Menangis

I have always wonder, why do actually people crying??I suppose, we do cry because we are sad but people do cry when they are happy as well right?? Is there something to do with hormones??I think yes, especially when it comes to women. You know, women are indeed special right??We are different than men and I am proud to say that we do show emotion and feelings unlike men who tend to disguise their emotion. Well, men and their ego are too complicated.

I am proud to announce that I am a cry baby. Not that I love to cry but my tears actually are not too precious since it can easily came out.

I cry when I watched movies, when I read books, when my dad raises his voice, when I saw other people crying, and etc.

I am not immune when it comes to sad movies. I tend to be moved when I saw sad scenes. Especially if I were to watched Hindi movies like Kabhie Kushi Kabhie Gham, Mohabattein, kuch kuch hota hai, dil hai tun hara, and etc. Every time Shah Rukh cry, I did cry as well. I guess my heart was made by glass kot, because my heart tends to give away every time I saw actors or actress crying in the movies. The other day, I watched a movie by Bruce Willis “Tears of the sun”. It is a war story located somewhere in Nigeria. While watching the movie, I was actually preparing myself a box of tissue next to me because I was so move by that movie and I cried my heart out. I have been crying for the past 2hours of that movie and my brother thinks I’m crazy because I menangis macam orang gila..LOL~

When it comes to books, ya…hati ini memang kaca. I even cried while reading an ebook okay. Not to mention, books by Nicholas Spark & Cecilia Ahern. I am a book maniac as I can spent hours and hours not to eat once I dapat a good book.

Owhh…I am anak bapak actually. I am very close with my dad. My dad is my best friend. We can actually talk about everything (well almost everything laaa…). Being my dad, he is not the type of bapak yg tend to scold or bising2 or membebel la...He leaves it to my mum untuk membebel or scolding us. But you know la…no one is perfect, eventhough my dad is my idea of a perfect father, but sometimes he can be angry as well. And when he does, he tends to raise his voice. Once he raises his voice to me, saya mesti sentap and I end up crying. I know, people might think that I am anak manja, well I am when it comes to my dad. Hati ini mudah terasa bila my dad marah but bila mama marah, I tend to be deaf pula…Sorry mama~

Kadang-kadang, I feel so tired of crying. I sincerely hope that I have a strong heart so I don’t have to waste my tears. Somehow, I can’t help it. Air mata itu seems so murah. They said, tears itu sgt valuable and one should best keep their tears and not to waste it. I try my best not to cry you know but the more I try, the more I cry.

Perhaps I should just let it flow. Maybe one day I have no more tears left and hati itu sudah keras. LOL~

But, if hati sudah keras I would not be able to feel love and to give love. HOW?
Owh..lupa, if hati itu sudah keras..it means I am dead already.


Peace~


p/s: lately kuat sangat menangis...T_T

Happy 26th

Ya...26...quite a big number kan??yes..I am past quarter of my life. I am blessed to be alive and to be able menghirup udara KL.

Time wait for no man. Tak sangka...now I am already 26 and I have been working for the past 3years. Life feels so short lately.

Alhamdulillah, I am 26 already last week. I ought to be a mother already kan??LOL~

It's okay, 1 day insyaallah...the time will come. For now I would love to be a baby sitter. To those parent yg rasa nak pergi dating with your partner, kindly send your babies to me okay. hee~

Okay 26,

Bebeh...

I wish Bebeh are still with Offshore



I am happy pun without Bebeh..tapi if Bebeh ada lg best so I can share all my misery with her...


Ya, life have indeed change since Bebeh moved to MMC.


My lunch partner dah gone, luckily I have Kak Laili around...Thanks Kak for actually willing to layan my kerenah and me.


Tadi baru dapat lunch with Bebeh..but 2 hours is not enough for us since we have a lot of catching up to do. But I'm content...at least dapat jumpa Bebeh kan....




Tapi kan...rindunya nak breakfast with Bebeh dkt pantry everyday.....




Hope to see you soon bebeh...maybe you kena teman I shopping new heels ok??

p rindu s: Rindu bebeh yg kecil & comel!!Btw,picture were taken on April 2011 before I start wearing hijab ya..TQ

First Love

Who is your first love??Ya, itu adalah soalan cepu emas where I bet most of us are too lazy to answer. Or perhaps we are too lazy to mengimbau kembali kenangan silam. But hey, there are lucky people whom actually end up with their first love right?? Tahniah to those people, you guys are indeed lucky sebab you guys do not have to endure the first cut. Ya, been there..the first cut is always the deepest right..SAKIT??Well…once you hurt, of course lah sakit but I live. Luka di hati, siapa yang tahu??Only me, myself and I jer yg tahu. Tapi luka itu sudah lama sembuh, what’s left is only a scar.

I have taste of my first love when I was 23 years old. Ya, agak lambat but its okay…at last I do know what is love kan?? I always thought that, when I first in love, I would eventually end up with him. But I am not…akhir nya our love dies in vain. Am I still in love with him?? Personally, I am not in love with him but deep down, saya tahu…saya akan always sayang dia sampai mati. WHY?? Because he is the first guy yg mengetuk pintu hati ini. But my percentage of sayang to him is not like the old days la…maybe sayang itu tak sampai 3% kot..LOL~You know…as you grow older, what you love the most is not the person itself but it is all about the memories and history yg you once had with a person.

I am actually inspired to talk about first love due to cerita yg sedang hangat di TV3, “Tentang Dhia”. Nora Danish is one of my favourite actress sebab dia comel dan cantik. Tapi sebenarnya, I am very keen to watch tentang dhia sebab ada Adi Putra. LOL~ Ya, saya sangat suka Adi Putra sebagaimana saya tergila-gilakan Aaron Aziz..hee~But takdelah sampai obsess nak mati la…it is a norm right to like an actor yg menepati ciri-ciri, “tall,dark & handsome” they are so typical manusia handsome. Saya suka…suka tengok mereka.

Actually, saya masih kurang faham. How come someone can actually be too attached with their first love?? I mean, I do understand the love feeling but susah sangat ke to let go your past love??

I always believe and keep telling myself that life goes on and never wait on you. Saya juga percaya dengan setiap yg berlaku dalam hidup kita, pasti ada hikmahnya. I take myself for example, Ya..saya gagal in my first love but that does not stop me to actually giving out my love to the next person to come. Saya always believe, maybe tuhan dah tetapkan yg dia bukan untuk saya, who am I to actually fight with fate?? Perhaps akan ada manusia di luar sana untuk saya kan??By the way, ada orang cakap saya perlu positif, so currently I am being positive on myself..LOL~

If I were Dhia, I won’t simply think twice on deciding whom am I going to spend my life with. Of course lah saya akan pilih Zikir. No, am not talking about kekacakan Zikir, or his ability to afford Dhia. I believe when it comes to marriage one should think beyond love. Maaflah, when it comes to love I am a bit liberal myself. Saya percaya, dalam perkahwinan love sahaja is not enough. To be able to work a marriage we need a lot more than just love. Sebab perlu diingatkan bahawa, love tidak boleh membeli rumah ya anak-anak. Frankly speaking, I do think I can actually enter a marriage without love sebab saya percaya love itu boleh dipupuk. Look at my grandmother, she married my arwah atuk with no love at all. But eventually, they did fall in love and their marriage turn out to be fine as they do complete each other. Such love stories do exist kan…Best nya….hee~

Saya rasa kan, as a woman myself, it is not that hard pun to actually to be in love with an unknown man. Perempuan ini memang complicated but when it comes to heart matter, we are indeed simple. Kami memang easy to fall in love. Hati perempuan ini sangat fragile macam kaca. Kami mudah sayang, mudah benci, dan mudah kasihan. Sebab itu wanita mudah menangis macam saya. Ya, saya seorang yg crybaby!! But don’t get me wrong, hati wanita itu boleh menjadi keras bila ia sering disakiti. Therefore kindly treat us well. Don’t play with our heart yg comel ini. It is hard to mend a broken heart tau sebab you have to collect all the pieces in order to have hati yg comel semula.

