Menangis

I have always wonder, why do actually people crying??I suppose, we do cry because we are sad but people do cry when they are happy as well right?? Is there something to do with hormones??I think yes, especially when it comes to women. You know, women are indeed special right??We are different than men and I am proud to say that we do show emotion and feelings unlike men who tend to disguise their emotion. Well, men and their ego are too complicated.

I am proud to announce that I am a cry baby. Not that I love to cry but my tears actually are not too precious since it can easily came out.

I cry when I watched movies, when I read books, when my dad raises his voice, when I saw other people crying, and etc.

I am not immune when it comes to sad movies. I tend to be moved when I saw sad scenes. Especially if I were to watched Hindi movies like Kabhie Kushi Kabhie Gham, Mohabattein, kuch kuch hota hai, dil hai tun hara, and etc. Every time Shah Rukh cry, I did cry as well. I guess my heart was made by glass kot, because my heart tends to give away every time I saw actors or actress crying in the movies. The other day, I watched a movie by Bruce Willis “Tears of the sun”. It is a war story located somewhere in Nigeria. While watching the movie, I was actually preparing myself a box of tissue next to me because I was so move by that movie and I cried my heart out. I have been crying for the past 2hours of that movie and my brother thinks I’m crazy because I menangis macam orang gila..LOL~

When it comes to books, ya…hati ini memang kaca. I even cried while reading an ebook okay. Not to mention, books by Nicholas Spark & Cecilia Ahern. I am a book maniac as I can spent hours and hours not to eat once I dapat a good book.

Owhh…I am anak bapak actually. I am very close with my dad. My dad is my best friend. We can actually talk about everything (well almost everything laaa…). Being my dad, he is not the type of bapak yg tend to scold or bising2 or membebel la...He leaves it to my mum untuk membebel or scolding us. But you know la…no one is perfect, eventhough my dad is my idea of a perfect father, but sometimes he can be angry as well. And when he does, he tends to raise his voice. Once he raises his voice to me, saya mesti sentap and I end up crying. I know, people might think that I am anak manja, well I am when it comes to my dad. Hati ini mudah terasa bila my dad marah but bila mama marah, I tend to be deaf pula…Sorry mama~

Kadang-kadang, I feel so tired of crying. I sincerely hope that I have a strong heart so I don’t have to waste my tears. Somehow, I can’t help it. Air mata itu seems so murah. They said, tears itu sgt valuable and one should best keep their tears and not to waste it. I try my best not to cry you know but the more I try, the more I cry.

Perhaps I should just let it flow. Maybe one day I have no more tears left and hati itu sudah keras. LOL~

But, if hati sudah keras I would not be able to feel love and to give love. HOW?
Owh..lupa, if hati itu sudah keras..it means I am dead already.


Peace~


p/s: lately kuat sangat menangis...T_T