The Choice

In life, we sure encounter a lot of decision making. Sometimes I do wonder do I make the right choice??

Personally, I have done several bad choices this past few years. How am I actually made a decision myself?? To tell you the truth, I go with what I want. You know…those days, I don’t really think much when it comes to a decision. Once it has been made I will definitely stick with it and eventually end up regretting it. LOL~

But hey, what ever happened we have to keep on going…Regrets??I have tons of it but I know I can do nothing about it except to move on and live.

Sometimes I do feel stressed up knowing that I can’t undo any choices I made or any mistakes I’ve made. It feels so stress knowing that a single action from me can actually rewrite my whole life. But I can only imagine it as no one can undo his or her past.

Every single day, we are facing a decision to be made like should I eat in KLCC or should I just skip lunch? Ya, those kind of decision is not that hard to decide. But what if you are facing a question or any matter that you know that it might change your life or it might be a turning point for you?? It is indeed hard to decide right??Like when someone told you that he/she loves you. What is your reaction??What should you do?Should you just accept it or perhaps should you turn it down??

Things get harder when someone actually told you that he/she loves you and so happen you have someone else in your life but at the same time you know that you are also in love with the other person. See, life gets complicated when you are least expected it. If that kind of situation occurs, what should you do??

I know, some say that nothing will get too complicated but hey one should always remember, no one has a nice, smooth journey in life. Sometimes we have to face those kind of challenge, those kind of road, those kind of misery and those kind of life.

No one wants to get complicated. I too choose to live in such a moderate life. I hate when I have to make such a difficult decision. I even hate when my mum ask me to choose between Matriculation program or TESL. I eventually end up doing matriculation to pursue on my dream of becoming a chemist. Ya..I have a chemistry background but I end up doing Quality Management now. Why??Because being a chemist means I have to wear that lab coat of mine for the rest of my life. But still, I heart chemist till the day I die…chemistry is a very interesting subject. If you want to learn about life and people, you better excel in chemistry cause life is a chemistry itself

Not that I am actually facing some difficult moment where I have to choose. I am indeed okay as I don’t have any major issues in my life that need to be taken care of. Owhh,,perhaps there is one major issue, I am still single at 26. LOL~

When it comes to finding me a husband, frankly speaking I am actually off the market. Not that I have someone in my life. I think I want things to happen when I least expected it. You know, when you are so looking forward for it, sometimes you can end up being frustrated when things does not happen as you wanted it. For now, I shall keep myself busy on being single. Ya, I do have a lot of things line up for me to do. Things that you must do when you are single. *wink*

I do get irritated or I feel lonely knowing that most of my girls are going to get married but hey, I have make a choice to be single right??I made those decision not other people so one should stick with their decision right? Those irritation or lonely is a norm..at least I know, I still love to be love.

I guess, when it comes to choices..sometimes we have to make those bad choices not because we want to but we simply have to made it in order to learn more about life. How am I supposed to learn about hurt if I never feel one right??

It’s okay; our choices made us what we are now. I am me because of my choices.

It’s okay if you feel lost because sometimes we need to be lost in order to find our self again.


p/s: Kindly read book by Nicholas Spark "The Choice".

Owhhh...Bola

To those who know me, I guess korang mesti tahu kan..I am an avid fan of football…Ya..I am referring to you guys yg sama-sama lepak with me dekat mamak tgk bola..LOL(Once upon a time ago in UTM)~ Every week I mesti update on EPL and LA LIGA. Ya..I don’t really bother on other league except for champion’s league.

Yesterday, I am very much occupied with football. Mula-mula watched Toyota Cup between Barcelona and Santos. The reason I watched is to make sure that Santos beat Barca. But end up the other way around. Owhh…I simply hate Barca. I know they have such a good team with a wonderful coach but sorry lah..I can’t help it but to hate. Maybe sebab they are so tere or the fact that my Real Madrid can’t even beat them. *stress*

Fine..I admit, Barca is the current best football club in the world. It is so hard to actually beat them. If you were to win over them, it is simply a pure luck or sebab their keeper Valdes itu memang tidak hebat pun. LOL~

I watched Man Utd after that though. Well, QPR certainly not a big club but they played well last night. Unfortunately, luck are on the Man Utd side. Man Utd won with 2 goalS courtesy from Rooney & Carrick. Love the way they played last night. But I do think that Ferdinand shouldn’t be played last night after what happened in Basel. Not that I blame him but the thing is, one should be question on his fitness. Better Vidic than him okay. Tapi tu lah…Vidic is injured and since Man Utd are no longer in the last 16 for Champion’s League, they need to be focus on Europa League. I still can’t believe that they don’t even make it to the last 16. Luckily Real Madrid are still on the run and hopefully they will eventually beat Barca. Sila main bola betul2 ya Abg Ronaldo..LOL~


Okay..enough rambling about football..Schedule Waste tidak siap lagi!!!!

A lot of thing came up accidently. Still have a lot cope with but I manage I guess. In less than 2weeks we are going to celebrate yet a new year to come. Time does envy us kan..It feels like yesterday we just turn into 2011, and now..we are off to start a brand new year again.
Takpe, sila motivated kan diri..we never know what’s future holds for us.

Okay…off topic..

Most of my friends do know that I love to eat and sometimes I do think I live to eat and not eat to live. But hey….I’m still stuck, I just can’t keep growing so I end up becoming short and soon to be fat if I eat macam orang gila…LOL~

My family especially my beloved father does also share the same interest as mine, I guess that is why we are so click. We love to eat and try foods and not to mention that we are not picky when it comes to foods. Barulah Malaysia right??

The truth is, I have always berangan to become a host of “Jalan-jalan Cari Makan”. You know, like I said..I love to eat and I love to try foods that I don’t normally eat. Even my dad said that I can even survive if you send me to Afghanistan cause I am not cerewet when it comes to foods. LOL~

Unfortunately, I don’t have the talent on becoming a host. I think if I were a host, instead of talking about the foods, I end up forgetting about the hosting part and go straight to eat and eat….sebab itu I tak boleh kot…

Yela..since I can’t be a host of “Jalan-jalan Cari Makan” and I can’t eat those foods for free so of course lah I have to earn some money and buat lah jalan-jalan cari makan sendiri.

Lucky me, a beautiful friend of mine pun suka juga makan2 and try foods at different places. So we end up doing this routine monthly dinner where we are going to spend on foods. Basically, we pick those restaurant yang marvelous and have such a great environment. I love fancy restaurant where we felt so cozy and we can eat our heart out and borak-borak dgn lamanya..Ya, we always spent more than 2hours in a restaurant…LOL~ (Let just say, we have a lot of talking to do)

My current favourite restaurant would be Ben’s. I am in love with their deco and their foods as well. Kindly be informed that they have a marvelous dessert!!!Red Velvet mereka are superb!!!

By the way, the other day, me and Nani went to SOULed Out Ampang. Nice deco and nice view as well. (anda akan melihat jalan Ampang yg jam). The food it self is great. Delicious and the price is affordable to me. But I’m afraid that they should improve their menu. Maybe should add some more main dishes that more Malaysian instead of being too western.

Okay, I feel like Gordon Ramsay tiba2 sebab nak critics other people restaurant..So Sorry…But to those yg never been there, you should give it a try to broaden up your views on foods.

Enjoy the pictures naa…







p/s: the last picture is the one taken at Ben's..

Wordless Wednesday : Bon Voyage

Ada orang makan dalam

Chill suda..

