Hana's Big Day!

Alhamdulillah!


My darling Hana got married last week!! I know it have been the toughest two years for you darling Hana…therefore I am truly HAPPY that your big day turns out to be a successful event!! Congratulation to both of you!! Semoga bahagia hingga ke syurga!!

The solemnization took part in the morning session at 10am. Amazingly, Syib’s and family arrived on time if I am not mistaken…sgt on time!! Very good Syib!! Syukur sgt, dengan sekali lafaz, Hana dearie is now officially a wife of Syibli. And, knowing me…I cried always at most wedding especially my close friends wedding. It turn out, I am the one yg sobbing lebih especially after saw Hana cried while hugging her dad. Yes, I am that sensitive!! My dad is my hero and my only soul mate so when it comes to daddy, I shall cry mercifully!! LOL

The solemnization itself was simple and does not consume so much time pun, the best part is as always…to be able to spent time with my lovely gedz!! We miss you darling Sue though!!

After solemnization, we took off to One Utama to do some shopping. I am literally proud of myself for being able not to shop!! Awesome kan? LOL

And yes, the reception took place during the night where it was quite a formal event since Pemangku Sultan Kedah was there as well to celebrate the beloved couple. It was an amazing night where I got to be crazy with the girls!! After reception, instead of going back to sleep...We went to Starbucks to chill until about 2am in the morning. It seems like ages since I had such a long night with them. I miss those days in UTM Skudai where we are so carelessly and free to spent time together. I still remember those nights where we even have to sleep in front of MCD just because of the curfew hours..I sincerely miss those days…..Sobssss

So now, me, Nad & Cy are the ones who are yet to be married….ya..it is us the three stooges..the last three standing…Bila??I have no idea…Only HE knows….:)

Ok pictures time!!

with Darling Ctot!

My Gedz!!!!!

with lovely Hana!!!!

with The Couple!

Update

It is near to 8pm and I am still in the office to blog. It has been quite sometimes since I last blog kan. Many things happened but most of it I prefer to kept it to myself. They say, we shall have no regrets, perhaps it is true..what ever happened it is actually a lesson learnt to us right? Perhaps, tuhan mengajar saya to learn the hardships first before HE grant me things that I want. As a muslim, we can only pray.


There are things yes, we have to work hard for it. However, there are things we can only pray and have faith with HIM. Cause we know we can’t do anything about it except to pray. I set myself a target eventually. I pray and pray that I can meet the so called target. Though it seems hard to do so, but orang cakap, “Belum cuba, belum tahu”. We will see, insyaallah if panjang umur and murah rezeki target itu shall be met. One thing I learnt from life actually, “change yourself first before you change your life”. Nothing comes easy in this world, if you want something there are thousand ways of it but you have to take a good look at yourself first then you can change your path. It is not easy my friend.

I take myself for example, I want to be good and I want to do good deeds. To do good deeds is easy but only HIM knows your heart within, are you actually sincere about it or you simply wanted to look good by doing it. I sincerely said, my heart belum cukup baik. Bukan senang to have such a good and pure heart like our prophet. It is my hardest hurdles indeed to have a good heart okay. That is why I am always ramblings in my twitter about “Penyakit hati”. Susah kan nak jadi baik…

Slow and steady I would say, hopefully I can change and be a better person. Ya, I keep on talking about to be a better person, hopefully I don’t make anyone of you who read this annoyed by it.

My mum said, to be good you have to keep telling yourself “be good!!”. Let us be good shall we?

Okay jum pulang!!

  p/s: is currently addicted to this guy above...awak sangat comel Oezil!

Better

Being Positive is a must

Have a good weekend beautiful people!

On Kerja & Life

When I thought things are going to be better….eventually all hope seems to die in vain. Maybe I was hoping too much. They say expectation lead to disappointment. It is true I think, but how can I not to put such hope because I do think at the end of the day, it is hope that keep us driven and strong. Yes, hope do give us such faith kan?