The thing is, am not a pro when it comes to heart matter. Sebab itu saya tidak faham apabila seseorang itu can’t let go his/her first love. Pelik tau…sebab it seems easy though for me to actually relinquish him from my heart.

Susah ke nak let go first love?


*saya tidak faham*

Wordless Wednesday

Gadisku - Eika's wedding

"One smile can start friendship , one touch can show love and care, and friends like you girls (gedz) can make a life worth-living."

I miss you "Gedz"

In less than 24hours

"Que sera sera, what ever will be, will be..the future is not up for us to see, Que sera sera"

Yes, by 12'o clock tonight, I will increase my number.

To talk about my feeling??Well, I felt nothing except to feel a bit of sadness to actually leave a quarter of my life.

I did have quite amazing 25years old huh??Ya, I am thankful to be alive. I am thankful to be able to feel love.

Perhaps I am a bit gloomy over my age due to my current state of mind. I blame it on my hormone. You know, women tend to be irrational when it comes to age. LOL~

But hey, life goes on like nobody business. Why am I suppose to gloat over my age when other people are turning 40/50 or perhaps 80 and they are being happy about it. Tidak baik mengeluh kan??

Turning 26 is not the end of the world kan??

Oleh itu, sila chill ya Fatihah..you are going to have a great days onwards...and as always kindly ask your father for a lavish gift!!LOL~

p/s: owhh...looking forward to have a good wednesday!!

Quote

If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on.

-Steve Jobs-

The Saturday

"They said, there are no better days unless you spent it with your loved ones."

I have to agree, I had a great day even though "granite hunting" is not the best thing to do on Saturday. But hey, to be able to spent some quality time with loved ones is precious indeed right?

I am actually craving for books since I have eventually finished all my books. Or perhaps I should be bold and said, I need a new distraction. Distraction from the outside world. Ya, I have turn into this boring person. 2011 definitely change me. Change for good laa...sedikit proud of myself. Finally, I am able to keep my promise on being strong.

I will patiently wait for next year.

My Saturday activity

Jealousy

According to Wikipedia, Jealousy is a second emotion. It is typically refers to the negative thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over an anticipated loss of something that the person values, particularly in reference to a human connection. Jealousy often consists of a combination of presenting emotions such as anger, sadness, resentment and disgust. It is not to be confused with envy. Sebab envy tend to be deeper than jealousy and I bet better be jealous then envy.

Bercakap soal jealousy, it is actually a universal human experience. No one can escape jealousy. You tend to feel it even though you don’t have the intention of feeling it. It is a feeling where you have no controlled of it. Same goes with love. When you are in love, you can’t help it but to keep falling kan?? I know, been there.

To tell you the truth, I don’t mind to keep falling in love everyday for the rest of my life. Because being in love is such a beautiful feeling. I am bless to be able to feel love until now. Yela…we never know, ALLAH might take those feeling away from me. By then, what do I have to give??

Being a human myself, sometimes I can’t help but to feel jealous. Yela, like Mr Wikipedia said when you feel insecure /anxiety over an anticipated loss you tend to get jealous. Bila jealous, you tend to be angry, sad and you definitely akan rasa a bit disgust of yourself. You know, the thought of “why am I supposed to be jealous” is running through your mind rapidly but hey…once you started to get jealous, it is hard to actually to overcome it. Ubat jealous are not available in the market and it will never be. Ubat nya senang sahaja, sila back to basic…INGAT LAH TUHAN, NESCAYA DIA AKAN INGAT ANDA DAN AKAN JAGA HATI ANDA.

Personally, I am not a good person either. Sometimes, hati ini mudah sangat jealous pada manusia lain. Ya, I tend to be jealous to those silly things like, Owhh..how come she has that bag?Ehh…I am much smarter than him how can he beat me??Owhh…how come she looks pretty with that hideous outfit?? Owhh…you don’t deserve him since you are not that pretty…

See….I am bad kan??Ya…I am that kind of person who can’t help but feeling jealous…Jealous yg tidak bertempat. I get jealous when my dad gives more attention to my sister, I get jealous when I saw my ex with his girlfriend. (That is why I delete him in my FB). See…my jealousy level is a bit chronic kan?

I am afraid actually. I am afraid that I can’t control my need of jealousy. What if my jealousy overcomes LOVE??I do have a lot of LOVE to give you know. I hate myself sometimes to actually feel jealous to manusia yg tidak sepatutnya. Maaf ya…sometimes I tend to follow my heart instead of my head.

Perhaps we should use our brain instead of heart. Our heart is full of lust and nafsu itu bring us to hell instead of heaven.

It is not easy to overcome jealousy. I have tried but my efforts dies in vain. Tapi takpe…Usaha itu tangga kejayaan right??

Don’t get jealous, don’t be jealous. Jealousy will eats you alive and all of sudden you have nothing else left except a broken heart.

Cakap itu mudah kan??But it is hard to do so…but hey…at least let us try not to be jealous okay…

Jom!!


p/s: to those people out there, I never meant to get jealous to you guys, I can't help it. I am so sorry if I cause you any harm in any way ya. Maaf from the bottom of my heart~

Random

Rata-rata manusia in Malaysia nowadays majority pun have a blog. Ya, me as well. I love to write as I love to express my thoughts/idea/opinions through writing. Tapi kan…honestly, I don’t share things yg berkaitan dgn hati. Well, I use too but starting this year, I guess when it comes to heart’s matter I better keep it to myself kot instead of sharing it with the world. Maybe I have turn into a very private person. I think laa…because lately I don’t really like to socialize with other manusia. Perhaps it is due to my age kot?? Kenapa lah selalu stress pasal umur…age is just a number right??Chill suda…LOL~

In these past few months, I can actually consider myself as a very active blog walker. I love to read other people thoughts, opinions and etc. What amaze me the most, there are actually bloggers yg masih lagi bersekolah…I do wonder, how come they got time to blog??If I were a parent in near future, jangan haraplah I nak kasi my children ada blog. Owhh..not even a blog, I won’t allowed them to have FB and Twitter as well. During school time, you should be focusing on your studies instead of surfing the net. Seriously, takut bila tengok pelajar sekolah nowadays…they are too open and lack of guidance..no wonder sometimes they tend to be more advance than us yg sudah tua.

The thing with this young bloggers, mereka sangat comel and quite adorable too. Yela…look at their pictures sudah…most of them are super cute and their blog actually portray themselves as the young ones. But there are some young bloggers whom actually much more mature than their age. I have actually read one of the blog where she is just 16 years old..tapi..the way she writes her blog show how mature she is. I do wonder, where she got all the maturity sebab when I was 16years old, I was this girl yg sedang sgt2 tergila2 kan boyband dan cerita jepun instead of menulis blog. LOL~

Personally, I do think seseorang itu tidak perlu menjadi cepat mature. Bukan apa, when you tend to be more matured than your age sometimes you will end up being an adult so fast and you can’t even actually enjoy being kids or teenagers. To tell you the truth, life as a teenager is much more fun than being an adult tau…sebab bila jadi adult, you have lots and lots of responsibilities and you have to think too much sometimes…Penat okay jadi adult!!To young ones out there, sila jangan cepat sangat nak jadi adult, take your time sweethearts….there will be a day when you just realize yg you are already an adult. (Like me)

Sebagai manusia biasa, sometimes I tend to be quite judgmental to other people’s blog. I know, I should not condemn other people’s thoughts right..but I can’t help it. At least I don’t write any comment on it. To me, if I don’t like someone else blog, senang jer…sila tekan (x).