May ALLAH give us guidance na....

p/s: Jangan simpan marah dalam hati.

Manja

Some say, I am too manja for my own good.

Maybe I am being pampered too much by my parent. Err..my dad to be precise. Ya, my mum agak garang but still she is the best mum in the world. I can’t imagine a life without her but hey..one must remember setiap yg lahir, pasti akan pergi jua one day. I can’t really imagine myself what am I going to do when the time is come..Hanya tuhan sahaja yg tahu hati ini…*haihs*

Ya, saya memang anak bapak. My dad is my hero and he does pampering me too much sometimes sebab itu bila kena marah with him, I am going to be super sentap.I know…dah tua bangka pun macam ni kan??What to do??Being manja is in my nature I guess.

Personally, I am manja with those I am close with. At home, of course lah manja with parent right, if in office, since I am the youngest in my department..selalunya…they treat me like kanak-kanak ribena. LOL~But I’m cool…I mean..biasalah..being one of the unmarried lady…saya selalu menjadi bahan usikan. Among my girlfriends pula…I can’t be the manja one eventho I am the youngest sebab ada seorang gadis itu dia lagi super manja than me..tapi takpe…I love her and I don’t mind being a sister to her eventho she is older than me…LOL~

By the way, back in UTM..I am close with this group of lelaki. They are lelaki yg a bit older than me. The thing is, I never thought in a million years I could actually close with them. Kenapa?? Sebab mereka agak ganas orang nya dan suka menggunakan bahasa yang kurang sopan. LOL~Bila fikir balik, I guess we were accidently becoming close sbb I use to date one of them and what funny is the person yg I use to date, turn out to be my best buddy and we are still close sampai sekarang eventhough he has a girlfriend already. I do remember, they use to say that, “tihah, no matter what kau akan selalu menjadi adik kiteorang sebab kau perempuan paling manja yg kiteorang pernah jumpa..” See….so sweet kan dieorang, ya..nampak jer ganas with their cigarettes tapi rupa2 nya mereka sangat sweet. That is why they called me “budak kecik” sampai sekarang. Sumpah rindu sama mereka. Nowadays..few of them are married, tapi they always treat me macam dulu2 and suka sangat main kepala saya..yelakan..orang ketot memang selalu dibuli…T_T

How am I going to rid my sikap manja eh??It is not that I hate being manja, but sometimes when you are being too manja, people don’t really take you seriously. Like those clients of mine…I hate being treated like kanak-kanak. I am 26 years old for god sake, so please treat me like one and I am mature enough to figure things out without your interference.

I try to be tegas actually, but it turn out I am being funny instead. Not that I don’t know how to scold people, I do but the way I do things is more subtle. Ya, bila saya marah, I tend to be sarcastic instead of yelling to other people. Saya tidak suka marah orang macam orang gila.

Okay cool…I will try my best on being hard..sila buang sikap manja!!

p/s: Manja dengan diri sendiri takpe kan??

Quotes 2

I need to be motivated

"Never regret. If it’s good, it’s wonderful. If it’s bad, it’s experience."- Victoria Holt

· “They say that there is a smile waiting on the other side of sadness..”
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"Never regret a day in your life, “good day gives you joy while bad day gives you experience”. Both are important for a successful life."

Mama said,

"Jika ALLAH turunkan ujian dan dugaan untuk kita, it means ALLAH itu sayang kita sebab DIA ingat kita. Dugaan itu mendekatkan kita dengan ALLAH."

Wahai Lelaki

Sometimes I do envy those people who don’t have to struggle their self to have or to find the love of their life. The fact is, I don’t even know what the love of my life is or perhaps who is the love of my life. I have been in love but apparently he is not the love of my life. He is just a passerby in my journey of life.

But it makes me sad to see or acknowledge how men nowadays so callously play the game of love. Sometimes I do think they don’t even bother on what love is. Men nowadays are super selfish.

I have been approached by bf org, tunang org, suami org…and for what?? For me to actually be there for them when they are bored with their partners??Is that why those unavailable men seek happiness? In the arm of other women??waa….bagus kan..lelaki are indeed lucky, you guys don’t have to do much to have a woman lay on your feet. It is not that hard pun to make a woman fall for you….sweet talk…and sweet talk some more and a bit of sweet talk lagi…and then surely that woman will die for you.

Ya, women are easy conquest. Man does not have to be as gorgeous as Aaron Aziz to get a woman. It is true you know...Because women nowadays don’t really bother with looks when you have other things to offer. Other thing does not mean money even though it is true that some women do married sebab duit. But one should realize that money is not everything that a woman need, woman need security, faithfulness, responsibility, and the most important one is LOVE which most of men are lack of. I think men are confused when it comes to LOVE or LUST.

I am having a major piss off with those guys yg rasa diri mereka lelaki terhangat di pasaran. You know those type a guy yg already have someone else in their life, someone else yg willing to die for them but yet you guys keep on looking for other women. APAKAH??

Kindly tell me, what is wrong with your partners that make you think that you should have the liberty to fooling around with other women? Which part of “not single” yg you guys don’t understand?? Why do you guys have to flirt around even knowing that you are not available?? Kenapa perlu tamak??

Okay fine, am not going argue on what our AL QURAN taught us. A man can have more than a wife in Islam. Personally, I am not against “bermadu” concept. I agree, nowadays there are lots of women compare to men so one should be able to share their husband. To tell you the truth, if I were to be married with a married man, I would sincerely accept it…kenapa??I believe in jodoh pertemuan dan ajal. If tuhan dah tentukan I have to share a husband, so be it. Perhaps I am pasrah not redha, but hey…life goes on…one should accept his or her destiny. Tapi kalau boleh saya pun tidak mahu berkongsi suami..bukan tamak but I am not willing to hurt other woman feeling by marrying her husband. I have feeling too, I know how it felt to feel threaten and to be jealous. Like I said before, penyakit jealous ini boleh membawa maut. I do pray I won’t have to hurt other woman feeling….Amin~

To men out there, if you are in a relationship, are engaged, and married…kindly think more than twice before you guys go flirt around/approach other women. Our heart is too fragile, a simple gesture from men can always be misinterpreted by us woman. We are simply like that. When a man says “Hi”, our brain think that you are into us even though you only meant it for a simple “Hi”. Kindly clarify things to a woman, don’t be nice to her if you don’t want to marry her. Kindly stay away from us. Don’t play with a woman heart. I am begging you wahai lelaki out there…

p/s: Orang tamak selalu rugi.


Yang Benar,
Gadis marah

Word Wednesday : Spa Mama

*ehem*

My mum is a beautician. She loves being pretty and she loves to be pretty as well. Sebab itu she owns a boutique and several spa.

Me??

Of course I love being pretty, that is the whole point of being a woman okay. To look pretty, be pretty and jaga suami elok2 (One day) LOL~

My mum is an entrepreneur. She loves making money on her own instead of working with other people. That is why, she did encourage me to take lots of courses to sharpen up my knowledge on becoming a business woman like her. The truth is, I am not going to work in Offshore for the rest of my life. I have set my own limit when it comes to work. Currently I do help her in certain aspect of her business. I would love to be a businesswoman but you know la...when you have a day job like me, it is hard to actually have a “me time” except when I sleep.

Sebab itu, I am always busy during weekend since I have to be with my mum and helping her up with her business. I love doing it but sadly to say, I don’t really have any spare time to spend with my girls and friends except after work.