They say, to be happy is to be content. I am and I do feel content. However, I do not have anyone or to be exact a love partner to share my happiness with. Yes, I do have family and friends but deep down I do need someone to actually complete me. Not that I am incomplete or feeling inadequate or something, I just need someone to share everything about life is. It is funny that I am actually talking about this in writing rather than to talk about it like a normal human being with anyone. LOL~

Funny is, I don’t really think I can share such thoughts about love with anyone now. It is too painful for me to even talk about love nowadays. I am being sensitive lately. A close friend of mine once told me that I should let myself out more if I want to meet a right person. To be honest, I don’t think that by going out frequently would actually make me find this so called guy. Entah lah…Frankly, I am tired of being all positive about this love thing. Sometimes, I do wonder…why lah am I so worried about this love or marriage business??I do question myself sometimes…The only thing that I can come up with now is due to lots of my girlfriend are getting married, married, getting baby and getting lots of babies are actually the reasons why I am so obsessed of getting myself a husband too kot and perhaps due to persuasion by family yg so anxious to see me walking down the aisle. Seriously mama, I pray and pray every day that one day HE will grant me a husband. Masa itu belum tiba lagi…bersabar ya fatihah. Sibuk sangat nak share life with someone kan…but sharing a life with someone itu bukan senang ya fatihah. Hurmmm…ya…I have a lot to improve actually…with my kind of attitudes, I bet I am not an easy person to live with. Yes, I have lots of issues but apparently so does other people too. Pitch can be perfect but no one can be perfect.

On work itself…I am so ready to be busy since I have just received a new project by MURPHY. Can’t wait to get started. I love being busy at least it keep me on my toes and I do not have waste my time on thinking things that I am not suppose to think. Well, typical me…I am a woman..I think a lot and usually I think too much of those things yg ridiculous. That is one of the reasons why I like to keep myself busy like yesterday.

Owhh…I did go to an interview though last week. Am not really into that company actually but I just give myself a try. Tak salah kan if mahu mencuba. So far, I am happy here, I truly learn so much here and I like to work with those people especially my favourite project manager. He is truly a garang person and super strict but I like working with him. He is a very good project manager and he teaches me a lot. With him, kerja memang banyak but he knows how to make things easy for his projects. I have received lots of bad feedback about him though, yes..he is not an easy person to work with and yes he yells a lot if you don’t do things right but trust me, if you know how to work with him..you sure will get lots of benefits from it.

Keep on learning ya Fatihah…about love, I leave it to yg MAHA ESA. HE knows best. Hanya tuhan sahaja yg tahu what I want the most.

Peace.

I need holiday

I am seriously in need of holiday!!


Works are not as hectic as the previous weeks ago where I have lots of things on my plate. Currently masa itu lebih flexible and I manage to focus on one thing at a time. Rasa lebih free…suka2!!

My last holiday was on last year when we went to Vietnam. I really need to get myself a plane ticket out from Malaysia. Yes I love vacationing!! Especially if I get to spent it oversea. Hehe!! But well, vacation outside Malaysia means I will be using lots and lots of money. Maybe I should get myself a vacation somewhere remote in Malaysia but still have internet connection. Boleh?? Chinese New year is coming right up but still I have no plans. My cousin soon shall be leaving to Adelaide, Australia…thought of having a last vacation with him..but macam tak sempat…hurmmm…

Maybe I should check on the next flight to Sarawak?? Tidak tahu kenapa….tahun ni, I have no plan at all on vacation….life is bored…Maybe I need something to spice up my life kot…tapi apa??

Okay google…..

I love my family!! <3>

Before I go home...

I do not know when and why..lately I am not into blogging...I blame it on my age..again...LOL~

Ya, nowadays if I found myself not into those things yg I use to be so keen at..I put the blame on my age. You know...makin tua...makin lazy to do such things like hanging out with friends. Lately I am such a family person. Sorry dear friends..I love you guys and girls so much but my sense of friendliness are quite modest these days. Again...it is age factor!! HAHA

I am so into IG now...Ya, sifat camwhore itu is always there. Thank you Iphone for being such a good bf nowadays.

