do be strong okay.

Dear Awak,

Thank you for eventually and so suddenly came into my life.

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Pray

3 Calendar days to go...Nervous??Of course....Hopefully this is what Allah S.W.T planned for me In Sya Allah. He knows better.

I found a quote.

"Janganlah simpan seseorang dalam hati. Hati itu berbolak balik sifatnya. Simpanlah seseorang dalam doa. Kerana doa itu tercatat di langit selamanya."

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Too Early

It is too early. I know…but Alhamdulillah…pelangi itu pastikan tiba selepas hujan bukan??

Tuhan lebih mengetahui. For now, let us be content and be blessed.

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I wish I could be as active as before to update this little blog of mine. However, I do not have such time to devoted myself to write. Though only god knows I have tons of stories to share. 

Thanks to Instagram, I update my daily activities in Insta mostly. Yes, welcome to 21st century where social networks play the biggest role in our life. I am clearly can't live without internet connection. LOL

My life nowadays are all about works ad family of course. Nothing much has change and I am proud to say I am yet to have a boyfriend. Well, yes..the "boyfriend things" might sound cheesy but hey, it is not that I do not want to have someone to attached to, it is just that I have met wrong guys always. Well, I believe in god always so I believe that HE has plans for me. Maybe now I sound a bit optimistic but trust me, am not all optimistic when it comes to love. It is okay, at least I have a roof on my head, I have friends and families around me and I am still alive. One ought to grateful right??

Happiness is a choice so I choose to be happy. Alhamdulillah I am happy. Am so looking forward for tomorrow's raya, though it is only a day and I shall spend the next day on-wards busy with works. Sigh~ Yes, I use to say I am happy when I am busy. Well, I am happy but being too busy sometimes take a troll on myself as I am becoming skinny and I eat less which is not good for my well being. I use to weight 40KG, I wonder what is my current weight...Plus I am fasting today, so I guess my weight just go down under. Sobbss~

Okay, pictures please...these below pictures were taken last month when my beloved project manager belanja us makan..I can't wait for birthday to come!!

my beloved PM (Alex Wong)

This one is ngada2 picture where it was taken yesterday! LOL

OK BYE!

Wedding baby saya

Congratulation baby girl!!

It was a short trip and a good trip. We had fun eating and camwhoring, I love you girls always...

MMCRIANS

My raya

Raya yg so not raya because we had a holiday instead of visiting relatives.

Well we do have our shares of raya, we donning our raya by visiting on 1st raya & 2nd raya.

Alhamdulillah...I was not expected much from raya, however we had fun nonetheless!!

One day!

No Mood For Raya

I always dream to have a perfect life tough the fact is, we can’t have it all. There are no rules when it comes to life but there are rules on how we live our life. As a Muslim, we are bound with our religion. One can always have a good life as long as one live in accordance to Islam. But, no life is a perfect life.

How I wish I could elaborate more on kesusahan hati but a wise man once told me, “Nothing you tell people can actually ease the burden inside, if you want to heal your heart and soul back to basic Fatihah. Allah is always there to listen and help. Go seek HIS help and ask for HIS mercy”. Okay, this literally makes me cry. I always said to myself, though life gives you thousand reasons to cry, smile instead and be blessed. I am blessed indeed but deep down only god know how life is for me.

Alhamdulillah…I feel content indeed though there are few holes yet to be close inside but as a muslim, one should always remind yourself not to be too greedy in life. You may see how happy a person can be but you shall never know what one kept inside.

I know, I am not supposed to be this gloomy especially when we are about to celebrate our Raya. To be honest, nothing about Raya excites me this year.

Anyway, Selamat Hari Raya to all Muslims. May we have a bless Raya and may Allah bless us always.

P/s: Appearance can be deceitful sometimes.What you may see with your eyes may not be the truth. Remember Allah knows better. 

-the ladies at work-

-my cutest Aariq-

-the foods-

-ootd-

-the gedz-

Cooking is my new hobby

My love to cook came suddenly out of the blue.

Those who know me well, especially my family should know that I am not into cooking. However these past few months change my perspectives when it comes to cooking.

Cooking now is one of my own pet project. Obviously, I love foods....Foods make me happy and cheerful. Nowadays, I find cooking is one of the most enjoyable thing to do. Especially when other people love your foods, I am flattered indeed plus it makes me want to cook even more.
I shall try on having black pepper meat this weekend and perhaps try myself on desserts. Desserts is definitely not my forte. Am not good when it comes to dessert..I wonder why....Probably my hands are not soft enough to bake kot....