Sorry dear friends, bukan tidak mahu hang outs but 24 hours is definitely not enough for me. Lately, my act of spontaneous are dead because I can’t afford being spontaneous when I have to stick with my schedule. I know, I sound like a busy woman kan??I am busy sebab at home I have to be a “bibik” as well. Tapi takpe, practice for future to come kan…LOL~

By the way, my mum just opened a new spa in PERTAMA COMPLEX. Those who lived in KL I think memang tahu lah kewujudan this shopping complex right??It is next to SOGO. Actually, Pertama Complex is not as awesome as other shopping complex la..since it is an old shopping centre. But the good thing about Pertama Complex is, it’s already established and has its own pengungjung. Just like Sungai Wang or BB Plaza la…

Alhamdulillah, we were just open it on 1st December and so far my mum do have her regular customer. Luckily that Pertama Complex is in the heart of KL, so most of the customers are those who work in KL area.

Unfortunately, for a time being my mum does not have a staff to work there. Therefore, my mum has to be there every single day. Poor mama…and I can only teman her during weekend jer…

My mum actually is the KL & SELANGOR stokis for SHADIRA beauty skin care.
Basically, both me and mama are using this product. Mama actually does not have any problems with her skin except for a few freckles on her cheek. So far, she is indeed in love with this skin care since her freckles pun dah hilang. Of course la mama suka product ni kan..if not, she won’t be a stokis la..

If you ask me, well…personally…saya memang suka sebab I have a quite severe acne problem before this. Dulu, during school time, I have lots of pimples..Pimples itu sering naik dekat pipi yg bulat ini..Those days, I have a low self esteem because I don’t like when people are staring at my pimples. I think I look hideous those days. Nak tengok cermin pun I am afraid…sedih ok..

Tapi Alhamdulillah, since I start using SHADIRA my face turn to be super fine. Senang cakap, I am happy with the outcomes. Now, I am a proud user of SHADIRA. I have been using it for 10 years and insyallah I will keep on using it.

To those yg with any skins problems, you girls should try it too!!Don’t be too skeptical with our local products. Cuba dulu baru tahu!!

If anyone out there has any questions on regards this skin care, kindly drop your email to tihah85@gmail.com. I will be happy to answer and to share my experiences.

And owh…if you and you and you as well have any free time, kindly drop by to my mum new spa in Pertama Complex ya. Nak tahu exact location, you can email or PM me. By the way, spa ini hanya untuk wanita only. No men are allowed except to buy skin care products.

Menangis

I have always wonder, why do actually people crying??I suppose, we do cry because we are sad but people do cry when they are happy as well right?? Is there something to do with hormones??I think yes, especially when it comes to women. You know, women are indeed special right??We are different than men and I am proud to say that we do show emotion and feelings unlike men who tend to disguise their emotion. Well, men and their ego are too complicated.

I am proud to announce that I am a cry baby. Not that I love to cry but my tears actually are not too precious since it can easily came out.

I cry when I watched movies, when I read books, when my dad raises his voice, when I saw other people crying, and etc.

I am not immune when it comes to sad movies. I tend to be moved when I saw sad scenes. Especially if I were to watched Hindi movies like Kabhie Kushi Kabhie Gham, Mohabattein, kuch kuch hota hai, dil hai tun hara, and etc. Every time Shah Rukh cry, I did cry as well. I guess my heart was made by glass kot, because my heart tends to give away every time I saw actors or actress crying in the movies. The other day, I watched a movie by Bruce Willis “Tears of the sun”. It is a war story located somewhere in Nigeria. While watching the movie, I was actually preparing myself a box of tissue next to me because I was so move by that movie and I cried my heart out. I have been crying for the past 2hours of that movie and my brother thinks I’m crazy because I menangis macam orang gila..LOL~

When it comes to books, ya…hati ini memang kaca. I even cried while reading an ebook okay. Not to mention, books by Nicholas Spark & Cecilia Ahern. I am a book maniac as I can spent hours and hours not to eat once I dapat a good book.

Owhh…I am anak bapak actually. I am very close with my dad. My dad is my best friend. We can actually talk about everything (well almost everything laaa…). Being my dad, he is not the type of bapak yg tend to scold or bising2 or membebel la...He leaves it to my mum untuk membebel or scolding us. But you know la…no one is perfect, eventhough my dad is my idea of a perfect father, but sometimes he can be angry as well. And when he does, he tends to raise his voice. Once he raises his voice to me, saya mesti sentap and I end up crying. I know, people might think that I am anak manja, well I am when it comes to my dad. Hati ini mudah terasa bila my dad marah but bila mama marah, I tend to be deaf pula…Sorry mama~

Kadang-kadang, I feel so tired of crying. I sincerely hope that I have a strong heart so I don’t have to waste my tears. Somehow, I can’t help it. Air mata itu seems so murah. They said, tears itu sgt valuable and one should best keep their tears and not to waste it. I try my best not to cry you know but the more I try, the more I cry.

Perhaps I should just let it flow. Maybe one day I have no more tears left and hati itu sudah keras. LOL~

But, if hati sudah keras I would not be able to feel love and to give love. HOW?
Owh..lupa, if hati itu sudah keras..it means I am dead already.


Peace~


p/s: lately kuat sangat menangis...T_T

Happy 26th

Ya...26...quite a big number kan??yes..I am past quarter of my life. I am blessed to be alive and to be able menghirup udara KL.

Time wait for no man. Tak sangka...now I am already 26 and I have been working for the past 3years. Life feels so short lately.

Alhamdulillah, I am 26 already last week. I ought to be a mother already kan??LOL~

It's okay, 1 day insyaallah...the time will come. For now I would love to be a baby sitter. To those parent yg rasa nak pergi dating with your partner, kindly send your babies to me okay. hee~

Okay 26,

Bebeh...

I wish Bebeh are still with Offshore



I am happy pun without Bebeh..tapi if Bebeh ada lg best so I can share all my misery with her...


Ya, life have indeed change since Bebeh moved to MMC.


My lunch partner dah gone, luckily I have Kak Laili around...Thanks Kak for actually willing to layan my kerenah and me.


Tadi baru dapat lunch with Bebeh..but 2 hours is not enough for us since we have a lot of catching up to do. But I'm content...at least dapat jumpa Bebeh kan....




Tapi kan...rindunya nak breakfast with Bebeh dkt pantry everyday.....




Hope to see you soon bebeh...maybe you kena teman I shopping new heels ok??

p rindu s: Rindu bebeh yg kecil & comel!!Btw,picture were taken on April 2011 before I start wearing hijab ya..TQ

First Love

Who is your first love??Ya, itu adalah soalan cepu emas where I bet most of us are too lazy to answer. Or perhaps we are too lazy to mengimbau kembali kenangan silam. But hey, there are lucky people whom actually end up with their first love right?? Tahniah to those people, you guys are indeed lucky sebab you guys do not have to endure the first cut. Ya, been there..the first cut is always the deepest right..SAKIT??Well…once you hurt, of course lah sakit but I live. Luka di hati, siapa yang tahu??Only me, myself and I jer yg tahu. Tapi luka itu sudah lama sembuh, what’s left is only a scar.

I have taste of my first love when I was 23 years old. Ya, agak lambat but its okay…at last I do know what is love kan?? I always thought that, when I first in love, I would eventually end up with him. But I am not…akhir nya our love dies in vain. Am I still in love with him?? Personally, I am not in love with him but deep down, saya tahu…saya akan always sayang dia sampai mati. WHY?? Because he is the first guy yg mengetuk pintu hati ini. But my percentage of sayang to him is not like the old days la…maybe sayang itu tak sampai 3% kot..LOL~You know…as you grow older, what you love the most is not the person itself but it is all about the memories and history yg you once had with a person.