Talking about Iphone. I love my Iphone to death but one thing about it, sometimes it can go loco as well. Kadang2 bila dtg gila, suddenly it hang...that is the time where rasa nak baling je phone but knowing that it cost me quite a fortune so of course la I won't throw away my phone kan...like a friend said, smartphones is like our second life kot sekarang. Without them, we are literally die by boredom. LOL~
Those yg cakap dia benci smartphones itu please jgn hipokrit yer...I use to say that I can live without phone dulu, ya..those are the days before I get myself a smartphone, but one you have a smartphone...you just can't live without them. Even my mum own a S3 kot..she is now addicted to social networks...HAHA

I am such a twitterholic, bukan setakat gila but I do think I am obsess with it. I think it is good for me cause I am a person who thinks spontaneously so normally I tweet whatever things yg I felt. However, you can't always be honest in twitter. I try to but I fail in vain cause deep down I know...I can't simply say things yg I know that might hurt those people who are close to me. But it is simply annoying when some people simply reply your tweets sarcastically when they don't even have any idea about it...Pelik kan??If you want to say things, please use ur brain wisely. If not, kindly make a general tweets and let those people terasa sendiri..LOL~

I know...I can be a bitch sometimes...bukan apa, to be honest..manusia hipokrit are terlalu ramai in twitter. There are lots of ustaz and ustazah express in twitter. LOL~ If you were to retweet those islamic quotes or ustaz azhar idrus's tweets ke...it should be okay but when you are trying to give such advises in tweets...I found it funny and frankly, rasa nak muntah...pardon my languange. Come on la...nak bagi nasihat itu boleh but please do cermin diri anda terlebih dahulu ya. Sebab itu, I only tweet motivational quotes to boost up my life and to motivate myself. Saya sangat tidak berani to give advise about religion because I know, saya memang tidak layak. Kenapa??Sebab ilmu agama dlm diri pun belum cukup sempurna..how to advise people??

So please manusia twitter...kindly be yourself and tweet things about you instead of trying to be someone yg religious kononnya.Please do grow up!! And yes, if nak bergurau pun, sila la kena pada tempatnya...:)

I wish I could list out names yg I am literally menyampah di twitter...LOL!

Be yourself itu penting...Don't be such an angel just for the sake nak gain followers. Nyampah aku!!

And owhh...if ada yg terasa maaf dipinta ya...I mean no harm..peace!!

It has been quite awhile

Wahhh..times flies us by so quickly nowadays..It is now the 17th days of 2013. Pejam celik..soon it shall be the end of 2013.


Life has been okay not that super marvelous anyway.

It was not a good start of 2013 for me but I am optimist. We can’t always have the good days right?? I take this so called little misery as a test. Ini baru sedikit….they are people out there yg lagi miserable than I am. Maybe I sound a bit too positive but hey…this is how it works I guess, happiness is a choice so I choose to be happy so I have to be positive!!

Hati??My heart so far so good…I think I found something yg enlighten me deep within. Well, to be honest..I am not quite sure how to put it in words but serius..hati lebih tenang lately. I always thought myself as a lonely person until one day, I read a quote..it says, “ Loneliness is when you forget that Allah is with you”. Quote ini serius berkesan dalam hati. Sometimes kita mudah lupa yg people are not going to be around us always but tuhan itu always ada. Remember Fatihah!!

Lately though macam mana susah hati pun, I am done talking to other people about it. Bukan isu tidak percaya, but I think I had enough of telling people about my problems. Most of the people sometimes don’t really even bother pun about our problems because everybody got their own issues and problems. Let’s face it, they either really care or pretend to care. Yes, it sounds harsh but hey…this is what life is..you have to expect the worse in life in order to prepare for worse. Apa susah, if tak tahan sgt rasa hati ini, I do have a mother who is willing to put up with my crappy life. *wink*

Silence itu lebih bagus…I heard lots of talking about this and that, yg ini tidak puas hati with this and that…and guess what?? Suka hati lah nak cakap apa pun, I heard but I am not listening to it….people can talk and thrash whatever you want and I am not going to judge. As long as he/she is being nice to me so I am going to be nice. If you have problems with me on being nice to a person you dislike, then it is your problem..suka hati lah…menjaga hati orang ini is such a tiresome.