By the way, I am a big fan of blog gadis-gadis cantik. I know, I am a gadis as well but seriously I am sincerely adore them. Blame it on my hormone or my woman instinct, biasa lah…perempuan always love pretty things (including pretty women). Sorry to say, sometimes their entry is not up to my expectation pun but since they are sgt2 beautiful so it is a must for me to visit their blog. LOL~ Kindly bear in mind ya, beautiful itu subjective.

There are blogs yg I really adore where they actually install lots of information/start to discussing any topics/share some ideas or opinions. I love to give my opinions when it comes to those blogs. Bila saya suka blog orang itu, saya sentiasa akan comment on his/her entries..hee~

But sadly to say…sometimes, people don’t really appreciate your opinions. Instead of membalas comment2 itu dgn baik, they tend to be sarcastic about it. I do wonder why??Do I actually touch you pride sampai your ego is tercalar ke? Well, what to do….this is life, tidak semua manusia itu can be nice. Maybe he/she seorang yg panas baran and they can’t really take other people’s opinions or critics. Susah kan??Yela…to me, the purpose of blogging is to share your thoughts and one should be able to accept other people’s opinions or critics but if you can’t accept any criticism, sila private kan blog anda so no one can actually say anything about it.

Saya pernah di kritik and saya pernah private kan blog saya..but eventually, I realized that lagi kita takut dikritik, lagi lah kita rugi because by then you won’t go anywhere..you will always stuck in your own kepompong and you won’t actually venture life. How am I suppose to learn from my mistakes right??One can only learn his/her mistakes when other people point out your mistake. Because kita tidak akan pernah sedar tentang salah kita, we never know about our own flaws right??Salah orang…memang kita selalu nampak..hee~ (I am reminding myself as well)

Lately, I am less judgmental…maybe sebab sekarang dah semakin mature kot..LOL~ Let us keep reminding our self okay…Jangan terlalu cepat menilai orang…sila cermin dulu diri anda.

Peace~

Lecturer – Student Relationship, anything wrong? (Competition ni)

*ehem*

Refer to the above title, personally, I do not find anything wrong with that. I mean when it comes to love, nothing is wrong. It is wrong when you are not being professional with it.

Back in UTM, I have a senior whom actually married to a lecturer. Base on my observation, I see nothing wrong with their relationship. In fact they are very open with it. What I mean by being professional is, one should know where to draw the line. For example in my senior case, she never took any class under her husband. It really shows that she really want to succeed at her own will and to tell you the truth, she made it just fine. Currently she is a PHD holder and also a lecturer in UTM alongside her husband. How amazing she is right? It is not easy to accomplish what she had; one must have a strong will & courage to be able to be that especially when you are a Malaysian. Typical Malaysian minded, people will always think worse of you but whatever it is, it “YOU” that matter. Screw other people. Think what is the best for you.

Therefore, I see no shame if people are in a relationship with their lecturer. All you have to do is to be professional and be prepare to receive any critics. Just bear in mind critics build you up not eating you up.

239words

Tag: Abang Stalker

p/s: 1st time enter competition. TQ

Janda / "Mak Jan"

When it comes to a divorcee woman, most people tend to be skeptical about it. By skeptical what I mean is, they tend to think that divorcee women ni suka tackle someone else husband. Well, I don’t blame them because there are women out there who love to trap someone else husband. I pity those women you know, it really shows that they are actually jobless and try to make a living by find their self a rich husband. Poor them…that is why we as woman should actually support those young women/mothers who lost or divorced with their hubby. What I mean by support is not by sharing your husband. But by giving them some motivational support, by helping them find a job to those yg suri rumah…you know..those kind of thing yg can help them build up their life instead of looking down at them.

In Malaysia especially, most of us women do hate “mak jan” right?? Because they always look pretty and they always look available. Lagipun, it seems dah jadi quite a trend nowadays where people tend to get married at early age and get divorced at early age as well. Yela…those days…it is hard to actually ada janda2 muda ni, but nowadays…janda muda is everywhere and sgt lah available in the market. Even men pun skrg they prefer those janda muda instead of anak2 dara yg available ni kan??Yela…janda muda kan hot stuff skrg…contohnya like Nora Danish, Rozita Che wan…ETC…u name it…they are super gorgeous even janda Akhil Havy pun dah kahwin sengan seorang lelaki muda yg masih bujang…See…Janda sekarang is pretty awesome kan??hee~

I know….people might think that I hate those “mak jan” as well. Personally, I don’t hate them but I don’t prefer them either. To me, being a divorcee is not a choice but what to do…sudah tersurat yg jodoh itu sampai di situ sahaja. As a human, we need to realize that we can’t have it all and no one is perfect. So, one should not simply hate them unless if they proof to be a slut la..Owh…mind my language ya..LOL~

I was actually inspired to talk about this topic since one of my dad’s friend actually divorced his wife and got married with a “mak jan”. My personal opinion on this matter is..Well, it is good that he actually married to her instead of membuat dosa kan.but I do think he is an idiot for actually leaving and divorced his 1st wife. Come on la….how could you actually cast away a woman whom actually bears you 6 children?? How could you simply turn your back to your wife and kids just because of other woman?? How could you??To me, it really shows how selfish, shallow and stupid man you are. Let us face the fact, you are not getting younger, a family is a man’s treasure and you lost it completely. Owhh…I do sound mad kan, well…I am. To me, I am not going to blame the “mak jan” for actually ruin other people marriage even though yes she did have some share to be blame but seriously, I put all the blame on my dad’s friend. Helo…you are a man, the power is always in your hand. You should be a leader and lead your family and now your family is broken. So, who’s to blame??

Therefore, before we put all the blame to all those divorcee women out there, kindly take a good look at your man… ”Tepuk sebelah tangan tak berbunyi kan”. Instead of blaming other women, I pledge all women to actually put yourself in those “mak jan” shoes..how does it felt when people are looking down at you??Don’t simply blame other women on your husband/partner’s mistakes. Kindly open your eyes and judge carefully.

Sekian Terima Kasih~

Wedding Zahiril Adzim & Shera Aiyob

Congratulation to you both!!!

May you have a great Marriage!!

The Wed Couple

my brother & me

p/s: pictures are blurr....

To get it Right

I keep playing this song in my head over n over again..





Dear Beautiful People,


There are times where we try to do something right but somehow it turn out to be wrong. There are times we try to be good but we end up looking bad. I think, the best thing to do is to just to let it happen, the more we want to control things, I guess we will keep messing things up. I am no angel, I am no saint..but I will try my best to get it right. May ALLAH show me the way. May ALLAH guide us all.




AMIN~

From Batam With Love

Batam were great..but not as awesome as Malaysia la..since I am glad to be home...All of sudden I miss to work... even though I would prefer to have holiday for the rest of my life. (Unless I were to be married with anak sultan brunei la)

I eat a lot in Batam though since their government people keep insisting us to eat & eat & eat macam org gila...and personally I am not surprise if my weight is increase. I am happy actually, at least people won't keep saying that I look thin...HELO, am not thin ok...see the LEMAK please....

Luckily I don't get food poisoning since my perut is quite sensitive you know...I tend to get sick pretty easy when it comes to foods. Owhh...don't get me wrong, I love foods..I can't live without them..but perut ini kadang2 tend to be *mengada2*...

What's in BATAM??