I am actually inspired to talk about first love due to cerita yg sedang hangat di TV3, “Tentang Dhia”. Nora Danish is one of my favourite actress sebab dia comel dan cantik. Tapi sebenarnya, I am very keen to watch tentang dhia sebab ada Adi Putra. LOL~ Ya, saya sangat suka Adi Putra sebagaimana saya tergila-gilakan Aaron Aziz..hee~But takdelah sampai obsess nak mati la…it is a norm right to like an actor yg menepati ciri-ciri, “tall,dark & handsome” they are so typical manusia handsome. Saya suka…suka tengok mereka.

Actually, saya masih kurang faham. How come someone can actually be too attached with their first love?? I mean, I do understand the love feeling but susah sangat ke to let go your past love??

I always believe and keep telling myself that life goes on and never wait on you. Saya juga percaya dengan setiap yg berlaku dalam hidup kita, pasti ada hikmahnya. I take myself for example, Ya..saya gagal in my first love but that does not stop me to actually giving out my love to the next person to come. Saya always believe, maybe tuhan dah tetapkan yg dia bukan untuk saya, who am I to actually fight with fate?? Perhaps akan ada manusia di luar sana untuk saya kan??By the way, ada orang cakap saya perlu positif, so currently I am being positive on myself..LOL~

If I were Dhia, I won’t simply think twice on deciding whom am I going to spend my life with. Of course lah saya akan pilih Zikir. No, am not talking about kekacakan Zikir, or his ability to afford Dhia. I believe when it comes to marriage one should think beyond love. Maaflah, when it comes to love I am a bit liberal myself. Saya percaya, dalam perkahwinan love sahaja is not enough. To be able to work a marriage we need a lot more than just love. Sebab perlu diingatkan bahawa, love tidak boleh membeli rumah ya anak-anak. Frankly speaking, I do think I can actually enter a marriage without love sebab saya percaya love itu boleh dipupuk. Look at my grandmother, she married my arwah atuk with no love at all. But eventually, they did fall in love and their marriage turn out to be fine as they do complete each other. Such love stories do exist kan…Best nya….hee~

Saya rasa kan, as a woman myself, it is not that hard pun to actually to be in love with an unknown man. Perempuan ini memang complicated but when it comes to heart matter, we are indeed simple. Kami memang easy to fall in love. Hati perempuan ini sangat fragile macam kaca. Kami mudah sayang, mudah benci, dan mudah kasihan. Sebab itu wanita mudah menangis macam saya. Ya, saya seorang yg crybaby!! But don’t get me wrong, hati wanita itu boleh menjadi keras bila ia sering disakiti. Therefore kindly treat us well. Don’t play with our heart yg comel ini. It is hard to mend a broken heart tau sebab you have to collect all the pieces in order to have hati yg comel semula.

The thing is, am not a pro when it comes to heart matter. Sebab itu saya tidak faham apabila seseorang itu can’t let go his/her first love. Pelik tau…sebab it seems easy though for me to actually relinquish him from my heart.

Susah ke nak let go first love?


*saya tidak faham*

Wordless Wednesday

Gadisku - Eika's wedding

"One smile can start friendship , one touch can show love and care, and friends like you girls (gedz) can make a life worth-living."

I miss you "Gedz"

In less than 24hours

"Que sera sera, what ever will be, will be..the future is not up for us to see, Que sera sera"

Yes, by 12'o clock tonight, I will increase my number.

To talk about my feeling??Well, I felt nothing except to feel a bit of sadness to actually leave a quarter of my life.

I did have quite amazing 25years old huh??Ya, I am thankful to be alive. I am thankful to be able to feel love.

Perhaps I am a bit gloomy over my age due to my current state of mind. I blame it on my hormone. You know, women tend to be irrational when it comes to age. LOL~

But hey, life goes on like nobody business. Why am I suppose to gloat over my age when other people are turning 40/50 or perhaps 80 and they are being happy about it. Tidak baik mengeluh kan??

Turning 26 is not the end of the world kan??

Oleh itu, sila chill ya Fatihah..you are going to have a great days onwards...and as always kindly ask your father for a lavish gift!!LOL~

p/s: owhh...looking forward to have a good wednesday!!

Quote

If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on.

-Steve Jobs-

The Saturday

"They said, there are no better days unless you spent it with your loved ones."

I have to agree, I had a great day even though "granite hunting" is not the best thing to do on Saturday. But hey, to be able to spent some quality time with loved ones is precious indeed right?

I am actually craving for books since I have eventually finished all my books. Or perhaps I should be bold and said, I need a new distraction. Distraction from the outside world. Ya, I have turn into this boring person. 2011 definitely change me. Change for good laa...sedikit proud of myself. Finally, I am able to keep my promise on being strong.

I will patiently wait for next year.

My Saturday activity

Jealousy

According to Wikipedia, Jealousy is a second emotion. It is typically refers to the negative thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over an anticipated loss of something that the person values, particularly in reference to a human connection. Jealousy often consists of a combination of presenting emotions such as anger, sadness, resentment and disgust. It is not to be confused with envy. Sebab envy tend to be deeper than jealousy and I bet better be jealous then envy.

Bercakap soal jealousy, it is actually a universal human experience. No one can escape jealousy. You tend to feel it even though you don’t have the intention of feeling it. It is a feeling where you have no controlled of it. Same goes with love. When you are in love, you can’t help it but to keep falling kan?? I know, been there.

To tell you the truth, I don’t mind to keep falling in love everyday for the rest of my life. Because being in love is such a beautiful feeling. I am bless to be able to feel love until now. Yela…we never know, ALLAH might take those feeling away from me. By then, what do I have to give??

Being a human myself, sometimes I can’t help but to feel jealous. Yela, like Mr Wikipedia said when you feel insecure /anxiety over an anticipated loss you tend to get jealous. Bila jealous, you tend to be angry, sad and you definitely akan rasa a bit disgust of yourself. You know, the thought of “why am I supposed to be jealous” is running through your mind rapidly but hey…once you started to get jealous, it is hard to actually to overcome it. Ubat jealous are not available in the market and it will never be. Ubat nya senang sahaja, sila back to basic…INGAT LAH TUHAN, NESCAYA DIA AKAN INGAT ANDA DAN AKAN JAGA HATI ANDA.

Personally, I am not a good person either. Sometimes, hati ini mudah sangat jealous pada manusia lain. Ya, I tend to be jealous to those silly things like, Owhh..how come she has that bag?Ehh…I am much smarter than him how can he beat me??Owhh…how come she looks pretty with that hideous outfit?? Owhh…you don’t deserve him since you are not that pretty…

See….I am bad kan??Ya…I am that kind of person who can’t help but feeling jealous…Jealous yg tidak bertempat. I get jealous when my dad gives more attention to my sister, I get jealous when I saw my ex with his girlfriend. (That is why I delete him in my FB). See…my jealousy level is a bit chronic kan?

I am afraid actually. I am afraid that I can’t control my need of jealousy. What if my jealousy overcomes LOVE??I do have a lot of LOVE to give you know. I hate myself sometimes to actually feel jealous to manusia yg tidak sepatutnya. Maaf ya…sometimes I tend to follow my heart instead of my head.