Okay…enough for today…will keep on updating life as it is…

Eva Romina

This post has been due for quite sometimes…sorry darling Eva…been busy and my house PC is not working well…(Ok kan alasan saya??) LOL~


Meet Eva…one of my beautiful friends on earth. She is so Heliza look alike.. Tak percaya??Please refer below picture. Heee~

Sama kan??Cantik kan??heeee~
To be honest, I am literally speechless to actually blog about our date. Maybe it is because I am currently blogging at work which is so not cool because I have to keep it low in order not to let my other colleagues think that I am currently drafting a resign letter. LOL~

Therefore, kindly view below pictures and let the pictures do the talk.

I know...most of you guys must be jealous of me now cuz I got to spent time with gadis cantik kan??Don't be...she is one of the friendly people in blogging world, so please do visit her page at www.evaromina.com ok??

Banyak nak cerita about our date actually...

We start our day in KLCC, we had our brunch at one of my favorite restaurant, Ben's. The foods itself mmg super awesome but maybe sebab our perut dah masuk angin kot so we end up not to finish our dishes. And yg xbestnya, I am not able to let Eva taste their desert yg awesome juga. My bad...next time ya darling Eva...

Then we later went to Pavvy to watch Pitch Perfect. It is funny tho, because Pitch Perfect was not even screening in TGV, KLCC...weird kan??Cerita itu sgt best okay...sgt GLEE and yet so much more real. Saya sgt recommend to those yg tak tengok lagi to watch Pitch Perfect. Tak percaya tanya Eva, we laugh out loud macam nak pecah panggung. But yes, I do admit..the first time I laugh is not because of the movie but I was quite shocked hearing you laugh actually dear...hehe!!But not to worry, I am cool...I love someone who does not pretend to conceal their laugh. Let face it, awak suka ketawa kuat2 and saya sgtlah byk cakap kan??LOL~

After habis movie, ingat nak bwk Eva jalan2 lagi but unlucky me to have such parent yg sgt lah over controlling especially my mum so we end up going back afterwards. Sorry dear Eva...maybe next time biar saya visit awak in Kuching k...*wink

Being me, I am so buta jalan in KL though I was born and raised here. Kenapa??Because I rarely got a chance to simply drive own my own except when I went to work. Yes, it is true...

Nasib baiklah dgn adanya application Waze, I am able to sent Eva back home safely and me going back home safely without any sesat2...To be honest, I was quite scared but alhamduillah sgt I manage not to panic.

Overall, I wish I could entertain you better darling...Sorry if it is not up to your liking but I am happy to say, I had so much fun with you the other day. I am so relieved to be able to say "things" or "stuffs" that I was afraid too tell you when we first met. hehe! Saya tahu awak tahu apa kan...LOL~

Hope to see you soon darling!! Perhaps next year I might go there and visit you..Insyallah..

Ohh..me miss you already....

xoxo

Sesaja...

Haihsss...

Lately I am too lazy to write though I have a lot of thing going on inside my head. I wish I could simply write using my phone but unfortunately, I can't...my mum would literally kill me if she saw me ogling infront of my phone too long. Currently she is not happy that I am having a relationship with my phone instead of having a relationship with a real man...LOL~

Currently hati makin sentap since I start to be active in facebook again. Why??Because I found out that most of my friends are either getting married, happily married, having babies and producing more babies. All of sudden I felt such a loser. Yes, obviously I am happy for them and I always pray for their happiness. However, by seeing their happiness, it makes me wonder....Am I going to have such happiness like them??To be honest, deep down...I do envy..not in bad kind a way but you know...the feeling when you think that you wish you could feel it too.

Talking about love??Sumpah....I am tired of feeling in love. Not that I am against love..I always believe in the power of love but somehow it seems that it is hard for me though to actually have that particular honest love from someone. Seriously by talking this, instead of feeling better I tend to pity myself more. Goshhh...rasa loser nya life ini!!