To tell you the truth, me have no idea...we done lots of shopping and we only went for a site visit once jer..we went to visit PULAU PENYENGAT. Such a nice pulau where I got the opportunity to perform a solah in the oldest mosque in Batam. After that, it is all about shopping dan shopping dan shopping...Yes, tiba2 I am stress about shopping sbb I need to save some money...*HAIHS* By the way, I did some shopping too..tapi sikit2 suda...Let my mum do all the shopping.

Okay...enjoy some of the pictures yg huduh...

I miss

I miss those days when things are okay in OWS

I wish I could be here long enough to see it's okay

I always hope & pray for it's well being

May ALLAH bless us all

p/s: this picture was taken last year during our "happy" time

Don’t be too friendly with husband orang okay

*ehem*

Terasa?? If you feel offended, you don’t have to read it okay?

Yela…”siapa yg makan cili, dia lah yg rasa pedasnya” because the truth is, I pun terasa dan tersentap juga..LOL~

Betul, am not going to lie…I am being friendly xkira lah if you lelaki bujang ke, lelaki tunangan org ke, suami orang, pakcik orang or atuk orang ke…Well, I just don’t care..I mean, I am being friendly to those who treat me as their friends or colleagues, baru lah 1Malaysia kan?? (I am being sarcastic)

Before this, never in a million years I could actually vision myself to be friendly with suami orang. Betul…the thought of berkawan with suami orang pun never occurred. I always thought that I will act civilized with suami orang and no way I am going to spend my time with them.

But, that was before…things does not work that way because no matter what you do or what field are you into, you still have to work closely with suami orang.

My first encounter with suami orang when I first joined this manufacturing company in Shah Alam. Being me, I am a fresh grad whom knows nothing about working environment. The purpose of working is to get my job done and to be able to satisfy and comply all my boss requirement. Basically, I am working directly under the Factory Director whom happens to be a Japanese guy. I adore him completely, he is the best boss ever even though he don’t really talk too much. The thing is, I like him because he always nice to me and always bring me back some goodies whenever he went back to JAPAN. But hey..wait a minute, No..am not interested in him in any romantic kind a way since he is happily married and he acts like my father sbb tu I suka~ He is the first married man yg I get close with. Back then, I am quite sombong since one cannot be too friendly or too nice while working in a factory since there are men who tend to take advantage on you. Dulu, I don’t even talk to anyone whom I don’t have business with. I only talk to those people yg I have to liaise with. I know, I sound snob kan??Well, I have too since I takut okay….I think sbb itu, I don’t really have any malay friends (ada malay frens tapi sikit) since I lebih prefer spent my lunch with my Chinese colleagues.

Things change when I first joined Offshore Works. By change what I mean is, all of sudden…my environment dikelilingi oleh warga melayu since Offshore Works is a BUMIPUTERA own company. Actually, I am not that awkward pun working here but you know la..when you were surrounded by malay community there will be problem with colonial. Colonial means, mulalah…ada gang2 yg tertentu. The truth is, I don’t really like the idea of ada gang2…sebab we are not in school anymore. We past that age okay..so kenapa perlu ada puak2/gang2??

Lucky me…I don’t belong in any gang but I do close with certain people. Well, I am easy when it comes to making friends. I don’t choose friends..I kawan semua..I am universal. It is hard though to actually close to someone, but naturally…I am becoming close with bebeh…owh…how I miss her, I miss to share our private talks…sampai hati you tinggal kan I bebeh…LOL~

Okay, back to the main topic…here in Offshore Works…I learn a lot especially from those guys yg dah manager level. Seriously, I have no idea on how am I becoming close with them. I don’t know…I was somehow terus click with them and I end up selalu lepak with them after work. It is funny you know..when I never get myself so easily adapt with men especially married men. Tapi secara tiba2 in Offshore Works, I tend to get carried away kot. I do felt guilty though..I mean, yela kan..technically speaking, I do think it is wrong to actually enjoying myself with them…you know la..when you go melepak with suami orang, sometimes they are not just talking about works..sometimes we do share some personal stuffs which I don’t think I should know pun..LOL~

There is a time where I go hang out with the guys after work. At first it was 4 of us..and I was the only female, I okay jer..maybe sebab time tu I rasa diri I cool kot padahal I am the only anak dara. I know, sungguh tidak baik dan tidak sopan kan.. *haihs* Nak dijadikan cerita, we were lepaking sampai nak dekat maghrib..and…masing2 need to go back la…sbb it is near to maghrib, and kindly don’t forget that they have a wife and kids waiting for them kn…Since semua pun nak balik, haruslah I pun nak balik…but suddenly, one of the guy ask me to lepak with him for a while since he ask me to teman kn him habiskan rokok. I was not okay actually since I don’t smoke and the thought of being alone with a married man makes me a bit uncomfortable. Actually the thing that I afraid the most is, what if one of his friends saw me with him and tells his wife? Ya…I am scared okay…because it is wrong and I am at fault. If anything were to happened, the blame is on me as well.

Since then, barulah I realized, one can be friendly with any married men but tahap friendly itu is up for a definition. In my opinion, it is okay to going out with married men when you are in a large group and you are not the only woman. Let us put our self in other wife’s shoes, “How does it felt when your husband are going out with other woman and they claim to be just friend ??” Are we okay with that?? If you ask me, No…I am not okay with it..therefore don’t simply get too attached with someone else husband. Work is work, kindly draw the line.

Just a Friday thoughts to share. Let us always keep reminding each other and let us ponder on each other’s mistakes. I am far from perfect and I have a lot to learn. Kindly advise me ya~

p/s:Nowadays I only lepak and have lunch with wife orang jer tau..*wink*

Wordless Wednesday

Family First

"The Aziz's"

In dwelling, live close to the ground. In thinking, keep to the simple. In conflict, be fair and generous. In governing, don't try to control. In work, do what you enjoy. In family life, be completely present.

- Lao Tzu -

Kisah Ber "Anak"

Alhamdulillah, I am still alive today. One should be thankful to be alive kan..I read a quote today; it says that one should be grateful to be able to see the world today since it is yet another day that we were born. SO TRUE…so what past is past..and what’s done is done…therefore, kindly move forward and make some more history.

Refer to the above title, takut tak??LOL~

By Beranak, what I mean is having a baby…I know, it might sound pelik since yela kan…am not married yet..so why must I blog about having baby kan. Actually, I was inspired to talk about it since baru jer pagi tadi saya telah berkongsi cerita tentang hal2 yg berkaitan dgn wanita ketika melahirkan anak. Okay fine..perhaps it is still too early for me to worrying myself on this kind a thing but in my opinion, nothing it too early when it comes to preparation kan?? I mean, “sediakan kan payung sebelum hujan” kan lebih baik?? *wink*

*ehem*

Being a woman myself, terus terang…I am a kids lovers…I love babies, adore them and I could actually spend hours of time with them…memang saya tahap crazy when it comes to kanak2..tak tahu kenapa..tapi memang saya pantang nampak budak kecil. When I was 13 years old, even my mum are not scared to leave me alone with my youngest sister since I am really good at managing baby. No, am not trying to brag about it, but entahlah…I guess I am a baby magnet kot. I even did a part time job during my UNI semester break at a Nursery near to my house. KENAPA??because I am crazy in love with babies…LOL~

The thought of having babies or pregnant actually does not scare me. What scare me the most is the process of making babies kot…I don’t mean like takut macam the most scariest things to do ke…No…I didn’t mean that, but you know la…saya ni dah biasa tidur sorang2..so the thought of having a bed partner is kind a fun tapi takut..Okay, if you feel confuse kindly PM (private message) me for further explanation..TQ~

Nak dijadikan cerita, today I went to see my lovely kakak downstairs..you know la..saja nak borak2 since I love to chit chat with her since she is just like a kakak that I never had..how I wish I had a sister to share some silly stories...Okay, back to the main topic, we were talking about her experiences during her child birth la. Being me, I am always a curious kind a girl yg kalau boleh memang nak tahu semua perkara dgn detail nya. Being her, she is sangat straight forward dan berterus terang…she starts to cerita lahh..during her first child birth, the pain is sgt2 unbearable…sakitnya, only GOD knows..she said that she lost quite a lot of blood and her birth wound can only heal after 6months of child birth. Errrrr….okay…I am scared..tiba2 cam my whole body rasa ngilu. But lucky her, during her 2nd child birth, things were okay for her..she does not even have to endure the pain but just so you now..she did have some petua for it which I will learn from her eventually .