Perhaps we should use our brain instead of heart. Our heart is full of lust and nafsu itu bring us to hell instead of heaven.

It is not easy to overcome jealousy. I have tried but my efforts dies in vain. Tapi takpe…Usaha itu tangga kejayaan right??

Don’t get jealous, don’t be jealous. Jealousy will eats you alive and all of sudden you have nothing else left except a broken heart.

Cakap itu mudah kan??But it is hard to do so…but hey…at least let us try not to be jealous okay…

Jom!!


p/s: to those people out there, I never meant to get jealous to you guys, I can't help it. I am so sorry if I cause you any harm in any way ya. Maaf from the bottom of my heart~

Random

Rata-rata manusia in Malaysia nowadays majority pun have a blog. Ya, me as well. I love to write as I love to express my thoughts/idea/opinions through writing. Tapi kan…honestly, I don’t share things yg berkaitan dgn hati. Well, I use too but starting this year, I guess when it comes to heart’s matter I better keep it to myself kot instead of sharing it with the world. Maybe I have turn into a very private person. I think laa…because lately I don’t really like to socialize with other manusia. Perhaps it is due to my age kot?? Kenapa lah selalu stress pasal umur…age is just a number right??Chill suda…LOL~

In these past few months, I can actually consider myself as a very active blog walker. I love to read other people thoughts, opinions and etc. What amaze me the most, there are actually bloggers yg masih lagi bersekolah…I do wonder, how come they got time to blog??If I were a parent in near future, jangan haraplah I nak kasi my children ada blog. Owhh..not even a blog, I won’t allowed them to have FB and Twitter as well. During school time, you should be focusing on your studies instead of surfing the net. Seriously, takut bila tengok pelajar sekolah nowadays…they are too open and lack of guidance..no wonder sometimes they tend to be more advance than us yg sudah tua.

The thing with this young bloggers, mereka sangat comel and quite adorable too. Yela…look at their pictures sudah…most of them are super cute and their blog actually portray themselves as the young ones. But there are some young bloggers whom actually much more mature than their age. I have actually read one of the blog where she is just 16 years old..tapi..the way she writes her blog show how mature she is. I do wonder, where she got all the maturity sebab when I was 16years old, I was this girl yg sedang sgt2 tergila2 kan boyband dan cerita jepun instead of menulis blog. LOL~

Personally, I do think seseorang itu tidak perlu menjadi cepat mature. Bukan apa, when you tend to be more matured than your age sometimes you will end up being an adult so fast and you can’t even actually enjoy being kids or teenagers. To tell you the truth, life as a teenager is much more fun than being an adult tau…sebab bila jadi adult, you have lots and lots of responsibilities and you have to think too much sometimes…Penat okay jadi adult!!To young ones out there, sila jangan cepat sangat nak jadi adult, take your time sweethearts….there will be a day when you just realize yg you are already an adult. (Like me)

Sebagai manusia biasa, sometimes I tend to be quite judgmental to other people’s blog. I know, I should not condemn other people’s thoughts right..but I can’t help it. At least I don’t write any comment on it. To me, if I don’t like someone else blog, senang jer…sila tekan (x).

By the way, I am a big fan of blog gadis-gadis cantik. I know, I am a gadis as well but seriously I am sincerely adore them. Blame it on my hormone or my woman instinct, biasa lah…perempuan always love pretty things (including pretty women). Sorry to say, sometimes their entry is not up to my expectation pun but since they are sgt2 beautiful so it is a must for me to visit their blog. LOL~ Kindly bear in mind ya, beautiful itu subjective.

There are blogs yg I really adore where they actually install lots of information/start to discussing any topics/share some ideas or opinions. I love to give my opinions when it comes to those blogs. Bila saya suka blog orang itu, saya sentiasa akan comment on his/her entries..hee~

But sadly to say…sometimes, people don’t really appreciate your opinions. Instead of membalas comment2 itu dgn baik, they tend to be sarcastic about it. I do wonder why??Do I actually touch you pride sampai your ego is tercalar ke? Well, what to do….this is life, tidak semua manusia itu can be nice. Maybe he/she seorang yg panas baran and they can’t really take other people’s opinions or critics. Susah kan??Yela…to me, the purpose of blogging is to share your thoughts and one should be able to accept other people’s opinions or critics but if you can’t accept any criticism, sila private kan blog anda so no one can actually say anything about it.

Saya pernah di kritik and saya pernah private kan blog saya..but eventually, I realized that lagi kita takut dikritik, lagi lah kita rugi because by then you won’t go anywhere..you will always stuck in your own kepompong and you won’t actually venture life. How am I suppose to learn from my mistakes right??One can only learn his/her mistakes when other people point out your mistake. Because kita tidak akan pernah sedar tentang salah kita, we never know about our own flaws right??Salah orang…memang kita selalu nampak..hee~ (I am reminding myself as well)

Lately, I am less judgmental…maybe sebab sekarang dah semakin mature kot..LOL~ Let us keep reminding our self okay…Jangan terlalu cepat menilai orang…sila cermin dulu diri anda.

Peace~

Lecturer – Student Relationship, anything wrong? (Competition ni)

*ehem*

Refer to the above title, personally, I do not find anything wrong with that. I mean when it comes to love, nothing is wrong. It is wrong when you are not being professional with it.

Back in UTM, I have a senior whom actually married to a lecturer. Base on my observation, I see nothing wrong with their relationship. In fact they are very open with it. What I mean by being professional is, one should know where to draw the line. For example in my senior case, she never took any class under her husband. It really shows that she really want to succeed at her own will and to tell you the truth, she made it just fine. Currently she is a PHD holder and also a lecturer in UTM alongside her husband. How amazing she is right? It is not easy to accomplish what she had; one must have a strong will & courage to be able to be that especially when you are a Malaysian. Typical Malaysian minded, people will always think worse of you but whatever it is, it “YOU” that matter. Screw other people. Think what is the best for you.

Therefore, I see no shame if people are in a relationship with their lecturer. All you have to do is to be professional and be prepare to receive any critics. Just bear in mind critics build you up not eating you up.

239words

Tag: Abang Stalker

p/s: 1st time enter competition. TQ

Janda / "Mak Jan"

When it comes to a divorcee woman, most people tend to be skeptical about it. By skeptical what I mean is, they tend to think that divorcee women ni suka tackle someone else husband. Well, I don’t blame them because there are women out there who love to trap someone else husband. I pity those women you know, it really shows that they are actually jobless and try to make a living by find their self a rich husband. Poor them…that is why we as woman should actually support those young women/mothers who lost or divorced with their hubby. What I mean by support is not by sharing your husband. But by giving them some motivational support, by helping them find a job to those yg suri rumah…you know..those kind of thing yg can help them build up their life instead of looking down at them.