I always told myself not to worry but frankly...I am sgt2 risau that by the end of the day I will end up alone. Sedih okayyyy....I never quite understand love actually. Ya, love was never meant to be understood but how I wish I could. To understand man??I will never ever try to understand the male species. I would rather done a research on aliens instead of men. If men thought that women is complicated, I would say the same about them too.

What am I suppose to do to ensure that I won't be thinking about love and men?? Hurrmmmm....I can't even avoid myself by being asking such question like " Bila nak kahwin?" nowadays...

Makin banyak ditanya...makin stress kepala ini....I try not to think much about it but truth is, that question does hurt my feeling...bukan nk being dramatical but if you were me then you will understand.

Okay bye...nak enjoy weekend!!

Have a good weekend dear bloggers!!

In less than 24hours...

She is getting old.....

^_~

Time envy us

Wow…2012 are about to come to an end. Time did flies so fast nowadays. When I first watch the 2012 movie, I was so scared to even enter 2012..Ya, I am one of those people whom actually believe on such things. That movie is surreal and I can’t even imagine myself to actually face 2012. But, I am grateful to Allah S.W.T to been given a chance to live in this world and to be able to breathe and face the world. Life has not been easy but hey no one suppose to have an easy life. I guess, I am indeed blessed to be able to face all the consequences. Pain teaches us that life is indeed meaningful. No one can actually experience life without pain. Trust me on this.


I face a lot this year, I am even a different person this year. To be honest, I think I am a boring person this year. Seriously, the word ‘fun’ means nothing lately. I am no longer this person who likes to spent time with her friends. Ya, I have turn into this secluded person whom prefer to spent time with her parent rather than her friends. Blame it on my age. Owh..perhaps it is not my age but I truly feel old this year.

However, throughout this year I am happy indeed with the birth of our junior gedz!! I love babies..I always pray that one day I could at least have one. But yes, I have to be married first. To whom??That is the biggest question mark ever. To say that I don’t even think about marriage is truly lie because I have to think about it almost everyday. Ya, what to do..I have a very persistent parent whom would love to see me walk down the aisle. For now, I guess I leave it to qada’ & qadar. Yes, I may look like I have it all but guess what, love and me, we always have issues. Big issues to be precise!!

Owhh…I was supposed to share few pictures of us with baby Aariq since we did visit eika’s family last Sunday. Pictures….

  I miss you baby Riq!!Till next time okay!!

Doodles

Owhhh..I pity you my blog. I have been abandoning you lately kan….


Bukan malas but memang malas pun to update anything about life. Thanks to Instagram whom made my life perfect lately. *hee*

Truth is, I have lots of pictures but am too lazy to share in blog due to not enough time to endure myself in front of the pc. Ini pun, I am blogging in the office due to kemalasan membuat kerja. Currently my mind is not at work. Sangat looking forward to go on a holiday next week. *Tak sabar*

Current life status is happy. Though yes, I have a lots of things to be sad of but hey..life does not promise us to have a good life. I am still not okay in certain aspect of my life. I am still not a patience person. Susahnya nak jadi orang sabar kan??Honestly, I am literally mencarut every single day while I was driving you know!! I try not to curse but I end up cursing a lot later. Haihhhhsss…

Yes, I do curse…people normally saw me as a person yg lemah lembut but sorry to disappoint all of you. I am practically not a soft spoken person though I do speak softly. *hehe* Sebab itulah, “don’t judge book by its cover”. What you see with your eyes can be deceitful. Ya, I may look as a very demure and a polite person, Well, I can be demure and polite BUT it depends on who am I dealing with. If a person is being nice to me, then I am being nice to her or him. But if you are being mean, then I am being mean as well. I know, some people tend to be hypocrite about their life. I think it is all up to you. You should define yourself and your life. If you are happy living a double life, so be it. But you best remember that, one should not simply lose his or her true identity just for the sake of pleasing the world. We can’t always please them all honey. *wink*

Talking about pleasing other people, hurrrmmm….been there but I end up being the one who hurt the most. Therefore, lesson learnt..”Don’t try to please anyone in life except your family”. Yes, people….ada ramai manusia out there yg lebih suka untuk take advantage of your goodness. Moral of the story, stop being nice just be yourself.