So happen, one of my colleagues also just got a baby in August. According to her, the pain is super sakit where you will definitely feel like someone actually twist your pinggang and the pain is 20 times painful than the usual period pain. Errrrr…okay..ini memang major tension. I know…am not going to have kids or pregnant in this few months but knowing how painful some people have to endure while bersalin…it does scare me. They said, there are some methods or medicine will be given to make it less painful or make the pain go away but you know la…it’s going to cost you a lot. Like my friend said, she took epidural during her child birth and she does not feel anything except that all she knows is the baby is coming out…Well, good for her because I heard that any medicine given are going to react differently in different body, basically it is all up to your body system. I mean, some say..they can endure the pain with only one jab of epidural but others said, it might takes more than just one . I don’t know…I guess it is all up to ALLAH, org cakap, sesakit mana pun sewaktu anda bersalin, waktu malaikat cabut nyawa nanti lagi sakit…Ya, satu renungan buat saya, I mean..come on la…to be able to become a mother is the best thing ever…I hope I live to experience those feeling. Sakit pun sakitlah….yg penting saya dapat menjadi seorang IBU. Bukan senang nak jadi seorang IBU kan??

Instead of husband hunting, I guess I better be focus on baby hunting la..because suddenly I feel like I can’t wait to have a baby on my own…APEKAH??

p/s: tips to have a baby boy or baby girl pun I dah tahu…akan dipraktikkan bila tiba masa nya..*wink*

Sue's Wedding + cuti-cuti KK

It is a late post on Sue 's wedding..but I still want to blog about it..hee~

Btw, mind you..this is my first ever trip to KK and I had such amazing trip thanks to Sam (illa's hubby) we did have a marvelous getaway....rasa macam nak flashback or turn back time...Holiday memang best kan when you have nothing else to think about except to have fun..but come on la..back to reality..semakin tua, semakin besar responsibility..*sigh*

My Sue gedz got married on 21st October..this is our first time to sue's house and meet all her family. We received such a warm welcome from her family and her childhood friends (they are so sweet & nice)

Lucky me, even though our purpose to KK is to attend Sue's wedding...but we all sempat jugak go sightseeing in KK..it was awesome!!

Let all the pictures do the talking okies

Conclusion nya, we had a marvelous holiday...my big congratulation goes to Sue & Akmal, I wish you both all the best in future undertaking and may you have a bless marriage..AMIN~

next vacation please!!!

On football

Just my 2 cents on football

I watched football last night. I watched 2 champions’ league match last night, which is the man utd vs Otelul Galati and Real Madrid vs Lyon.

Well, you know me….Real Madrid is always di hati…and of course we won the game thanks to the ever gorgeous multi talented Cristiano Ronaldo…I just can’t get enough of him..he played well last nite and most importantly he is not that selfish..he done some amazing cross last nite..what a piece of work…

I don’t know why..but I sort of like inspired to talk about football today..Maybe sebab semalam I overdose Coke kot…*hurmm*

Okay…I want to talk about Man utd game first. Last night game was okay…they played quite well…and what amazing is, the Rooney that we know was not actually play at his usual position as I do think that Ferguson has actually let him to play the role as a centre midfielder. Mind you, he played it very well…tiba2 I rasa macam tgk Paul Scholes yg main pulak…serius tak tipu..But poor him, he does not even has the opportunity to score as you know la…bila dah duduk tengah sumtimes he has to act as the centre defend. I do wonder, bila lah Vidic nak ada??Man Utd defend is a bit fragile last night but thanks to Rooney, he did such a wonderful job at defending as well. Luckily Man Utd won 2 – 0 and qualified to next round..if not, mahu menangis Ferguson kan.

After I had enough with Man Utd game, I watched Real Madrid pulak….As usual, Real Madrid is famous with their beautiful game..Helo, it full with all star player..what’s not to like about their game right?? Last night they played very well..with 55% ball possession and I really like the way they counter attack against Lyon. It seems that they moved accordingly when the ball are moving forward..I think a big round of applause need to be given to Jose Maurinho since he is able to control and manage all his players quite well. You can see that Ronaldo is not that selfish anymore and same goes to Higuain. By the way, it is nice to see that Ozil is played last nite instead of Kaka. It is not that I don’t like Kaka, I do like him as his performance in Real has been improved and I do think I see the same man whom actually won the world best player 2007. Ya…the Kaka that we know and love is back..but sorry lah…I kind a prefer Ozil than Kaka..hee~Owh..not because he is cute and Muslim, but I love the way he play football. Seriously, Ozil is the most unselfish player in Real Madrid tau…Dia tak gila gol like other striker macam Ronaldo, Higuain and Benzema..he is just like other typical German footballer, they won’t stop running and chasing the ball until the end of the game..and his movement is super excellent. I like the way he is pairing with Ronaldo. It’s look like they do have chemistry on field. Owhh..not to forget, Angel Di Maria….such a talented Argentinian…one of the early sign up by Maurinho last year…seriously, Maurinho do have such amazing eyes to see how talented he is..if dia masuk Man Utd pun okay kan??

Tapi kan…I am so upset on Real defend!!Sorry to say…it has not been improved since last season okay…Could someone please tell Real Madrid on how to well defend like Barcelona??Take a look at Barca..their keeper is not that good pun…senang jer nk bolos…but defend dieorang…OMG!!superb…fully organized and I do like when they fully utilize Dani Alves to bring up the ball forward..macam tu lah baru mad genius. But I hate MESSI sbb he made Ronaldo looks bad..LOL~

Okay enough talk about my Real Madrid before someone tend to muntah hijau..hee~

Will update on football later. *wink*

p/s: office is sunyi sepi since most of them cuti raya…SADNESS tade kampung~

Wish List

*ehem*

I bet most of us have our own wish list kan??

Ya, am not going to lie…I do have one..err…no…I have lots actually because my wish list is consist of various aspect..*wink*

See, I know…I am that complicated woman yg do see things in her own weird kind a way kan…I think I am weird + complicated + immature + comot….yes…I am all that….I think most people can’t quite figure me out when they first know me….haha~ But….kindly be inform that I tend to change accordingly with my age..LOL~I might be a different person next year kot??