Here are my latest cookings...

Sotong ala Thai

Daging goreng Kunyit

I shall share both recipes later insyaallah...I am so looking forward to cook and cook and cook...

Bye!

Lapar

I know I am not supposed to say "Lapar" but seriously,  I am indeed lapar..sebab fasting to be exact plus I have this so called "sambal goreng" on my table. *Haihss

Seriously looking forward for tomorrow's sahur...sebab sebab sebab..ada sambal goreng!!!

Ohh..picture on top has nothing to do with foods, I just love the above picture! Heee

Ohh...mari bersabar!!

Pre Raya (katanya)

Ini baru Pre Raya.....<3 p="">

Ramadhan

Salam Ramadhan…

Here we are, Alhamdulillah, we are still alive to face ramadhan this year. Frankly, I find myself in peace but not rest in peace (RIP) because I am not dead yet. It is true indeed, practice makes perfect, when you tend to do things daily and regularly you found that you can’t even stand the thought of not doing it. Thank you tuhan.

It is July already, how time flies so quickly nowadays. It still feels like yesterday that we just enter 2013.

I am secretive nowadays; I am too busy keeping most of the things to myself and I am rather not to share my thoughts on certain things

Why?

Because our world are full with twisted tongue people, when you said “A”, they shall translated it to “B”. Therefore, senyap itu lebih mudah.

It has been awhile since I last share some pictures, Below are the latest pictures of mine.

With my baby girl Adik!!!

with Little Bro!

With my pretty colleagues

May we have a bless Ramadhan!

So cooking is not my passion

Though I always thought that I am not good when it comes to cooking, I found myself enamored with the idea of cooking lately.

Lately my weekend routines is to cook. I know it is weird....

So here is my so called awesome Papriks!!

hehe....

I know, it may not look as awesome as you guys PUNYA paprik but to be honest, I am happy with mine!! Mine as always...is pedas as it looks. 

How to make Paprik? Err....frankly...I google my own recipe...LOL~

ok bye!

Cooking is not my passion

Yes, cooking is never my passion so does cleaning, washing and all. Yes, How lah to be woman yg sejati when you don't even like to house chores kan??I bet people would say I am pemalas kan??It is okay...simply to say, I do my own thing at my own time. Yes, I do not like to do house chores buy still I am doing it. Because as a malay woman, you don't have to choice,malay minded kan...betapa tinggi pun seorang wanita itu belajar, she still have to masuk dapur kan.

Since I am fasting today,,,typical me....I was thinking about foods as always. I know it is not good to be thinking of foods when you are fasting but I can't help it but to think plus I was thinking to cook myself paprik ayam today. Dapnyaaaa....

Ya, I can cook but only simple dish. Do not ask me to cook such foods yg susah because I am happy to say, I do not know how. LOL~

By the way, the other day I cook one of my favourite dish which is daging masak merah. Mine is always the hottest and the spiciest. I love spicy foods!!

This is my creation of daging masak merah.

Terliur tak??sedap nyaaa....but I bet my today ayam paprik are going to be lagi awesome!

Okay time to google recipe!!Yes, I do google recipe because I love variety!!

My god byk IDC....ok bye....

Susah??

Sometimes I do wonder why lah it is always seems susah for me but yet it seems so easy for other people....

I ask mama, She said, "The best things is always the hardest to get". Okay maybe betul. Tapi tapi tapi...I can't help but to envy.

Fine....sifat envy itu is not good kan...But I guess it is okay to envy and maybe by being envy it can actually motivate yourself to be better kot??Hurrmm...am I change into a better person??I try to be one, though cakap itu mudah.Bukan senang hendak jadi baik...setiap hari pun perlu strive to be better than yesterday.

Kenapalah susah sgt?Kenapa perlu bersusah payah?Kenapalah perlu begitu bekerja keras?

Hati is very sedih and air mata has been a good friend of mine for quite a while. **sigh

Heard a very good news last week, yes I was happy but deep down I was pitying myself even more.

Maybe saya judge book by its cover cause sometimes apa yg kita nampak tidak semestinya betul. To know something is to learn about it not to simply judge it. Tuhan kan maha adil, He gives you this but He takes something from you. Life are never fair kot but it is balance.Let us sama-sama accept that we can't have it all.

:)

p/s: Sungguh active saya update blog today, well I was simply not busy and sedang malas.