Okay enough ramblings, I should head home now and sleep or probably I should watch my dear Mesut Oezil..

Okay bye!!

Me and my baby girl Izzah during her birhtday present hunting!!

Love you baby!!

Latest post

It has been almost a month since I last update anything in blog. I am not only too lazy to update but my current work load and life does not allow me too much freedom.


Yes, currently we are using Unifi at home and I am proud to say our internet surfing progressed a lot!! Everything are super laju these days. Watching Youtube with no buffering okay!! I am indeed in seventh heaven with such internet connection. LOL~

And yes, not to forget…my beloved gedz Eika darling just got a bouncing baby boy!!Yeayyyyy!! We are now proud to present our new gedz family addition!!

Seeing my darling eika with her baby boy really brought tears into my eyes. Life does changing a lot with a newborn baby. Seronoknya hanya tuhan sahaja yg tahu. I wish I cud have that feeling too one day insyaallah.

Well, am not going to talk anything about my life. Life have been good to me lately. But I am yet to become the person I want to be the most. Maybe belum cukup kuat I think. Perlu perbanyakkan usaha to be a person I want to be!! Amin Insyaallah.

Owhh…some pictures of our darling boy Aariq Iman!! ( some of my pictures with hana & aunty too)

Technology Ohh techno

Lately semakin malas to blog…so much to say yet too little time to spend in front of PC. Weekend, I don’t even touch PC. Life sentiasa dengan phone sahaja. Ya, nowadays, people are conveniently using their Smartphone wherever they go. And yes, including me.


Like a friend said, sekarang the moment we sat in a restaurant, masing2 akan fetch out their phone and the art of conversation are no longer applied. It is true though..sebab itu my parent sgt forbid us to actually use our phones during family gathering. Sometimes, it is pretty annoying kot when people are trying to have a conversation but you were actually occupied with ur phone. Bukan sahaja annoying but it is rude as well. However, life without phones is unacceptable nowadays. Bukan apa, it is a mean of communication yg mmg wajib ada to all types of ages. Those days, yes it seems illogical for a primary school student to own a phone but now, it is a norm. Even a baby nowadays pun own an Ipad okay!!

Me and phone??I use to say that I can live without phone. That is before I get myself a Smartphone of course. But frankly today, I am sad to say….I am stuck with my phone. Blame it on having twitter…Ya, saya seorang twitterholic. I think twitter is an application yg quite reasonable to have in your Smartphone. I mean, people can easily label you a crazy person if you constantly update your status in FB but in twitter you can simply say anything you want in every single second and they won’t call you crazy because that is what people do in twitter. Kindly rambling your ass off and no one care.

Unfortunately, everything in this world mesti ada pro’s & con’s. Unfortunately, smartphones is a good device but still they do have numbers of weakness. Smartphones is good to us those working people where we can easily access our emails and we can simply know updates about our old friends but for teenagers, ia merupakan satu kelalaian because they can’t control themselves and they tend to misuse the technology itself. Technology ini ada baiknya but most of the time ia lebih banyak mendatangkan keburukan. Sebab technology, macam-macam perkara pelik berlaku.

Makin maju makin banyak problems though technology suppose to help us but sometimes it tend to condemn our life. To me, this is where parent should play their role wisely in order to ensure that their children are not being condemned by the technologies itself. Parent is advisable not to simply trust their children because kids nowdays memang sgt cunning..trust me….

And because of technology, now saya seorang instagrammer yg tegar….

Hee~

Okay bye!!

Hati ini

I am in a relationship with my heart which is so happen a very complicated heart.


I have this so called love & hate relationship with my heart. Sometimes I love my heart dearly but some other time, I hate my heart too much for my own good.