My wish list is not that grand though…and yes..I do list them out to make sure that I cover all the things that I must do, I must eat, I must have..You know…being a woman, you can’t really blame us for having such a big appetite for life…kindly blame it on our hormone..LOL~

If I were to reveal all my wish list here, I bet I need an assistant to help me out on typing it all out you know…since it is such a long list…*wink*

One thing for sure that have been on my mind since last week is this particular thing that by hook or by crook I have to get it done before I die. I know…it is not good to keep reminding yourself about death right??But, one should always remember that we are not going to be alive forever..Eventhough if I were to be married with Edward Cullen pun..still, he can;’t guarantee that I will be frozen like him for the rest of my life kan??Come on laa…my life is not in Twilight….get real please…LOL~

Actually, I came to realize something last week…yela…as a human being..I have always has this dream to travel the world..how I wish I could actually see Europe with my own eyes instead of goggling their image kan…even when I was just a little girl I have this secret wish (it’s no longer a secret) to tour Europe with my husband to be..hehe~such a kanak-kanak dream kan??yela..those days I never know how much it cost to travel kan..all I know is menghabiskan duet parent ku…LOL~

But it was all in the past….nowadays…I do keep it in my wish list but I don’t give much hope on that anymore..because I do have other “must do” yg lebih priority kan. The truth is, I really hope that I will be able to perform “HAJI” in near future. I don’t know why but out of the blue, the thought of performing rukun Islam yg kelima ni becoming strong since last week…perhaps it is due to the HAJI season. Somehow, I just want to get it done quickly…No, am not going to rush into it since yelakan…my saving in Tabung Haji also is not that much…I can’t even register myself pun and I do have to attend some kursus to make sure I do know all the do & don’ts during Haji.

It ‘s okay…no matter what, I will try my best to actually save up some money to go there in near future. Bukan apa, like my mum said…maybe it is much better if I go and perform my Haji when I am still young. Yelakan…when you are young..you still have that energy to carry out all those ibadat as Haji does require us to have tons of energy. Furthermore, like I mention earlier…we never know what’s future holds for us…so before my time is up on this life, I would really like to complete all my rukun Islam. Macam dalam lagu raihan cakap, “Ingat lima perkara sebelum lima perkara”.

Alhamdulillah…early this year..I have the opportunity to perform my umrah. Frankly speaking, it was such a memorable journey and senang cakap, hati itu lebih tenang ketika di sana. Time umrah dulu, I have experience to perform my tawaf and sai’e. Harap2…in near future..adalah rezeki nak menyempurnakan rukun haji kan..yela…I do want to experience berwukuf di Arafah, melontar di Mina’ dan yg paling penting sekali…to be able to see KAABAH right in front me again….GOD…I really do miss those moments.

For now, I hope and pray to be able to kumpul duet byk2 and nak cepat2 daftar for Haji. Bukan apa, I heard that most of the people yg daftar sekarang pun have to wait until 2040...I said “WHAT???” Hidup lagi ke aku tahun tu wehhh??Oleh kerana I tidak mahu mengambil sebarang risiko, I think I better start to register now…semoga tuhan mempermudahkan segala urusanku~
Amin

p/s: To najib & rosmah yg sedang menunaikan ibadah haji, may you have a bless journey and I do hope anda berdua akan kembali menjadi pemimpin yg lebih adil dan saksama. No corruption please….

November

Time goes by so fast already…I never thought that November would come this fast. Somehow, I guess it seems like yesterday that we just turn into 2011. But now, we are moving towards 2012...Time indeed envy us kn??

Actually, I was a bit sad today…feeling a bit gloomy knowing that we are in November already….How I wish that time can stop..at least for a while for me to ponder upon it…but come on la…life won’t stop on you…it will keep on going even until you die.
November means a lot to me since I was born in November…that is why I do have a reason to be sad this month…LOL~

Okay fine…I hate to admit but I AM GETTING OLD this month……urghhhhh…the thought of it make me sentap…serius…I tak tipu…I know…I should not be upset on increasing my numbers..In fact, I don’t really care about my age actually, but what scare me the most is the thought of being single at my age…..SEDIH okay….

Yela….look at all my close friends…most of them are married and getting married already…while me, well…the truth is..am not searching pun but I am merely waiting…waiting for that particular manusia to muncul and sweep me off my feet….so, ANYONE??

Tapi itu lah….one cannot be sad just because she is getting old and single right??
Like Oprah tweet, “You can have it all, but you can’t have it all at once”….At least I do have a family who support me well and I do have other things in life to be proud with…Takpe la kan…being single are not that bad at all kan??


Okay…stop worrying FATIHAH, let us concentrate our self on making money instead!!!



*evil laugh*

Manusia Kelantanese

Okay….I bet people might think that I am a racist…No, I certainly not…To those who know me…they will tell you how open I am and I don’t “pilih bulu” when it comes to friends..I am universal~

Tapi kan…sorry laa…I just have to blog about this…to those org Kelantan, maaf dipinta if you feel offended in any way…this article mean no harm to anyone tau…..

As a Malaysian, I am proud to be one..owhh..not because of the PM but I’m proud to be born in a country yg kaya dgn budi bahasa dan sopan santun nya…trust me people, if you go anywhere in the world you would know how baik nya org Malaysia tau..We do appreciate people and respect other people…May ALLAH bless Malaysia always~

Frankly speaking laa….I am a KL born citizen…born and raised in KL. Being a town people, it does not mean that I don’t appreciate manusia yg jauh dari bandar…..I adore manusia luar bandar ok…I mean, it is nice to see those people who lived in a place yg jauh dari bandar where the people are so demure and they really don’t bother with harta dunia. It is nice you know if sekali sekala hidup ini when we don’t have to think about money…or harta dunia…but unfortunately for me, my life is all about money..Ya, am not going to lie or being hypocrite…seriously, I love money…and seriously, I can’t picture myself live in a kampung….balik kampung sekali sekala is okay with me but am not going to live there…perhaps when I am much older then maybe my perception is different laa…but for now, I happy to live in KL…I need all the lights & noises..It makes me alive..LOL~

Perhaps I am a bit terlari tajuk….well, I am going to talk about manusia Kelantan eventually…
Actually, the reason why I want to talk about manusia Kelantan is due to my observation on manusia Kelantan itself…and due to my sakit hati with one of them. By the way, kindly be inform that I don’t hate manusia Kelantan tau…sebab, few of my close friends during UTM time pun org Kelantan gak and I have no problems with them because they are cool…I adore COOL people~

One thing yg I do think it is obvious to most people is, manusia Kelantan terlalu bersikap berkelompok. Sorry to say, but dari zaman I masuk matriculation sampai lah ke Universiti...orang Kelantan terlalu suka berada dalam kelompok mereka as if like those yg bukan Kelantan tak layak untuk menjadi kawan mereka..Betul tak??I know, there are those org Kelantan yg boleh jer join org negeri lain kn…but most of them are too passionate with their semangat kenegerian. I don’t know why….I use to ask one of my Kelantan friend, and she said, “we feel much more secure with our click and we are afraid that other people might judge us or misinterpret us by our language”…All I can say is, “Well, people are most likely to judge you when you are actually being judgmental on other people”. Senang cakap, if you respect other people then you will earn respects from other people…there are no questions of other people to mock you…BETUL TAK??