In Malaysia especially, most of us women do hate “mak jan” right?? Because they always look pretty and they always look available. Lagipun, it seems dah jadi quite a trend nowadays where people tend to get married at early age and get divorced at early age as well. Yela…those days…it is hard to actually ada janda2 muda ni, but nowadays…janda muda is everywhere and sgt lah available in the market. Even men pun skrg they prefer those janda muda instead of anak2 dara yg available ni kan??Yela…janda muda kan hot stuff skrg…contohnya like Nora Danish, Rozita Che wan…ETC…u name it…they are super gorgeous even janda Akhil Havy pun dah kahwin sengan seorang lelaki muda yg masih bujang…See…Janda sekarang is pretty awesome kan??hee~

I know….people might think that I hate those “mak jan” as well. Personally, I don’t hate them but I don’t prefer them either. To me, being a divorcee is not a choice but what to do…sudah tersurat yg jodoh itu sampai di situ sahaja. As a human, we need to realize that we can’t have it all and no one is perfect. So, one should not simply hate them unless if they proof to be a slut la..Owh…mind my language ya..LOL~

I was actually inspired to talk about this topic since one of my dad’s friend actually divorced his wife and got married with a “mak jan”. My personal opinion on this matter is..Well, it is good that he actually married to her instead of membuat dosa kan.but I do think he is an idiot for actually leaving and divorced his 1st wife. Come on la….how could you actually cast away a woman whom actually bears you 6 children?? How could you simply turn your back to your wife and kids just because of other woman?? How could you??To me, it really shows how selfish, shallow and stupid man you are. Let us face the fact, you are not getting younger, a family is a man’s treasure and you lost it completely. Owhh…I do sound mad kan, well…I am. To me, I am not going to blame the “mak jan” for actually ruin other people marriage even though yes she did have some share to be blame but seriously, I put all the blame on my dad’s friend. Helo…you are a man, the power is always in your hand. You should be a leader and lead your family and now your family is broken. So, who’s to blame??

Therefore, before we put all the blame to all those divorcee women out there, kindly take a good look at your man… ”Tepuk sebelah tangan tak berbunyi kan”. Instead of blaming other women, I pledge all women to actually put yourself in those “mak jan” shoes..how does it felt when people are looking down at you??Don’t simply blame other women on your husband/partner’s mistakes. Kindly open your eyes and judge carefully.

Sekian Terima Kasih~

Wedding Zahiril Adzim & Shera Aiyob

Congratulation to you both!!!

May you have a great Marriage!!

The Wed Couple

my brother & me

p/s: pictures are blurr....

To get it Right

I keep playing this song in my head over n over again..





Dear Beautiful People,


There are times where we try to do something right but somehow it turn out to be wrong. There are times we try to be good but we end up looking bad. I think, the best thing to do is to just to let it happen, the more we want to control things, I guess we will keep messing things up. I am no angel, I am no saint..but I will try my best to get it right. May ALLAH show me the way. May ALLAH guide us all.




AMIN~

From Batam With Love

Batam were great..but not as awesome as Malaysia la..since I am glad to be home...All of sudden I miss to work... even though I would prefer to have holiday for the rest of my life. (Unless I were to be married with anak sultan brunei la)

I eat a lot in Batam though since their government people keep insisting us to eat & eat & eat macam org gila...and personally I am not surprise if my weight is increase. I am happy actually, at least people won't keep saying that I look thin...HELO, am not thin ok...see the LEMAK please....

Luckily I don't get food poisoning since my perut is quite sensitive you know...I tend to get sick pretty easy when it comes to foods. Owhh...don't get me wrong, I love foods..I can't live without them..but perut ini kadang2 tend to be *mengada2*...

What's in BATAM??

To tell you the truth, me have no idea...we done lots of shopping and we only went for a site visit once jer..we went to visit PULAU PENYENGAT. Such a nice pulau where I got the opportunity to perform a solah in the oldest mosque in Batam. After that, it is all about shopping dan shopping dan shopping...Yes, tiba2 I am stress about shopping sbb I need to save some money...*HAIHS* By the way, I did some shopping too..tapi sikit2 suda...Let my mum do all the shopping.

Okay...enjoy some of the pictures yg huduh...

I miss

I miss those days when things are okay in OWS

I wish I could be here long enough to see it's okay

I always hope & pray for it's well being

May ALLAH bless us all

p/s: this picture was taken last year during our "happy" time

Don’t be too friendly with husband orang okay

*ehem*

Terasa?? If you feel offended, you don’t have to read it okay?

Yela…”siapa yg makan cili, dia lah yg rasa pedasnya” because the truth is, I pun terasa dan tersentap juga..LOL~

Betul, am not going to lie…I am being friendly xkira lah if you lelaki bujang ke, lelaki tunangan org ke, suami orang, pakcik orang or atuk orang ke…Well, I just don’t care..I mean, I am being friendly to those who treat me as their friends or colleagues, baru lah 1Malaysia kan?? (I am being sarcastic)

Before this, never in a million years I could actually vision myself to be friendly with suami orang. Betul…the thought of berkawan with suami orang pun never occurred. I always thought that I will act civilized with suami orang and no way I am going to spend my time with them.

But, that was before…things does not work that way because no matter what you do or what field are you into, you still have to work closely with suami orang.

My first encounter with suami orang when I first joined this manufacturing company in Shah Alam. Being me, I am a fresh grad whom knows nothing about working environment. The purpose of working is to get my job done and to be able to satisfy and comply all my boss requirement. Basically, I am working directly under the Factory Director whom happens to be a Japanese guy. I adore him completely, he is the best boss ever even though he don’t really talk too much. The thing is, I like him because he always nice to me and always bring me back some goodies whenever he went back to JAPAN. But hey..wait a minute, No..am not interested in him in any romantic kind a way since he is happily married and he acts like my father sbb tu I suka~ He is the first married man yg I get close with. Back then, I am quite sombong since one cannot be too friendly or too nice while working in a factory since there are men who tend to take advantage on you. Dulu, I don’t even talk to anyone whom I don’t have business with. I only talk to those people yg I have to liaise with. I know, I sound snob kan??Well, I have too since I takut okay….I think sbb itu, I don’t really have any malay friends (ada malay frens tapi sikit) since I lebih prefer spent my lunch with my Chinese colleagues.

Things change when I first joined Offshore Works. By change what I mean is, all of sudden…my environment dikelilingi oleh warga melayu since Offshore Works is a BUMIPUTERA own company. Actually, I am not that awkward pun working here but you know la..when you were surrounded by malay community there will be problem with colonial. Colonial means, mulalah…ada gang2 yg tertentu. The truth is, I don’t really like the idea of ada gang2…sebab we are not in school anymore. We past that age okay..so kenapa perlu ada puak2/gang2??

Lucky me…I don’t belong in any gang but I do close with certain people. Well, I am easy when it comes to making friends. I don’t choose friends..I kawan semua..I am universal. It is hard though to actually close to someone, but naturally…I am becoming close with bebeh…owh…how I miss her, I miss to share our private talks…sampai hati you tinggal kan I bebeh…LOL~

Okay, back to the main topic…here in Offshore Works…I learn a lot especially from those guys yg dah manager level. Seriously, I have no idea on how am I becoming close with them. I don’t know…I was somehow terus click with them and I end up selalu lepak with them after work. It is funny you know..when I never get myself so easily adapt with men especially married men. Tapi secara tiba2 in Offshore Works, I tend to get carried away kot. I do felt guilty though..I mean, yela kan..technically speaking, I do think it is wrong to actually enjoying myself with them…you know la..when you go melepak with suami orang, sometimes they are not just talking about works..sometimes we do share some personal stuffs which I don’t think I should know pun..LOL~

There is a time where I go hang out with the guys after work. At first it was 4 of us..and I was the only female, I okay jer..maybe sebab time tu I rasa diri I cool kot padahal I am the only anak dara. I know, sungguh tidak baik dan tidak sopan kan.. *haihs* Nak dijadikan cerita, we were lepaking sampai nak dekat maghrib..and…masing2 need to go back la…sbb it is near to maghrib, and kindly don’t forget that they have a wife and kids waiting for them kn…Since semua pun nak balik, haruslah I pun nak balik…but suddenly, one of the guy ask me to lepak with him for a while since he ask me to teman kn him habiskan rokok. I was not okay actually since I don’t smoke and the thought of being alone with a married man makes me a bit uncomfortable. Actually the thing that I afraid the most is, what if one of his friends saw me with him and tells his wife? Ya…I am scared okay…because it is wrong and I am at fault. If anything were to happened, the blame is on me as well.