My problem is that my heart is weak. Hati ini mudah cair, mudah lembut, easily broken and yg paling stress is cepat betul kecil hati. Well, like my friend said, age is a factor. Makin tua, makin cepat terasa. I believe it is true. Or perhaps, I am probably missing the company of my two best friend yg always menyakitkan hati ku ini. Ya, when I’m with them hati ini sungguh kuat and I don’t even bother to be sentap. That is why yesterday they have been complaining about me on being too sensitive. Hurmm…maybe perlu byk berkawan dgn org yg sarcastic kot to ensure that hati ini lebih perkasa.

Okay…malas mahu berfikir sebab lagi fikir lagi sakit hati. Maybe I should have more heart to heart session with my dearest Nani like yesterday. I miss Nani already…

Okay kerja!!

Casual Friday...........

- Us at Kak Fyzah's open house -

I am lost for words...so much to say yet so little time I have to devote myself to my dearest blog. Perhaps when I get myself UNIFI at home then I will be rajin again.

Ok bye!!

Lately...

I feel alive again!!


I am glad now that my family is complete. My dad just got back from his US trip. I believe it was a good one since he came back with lots of stuffs. Ya, I got some new stuff too and I can’t wait to use it. Most probably I will be using it this weekend. Sangatlah tidak sabar!!

I find myself not into blogging anymore these past few weeks. I guess it is due to workload plus most of my pictures are in instagram and I find myself too lazy to share pictures lately though I do have hundreds of pictures in my insta. Yes, I am an instafreak. LOL~

Life has been great so far despite of my “I think too much” behavior I guess everything seems to be in order. I am more positive nowadays, lack of susah hati lately and I am enjoying life as it is. Thanks to ALLAH the Almighty.

Masalah kecil hati is always there. I try not to dwell so much thought about it and try to be more reasonable. So far, my efforts die in vain. Sigh~ I tend to care too much and always want to jg hati semua orang and I let people around me to misuse and hurt me. Yes, I am hurt but am good at hiding it too. Am good at hiding pain but not when I am annoyed. It is such a tiresome to actually care about other people’s feeling but not mine. A friend asks me to actually care those who care about me. But the problem is, most people pretend to care when they actually don’t. They say, kawan senang mudah dicari but kawan susah sukar nak ada. I believe it is true because not all people can actually bear the pain with you.

I think what I am I suppose to do now is by being a better me. It is hard though but I have too. How??Well, I don’t actually know how but am just going with the flow and try not to think too much, care less and be more patience. Patience is yet another critical or massive problem that I have. Yes, we always have issues and I am yet to figure how to overcome it. What I did was simply banyakkan istighfar and starts to think about other people well being too. As a human, sometime we tend to be selfish. Sometimes we don’t even notice that we are being selfish. Ya, salah orang kita nampak but we don’t actually see our flaws kan??Yes, I got the same problem too. LOL~

Bila blogging jer, I always talk about my misbehavior. I don’t know why but I guess a blog is actually a medium for me to actually confess whatever my heart feels. Nowadays, it is hard though to talk to other people about our problems. Most people don’t really want to understand or listen to your problems. Only certain people do and care. Daripada saya susahkan kepala orang, lebih baik saya menulis. Ya, maybe blog can’t actually give me any advice but at least it’s listen and don’t judge. LOL~

Owhh…I am a bit free today, not so much work in my bucket but I am foresee that if a new projects coming, it is surely going to be mine.

Okay ada meeting!!

Kata Nama Confused

Hurrmmm…I am always confused when it comes what kind or what type of kata nama to be used during conversation with someone that I just knew.


Normally, I have actually classified each of my friends on what am I suppose to call them.

Truth to tell, I have lots, tons of friends. Friends from childhood, friends from schools, friends from Matrix, friends from UTM, friends from works, clients and the list goes on and on.