By the way, I came across this beautiful blog la…she is a kelantanese but she claim to be Qelantanese…well, I do think to spell KELANTAN is with “K” not with “Q” right?? She seems like a nice girl, cam baik jer…cam comel jer…yela…they said, most of gadis comel berasal dari KELANTAN kn??
Betul kot….mek klate memang comel2 ..(ini bukan ayat sarcastic). Sadly to say….because of her blog, I need to revise back my opinion on gadis Kelantan, fine…gadis Kelantan are indeed comel2, cantik, putih2….but unfortunately, like most of other people…appearance means nothing when your attitude is menggelabah……I assure you, she should be more herself than to pretend to be like sum1 else…I mean kecomelan itu is up for a definition..you don’t have to pretend to be cute when you end up jadi macam mengada-ada or menggelikan…Come on la gadis-gadis cantik, don’t pretend to be comel..let other people judge you and define you…I take “Fatin Liyana” for example, she is indeed comel and pretty my friend and she don’t have to pretend to be one…

And, what make me sakit hati is when a Kelantan woman who claim to be a saint..ye la…she wears hijab and she always said that as a gadis Kelantan, I don’t do clubbing, hu ha sana sini….I do menjaga tata tertib..you know…those typical ayat yg selalu nya digunakan oleh manusia yg rasa diri mereka baik. Memang betul, if you don’t do all those sort of things..yes..you are someone yg baik, but am I have the right to judge you?? NO…I don’t have the right since I am not a god, so let ALLAH judge you. She hurts me, but am not going to elaborate it much longer since I do think what ever happened between us, I shall keep it between us….But please la….don’t pretend to be a saint when you are not that good yourself…pretend to be a gadis Kelantan yg sweet and nice when you are not…HAHA..I know, I do sound so freaking pissed off kan??Well, of course….LOL~

Enough said I guess, I mean….enough for today..perhaps when I’m in the mood to write about this topic then I will continue myself…sikit2 sudah….ini pun sebab I was ter emotional with one of the org Kelantan..if I were to talk more about it, nanti dah jadi mengutuk la pulak kn…yelah…they said, don’t take things to heart…what ever it is, I feel a bit okay since I dah cakap apa yg I nak cakap…if we do put things into our heart, lama2 you can die heart attack you know…so if you feel offended ke, just put it in writings or perhaps just be bold and cakap jer terus terang dgn orang itu..barulah cool…better cakap depan dari cakap belakang yer adik2…don’t be afraid to speak up~

Okay back to work~

What is your intention??

I am curious...and I have no answer for the above question.

Since the days I started to be actively occupied myself with social networks..I do notice, most women we do received unknown male friend's invitation (means they want to be friend laa..)...and it does make me wonder..why do men whom we don't actually know their existence tend to simply add sum1 like us that you don't even know???WHY INDEED??

Well, I do ask few men on regards this matter and sadly the answers are not up to my expectation...you know...typical male answers.."Owhh..because we just simply want to get to know the woman/girl" why you want to know us??what is your intention??

Am not going to deny that most of people's relationship nowadays are simply begin from a social network (FB/TWITTER/ETC)..I don't see nothing wrong with that but personally, I don't really agree..LOL~Well, call me old fashion...I do believe in normal or a traditional courtship where, a guy should be more gentleman and come to me personally to get to know me....hee~

Obviously, it is imposible...since men nowadays does rely on technology when it comes to courtship...for example like PM (private message) in FB, send email and sms'ing...BETUL TAK??

I do think I should be born during the 18th century and below where people are more traditional and conventional....*major sigh*

Most people claim that I am too choosy or too snob when it comes to guys..they said, that I should take chances on those who try to court me..but....seriously people...how am I suppose to take chances on men who use technology to court me??How am I suppose to know that they are serious and they have noble intention??Lelaki nowadays is macam-macam okay....my dad always told me not to simply trust men...Macam mana??I am afraid to be hurt, to be manipulate and most of all....I need to protect my own heart tau!!

Perhaps I am being too paranoid kan??I admit, I do think too much as I am very good at analysing things...Yes, I am a type of a person who think first before act..so...you know la...too paranoid, too judgemental, too afraid....

But still, anyone...kindly tell me, what is your intention when you add unknown people in social network??

Lelaki Muda

Okay....Enough said....I know...people might be wondering...why am I going to blog about lelaki muda right??Sabar ok...I will explain it in details....

Owhh...by the way, I have been in a long silence since I just got back from KK!!Will be blog about KK in my next post okies....

LELAKI MUDA??

Well, of course I am not that old...I'm going to be 26 next month and according to most of my friends & colleagues...26 IS NOT OLD ya people...FINE...I admit...I am still young eventho yes, I do feel old sometimes.....*stress* (itulah tanda2 manusia tua)

Okay...enough ramblings....back to the main topic please....

Lately, I have been approached by lots of lelaki muda....I know, it is not a sin to be with a much younger guys..even our prophet also have been married to a much older woman "Khadijah".

But....seriously people, I am not ready to commit myself with a younger guy...I mean if a guy is a year younger than me, I am still okay with it...but if he happens to be more than 2 years younger than me, well....I am definitely not okay with it!!

Okay fine, perhaps I am a bit bias....org ckp, if we keep on against it, mayb nanti mmg itulah yg kita dpt kn??Well, if we were to talk about jodoh...seriously...I have no says...I mean, JODOH/PERTEMUAN is in god's hand...I believe in faith as I believe in JODOH...saya hanya mampu berdoa supaya ditemukan dgn lelaki yg mampu menjadi IMAM ku~

Actually, I do have my own views when it comes to lelaki muda....

No, I am not saying that I don't like lelaki muda...I am okay with them..I mean, we can't simply define guys base on their age right??I mean..it is true..most guys lambat menunjukkan their maturity but hey..there are men out there yg mature at their young age..I mean when it comes to maturity, we need to see things in all aspects...life environment, peers, etc...

But, sorry to say..most men in Malaysia..they tend to be lambat sedikit when it comes to maturity...They tend to take things easy and they are not serious..sbb itu I don't really trust those guys below 25years old when they came to me and said, " I really2 liked you.."...I've been there..and look where I end up??ALONE again....LOL~

Am I stress with lelaki muda??Not really...but I am quite frustrated in them....^_~

Tapi....like I said, this is only my humble opinions....I do not mean any harm by blogging this topic ya...

Actually, I am inspired to talk about this since I saw lots of women out there tend to be with someone younger than them...well, it is not a sin and tak salah pun...we always said that love is blind right??So, what the heck??But....for the sake of all women...I hope...all of us should think carefully and choose wisely...manusia in our era..they tend to be deceitful and lelaki nowadays...they will do almost anything for their own benefits...

Be careful Women~

Budget 2012

*ehem*

Bercakap tentang Budget 2012, I bet most people already know the outcomes kan??Wow..our goverment indeed generous...There are no school fees for next year, minumum incerement for gov servant is increase...
WAHHHHH....
baik hati sungguh ya Goverment??( I am being sarcastic here) But, what about us in Private sector huh??What do we earn from 2012 BUDGET??

Let me be bold here, seriously...budget 2012 give nothing back to us who work in private sector.
Correct me if I'm wrong but kindly list out any benefits to us in private sector...ada ke???

Is this a country who called themselves as 1 Malaysia??All I can see here is 1 Goverment or perhaps I should be more straightforward like someone said is this a 1 Pocket Country?? Pocket Sape??LU PK LA SENDIRI....all the moneys always goes to whose pocket??Lagi mau tanya....LOL~

Years by years....all I can see, all the incentives gives more benefits to the police forces/army/teachers/those who works in Putrajaya BUT what about us who works in private sector??WE are those who work our ass off to give the GOVERMENT all the benefits but at the end of the days...we got nothing......Owhh...yes, it is us who paid all the goverment's salaries/penchant...(just so you know)

It is sad you know, to see how shallow people nowadays...goverment tend to take everything from their citizen for their own benefits but still lots of manusia out there still have faith in our goverment. Seriously, I love our country but days by days my trust and faith to our goverment is fading slowly....

Lately, all they do is keep on blaming the opposition and keep on memburukkan the opposition...and not to mention our goverment is critically use all the media to bad mouthing the opposition....come on laaa......we use to slam americans for being too dictator, for being selfish, for being sekular, for being manipulative....well, the thing is....we are no different from them...WE ARE JUST LIKE THE AMERICAN'S.....