Terlalu...

Terlalu bubly.....Terlalu peramah....Terlalu gelabah....

Terlalu dan Terlalu dan Terlalu.....

Sometimes I hate this side of me...

Sabar ya Fatihah

:)

Sudah Lama

Hello Blog saya yg terpinggir....

Sudah lama saya tidak menulis. Saya rindu menulis..Saya hendak mencuba untuk menulis dalam bahasa melayu sepenuhnya but seriously I can’t..maybe sebab on daily basis, I am using bahasa rojak which is a combination of both Malay and English and it becomes “Manglish”.

To be honest, sekarang my life is a bit serene. Finally…segala isu Carigali & Exxon telah berjaya ku atasi…Err…tapi tidak semua, still have those small2 issues yg pending tapi life is a bit relax sedikit. Akhirnya saya sudah boleh berhenti menangis…hehe!! Yes, I did cry a lot okay sebab terlampau stress…bila ingat balik, I do feel stupid. LOL~

Disebabkan stress, my blood pressure go up and I was even diagnosed on nearly having a hypertension…hahaha…Ini sgt funny….Err…I know it is not suppose to be funny but for me, it is funny sebab normally saya selalu low blood…maybe sebab saya kecil dan kurus kot..tetapi saya always think yg saya gemuk…Why??Because I am self conscious always..HAHA~Yes, I do diet sometimes…Eventhough people keep telling me that saya terlalu kecil or kurus sgt…Seriously dear friend, I don’t care…I have to diet okay!! Sebab…sebab…sebab..SAYA KETOT!!!

Terlalu banyak yg I wish I could say in my blog but I do think my blog is not that private anymore. Orang cakap tidak elok memendam rasa…but hey, sometimes by being silent itu lebih mudah…

Kerja??I love my current job but is there are any opportunities out there yg worth a try, why not kan??But maybe bukan sekarang kot..I still have a lot to learn…Thank you Alex, you groomed me a lot!!

Ohh…So Alex dikatakan my scandal and saya dikatakan sentiasa mengampu Alex??Suka hati lahh..I know myself more than anyone else. Orang jealous memang begitu kan..LOL~

Till next time perhaps...May Allah bless us always….

Mari Mengundi!

See...even my title actually try to persuade each of Malaysian to vote! It is time for us to choose so kindly choose wisely.

Politics??In Malaysia...it might not as dirty as other asian Country. But still, it is filthy dear friends. Political is all about having an agenda. Each parties shall have their own agenda and manifesto. If you ask me on whom I support the most? Well, I shall give my cryptic answers, you know sort of like not directly answering the question but sort of like explaining the question..hehe!!

let me just say...we need a wind of change. I think it is time to change and not afraid of changes.

Yes, changes can be good or it can be bad. However, we won't know the outcomes unless we try. That is why, most people always said, "Belum cuba, belum tahu". But I notice, being Malaysian and malay, most of us are afraid of changes. Malay mmg begini...dari dulu lagi, malay is always the hardest. That is why it is hard for us to compete with other race. I am not here to critic my own race but lets face the fact that we are weak. The close example, let us take a good look of chinese people. They are always known as the hardworking people and if you watch the movie 2012, they even recognize the chinese and said that only China can make things possible. Of course...even nowadays, they can even clone the Iphone and other gadgets. Us malay??hurmmm...even bangsa sendiri pun we are willing to tipu hidup-hidup kan??

Some people might say that I am anti goverment. Well, trust me...I am not actually. I am just sick seeing how people nowadays are simply being fooled by goverment agenda. Our goverment are not entirely corrupted. I know some of them are still good people and try their best to be the best. However, there are plenty of them whom actually does not even care about our country. All they care is to gain more money and be more rich. Yes, money is important...hey..I love money too. But how could someone having more money without even think about other people??Well, that is what happened to most political people nowadays. We are blinded by money to even think about other people kan??

Sebab duit, one of the best person in PETRONAS was been asked to leave. Why??Because he won't allowed the use of PETRONAS money to simply bail out other company and other unnecessary things. Yes, PETRONAS is a GLC (goverment link company) but there are limits on bailing out other company or even to use PETRONAS money for unnecessary cause. We have the advantage on having such person in Malaysia, but yet we push him away. Currently he works as an advisor for Chevron (US company) See....even outsider recognize his talent but us Malaysian??What Malaysia need is someone who can say "YES" always to a leader with no question ask. Poor PETRONAS...I pity you...