Since then, barulah I realized, one can be friendly with any married men but tahap friendly itu is up for a definition. In my opinion, it is okay to going out with married men when you are in a large group and you are not the only woman. Let us put our self in other wife’s shoes, “How does it felt when your husband are going out with other woman and they claim to be just friend ??” Are we okay with that?? If you ask me, No…I am not okay with it..therefore don’t simply get too attached with someone else husband. Work is work, kindly draw the line.

Just a Friday thoughts to share. Let us always keep reminding each other and let us ponder on each other’s mistakes. I am far from perfect and I have a lot to learn. Kindly advise me ya~

p/s:Nowadays I only lepak and have lunch with wife orang jer tau..*wink*

Wordless Wednesday

Family First

"The Aziz's"

In dwelling, live close to the ground. In thinking, keep to the simple. In conflict, be fair and generous. In governing, don't try to control. In work, do what you enjoy. In family life, be completely present.

- Lao Tzu -

Kisah Ber "Anak"

Alhamdulillah, I am still alive today. One should be thankful to be alive kan..I read a quote today; it says that one should be grateful to be able to see the world today since it is yet another day that we were born. SO TRUE…so what past is past..and what’s done is done…therefore, kindly move forward and make some more history.

Refer to the above title, takut tak??LOL~

By Beranak, what I mean is having a baby…I know, it might sound pelik since yela kan…am not married yet..so why must I blog about having baby kan. Actually, I was inspired to talk about it since baru jer pagi tadi saya telah berkongsi cerita tentang hal2 yg berkaitan dgn wanita ketika melahirkan anak. Okay fine..perhaps it is still too early for me to worrying myself on this kind a thing but in my opinion, nothing it too early when it comes to preparation kan?? I mean, “sediakan kan payung sebelum hujan” kan lebih baik?? *wink*

*ehem*

Being a woman myself, terus terang…I am a kids lovers…I love babies, adore them and I could actually spend hours of time with them…memang saya tahap crazy when it comes to kanak2..tak tahu kenapa..tapi memang saya pantang nampak budak kecil. When I was 13 years old, even my mum are not scared to leave me alone with my youngest sister since I am really good at managing baby. No, am not trying to brag about it, but entahlah…I guess I am a baby magnet kot. I even did a part time job during my UNI semester break at a Nursery near to my house. KENAPA??because I am crazy in love with babies…LOL~

The thought of having babies or pregnant actually does not scare me. What scare me the most is the process of making babies kot…I don’t mean like takut macam the most scariest things to do ke…No…I didn’t mean that, but you know la…saya ni dah biasa tidur sorang2..so the thought of having a bed partner is kind a fun tapi takut..Okay, if you feel confuse kindly PM (private message) me for further explanation..TQ~

Nak dijadikan cerita, today I went to see my lovely kakak downstairs..you know la..saja nak borak2 since I love to chit chat with her since she is just like a kakak that I never had..how I wish I had a sister to share some silly stories...Okay, back to the main topic, we were talking about her experiences during her child birth la. Being me, I am always a curious kind a girl yg kalau boleh memang nak tahu semua perkara dgn detail nya. Being her, she is sangat straight forward dan berterus terang…she starts to cerita lahh..during her first child birth, the pain is sgt2 unbearable…sakitnya, only GOD knows..she said that she lost quite a lot of blood and her birth wound can only heal after 6months of child birth. Errrrr….okay…I am scared..tiba2 cam my whole body rasa ngilu. But lucky her, during her 2nd child birth, things were okay for her..she does not even have to endure the pain but just so you now..she did have some petua for it which I will learn from her eventually .

So happen, one of my colleagues also just got a baby in August. According to her, the pain is super sakit where you will definitely feel like someone actually twist your pinggang and the pain is 20 times painful than the usual period pain. Errrrr…okay..ini memang major tension. I know…am not going to have kids or pregnant in this few months but knowing how painful some people have to endure while bersalin…it does scare me. They said, there are some methods or medicine will be given to make it less painful or make the pain go away but you know la…it’s going to cost you a lot. Like my friend said, she took epidural during her child birth and she does not feel anything except that all she knows is the baby is coming out…Well, good for her because I heard that any medicine given are going to react differently in different body, basically it is all up to your body system. I mean, some say..they can endure the pain with only one jab of epidural but others said, it might takes more than just one . I don’t know…I guess it is all up to ALLAH, org cakap, sesakit mana pun sewaktu anda bersalin, waktu malaikat cabut nyawa nanti lagi sakit…Ya, satu renungan buat saya, I mean..come on la…to be able to become a mother is the best thing ever…I hope I live to experience those feeling. Sakit pun sakitlah….yg penting saya dapat menjadi seorang IBU. Bukan senang nak jadi seorang IBU kan??

Instead of husband hunting, I guess I better be focus on baby hunting la..because suddenly I feel like I can’t wait to have a baby on my own…APEKAH??

p/s: tips to have a baby boy or baby girl pun I dah tahu…akan dipraktikkan bila tiba masa nya..*wink*

Sue's Wedding + cuti-cuti KK

It is a late post on Sue 's wedding..but I still want to blog about it..hee~

Btw, mind you..this is my first ever trip to KK and I had such amazing trip thanks to Sam (illa's hubby) we did have a marvelous getaway....rasa macam nak flashback or turn back time...Holiday memang best kan when you have nothing else to think about except to have fun..but come on la..back to reality..semakin tua, semakin besar responsibility..*sigh*

My Sue gedz got married on 21st October..this is our first time to sue's house and meet all her family. We received such a warm welcome from her family and her childhood friends (they are so sweet & nice)

Lucky me, even though our purpose to KK is to attend Sue's wedding...but we all sempat jugak go sightseeing in KK..it was awesome!!

Let all the pictures do the talking okies

Conclusion nya, we had a marvelous holiday...my big congratulation goes to Sue & Akmal, I wish you both all the best in future undertaking and may you have a bless marriage..AMIN~

next vacation please!!!

On football

Just my 2 cents on football

I watched football last night. I watched 2 champions’ league match last night, which is the man utd vs Otelul Galati and Real Madrid vs Lyon.

Well, you know me….Real Madrid is always di hati…and of course we won the game thanks to the ever gorgeous multi talented Cristiano Ronaldo…I just can’t get enough of him..he played well last nite and most importantly he is not that selfish..he done some amazing cross last nite..what a piece of work…

I don’t know why..but I sort of like inspired to talk about football today..Maybe sebab semalam I overdose Coke kot…*hurmm*

Okay…I want to talk about Man utd game first. Last night game was okay…they played quite well…and what amazing is, the Rooney that we know was not actually play at his usual position as I do think that Ferguson has actually let him to play the role as a centre midfielder. Mind you, he played it very well…tiba2 I rasa macam tgk Paul Scholes yg main pulak…serius tak tipu..But poor him, he does not even has the opportunity to score as you know la…bila dah duduk tengah sumtimes he has to act as the centre defend. I do wonder, bila lah Vidic nak ada??Man Utd defend is a bit fragile last night but thanks to Rooney, he did such a wonderful job at defending as well. Luckily Man Utd won 2 – 0 and qualified to next round..if not, mahu menangis Ferguson kan.