Seriously dude, I despise politics....but I do know...in life, politics is a must...I don't know...lately...all I can see is bad politics everywhere....there are no such things as POLITIK ITU BERSIH...it is clear to me that our goverment is indeed corrupted..but hey, who am I to judge??I'm still green in this world...Ya, I do not have a wide knowledge when it comes to politics but I can read and I can see...perhaps my mouth can't say what I want to say...what to do??this is MALAYSIA...if you are against the goverment, then you won't get any priviledge...Yup..as simple as that...

I know, people might say...waaa...how come you are being so bold??You should not condemn the goverment.....Well, I believe in human rights, Malaysia claim to be a democratic country...jadi tak salah kan if I were to have my says??

Anyone who feels offended in any way, maaf ku pinta dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki....If anda tidak berpuas hati, feel free to drop any comments...I am cool to accept any criticsm and to those who knows me, I don't really take matters to heart...CHILL suda....

TAKE CARE RAKYAT MALAYSIA!!

Offshore Works 10 Million Manhours without LTI

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Lately I am a bit lazy to write, so I let all the pictures do all the talking okay...Actually, I do have few draft to be upload but I am too lazy to continue.....

By the way, we had so much fun during the 10 million man hours without LTI event since all employee do give their full supports and we did have our Jamuan Raya with "Kambing Golek" which is memang terbaek!!!

I wish you all the best in future undertaking OFFSHOREWORKS!!

May ALLAH bless us always~

Get It Right

I watched Glee last nite and I found myself relate to this below songs…Ya, I love to relate my feelings to songs…therefore kindly enjoy this below lyrics..It really mean a lot to me…I just want to get it right!!



What have I done? I wish I could run.
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help, hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

Can I start again with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right

So I throw up my fist
Throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth, that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send down a wish
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
Oh my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight.

One day Insyaallah.............

Current obsession - MUAY THAI

I love sport eventho yes, I am an indoor person..I don't really play sport except for swimming. I use to be a good swimmer, now...I do think I can swim but perhaps I am not as good as before...come on laa....I never swim for the past 2-3 years...I guess my muscles are numb now.....
When it comes to sport, I am a big football fan!!Those who know me..they won't be surprise on my knowledge on football as I am not like other typical "women" yg suka bola just because of their looks...To those yg suka bola sbb nk tgk manusia handsome, my suggestion is, go find other sports to entertain yourself...one should really understand a sport to love it okay??

*ehem*

Currently I am obsess with MUAY THAI..I know, this sport is not suitable for women eyes...but somehow, I find myself really into it. Please don't get me wrong...I will never enter or participate in this kind of sport but I tend to enjoy this sport. There is something about this sport that can bring out the beast in man. I know, it may sound cliche but being me, I am an observer...While watching their match I somehow feel that a man can actually potray or bring out all their anger through those fights...It is fun okay, looking at their high kicks, their jabs and their elbow use...Man, how I wish I am a man, then I definitely have reasons to learn MUAY THAI....(and to have a sexy abs like those muay thai fighters) -_-

Actually, this obsession came from both my dad and my brothers..they did influent me to watch it and I tend to love it eventually....I do wonder, is there any woman out there who share the same interest as mine??

To those yg suka layan MUAY THAI or BOXING match, you guys can watch it at AXN - THE CHALLENGER MUAYTHAI....one of the contestant is Malaysian ok....Trust me, you will definitely feel all the adrenaline rush while watching them fights....how I WISH I COULD SEE THEM FIGHT secara langsung!!!



Mohd Faizal Bin Ramli
"Golden Elbow"

Nationality: Malaysian
Age: 21
Birthdate: 24 / 10 / 1989
Height: 177cm
Weight: 69 kg
Fights: 38 Wins: 35 Loss: 0 KO: 0 Draw: 3 Titles: 3

Latest Titles:
•Malaysian WMC Champion
•Winner - Challenger WMC Asian Challenge
•WMC - MAD Champion

Meet our hometown hero from Malaysia, Faizal Bin Ramli, also known as "Golden Elbow". Faizal comes from a relatively less privileged background. He grew up in a remote village with a religious family amongst ten other siblings - giving him all the more reason to put up a good fight for the 100,000 US Dollars!

What might be surprising to some is that Faizal, though a fighter, is actually by nature a peace-loving person. In fact, many would say he doesn't have a bad bone in his body. Why? Faizal dislikes fights without reason and is a gregarious social butterfly who desires a life surrounded by friends and loved ones. He is without a doubt, one of the most endearing characters on the show but in turn, also one of the most naive.

That doesn't mean he's not a force to be reckoned with. Faizal began his path in fighting at the young age of 12 and went on to become a full-time Muaythai fighter when he turned 18. Coming from a religious family, Faizal always prays before a fight and makes it a priority along with hours of tough work and training.

Adding to that, his "train hard and play smart" mentality paid off when he won a gold medal in the Arafura Games in Australia. With powerful elbows, Faizal's fights are always an exciting spectacle to watch as he often causes his opponents to bleed.

Apart from his elbows, Faizal will also be remembered for his charm and for always referring to himself in third person. "Faizal happy" is sure to become a Challenger catchphrase!


Owhh..lupa, the show air on every Thursday at 10pm!!!

Wordless Wednesday

next wedding in KK!!

Kisah HATI

Ya, it has been quite a long time since I talk about heart…my heart to be precise la…No, this is not lagu ALYAH..

Berbicara tentang hati, lately my heart is okay…my heart seems quite okay eventho it is a bit sentap nowadays since most of my close girlfriends are married or going to get married. Ya, I am a bit down when I come to think about it…serious, I tak tipu….

But, still...the thought of being part of their happiness make me happier!! I mean, I love to share other people’s happiness….I love to see other people smile and laugh…that is why, I despise sadness…Because I tend to cry when I saw other people crying…my eyes just can’t take it…like my mum use to said, I am a cry baby…*haihs*

When it comes to LOVE, I guess..I have nothing to talk about or to share…This past few months, my life is lack of love life…I haven’t going out with any guys for quite some time now…

No, I am not giving up on LOVE, but I merely saving myself for the best I guess…or so I think..
Am I feeling bored? Ya, I do but lucky me, I do have lots of other things that keep me company so I am bored when I am alone…so to overcome bored, I need to get busy!!

Some say, I should go on a date but like I said in my previous post, I am less passionate lately and I don’t feel like going out on a date with anyone right now. For now, I leave it to ALLAH, HE knows what’s best for us right…I pray, one day hati ini terbuka laaa……

Well, tentang hati….I found that, I ‘m actually have such a penyakit yg dipanggil penyakit keras hati. Ya, I admit, hati ini sungguh keras…an ego heart perhaps…

Ya, I tend to cry pretty easy but somehow, my heart is keras rupanya….

Actually, there is this incident involving me and my parent last 2 weeks where both of them said that I am not responsible enough when it comes to managing my own finance…WELL, being me of course..I am on denial la kan…excuse me, I do my own budget every month so basically, I am capable on managing my money..But being a parent, of course la they don’t agree with me….okay fine….I give up!! That day, I end up crying and merajuks…I even melancarkan mogok makan..LOL~

Punya la keras betul hati ni…I don’t even bother when they force me to eat ok…but in the end….since my dad keep on pujuk2…finally, I feel okay…SEE..keras kan hati ni, it really make me realizes that I do have such a tough heart…I don’t simply bend to other people..I guess I am such an ego woman kan??

Ya, I hate to admit…but one should be able to accept who she is in order to have a good life right??

Therefore, my current mission is to find a cure of an ego heart…seriously, I need a cure….

Me and my heart, we always have issues kan??

But, I’m with you dear heart…till the day you stop beating…(perghh….macam lirik lagu)

Okay, time envy me as usual...

Chow manusia Beautiful...........