I do not know how other people minds work but I clearly know how mine does. That is why, when it comes to politics, I choose to stay silent and not to argue with anyone. I mean, people have their own opinions. I won't blame other people for their belief as I have mine as well. Cuma I pity some people yg bila anda berpolitik, anda tend to attack his/her personal life. Politics is about explaining your manifesto and not to attack his/her personal life. And please bear in mind, things that you accused might not be true. Fitnah itu lebih teruk dari membunuh. State your agenda and do it wisely.

To seorang wanita yg bernama Julia di twitter, I understand your belief in BN. You even stated it very clear that you shall support them always. However, do not simply said things you have no proves of it. By knowing fact does not mean that it is right. Fact always meant to be challenged that is why we have lawyers to do that.

May the best party win and may ALLAH bless us Malaysian always.

Hana's Big Day!

Alhamdulillah!


My darling Hana got married last week!! I know it have been the toughest two years for you darling Hana…therefore I am truly HAPPY that your big day turns out to be a successful event!! Congratulation to both of you!! Semoga bahagia hingga ke syurga!!

The solemnization took part in the morning session at 10am. Amazingly, Syib’s and family arrived on time if I am not mistaken…sgt on time!! Very good Syib!! Syukur sgt, dengan sekali lafaz, Hana dearie is now officially a wife of Syibli. And, knowing me…I cried always at most wedding especially my close friends wedding. It turn out, I am the one yg sobbing lebih especially after saw Hana cried while hugging her dad. Yes, I am that sensitive!! My dad is my hero and my only soul mate so when it comes to daddy, I shall cry mercifully!! LOL

The solemnization itself was simple and does not consume so much time pun, the best part is as always…to be able to spent time with my lovely gedz!! We miss you darling Sue though!!

After solemnization, we took off to One Utama to do some shopping. I am literally proud of myself for being able not to shop!! Awesome kan? LOL

And yes, the reception took place during the night where it was quite a formal event since Pemangku Sultan Kedah was there as well to celebrate the beloved couple. It was an amazing night where I got to be crazy with the girls!! After reception, instead of going back to sleep...We went to Starbucks to chill until about 2am in the morning. It seems like ages since I had such a long night with them. I miss those days in UTM Skudai where we are so carelessly and free to spent time together. I still remember those nights where we even have to sleep in front of MCD just because of the curfew hours..I sincerely miss those days…..Sobssss

So now, me, Nad & Cy are the ones who are yet to be married….ya..it is us the three stooges..the last three standing…Bila??I have no idea…Only HE knows….:)

Ok pictures time!!

with Darling Ctot!

My Gedz!!!!!

with lovely Hana!!!!

with The Couple!

Update

It is near to 8pm and I am still in the office to blog. It has been quite sometimes since I last blog kan. Many things happened but most of it I prefer to kept it to myself. They say, we shall have no regrets, perhaps it is true..what ever happened it is actually a lesson learnt to us right? Perhaps, tuhan mengajar saya to learn the hardships first before HE grant me things that I want. As a muslim, we can only pray.


There are things yes, we have to work hard for it. However, there are things we can only pray and have faith with HIM. Cause we know we can’t do anything about it except to pray. I set myself a target eventually. I pray and pray that I can meet the so called target. Though it seems hard to do so, but orang cakap, “Belum cuba, belum tahu”. We will see, insyaallah if panjang umur and murah rezeki target itu shall be met. One thing I learnt from life actually, “change yourself first before you change your life”. Nothing comes easy in this world, if you want something there are thousand ways of it but you have to take a good look at yourself first then you can change your path. It is not easy my friend.

I take myself for example, I want to be good and I want to do good deeds. To do good deeds is easy but only HIM knows your heart within, are you actually sincere about it or you simply wanted to look good by doing it. I sincerely said, my heart belum cukup baik. Bukan senang to have such a good and pure heart like our prophet. It is my hardest hurdles indeed to have a good heart okay. That is why I am always ramblings in my twitter about “Penyakit hati”. Susah kan nak jadi baik…

Slow and steady I would say, hopefully I can change and be a better person. Ya, I keep on talking about to be a better person, hopefully I don’t make anyone of you who read this annoyed by it.

My mum said, to be good you have to keep telling yourself “be good!!”. Let us be good shall we?

Okay jum pulang!!

  p/s: is currently addicted to this guy above...awak sangat comel Oezil!

Better

Being Positive is a must

Have a good weekend beautiful people!