First Love

Who is your first love??Ya, itu adalah soalan cepu emas where I bet most of us are too lazy to answer. Or perhaps we are too lazy to mengimbau kembali kenangan silam. But hey, there are lucky people whom actually end up with their first love right?? Tahniah to those people, you guys are indeed lucky sebab you guys do not have to endure the first cut. Ya, been there..the first cut is always the deepest right..SAKIT??Well…once you hurt, of course lah sakit but I live. Luka di hati, siapa yang tahu??Only me, myself and I jer yg tahu. Tapi luka itu sudah lama sembuh, what’s left is only a scar.

I have taste of my first love when I was 23 years old. Ya, agak lambat but its okay…at last I do know what is love kan?? I always thought that, when I first in love, I would eventually end up with him. But I am not…akhir nya our love dies in vain. Am I still in love with him?? Personally, I am not in love with him but deep down, saya tahu…saya akan always sayang dia sampai mati. WHY?? Because he is the first guy yg mengetuk pintu hati ini. But my percentage of sayang to him is not like the old days la…maybe sayang itu tak sampai 3% kot..LOL~You know…as you grow older, what you love the most is not the person itself but it is all about the memories and history yg you once had with a person.

I am actually inspired to talk about first love due to cerita yg sedang hangat di TV3, “Tentang Dhia”. Nora Danish is one of my favourite actress sebab dia comel dan cantik. Tapi sebenarnya, I am very keen to watch tentang dhia sebab ada Adi Putra. LOL~ Ya, saya sangat suka Adi Putra sebagaimana saya tergila-gilakan Aaron Aziz..hee~But takdelah sampai obsess nak mati la…it is a norm right to like an actor yg menepati ciri-ciri, “tall,dark & handsome” they are so typical manusia handsome. Saya suka…suka tengok mereka.

Actually, saya masih kurang faham. How come someone can actually be too attached with their first love?? I mean, I do understand the love feeling but susah sangat ke to let go your past love??

I always believe and keep telling myself that life goes on and never wait on you. Saya juga percaya dengan setiap yg berlaku dalam hidup kita, pasti ada hikmahnya. I take myself for example, Ya..saya gagal in my first love but that does not stop me to actually giving out my love to the next person to come. Saya always believe, maybe tuhan dah tetapkan yg dia bukan untuk saya, who am I to actually fight with fate?? Perhaps akan ada manusia di luar sana untuk saya kan??By the way, ada orang cakap saya perlu positif, so currently I am being positive on myself..LOL~

If I were Dhia, I won’t simply think twice on deciding whom am I going to spend my life with. Of course lah saya akan pilih Zikir. No, am not talking about kekacakan Zikir, or his ability to afford Dhia. I believe when it comes to marriage one should think beyond love. Maaflah, when it comes to love I am a bit liberal myself. Saya percaya, dalam perkahwinan love sahaja is not enough. To be able to work a marriage we need a lot more than just love. Sebab perlu diingatkan bahawa, love tidak boleh membeli rumah ya anak-anak. Frankly speaking, I do think I can actually enter a marriage without love sebab saya percaya love itu boleh dipupuk. Look at my grandmother, she married my arwah atuk with no love at all. But eventually, they did fall in love and their marriage turn out to be fine as they do complete each other. Such love stories do exist kan…Best nya….hee~

Saya rasa kan, as a woman myself, it is not that hard pun to actually to be in love with an unknown man. Perempuan ini memang complicated but when it comes to heart matter, we are indeed simple. Kami memang easy to fall in love. Hati perempuan ini sangat fragile macam kaca. Kami mudah sayang, mudah benci, dan mudah kasihan. Sebab itu wanita mudah menangis macam saya. Ya, saya seorang yg crybaby!! But don’t get me wrong, hati wanita itu boleh menjadi keras bila ia sering disakiti. Therefore kindly treat us well. Don’t play with our heart yg comel ini. It is hard to mend a broken heart tau sebab you have to collect all the pieces in order to have hati yg comel semula.

The thing is, am not a pro when it comes to heart matter. Sebab itu saya tidak faham apabila seseorang itu can’t let go his/her first love. Pelik tau…sebab it seems easy though for me to actually relinquish him from my heart.

Susah ke nak let go first love?


*saya tidak faham*