After I had enough with Man Utd game, I watched Real Madrid pulak….As usual, Real Madrid is famous with their beautiful game..Helo, it full with all star player..what’s not to like about their game right?? Last night they played very well..with 55% ball possession and I really like the way they counter attack against Lyon. It seems that they moved accordingly when the ball are moving forward..I think a big round of applause need to be given to Jose Maurinho since he is able to control and manage all his players quite well. You can see that Ronaldo is not that selfish anymore and same goes to Higuain. By the way, it is nice to see that Ozil is played last nite instead of Kaka. It is not that I don’t like Kaka, I do like him as his performance in Real has been improved and I do think I see the same man whom actually won the world best player 2007. Ya…the Kaka that we know and love is back..but sorry lah…I kind a prefer Ozil than Kaka..hee~Owh..not because he is cute and Muslim, but I love the way he play football. Seriously, Ozil is the most unselfish player in Real Madrid tau…Dia tak gila gol like other striker macam Ronaldo, Higuain and Benzema..he is just like other typical German footballer, they won’t stop running and chasing the ball until the end of the game..and his movement is super excellent. I like the way he is pairing with Ronaldo. It’s look like they do have chemistry on field. Owhh..not to forget, Angel Di Maria….such a talented Argentinian…one of the early sign up by Maurinho last year…seriously, Maurinho do have such amazing eyes to see how talented he is..if dia masuk Man Utd pun okay kan??

Tapi kan…I am so upset on Real defend!!Sorry to say…it has not been improved since last season okay…Could someone please tell Real Madrid on how to well defend like Barcelona??Take a look at Barca..their keeper is not that good pun…senang jer nk bolos…but defend dieorang…OMG!!superb…fully organized and I do like when they fully utilize Dani Alves to bring up the ball forward..macam tu lah baru mad genius. But I hate MESSI sbb he made Ronaldo looks bad..LOL~

Okay enough talk about my Real Madrid before someone tend to muntah hijau..hee~

Will update on football later. *wink*

p/s: office is sunyi sepi since most of them cuti raya…SADNESS tade kampung~

Wish List

*ehem*

I bet most of us have our own wish list kan??

Ya, am not going to lie…I do have one..err…no…I have lots actually because my wish list is consist of various aspect..*wink*

See, I know…I am that complicated woman yg do see things in her own weird kind a way kan…I think I am weird + complicated + immature + comot….yes…I am all that….I think most people can’t quite figure me out when they first know me….haha~ But….kindly be inform that I tend to change accordingly with my age..LOL~I might be a different person next year kot??

My wish list is not that grand though…and yes..I do list them out to make sure that I cover all the things that I must do, I must eat, I must have..You know…being a woman, you can’t really blame us for having such a big appetite for life…kindly blame it on our hormone..LOL~

If I were to reveal all my wish list here, I bet I need an assistant to help me out on typing it all out you know…since it is such a long list…*wink*

One thing for sure that have been on my mind since last week is this particular thing that by hook or by crook I have to get it done before I die. I know…it is not good to keep reminding yourself about death right??But, one should always remember that we are not going to be alive forever..Eventhough if I were to be married with Edward Cullen pun..still, he can;’t guarantee that I will be frozen like him for the rest of my life kan??Come on laa…my life is not in Twilight….get real please…LOL~

Actually, I came to realize something last week…yela…as a human being..I have always has this dream to travel the world..how I wish I could actually see Europe with my own eyes instead of goggling their image kan…even when I was just a little girl I have this secret wish (it’s no longer a secret) to tour Europe with my husband to be..hehe~such a kanak-kanak dream kan??yela..those days I never know how much it cost to travel kan..all I know is menghabiskan duet parent ku…LOL~

But it was all in the past….nowadays…I do keep it in my wish list but I don’t give much hope on that anymore..because I do have other “must do” yg lebih priority kan. The truth is, I really hope that I will be able to perform “HAJI” in near future. I don’t know why but out of the blue, the thought of performing rukun Islam yg kelima ni becoming strong since last week…perhaps it is due to the HAJI season. Somehow, I just want to get it done quickly…No, am not going to rush into it since yelakan…my saving in Tabung Haji also is not that much…I can’t even register myself pun and I do have to attend some kursus to make sure I do know all the do & don’ts during Haji.

It ‘s okay…no matter what, I will try my best to actually save up some money to go there in near future. Bukan apa, like my mum said…maybe it is much better if I go and perform my Haji when I am still young. Yelakan…when you are young..you still have that energy to carry out all those ibadat as Haji does require us to have tons of energy. Furthermore, like I mention earlier…we never know what’s future holds for us…so before my time is up on this life, I would really like to complete all my rukun Islam. Macam dalam lagu raihan cakap, “Ingat lima perkara sebelum lima perkara”.

Alhamdulillah…early this year..I have the opportunity to perform my umrah. Frankly speaking, it was such a memorable journey and senang cakap, hati itu lebih tenang ketika di sana. Time umrah dulu, I have experience to perform my tawaf and sai’e. Harap2…in near future..adalah rezeki nak menyempurnakan rukun haji kan..yela…I do want to experience berwukuf di Arafah, melontar di Mina’ dan yg paling penting sekali…to be able to see KAABAH right in front me again….GOD…I really do miss those moments.

For now, I hope and pray to be able to kumpul duet byk2 and nak cepat2 daftar for Haji. Bukan apa, I heard that most of the people yg daftar sekarang pun have to wait until 2040...I said “WHAT???” Hidup lagi ke aku tahun tu wehhh??Oleh kerana I tidak mahu mengambil sebarang risiko, I think I better start to register now…semoga tuhan mempermudahkan segala urusanku~
Amin

p/s: To najib & rosmah yg sedang menunaikan ibadah haji, may you have a bless journey and I do hope anda berdua akan kembali menjadi pemimpin yg lebih adil dan saksama. No corruption please….

November

Time goes by so fast already…I never thought that November would come this fast. Somehow, I guess it seems like yesterday that we just turn into 2011. But now, we are moving towards 2012...Time indeed envy us kn??

Actually, I was a bit sad today…feeling a bit gloomy knowing that we are in November already….How I wish that time can stop..at least for a while for me to ponder upon it…but come on la…life won’t stop on you…it will keep on going even until you die.
November means a lot to me since I was born in November…that is why I do have a reason to be sad this month…LOL~

Okay fine…I hate to admit but I AM GETTING OLD this month……urghhhhh…the thought of it make me sentap…serius…I tak tipu…I know…I should not be upset on increasing my numbers..In fact, I don’t really care about my age actually, but what scare me the most is the thought of being single at my age…..SEDIH okay….

Yela….look at all my close friends…most of them are married and getting married already…while me, well…the truth is..am not searching pun but I am merely waiting…waiting for that particular manusia to muncul and sweep me off my feet….so, ANYONE??

Tapi itu lah….one cannot be sad just because she is getting old and single right??
Like Oprah tweet, “You can have it all, but you can’t have it all at once”….At least I do have a family who support me well and I do have other things in life to be proud with…Takpe la kan…being single are not that bad at all kan??


Okay…stop worrying FATIHAH, let us concentrate our self on making money instead!!!



*evil laugh*