Feeling

My baby sister said that I ought to be a writer since I am so into writing. I love to write as I love to jot down all my thoughts. You never know when there will be a day where you want to look back and reminiscence all those thoughts and memories. I think that is the purpose of blogging which is to be able to express your feelings and thoughts. Being a blogger does not mean that you want to get famous or be popular with your looks and blog post. I think by having a blog, a person could actually share his/her mind with other people like what I’m doing right now.

A person asked me, “Are you a private person?”. Frankly speaking I am not a private person. If I were one, perhaps I should just go and private my blog. Being me, I love to share my thoughts with other human being. Being a human myself..I have feelings. Lately my feelings are in tatters. I am about to say that it is nothing but deep down I know..it is definitely something.

Feeling is something that we have no control. Same goes with emotion. But people still can fake a feeling or emotion. That is why such manusia penipu does exist. Ya, these days do not be so naïve (like me ) to easily trust other people. Human hiding behind a devil mask ini memang banyak ya. Peringatan untuk diri sendiri juga.

Feeling

I use to be an idiot where I care too much about other people and care less about diri sendiri. I care about people’s thoughts and I don’t bother with my own feeling as long as I can make other people happy. Ya, that is me seorang gadis yg pretty stupid kerana terlalu ingin menjadi gadis yg disukai orang. Well, I have done quite well knowing that I have too many friends sampai it is hard to actually differentiate siapa lah kawan and siapa lah yg berpura-pura menjadi kawan.

It’s okay, that was 2 years ago. Alhamdulillah…this past 2 years I have turn into an observant. Saya lebih suka menjadi pemerhati dan lebih cenderung untuk tunggu dan lihat. But not to worry I am still myself yg sentiasa friendly. Cuma, saya sudah malas untuk terlalu menjaga hati manusia lain dan mengabaikan hati sendiri.Senang cakap,I care less about what other people think as long as I do nothing wrong saya yakin saya mampu untuk terus bernafas di bumi sementara ini.

I am not afraid of being hurt as rasa sakit itu sudah sebati dalam hidup ini. Lagipun, I am very good at mending my own heart and if my feelings got hurt, I can easily mend it. Apa susah, just be happy, make other people laugh and mengadu pada tuhan. That is the best medicine untuk hati saya.

Ya, currently my feeling are in tatters. I know why but I had enough on convince myself that everything are going to be okay. So, I guess the best thing to do is “Senyum tak perlu kata apa-apa”.

Senyum sudah….

p/s: is missing my baby sis...can't wait for u to be home ma petite....