With those I am close with, I tend to use kata ganti nama diri yg kedua which is “kita – awak” kind a way. It is just the way I tend to pronounce myself with those I am close with. Same goes when I am with my childhood friends. Dari kecil sampai ke besar, that is how we communicate. So sweet kan….*hee*

With school friends, it is depend because I can simply say that I tend to use “aku – engkau” lots with them. Tak kisah lah if you are male of female that is how we use to communicate. I guess by using that kind of kata nama, it seems that we raise the bar from just friends to close friends. I guess…

However, when it comes to male population, I would normally use “aku – engkau” unless if we just knew each other so I tend to be polite by using “saya – awak” but once we know each other closer, our self pronouns are going to change to “aku – engkau”. That is why, most of my male friends always question me “ Tihah, nape dgn pompuan je ko mesti ckp “kita – awak” ??” And my answer is always this, “Sebab pompuan adalah kaum yg lemah so kena lah ckp lembut.” Boleh terima tak?? Hehehe…Seriously, I don’t know…that is how I have been raised to I guess.

At home, even though with siblings it is forbidden to actually use “aku – engkau”. My parent raised me to simply call each other names to pronounce ourselves. Those who said “aku” at home mmg confirm akan di”cili” by my mother.

But, if somehow someone tends to talk to me by pronounce them as “aku”, then I have no problem on follow the suits. Saya tak kisah cuma sincerely said, I am a bit uncomfortable on using “aku – engkau” with female. I found it too harsh pulak. *hehe*

Nowadays, it seems that I have been using lots of “ I – you”. Perhaps it is due to work. Because in work, it is not professional for me to speak like kanak-kanak sekolah right??Yes, semakin aging, our ways of talking also change. We tend to be more professional and matured.

But, I am still me…seorang yg masih lemah di hati, overthinked, and macam-macam lagi. Susahnya nak berubah jd lebih baik. I am striving myself to be better each days but somehow, it is hard to do so. Maybe solat tak cukup sempurna lagi. =_______=

Ok bye!!

QHSE Department

New

Hurrmmm...

I have been thinking lately, perhaps I need a new hobby. Something to fill in my time, something to keep myself occupied and perhaps I can make money out of it.

Frankly, am not a business minded person but honestly, I love money!!LOL~

Today, Alhamdulillah...I came up with an idea. I guess if my mum were to know about this, she sure think that I am joking because it is definitely not my forte. However, I do think I can do this though it is not my passion but at least I do have some idea about it.

First and foremost I need to get myself few things in order to start doing it. But I do think the most important thing is I need to be very serious about it. I do not want to do things half cook.

Am not going to tell anyone about my new hobby..not yet..I need to get it done first then I will share it.

I do think, having a new hobby can actually help me to build up my self confidence. Not that I don't have any  but I just to want to do something worth and to be taken up more seriously.

May Allah bless my journey and I do hope I can make it real than just dreaming on it.

Happy working people!!!

Raya not so Awesome

Talking about raya, mine is not great due to the absence of my parent & baby sis so mine can consider okay but not great or awesome.


Looking at other people blog post, everyone seems to have a wonderful raya except me. A bit sad but considering other people, at least makan pakai sendiri pun semuanya cukup so why should I complaint about my raya right??Yes,sometimes as a normal human being I tend to forget that there are lots of people out there yg lebih suffer during raya. Manusia kan mudah lupa….

I thought I can actually feel raya celebration in Kampung but unlucky me, my dear father had some work to do oversea. Hurmmm….I miss the feeling of raya in kampung. Barulah rasa raya. Not that raya in KL is bored. I am loving it but when it comes to raya, it is significantly about spending time with family far away from city life. One thing awesome about raya in KL is that we got lots and lots of money. *hee* Yes, at my age, my uncles & aunties still be giving me duit raya. Cool kan??

I do have quite a few of raya photos to share but unfortunately I am too lazy to share it. Most of them are in my instagram. Yes, Instagram play quite a big role in my life nowadays apart from twitter. Can’t wait to get my hands on the new Iphone5.

I am literally lost of words now, nothing much to say except that I am going to enjoy myself this upcoming weekends. It is time to eat and eat and eat and eat until you can’t eat. *hehe*

Happy Holiday People!!

Selamat Hari Merdeka!!